Chu Qingchuan looked at me patiently.

I shook my head and sighed, and the god he was forming in my heart collapsed.

"I don't want to be a good person, be your lover, am I sick or are you sick?" I sneered.

"Do you have any misunderstanding of this word?" he ignored my question.

"Is there some misunderstanding of this word?" I wanted to look up to him, but I didn't feel oppressed by him at this time. [Shoryudo Manga/].

I will stand on the moral high ground and judge him!

He stared at me and asked, "What's your opinion?"

"A lover is someone who is unable to give a formal name or commitment. Now it's called a mistress, a junior, an emotional destroyer, do you understand? If you don't have culture, you can read more books!"

Although I no longer look forward to marriage, or even rejection, I know that deep down I am looking forward to love. This is not a contradiction.

Why did I realize this? Because Chu Qingchuan was right, I lacked love, and he gave me a lot of things that I thought were similar to love.

In other words, it was because of what he did that made me recognize my attitude towards love.

I now understand that many women complain that their boyfriends or husbands always drop the chain at critical moments, and they might as well look for 110.

After all, it's just that he can't descend from the sky, but he doesn't even want to raise his hands, so what's the use of him?

However, Chu Qingchuan and I have not been together for a long time, but I can't deny that every time he appears, he is helping me resolve the crisis and giving me warmth in the cold.

Who doesn't like someone to be nice to themselves!

So, even if he did it for some purpose, at least he was attentive to me, and I couldn't enjoy the good of others for nothing.

But when it comes to repaying the favor, I have my own way, and the choice he threw at me is unacceptable.

Chu Qingchuan has been watching my eyes and expressions, he is really powerful, he can always grasp eighty percent of my thoughts from his demeanor alone.

"Have you seen Duras's Lover?" he asked, leisurely.

"Nope. "I've actually seen it, but this famous remake into a movie is a bit difficult for me to understand.

"Men and women are entangled because they take what they need and satisfy each other to form dependence. And once love is generated, it is a game of spiritual power, and it is usually a woman who loses miserably. He walked into the study, pulled out a box, and I followed him out of the house.

I don't know if he's talking to me about literature or if he's talking to me, and I don't have a chance of winning on this topic, because practice is the only way to know.

I had to hardpull back: "Okay, you may have been abroad for a long time and have no concept of this word." You pay attention, in my country, the junior is despised, don't say anything about love or not, please respect morality first. Monogamy, you understand?"

"I only understand three words in Japanese. He suddenly changed his focus.

"Ya Butterfly?" I blurted out, revealing my shallow language skills.

"ayixidailu" is pronounced lightly and beautifully.

"Aren't these five words?" I said silently.

Even though I like to watch Japanese comics, it's all the kind of fighting and killing, and I don't remember the meaning of this sentence.

"I love you. He said.

I thought he had confessed to me, and I was too scared to say anything, and I was a little overwhelmed.

Translated, these are three words. However, next time we can try to do it in a different language, and your pronunciation is not bad. ”

I've noticed that he's been leaning down lately and whispering in my ear, as if he's afraid I won't hear you.

Why is it off topic?!

I chased him downstairs and asked him if he had a favorite sentence when he watched Lover.

He paused, thought for a moment, and said, "If there were no pain, then everything would be forgotten." Then he asked me again.

He said he loved her to death. After I answered, I realized that I had slipped out. He asked so naturally, as if he was sure I had seen it.

"Very good, it shows that you still believe in love and have a girl's heart. "There was wind under his feet, and I chased after him.

"That's why I won't be your lover!" I made my closing remarks mainly to catch up with him.

He stopped suddenly, and killed me by surprise.

"Then let me tell you, in my consciousness, lover is a more amorous word than lover and lover, carrying more connotations, not what you think.

And I'm unmarried, the engagement ceremony ended in dog blood, and I'm technically single. According to your understanding, with the current relationship, I should be your lover. "He did it almost in one go.

I feel like my brain capacity is suddenly not enough.

He stopped in front of me, as if waiting for me to turn the corner.

"Bemylover," he said, probably thinking that there would be no ambiguity in English.

Did I misunderstand him, or did he make me lose the debate?

"And are you still going to marry her?" I asked subconsciously.

"Do you mind?" he asked immediately.

Of course I do!

But I resisted the answer that I almost blurted out, because I felt that he was insulting me.

Do you need to ask?!

He stepped forward, crossed a safe distance, looked down at me and said, "Answer me, I want to hear it." ”

To be honest, my understanding of men is very shallow, and because of Chu Jingnan's scum, I always see them as beasts who think with their lower bodies.

The appearance of Chu Qingchuan has changed my thinking a little, but we also started from that kind of thing, so we can't fundamentally change my thinking.

