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In the middle of summer that year, you decided to leave, leaving me alone in the world.

Every cold autumn day, I miss you even more. This autumn gloom made me even more lonely and lonely.

Every day my aunt visits, my mood is infinitely low. When Yang Qi is insufficient, I can see you every time, and see the real you. You must not be able to let me go alone in this world, right?

When all my efforts are to no avail and I can't do anything, I can only choose to be strong and strengthen my heart to face the days without you. But no one knows the helplessness in my heart, the kind of helplessness that destroys the heart! Is there anything more cruel in the world? Even if you take out every cell and put it to dry in the sun, you still corrupt all your thoughts and have no hope.

When I didn't even have the qualifications to get sick, when I didn't even have the opportunity to give up on myself, I could only choose to be an infallible giant and carry my own life and this life that was full of holes and could no longer be called life.

When Mr. Ba learned that I was writing, he was very encouraged, and I naturally understood his earnest teachings and good intentions, and he was also building a belief for me to find my life and find my life's focus. I'm so grateful! When my child grows up, I may follow him and start a real practice.

Originally, I wanted to find someone to accompany me for the rest of my life, but it didn't seem to be an easy task. Let it be. Mr. Ba said that I should know how to grasp the fate of coming, and he also encouraged me to start a new life and form a new life, but at such an age and in such a society, it is difficult!

The child is still growing up healthily, everything is fine, but it is not very laborious, and it is as heartless as before, I think it is okay, the mind is lighter, and I am not so tired. The grades are also okay, you said not to force the child too much, I will treat her leniently, let her grow up easily, and support herself. There's no need to be nervous or stressed all your life.

Recently, I started practicing calligraphy again and learned the guzheng. When I met you, you were also practicing calligraphy, and I really didn't dare to compare my handwriting with you, but I believe that I would practice it well, what do you say? Didn't you say that I was very smart? (*^__^*)Hehe......

I have been learning Guzheng for two weeks, and it is not difficult to get started, and I feel that I can play it well. So I bought a mahogany zither for a few thousand yuan. Yesterday I had patiently completed the tuning work, and I was very good, right? The tone was much better than the teacher's practice. I also like the look very much. I always like those antique-like things, maybe I was born in a big family in the last life?

I have to slowly adapt to the days without you, to make my life more content, and to slowly adapt to the days when my children grow up and are not around, and get used to the days of being alone.

You know I don't like the hustle and bustle, I don't go to KTV singing, I don't go to nightclubs to get drunk, I don't go to coffee shops, I don't go to teahouses, I just like to read books and write quietly, or go out to nature to appreciate the beauty of nature and tranquility.

At that time, I had you with me. With you holding my hand and taking me to the places I like, our plans to travel around the country before our children graduate from primary school and to visit Europe before graduating from junior high school have all come to naught because of your departure, and they have become promises that you will never be able to keep. The child often talked about this plan, which made me sad and speechless.

Nowadays, as my children grow up and fly away, I have to prepare early, adapt to my life, do something I like, and fill up a lot of time and space to come out.

Unconsciously practicing calligraphy, an hour passed. An hour or two of playing the piano also passed quickly.

I also bought a few original English books to read, and it turned out that those books were all left with your parents, and I didn't want to go back and get them. I don't want to see them, I can't be filial to you, please forgive me, my heart really can't stand it, I really can't do it without your care and then wronged myself.

The book is still readable, and the original foundation seems to be still there, and after a period of time, it is estimated that there is no problem picking it up. It's just that these days I focus on the piano and calligraphy, and I read less books.

After arranging it this way, I feel that there is not enough time.

Last night, I saw your face clearly, that is, in a dream, I knew that you were gone, I was just dreaming, and you must know the sadness and pain.

You're drifting away, and you're not coming back to see me, and it's time for you to go your own way.

Alas, lovesickness!

Autumn is cool, remember to add clothes.

Take good care of yourself in the days without me.