"Na... Na... Brother Xun, Brother Xun, get up!" a man with short white hair and crimson forehead and eyes, turned over to uncover the short quilt on his body and scratched his unkempt hair. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info reached out and touched the head of the bed twice, before he would keep making a chopping motion and make a "tick.. Backbite.. Tick." The sound of the knight-type alarm is turned off.

"Oh, it's Yiluo!" Shu Feng Xun stared at the alarm clock at the bedside: "Is it already seven o'clock, you go to the living room first, I'll clean up and go out to cook." Shu Fengxun, who came back to his senses, looked at the front sluggishly, his eyes were empty open, and he replied with no match.

"Ah, really. Today is the first day of high school, why are you still so lazy? A girl with long shawl hair, a white short-sleeved cardigan, a pink bottom-shirt and slender light blue jeans. Looking at the girl's back swaying and constantly swaying the rabbit ear hood, a trace of cunning flashed in Shu Fengxun's eyes.

"The rabbit ears fell off. Pointing to the hat behind Yiluo, Shu Fengxun said with a surprised expression.

"Uh, really?" Yi Luo turned his back in surprise and groped his right hand behind his back, tugging at his hat with his left hand and twisting his head, pouting in an attempt to find the fallen rabbit ears. When she found out that Shu Feng Xun was lying to her, she angrily turned her whole body away from Shu Feng Xun.

"Angry?" Shu Fengxun, who took the opportunity to change his clothes, asked lightly.

"Hmph, cheat paper! Even your cute, beautiful, youthful and kind sister is cheated, ** brother. The girl with her back to Shu Fengxun said unwillingly.

"**?" Shu Fengxun's white eyebrows trembled unnaturally, and he replied a little speechlessly: "Do you know what ** means?" I couldn't help but think: "If I'm **, how can I still be your brother now, really, sure enough, my sister is the most troublesome in real life, can't I have a sister who is obedient to me." ”

"Hmph, of course I know what ** means. Yiluo jumped onto Shu Fengxun's bed, pinched his waist with one hand, pointed at Shu Fengxun with a slightly distorted expression with the other, and said like a proud little rooster: "The so-called ** is to take care of your lovely sister and coax your sister." ”

Shu Fengxun looked at the girl on the bed with a smile, stretched out his hand and knocked on the girl's forehead and said, "Okay, I'm **, in order to prevent being eaten by my **, please ask my sister to wait for me in the living room." ”

"Hey, hurry up. Yiluo looked at Shu Fengxun who was making the bed, and jumped out of Shu Fengxun's bedroom with a somewhat silly laugh.

.....

"Dreams?"

In the middle of the night, Shu Fengxun, who asked for leave to go home after taking the language, woke up from a nap that made people sleep for a long time.

Sister,The girl who appears in the plot of this standard drama of being called by my sister is naturally my sister.,My sister Uncle Feng Yiluo.。 Even if it's such a cute sister, in the second semester of the first year of high school, maybe it's because of the rebellious period, or because it is to show her personality. My sister, Uncle Feng Yiluo, gave up her proud long black hair with a long shawl. She wore her curly blonde hair, pierced ears, and shiny earrings. However, as an enlightened older brother, I did not object, nor did I approve. As long as my sister is happy, she doesn't do things that are extremely harmful to her physical and mental health, such as drug crimes. As an elder brother, the kind of thinking that the hair and skin of the body is subject to his parents is completely absent. I have no objection, neither to my mother, who abandoned us a long time ago, nor to my father, who had not seen each other for a year in the army.

As an older brother, I have the confidence to set things right at a critical moment. It's just that the manager of the script of life is always good at giving human beings a painful blow when they are inadvertent.

On a normal night, on a normal night when I was doing my normal homework.

My sister, my sister Uncle Feng Yiluo, appeared in front of me with her boyfriend.

"This is my older brother, Uncle Fuxun. ”

My sister said proudly and proudly in a proud and proud tone that even I didn't sound conscious.

"Love, you are high school students, everyone give me a good relationship. Such handsome words came from the mouth of a homeroom teacher who stood in the teacher's position and had a handsome face that surpassed the level of Oba. It's one of the lessons that even I've had to follow so far. Therefore, I have long known that sooner or later I will hand over my sister to the hands of a reliable man, and I still have no objection to my sister's love.