I didn't know at the time that men would also want to be affirmed. Women need security, and they want it occasionally.

Perhaps because I've just discussed a serious view of literature and love, I'm tempted to answer this question properly.

"Do you mind if you marry her? I'm not sure I have the qualifications. But what I can tell you is that I was sad to see you kissing her.

And you know, the scariest thing is that I find myself not in a position to be sad. "When I said this, I must have been moved with true feelings, because my heart welled up with sourness.

It felt like the tide crashing on the beach.

He must have been frightened by my hypocritical answer, and he didn't react all the time.

After all, I rarely speak so deeply.

I laughed awkwardly twice and changed the subject: "You said that when I arrived at the company in the afternoon, would my colleagues regard me as a female enemy?"

Chu Qingchuan directly replied that I wouldn't, because he arranged for Ouyang to help me ask for sick leave, which was an online leave application process with my employee account.

"That means I won't be found sleeping with King Arthur?ah, what a pity. I laughed and said, knowing that Ouyang was his chief secretary, and his mouth was very strict.

"How did you get your English name?" he said, holding me by the shoulders and leading me to the garage.

Ever since I finished pretending, his eyes have been looking into the distance.

I stuck out my tongue: "Against you, hahahaha." ”

"We'll see. At some point, his hand slipped under my armpit and sneaked up on me.

As soon as I walked into the garage, I heard the door come down with a bang, and I was about to run out, but I was pulled by Chu Qingchuan and rubbed into his arms.

"You're entitled to be sad, and I've changed my mind. He seemed to be responding to my previous words that had ended without a problem,

But I couldn't feel the light, and I realized that I was in an enclosed space, so I could only close my eyes tightly and wrap my arms around his waist with all my might.

I didn't have the heart to listen to him.

I have claustrophobia, not by birth.

But I don't remember the cause of the disease.

I begged him to turn on the light with a crying voice, but he laughed and told me not to pretend, saying that I was not so timid.

No one who has ever experienced it will understand such despair, and although the garage is not small, I already know that it is closed, and the bigger it is, the more it inspires my fear.

Because I'm not sure where a devil or a monster will come out, or someone more terrible than a ghost.

He finally sensed something was wrong with me, my strength was terrifying, he slapped me on the cheek and shook my head like crazy no matter how much he comforted me.

"Let me turn on the lights, the sound may be out of power. "He wanted to take a step, but I was like a drowning man who grabbed the rescuer and entangled him to death.

He put his hands on my cheeks and forced me to look at him, but I couldn't see clearly, and I fainted screaming when I felt his lips touch me.

When I woke up, he told me that he wanted to kiss me to calm me down, but he didn't expect to scare me out.

"I'm sorry. "I saw him change into his lounge clothes and lean over to fetch me water, revealing a bruise on his waist, and I knew it was my masterpiece and apologized to him.

He lifted me up and fed me water, and I took the initiative to take the cup and hold it in my hand, the water shaking gently.

"Psychological?" he asked.

"Claustrophobia. "I didn't dare to look at him, I didn't expect that I deliberately avoided it, I hadn't been sick for many years, but I was so embarrassed in front of him.

"What has been through?" he pinched my face.

"I don't remember, I can't remember. I shook my head slightly.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have been pranked. "He offered to apologize to me.

"Don't do that anymore, okay? I'm going to die. "I have palpitations.

"Good. He took me into his arms and pressed his chin against the top of my head.

"Cheng Jiaoyang. He called me softly.

"Huh?" I was looking for my missing six gods, and I replied absent-mindedly.

"Are you hungry?" he asked.

"Chu Qingchuan, do you have any humanity!" I subconsciously thought crookedly.

But he looked innocently at me and said, "It's all a little, are you really not hungry?"

"Hungry. "When I made such a fuss, my attention was taken back.

"Then go down and eat. "He lifted the covers and picked me up, and I found myself wearing the same style of loungewear as his.

It should not be a couple's outfit, or a simple t-shirt and elastic pants, the cotton floor is very comfortable, he wears white, and I am pink.

I wanted to ask him more and more "Did you like me?" but each time I tried to hold back for fear of hearing a disappointing answer.

Besides, didn't he answer me before, he only cared about me out of his childhood friend.

Although I already feel that I have exceeded the rules, I am still afraid of losing after picking out.

After all, ambiguity is the most beautiful process, you guess my mind, I think you intend to, test each other, advance and retreat to a certain extent, and the person who falls into it first is the most bitter.

"Chu Qingchuan, I'll give you an answer when I take care of my own affairs. Is that okay?" I remembered what he had asked for.

"Then you have to hurry, the queue is very long, you have to cherish the priority I give you. He said arrogantly.

"Huh. I smiled and pecked him on the cheek.

