559: Childish ghost
I was afraid that I would be shaken and did not dare to stay there longer, so I quickly turned around and left.
Little by little, I'm becoming the kind of person I used to hate, but I know it's not good, and I can't find a reason to stop myself.
For the sake of the world, for the sake of the world?
I don't owe the world, I don't owe the world, I don't have that righteous heart, everything I do is because I selfishly want to protect my family and my lover......
But is this what I want, to lose myself in order to love others, and to lose myself in order to protect my family.
Zhao Suo, what about the training and education you have received since childhood, your selfless heart, and the things that your coach has told you for so many years have all been eaten by dogs?
"Ahh
Without the output and support of the aura, my body lost control and fell straight down.
There was a loud bang, I didn't know where I landed, where I fell, and I didn't care about the huge pain coming from my body, I just crawled there, and I didn't want to get up at all.
Because only in this way can my head feel a little better, and my heart will not feel as uncomfortable as being cut by a knife.
Suddenly a pair of smaller women's feet appeared in front of me, and my shoes were embroidered with osmanthus flowers, and my eyes slowly moved up to the women's feet, and then, I saw a woman holding a rabbit in her arms, looking at me condescendingly.
It's her, am I in the Moon Palace again?
I looked around and saw that it really was.
"Are you alright?" she asked me, trying to crouch down to help me, but I politely refused.
"No, I'm fine. "I struggled to my feet, patted the dust off my body, and puffed out my chest.
No matter how entangled and contradictory I am in my heart, in the eyes of others, I am always a fairy, and I want to have a fairy.
She looked at me with a strange look, "You seem to have fallen from above." ”
I nodded, not denying it, because of the fact that it has been seen, it is pointless to deny it at this time.
"Are you really alright?" she asked me again.
I shook my head and said firmly, I'm fine.
She let out an "oh" and hugged the rabbit as she prepared to leave.
There was a sudden squeeze in my chest, and I coughed uncontrollably.
This is because Reiki is not used properly and is transferred to the lungs, causing squeezing.
She walked up to me and said, "Let's go over there and get some rest." ”
Naturally, she was referring to her dormitory.
I would have been reluctant to go, but now, I had nowhere else to go, and I didn't want to be alone, so it would be nice to have a place to go, so I went with her.
It's still the same gazebo, it's still that place, but it's different from before, the last time she came she sat there alone as if she didn't see me as a person, and she didn't know what to admire again, and the last time, I came with reproach and questioning.
And this time, there's nothing left, I just want to sit here, sit quietly for a while, think about what I really want now, what to do?
She made me a cup of tea, it was osmanthus tea, and it smelled very fragrant, especially good.
"Refreshed. She put the tea in front of me and ran out into the yard to play with the white rabbit.
I leaned my back against the railing, closed my eyes, and tried to sleep, but I couldn't, and my head was stuffed with stuff, which disturbed me.
I opened my eyes and took a sip of osmanthus tea, and in an instant, a fragrance filled my mouth, sweet and delicious.
"It is made with the morning dew from the osmanthus tree, which is sweet and refreshing, and delicious. Her voice drifted slowly, with a hint of excitement.
I put the teacup down, and the smile on her face vanished.
I got up to leave, and she hurriedly stood up, "Are you leaving?"
"Hmm. I replied lightly.
She hurriedly stepped forward, "Why don't you sit down for a while, your face doesn't look good." ”
I looked at her, and on that face, I saw a look that shouldn't have been.
I suddenly realized something, and I couldn't help but shudder.
I reminded her, "Sheng Er is a good boy, I hope you don't hurt him." ”
With that, I departed.
I don't think I'll ever be going there again.
I'm back in the Celestial Realm again, but I don't know where to go in such a big place?
Asgard, how should I face Ji Muqing?
The main hall, where it is empty, is so lonely?
The sea of flowers, forget it, what's the point of watching it alone?
Thinking about it, I had nowhere to go.
Let's go see the Milky Way, where is the quiet, where can I calm down and think about what I should do?
I sat on the riverside, looking at the vast Milky Way as far as the eye could see, and from time to time the cosmic diagram of the stars appeared in my mind, and the images in front of me overlapped, disassembled, overlapped, and disassembled.