My sister is not the kind of cute person who can talk to me about life in the middle of the night, and naturally she can't say that she has a brother and sister opposition with a tsundere.

However, I know the boy in front of me. The boy in front of me had heard of me.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. ”

"I didn't know it was your sister, I thought it was just a chick.... Really didn't mean to offend you. ”

I didn't say a word, but I felt like I had become a god on high. Looking at the boy with dyed yellow hair, making a hairstyle that makes people wink and touching the head of a hedgehog with a piercing hand, and a pointed face with a resolute and handsome face, he pious and fearful in a prayerful and holy tone, and objectively confesses the facts in the sense of mistake. If you have long hair, you can play the gourd little King Kong, even if you have short hair, you can shout "Crescent Sky Chong" with a kitchen knife on your back.

Without saying a word, I had already become a complete sinner, and I was fiercely pierced by the gaze shot from my sister's resentful and resentful eyes.

Whether it's common sense or concept, it doesn't exist in my cognition. Morality and ethics are completely different in my world. "Well, as long as my sister likes it. "I was just going to say this, but I couldn't help but be surprised by the boys' pious fear. "Boy, I'll leave my sister to you. If my sister suffers a little, I will chase you to the ends of the earth. "Originally, I just planned to release such handsome and cruel words to show my majesty as an elder brother.

Chicks, what is chicks, young birds, need temporary shelter for the weak who grow under their wings. If you really want to give an example to describe it, it must be my sister, my sister doesn't have the ability to fly solo for the time being, whether it's the financial ability or anything else.

Hina, what is Hina, who is too curious about the unknown, and enters a new world to try. A chick that is eaten by the hungry wolf of the new world. If I had to give an example to describe it, it would be my sister, my sister who was curious to enter the New World and almost became food for hungry wolves.

Anger, indignation, rage.

The words used in human beings to describe a person's state of being full of anger and being able to release super nirvana at any time can be applied to Shu Fengxun's body at this moment.

"While I can resist the urge to punch you, get out. ”

Until that day, I said the most pretending words in my life. Until then, I made what I thought was the most handsome decision of my life.

Until the end of my life, I was forced to be separated from my sister, on the same day.

I saw my sister who was chasing the boy and was hit by a vehicle on the road and flew in front of me.

I saw with my own eyes, even at the end of the day, my self-righteous figure reflected in my sister's eyes.

I understood once and again how difficult it is to set things up anyway.

"It's been a long time since I've had this dream. ”

"Ha, forget it, homework matters. ”

Downstairs, Shu Fengxun looked at the flying leaves blown by the wind, tightened the plain book behind him, and walked on the familiar path, although it was the first autumn after entering the third year of high school.

Familiar roads, familiar walls, these are the ancient walls that have been said to isolate the city, and they are trying to separate everything in the city from the inside and outside of the walls. Even in recent years, the government's successful renovation project has relied on the city walls to create a walled garden.

In the garden, bright white neon, like a benchmark, scattered on the side of the fine gravel road, dotted with twists and turns of flowers and trees. Walking through the unfamiliar stone road, in Shu Fengxun's view, the season that has turned into a lonely hue can only do things in a lonely hue.

Although the white haze that envelops people's hearts during the day has dimmed, they are always unwilling to let go of any opportunity to cast the haze. The cloudy cold wind mingled with the low bushes, sifting like a start.

At the end of the garden, there is a miniature garden left over from history, which was integrated with the city wall garden after the construction of the municipal works. Pavilions, arched bridges, fake lakes, forests, and the signboard of Yujin Garden. This is the whole picture of the garden in the eyes of Shu Fengxun.

In the gazebo, I found the closest place to the street lamp, leaned against the stone pillar, and firmly fastened the sketchbook to my lap with my right hand. Shu Fengxun took out a charcoal pen from his pocket, and his slender left hand faithfully engraved the scene reflected in his eyes in the sketchbook in front of him.

"Ah..... The heat died. ”

A girl about the same age as Shu Feng Xun walked to the other side of the pavilion and sat down, putting down the backpack she was carrying. One hand tugged at the zipper of his jacket, and the other hand was constantly fanning the wind. The night view of a city, the figure of the athlete is also the main element of its composition. For Shu Feng Xun, such a night. The presence of any intruders into the pavilion is not a hunter who has invaded the territory, but it means that there are more variables in the painting.

