Comrade Jia Yuhao:

Last night Doudou went to the same school, I was bored and watched TV until 11:30, went to bed, forced myself to fall asleep, and fell asleep very quietly. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

I dreamed of what I was doing with you by the river, and you said to me, "I have been with you for 40 years, and I will be with you for 40 years!" I woke up and said, "Why have you been with me for 40 years?" You haven't appeared in my childhood, and besides, I'm not yet 40 years old! You probably want me to stay up in this lonely world without you for another 40 years? What kind of torture this is for me!

I remember the future you gave me: you said you were going to buy me a house with a garden, and a small plane, where we could grow flowers and vegetables, and fly freely in the blue sky and white clouds! I didn't really expect it to become a reality! Even though I knew it was entirely possible!

I just want to go home every day and see your smiling face, and stay with each other quietly every day! After eating, you go to wash the dishes and rub the oil in your mouth on your face! Lean your tired body on your chest! Feel your arms hug tightly! When I am happy, I pull you to hit the wall with Doudou and listen to your hearty laughter! Listen to your nagging, your thinking, your troubles, your eagerness, your achievements!

I remember the first time you took me home and I went to pull pigweed, we sat at the foot of the western mountain, I put a few little yellow flowers in your shirt pocket, and you saw you in your diary when you started school.

I still remember that we discussed: I will be responsible for the graduate school entrance examination, and you will get out of that backward area, and you will earn money to get rid of poverty! However, everything is different from what we designed! You were admitted, but I didn't! After that, Doudou's arrival completely disrupted our plans! (We have all made appointments at the hospital..... Fortunately, I have a selfish decision to keep her! Today has become the hope that supports my life!) All the burdens fall on you! You have to pick up the burden of studying and life! But the ruthlessness of your parents also makes you meet! Your whole life is in the struggle and struggle!

I often wonder if you would have been better off if I hadn't been in your life, but then I thought: If I hadn't been another ordinary woman, you might have been even more miserable -- caught between your parents and your daughter-in-law, your parents couldn't understand you, and if your daughter-in-law couldn't understand either, how kind of suffering would you be?

Remember what you said that you have set the framework of your life, and now it's time to fill in the content step by step!

Now I have no direction in my life, and the only thing left is to grow up with Doudou! But in the face of the impatience and irritability that children often behave! When I realize my attitude, I often blame myself! I asked Doudou what she thought when I was impatient and unhappy? Doudou said: "I think, this little mother, is unhappy again, and it will pass in a while!" I am ashamed of such a sensible child! I often remind myself to treat my children well!

I will work hard! Don't worry, Doudou understands my heart just like you!

Spend every day quietly in the wisps of thinking about you.

My cousin thought about it, and I was a little hesitant, I could help him, but would it cause unnecessary trouble to myself? You tell me? What should I do?

Last time I dreamed that you saw a letter on a big screen with green text, I will use green from now on.

XW

2011.7.11