He is such a smart man, of course, he understands what I say, in fact, even if he agrees, but he respects my ideas.

"As for whether you want to make it public or not, you decide. "He put me on the dining chair and I saw that the food was covered and kept warm.

"Of course not. "I knew he respected my opinion, and just by looking at the way he gave me leave, I guessed that he understood my mind.

"Eat, I'll do it. "He opened the hood, and I saw boiled shrimp, lettuce, scrambled eggs with tomatoes, and white porridge.

"It's so vegetarian. I shook my head with emotion and said, "I'll show you another day." ”

"Good. "He peeled the shrimp for me and put it in my bowl.

The sunlight happened to be pouring in through the glass window behind him, and I realized that the window was the endless sea, and the scenery was beautiful.

"I haven't felt home in a long time. "I took a bite of rice and chatted like I did with my grandfather.

His hand peeling shrimp paused, then raised his index finger and tapped it at his lips.

I looked at him suspiciously, wiped my mouth, thinking something dirty.

But he smiled: "You are here, I have softened you." ”

The sun poured into my eyes, and his face was shrouded in the warm sun.

"You really know how to tease girls, and you will definitely recruit peach blossoms when you are young. "I regarded him as a good friend of the opposite sex at this time, and I said whatever came to mind.

"When you were young?" he was rather dissatisfied: "There are more peach blossoms now, and the overall quality has declined." ”

"Oh, what's that?" I leaned forward, holding my chopsticks, showing great interest.

"Because the purpose of contact has become richer. "He doesn't hide it either.

I thoughtfully and it is.

"So your first love was in elementary school?" I asked, half-jokingly.

He was really sharp, leaned directly back in the chair and looked at me and replied, "Kindergarten." ”

“……”

I was speechless, and I really wanted to take his words, but I could only see if he was willing to say it. changed the topic without giving up: "You have a good relationship with Jiang Haocheng, do you have a story?"

"Any wine?" he said, grabbing his glass and taking a sip of water.

"Let's talk about it, I'm idle anyway. "I just finished my bowl and sat cross-legged in my chair.

He looked at my sitting position with a little disgust: "Sitting like this, my legs are not straight." ”

I snapped my right leg out, put it on the dining table, kicked it straight, slapped the table and told him, "Do you know what it means to play with legs? You manage so much, and the children's fathers don't manage as much as you." ”

"I don't mind giving you fatherly love. He said inch by inch.

"Get out!" I was instantly outbursting.

Regarding the topic of father, I am not very sensitive, after all, I have no impression of my biological father, and my father does not love my mother to grow up so much, and I have long been used to it.

As we snuggled up on the couch after dinner, he told me that he and Jiang Haocheng had met in the United States.

At that time, Jiang Haocheng was studying abroad, and he worked in a bar at night and had a quarrel with someone, and he heard Jiang Haocheng's classic national scolding, so he went up to help without saying a word.

But the other party is a black man on the street, although he has a fighting foundation in both, he still chooses a good man not to suffer immediate losses.

Later, they tangled up a group of compatriots and beat up the gang.

"With such a big family business as the Jiang family, does he still need to work?" I heard something wrong.

"Do you think the aura of the children of a wealthy family is so natural?" he asked me rhetorically.

However, I can always find the answer in his rhetorical question.

"It seems that you really don't deserve to be a serious soldier, you know how to run if you can't beat it. "I'd like to use the agitated Fado to get some information about him.

Unprovoked, he turned to me and asked, "You've been testing my past." Are you in love with me?"

I cut and turned to look at the abstract paintings on the walls.

Suddenly, I felt something furry burrow into my shirt, and then there was a tingle, and I couldn't help but want to curl up.

"It's rare to be so well-behaved today and have time, let's come a few more times. ”

He held my hand and watched as I was not very skilled at safety measures, and his breathing stalled for a moment.

What a day of desolation.

Chu Qingchuan came in with the small box I was given when I went out at noon, and I lay on the pillow and didn't even want to move.

He opened it and I saw a cell phone.

"I was going to give it to you in the car, but who knew you were back. He said with disgust, I know he did it on purpose.

"Are you a prophet?" I asked him.

"On holidays, our partners give gifts. There are still a lot of unpacked things in the study, if you are interested, you can go and play with them. Silver, do you like it?" he said, playing with his phone in his hand.

"Loved it, thank you. "I thought it would be a waste to put it here for him, so I just helped him use the waste.

He took it from my hand again, then found his own phone and tinkered with it for a while.

"The video is in it, go talk to him as soon as possible. If there is anything you need help with, call me. He said.

Actually, I had made a decision to myself, but I didn't want to tell him.

"I really have something I want you to help me with. I said with a pleading attitude.