The girl in the pavilion has fluffy short hair, red and black sportswear, although she looks very delicate and pointy, but against the background of the short hair, she exudes a particularly capable and delicate feeling. The petite and delicate figure makes Shu Fengxun sigh at the miracle of the creator all the time.

"Hey, it's fake. Legal Lori actually exists.,Is God crazy or I'm wrong.。 It's an encounter, isn't it? So, why is it that when I do my homework, it always shows up with people I know. ”

Under the somewhat cold autumn wind, the heat brought by the exercise had almost dissipated, and the girl in the pavilion took out the thermos cup from her bag and poured a few sips. seemed to be aware of Shu Fengxun's undisguised gaze. Some curiously walked towards Shu Fengxun, and the girl deftly walked around the back pillar of the gazebo. With his right hand, he tucked some scattered bangs behind his ear, and looked at Shu Fengxun's sketchbook curiously with a half-hunched waist.

"Uh.... Very delicate sketches. This one.... Is it me?"

"Yes. ”

"Nice, I recognized it at a glance. Well... You're still practicing drawing outside so late, art candidate?" the girl asked as she looked very interested in Shu Fengxun.

A boy sits in a gazebo in the middle of the night and paints, no matter how you look at it, you should ask if he is a painter. For young people nowadays, is painting just a shortcut for the art exam? Well, isn't it?

"Have we met somewhere?" Shu Fengxun stopped the charcoal in his hand, glanced at the girl blankly, and asked lightly.

"Yike..... You are.... What an old-fashioned approach, not very old, and a lot of eyes. The girl patted Shu Fengxun's shoulder and smiled.

Huh?.... Is it really me accosting you, no matter how you look at it, I'm being pushed backwards... No... Was it me who was accosted?

"No, it looks like a high school student, so I won't care about it this time, this painting is for me to apologize. The girl looked embarrassed, and then said to Shu Fengxun generously.

"You're right, you're not old, can you really pretend to be so old? Physical education teacher. ”

With an indelible sneer on the corner of Shu Fengxun's mouth, he looked at the girl in front of him and said.

The so-called youth and encounters are just boring fantasies and self-deception after being oppressed, if you persistently believe in the so-called beautiful youth, you will only be eroded by these things with all kinds of utilitarianism, so in order to avoid the troubles that can be avoided, it is natural to understand any possibility that may have a relationship with me as early as possible. For example, now,In front of me is the female teacher of the Burning Department of the physical education class of the girls' group.,Relying on her skills as a black belt.,It's my responsibility to guide bad students on the right path.,Well,Lori?

In principle, it is indeed a feasible approach. If a normal person is said to be in love with this girl after a period of companionship, she is young, and her appearance is also high-class and legal Lori. In other words, most of the painters who sit in the garden at this time, regardless of the sun and the moon, are looking forward to such a thing. But, that's not me.

"I don't know why you picked me, but I'm sorry, but I don't want to accompany you. ”

Looking at the physical education teacher who was a little overwhelmed by his own questions, Shu Fengxun calmly put away the bits and pieces around him, and sandwiched the sketchbook under his armpit, with an expression that I couldn't afford to hide.

"Hey, wait a minute. ”

"I'd like to ask you to do me a favor. ”

"I'm sorry, but I only do things that concern me. ”

"Why do you only do things that are related to you, why do you always have to be alone, don't you have any dreams?"

Dreams? Can I eat it? Dreams are just jokes to shatter. I have a dream, and I dream that one day, this nation will rise up and live up to the true meaning of its founding creed: "We believe these truths speak for themselves: that all men are created equal." Unfortunately, the person who said this had been assassinated and had taken away his life full of dreams. The same person who abolished slavery in country M, who once stood at the pinnacle of mankind, also died under the lament of bullets and became the only one.

"Hmm? Déjà vu? Ah, I see. Is it completely the first version of Xiang Wenxuan! or, the second version of me. ”

So Shu Fengxun chose exactly the same answer as he did then.

"0 or 1, what's wrong with just doing what you can?"

"Dreams? I'm sorry I never had anything unrealistic. ”

Shu Fengxun looked at the woman indifferently with an indelible sneer.