Almost, just can't overlap.
I shook my head and shook the jumbled thoughts out of my head.
Forget it, I don't think about anything, I just want to give my brain a good rest.
Probably because I haven't had a good night's sleep for a long time, after sitting for a while, I just feel that my two eyelids are fighting, and I don't want to open them at all.
My head was groggy and I wanted to sleep, but my head was tilted, and instead of falling, I leaned on a petite shoulder.
I subconsciously opened my eyes, and then met Ji Muqing's smiling face.
At that moment, my heart that had been suspended for a long time seemed to have found a harbor to dock into, and I finally felt a sense of solidity.
Ji Muqing smiled and put her arm around my shoulders and said to me, "Sleep, sleep well." ”
Her voice is so gentle, her smiling face is so amiable, and her appearance is so missible......
All of this, like a lullaby, was played in front of a person who was extremely sleepy, and my eyelids finally couldn't hold it anymore, and I gently joined the dragon.
I slept so soundly this night that I didn't even have a dream.
How long did I sleep, how long did Ji Muqing wait for me like this, and how long did she support me.
I slowly opened my eyes, and the exhaustion was gone, but I still didn't want to take my head away.
I always thought I was protecting Ji Muqing and them, but I never thought that the effect of force was mutual, and when I tried to protect them, why didn't they try to protect me?
I have always taken my own selfish thoughts as my opinion, thinking that giving them a safe environment is protection, but I never thought that the protection they gave me was to be by my side all the time, so that I would not be too lonely, too lonely, so that I would not be homeless.
I leaned my head deeply into Ji Muqing's arms, she was like a mother, distressed, and gently stroked my cheek.
"Do you think I won't be able to find you if you run away?" Ji Muqing looked at me and gently rubbed my ear with her hand.
This feeling is really good, really happy.
I grabbed her hand, my nose was sour, "I'm sorry." ”
There are so many implications in this "I'm sorry" that I have too many apologies to tell her, but isn't saying so many things at this time ruining this beautiful scene?
So I chose not to say it, I want to cherish this hard-won peace between us, I want to snuggle up in her arms and watch the stars with her.
If we can't see the sea of flowers, then we will look at the sea of stars, and we can't go to a place where the aura is luxuriant, so we will go to a place where the aura is thin.
As long as there is love, there is a garden everywhere.
There are not too many words, two people who know each other and know each other, there is no need so many words to express this misunderstanding that should not exist, because we know very well in each other's hearts that we have each other in our hearts, and we can be together with a kind of happiness, why use such a precious and peaceful time to say those inconsequential words?
None of that matters, none of them matter, the important thing is that we have to cherish the time in front of us.
If it weren't for the fear that lying down like this would crush Ji Muqing's legs, I really wanted to lie down like this all the time.
I straightened up, hugged Ji Muqing in my arms, and gently kissed her forehead.
This time, she snuggled into my arms, and she hugged my waist tightly, "Don't do this again in the future, okay." ”
I nodded, and the tears slipped down unconsciously, falling into the galaxy, and quickly vanished.
Ji Muqing tightened my building, "Then tell me quickly, what are you doing when you don't go home?"
Her tone is like a coquettish little daughter-in-law, I haven't seen her show this for a long time, it's really cute.
She always likes to be very calm and strong in front of me, in fact, I know that she doesn't want to burden me, she knows that I have taken on too much pressure, and it is already very hard, she wants to be Huang Rong, a woman who can help Guo Jing.
But after all, she is a woman, and there is a cute side to being a woman.
Ji Muqing is a woman who knows very well when to be wise and cute, just like a spring, loose when it should be loose, tight when it should be tight, and a degree of relaxation can ensure the durability of life.
Compared with Ji Muqing, I seem much more naïve, like a naughty child, always making Ji Muqing fuck me endlessly.
I always thought that I was strong enough and strong enough, but in fact, I was very naïve, I was simply a childish ghost, and every time I encountered something, I would come up with those nonsense thoughts, to put it bluntly, this is a kind of escape.
True strength is not external, but internal, inner strength, mental strength.
It's only when your mind is strong enough that you don't get bogged down in those little things, and what I'm trying to do now is to make myself fundamentally strong.