Comrade Jia Yuhao:

I haven't nagged with you for a long time, it's because I deliberately want to forget you, forget the pain of missing!

Although I didn't stop thinking about you for a minute, I still avoided talking about you! Speaking of you, the pain that I had nowhere to hide was laid bare in front of me. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

I tell myself who miss you every minute and every second: stop thinking about you! This will ruin your body, what if such pain keeps bringing irreversible diseases? I have no fear of death, but what about the child? She is no longer cared for by you, and I will grow up with her safely no matter what!

Every moment tell yourself to be strong, tell yourself that you are protecting us in the dark! I know that you are by our side and have never gone far, but in the face of life, I have only one person to bear, you know that I have always been a weak and unbearable person, and now everything has to be borne by myself, I can't do it!

Doudou said that I wanted to start my own life and transfer my emotional sustenance before I could get rid of my thoughts about you, but how did she know that I was afraid that no matter what the circumstances of this life were, I would not be able to get rid of this boundless longing!

Do you remember? Two years ago today, it was also a rainy morning, Doudou and I hurriedly went out to work and school, and the side with you turned out to be our eternal secret! I wore the clothes you and I went to buy that day, and I couldn't afford to wear them again except for one time on the day I saw you off! I once wanted to break through and take it out and wear it, but my heart always surrendered before it was crushed!

Although I love you selflessly, I know that I am dragging you down, and if you don't have my fetters, you may not be so tired and wronged! Thinking of the hardships you have suffered in your short life, my heart will be miserable! I often think that if I can replace you, I am really willing! Without you, the world is hell for me!

I don't know who to hate?! I don't dare to complain about God, I'm afraid it will hurt you. I often resent you -- how can you do this? Abandon us like this! Once I talked to Doudou, Doudou said don't blame you, you don't want to!

Yes, everything is predestined, and no one can blame it!

The house has been renovated for more than a month, and I often think about how busy, happy, and happy you should be when you run around alone. Do you think that no matter how good or bad, you can't explain my life? What's the use of you being so conscientious and hardworking? Besides, what can you do with material things?!

I often think about your mother, how she is doing, but I dare not say hello, I am afraid that I will invite more hurt and entanglement again. I haven't touched your stock, so let's discuss how to distribute it with your family when I settle down the house.

Doudou confiscated my mobile phone and didn't give her the Internet.,After the pocket money was also controlled,Learning has once again pulled back to the original level.,The math competition took the first place in the whole grade.,The recent math test is also the first place.,Slowly the child is sensible.,My burden is not so heavy.,In fact, everything looks away.,In fact, everything doesn't matter.,Just grow up with the child calmly.,And then it's good to go to you.。 Are you still waiting for me? Can I still find you? I know that many lifetimes have been the same cycle of reincarnation, and now that you have entered the Pure Land, you will re-enter the cycle for me? You should come to me! I am also worried that if this kind of misfortune happens again, I will be wiped out!

Doudou's height has surpassed me, the net height is 161cm, the weight is 49kg, both physically and mentally are growing healthily, you can see it without me saying it, right? My height has shrunk by two centimeters! Originally, the height reduction was after the age of 50, but my stinky skin has been depressed a lot in two years!

Doudou wanted to "get rid of" my discipline and live in the school when he was in junior high school, and he was looking for Kaoxi University High School and Sanmei, and I made an agreement with her: if you can go to school without spending sponsorship money or favors, you can go to school with your own ability. I don't think I can pass the exam, how many people break their heads and squeeze in, how can you be allowed to study plainly? Today's education is no longer an era of cherishing talents but cherishing money! Moreover, Peihong's junior high school is also a model middle school in the city, and the quality of teaching is also very good, and it is close to home, so I can take good care of her and guardianship, and I must grasp the child's adolescence to spend it safely! Now I only have this one item that I can't let go!

I started to pick up a pen and write something, and I didn't expect to achieve anything, I just did something I liked to pass the extra time, and I guess I was doing something meaningful. I can't waste my life anymore! Without my profession, I have lost half of my value, and I should be worthy of my life -- make a difference!

The rain has been falling since last night, and it seems to wash away my pain. Yesterday, I read an article saying that all the pain is: I can't let go, I can't think about it, I can't see through it, and I can't forget it. Now I can only persuade myself: I can let go, I can think openly, I can see through, and I can forget!

Life has to go on, I still have to face such days, grit my teeth and stand up, I hope that time can dilute the pain, bury the years and bury the misfortune at the same time!

That's all there is to nag, maybe I won't nag you anymore in the future, and slowly I should live for myself.

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2012.6.4