"If you are determined, you can always do it, right? ”

"Determination? Determination is just a slave of memory, which changes arbitrarily with the change of memory! What can be gained in essence, what cannot be done is not done. Do you want to say that as long as you work hard, you will not regret it? After all, it is just self-deception and self-comfort. It's all so big, please see the reality. ”

Hamlet's famous quote, Shakespeare has long told us, boring determination, incompetent human beings, sad reality. Determination is not eternal, I am determined to turn back the time of this world, but this world does not stop rushing to the unknown shore. All people will have determination, all people will have unattainable desires, and all people will put their own dreams above the dreams of others to trample on. Those who succeed are called strong, and the dream of realization becomes a matter of course. Those who fail are called weak, and the dreams that are trampled on always should be like this.

"If everyone is like you, who else can be saved? Just change it....."

Really, another hypocrite who thinks he can change the world. Reality has never changed since ancient times, and human beings who only complain about reality have not changed since ancient times.

"The idea that you can change the world or something, forget it. Why change, do you want to deny your past, or your future has reached the point where you can't live without changing. It's better to say that everyone in this world is just like me. It is precisely because everyone feels that they are right that the world is right, and the world cannot become what you want it to be because you are alone, and the choice of most people is the truth. This is reality, not fiction, not comics. A person who saves the world and changes the world is nothing more than the self-pursuit of a person with an empty heart. ”

"Is it wrong to insist on one's own righteousness?"

The woman looked at the ground a little depressed and muttered. A small face full of tears revealed because of the low mood, as if he had been greatly wronged, wrinkled and delicately nosed.

How long has it been since I've heard such an exaggerated word. No, it's not uncommon to hear words like "This is my justice" repeated in the unrealistic scene I've been watching, but I'm afraid it's the first time in reality. No, when I was in junior high school, I thought I shouted when I turned the school into my turf to protect my sister.

Shu Fengxun, who fell into subtle contemplation, stretched out his index finger and curled up a strand of his bangs. Some pale and stiff faces, and the corners of the mouth grin a somewhat subtle arc. Justice, what a cheap and sinful word. Even now, every minute and every second, there are people who lose their precious lives for the sake of this word. What should I say next? There is nothing wrong with justice, what is wrong is that you are not strong enough to maintain justice? This is what a qualified brother should say, and I can't say it when I have long lost my qualifications.

"Justice? Whose justice?"

"Well, so, it's mine..."

"From the very beginning, the so-called justice was nothing more than the high-sounding hypocrisy of humanity chained by the cradle of civilization. Your justice, what kind of justice is your justice, and what is justice itself? Don't impose your own blood and ideals on others under the banner of justice. ”

Even though I say this, I will be the one who imposes my ideals on people who don't need them at all. While saying, "This is for your good." Such high-sounding words strangled his child's only remaining childhood. In this era of exhausting children to the starting line, I just hope that my children do not have to go to cram school in kindergarten is the greatest satisfaction.

"You.... You..."

Looking at the legitimate Lori with tears in her eyes, Shu Fengxun waved his hand wantonly, with a boring smile, still with an indifferent expression, and disappeared into the dark night with the autumn wind that almost began to roar.

"Gone. ”

"I'm not going to give up, you kid. ”

.....

Shu Fengxun, who walked back to the door of the house, took out a cross key that was mostly covered with rust, and groped in the dark corridor to open the door.

"I'm back. ”

Turn on the lights in the living room, the blazing white energy-saving lamps dazzly illuminate the entire living room, and only the sound of wind chimes "crackling" continues to echo in the room.

"I... It's back. Shu Fengxun let out a low groan again, and casually turned off the light in the living room.

Shu Fengxun, who walked back to the bedroom, said to a polished shiny tablet on the spotless computer desk. No, it should be said, said to the singer who was still singing in the computer. In the room that lost its light, there was only a small figure, with a tireless and never-ending voice, constantly jumping in the small screen.

Shu Fengxun, who was lying on the table, opened his crimson pupils, unfocused pupils, and lifeless expression, and could only hang down the corners of his mouth. A bright bedroom that is dark but illuminated by the light from the screen, and a bright outside world in the middle of the night. The street is silent, but there is always the sound of palpitating wheels rubbing against the ground. The bedroom is full of deep-rooted singing, and there is a heart that is forever closed.

"It's okay, and you. ”