Chapter 12: The Fission of Human Nature
I let out a roar, and the four or five men were so startled by me that they lifted their pants and hugged their heads, and soon only me and Jiang Wenwen lying in the corner were left in the whole abandoned house.
The room was full of hormonal smells, and there was a strong smell of wine, only to hear Jiang Wenwen muttering in the corner: "Give me wine, I still want to drink, I still have to drink......"
Drink your sister's drink, how can you be poured into this way? Being taken to this ghost place and bullied you don't know yet? Still thinking about drinking?
Looking at her clothes that were thrown all over the floor, I suddenly regretted that I didn't bother to dress her at the beginning, took off my coat and wrapped her, and helped her up to go out.
Unexpectedly, she suddenly turned over, hugged my neck, and shouted: "Don't go, drink with me, hurry, drink with me." ”
I wanted to break her hands, but I didn't expect the drunken girl to be so strong, and her hands were like iron hoops around my neck, so I had no choice but to lean against the wall, wrap her in my coat, and wait for her to fall asleep before trying to leave.
I didn't expect this guy to hold my neck until dawn and didn't let go, after dawn, she also woke up, and she didn't make a fuss when she woke up, but just looked at me with disdain: "I said Wu Xiao, do you want to be so picky, you can't even open a room?"
I'm dumbfounded!
She dared to think of me as the one who was last night.
She looked at me and stared at her innocently, and gave me a blank look: "What do you see, do you want to do it again?"
As he spoke, he wiped it with a piece of paper, took out an emergency pregnancy pill from his small satchel and ate it, humming a little song and getting dressed.
I sighed, thinking that the world is declining, and now in this society, women are really becoming more and more casual, so I stood up helplessly and prepared to leave.
Jiang Wenwen got dressed and said behind him: "Wu Xiao, for the sake of you being so excited last night, how about I invite you to breakfast today, sister?"
Looking at Jiang Wenwen's emaciated side face and haggard face, my mood was difficult to calm down for a long time.
Last night, because of my negligence, I let those bastards take advantage of the situation, they saw Jiang Wenwen alone in the private room, and then drunk her with wine.
Jiang Wenwen sent me many messages before she was drunk, but I didn't reply to her, and because of my negligence, she was subjected to inhuman abuse.
It makes me feel like a sinful person who brings bad luck to anyone who comes near me.
Shouldn't I exist in this world, when I killed my wife, I should have died with her.
With a heavy heart, I grabbed Jiang Wenwen's hand: "Wenwen, I'm sorry, I really didn't know that things would turn out like this, just punish me how you want to punish me." ”
"I have no right to punish you, this is my life, I deserve it. ”
Jiang Wenwen took a bite of xiaolongbao and told me with a smile, but I could see that the smile on her face was fake.
When a girl encounters such a heavy blow, it is impossible for her to recover all at once, not to mention that the person who violated her is someone she doesn't know at all, no matter how casual she is, it is impossible for her to be indifferent, and it is impossible to act as if nothing happened.
My hands were trembling slightly, and my voice was trembling: "If you want to cry, cry out, don't bear it, you endure it like this, it will only make me feel very heartbroken." ”
Jiang Wenwen laughed a little sarcastically: "Why should I cry? What is the use of crying for a woman like me who has no tears, in the eyes of others, it is just a performance." ”
Why did she say that? I didn't think she was acting.
Maybe people who have made mistakes will be very sensitive, and their own negligence has caused this big mistake, no matter if there is a little wind and grass, they will feel that this is an earthquake.
I was ashamed of myself: "No one will think that you are performing, and I will not, in my eyes you are the most real girl, you dare to love and hate, dare to act, and act more manly than a man." ”
"You mean I'm just a woman. ”
Jiang Wenwen bit her bun and asked me with a biased face.
She seemed to have forgotten what had happened last night, and it was shocking to me that she looked as if nothing had happened.
She said this as if she was in a relaxed mood and was joking with me in a relaxed mind.
As a psychiatrist, I know that she is just deliberately covering up her grief.
People like this who repeatedly try to cover up, the more dangerous it is.
I looked at her face, and a faint worry rose in my heart, from now on, I dare not let her out of my sight, because I am afraid that as soon as I turn around, she will go to extremes and do things that people regret.
I shook my head and said to her, "You're not a woman, you're a soft girl, a soft girl who needs to be taken care of." ”
"So what? Will someone take care of me? Will you? Will you take me with you of a rotten woman like me?"
Jiang Wenwen sat across from me, talking while eating, with food in her mouth, you can't let her stop talking at a speed.
She hasn't washed her face yet, although she looks like she is just without makeup, and she doesn't have the amazing makeup she used to make, but she also has a faint real beauty.
Staring at this not very clean face, in the morning light, I was in a trance.
I was honest with her and said, "I do, I want to take care of you." ”
Her body shook, as if she had been struck by lightning, biting the mouth of the bun, and couldn't close it for a long time.
She landed her gaze on my face, lingered for a long time, for more than half a minute, and then laughed out loud.
laughed so much that even the bun skin squirted out of his mouth, just like hearing the funniest joke in the world, that feeling was not to believe what I said at all: "Wu Xiao, you just pull it down, you are a psychiatrist to take care of me, a dusty woman, you may not even believe the ghost when you say this." ”
"What I said is true, as long as you want, I am willing to take care of you, it is not a spur of the moment, but the result of careful consideration. ”
My eyes shone sincerely, I really wanted to take care of her, just a simple care, nothing to do with Fengyue and no love, just mutual care between friends.
But she said: "No, I will take care of myself, not to mention that it is inconvenient to live with a man, and I am not used to it." ”
I knew she would reject her, she was a haughty girl at heart, and she didn't need sympathy for her.
But at this time, women are the most psychologically fragile and the most vigilant.
They will think that everyone around them is a wolf, and even if you really want to be good to you, you will look at them with a hostile attitude.
I looked at her with a look of determination, and I knew I couldn't force it, so I had to say, "Okay, you have my phone number, if there's anything to call me directly, okay?"
"Call you, does it work?"
Jiang Wenwen said such a sentence as if unintentionally, and my heart was like a knife when I heard it, and I opened my mouth, not knowing how to answer her.
I know why she doesn't need me to take care of her, because she's already disappointed in me, and that's a sheer disappointment.
A person who trusts you the most, when he needs you the most, but can't contact you no matter what, who can understand that kind of despair?
My heart is getting heavier and heavier, and I feel like a waste at this moment.
A nasty waste who did an unforgivable thing and caused an irreparable damage.
Thinking of this, the sadness in my heart became stronger and stronger, and the emotion mixed with sadness and anger became stronger and stronger, and a fire was born in my heart.
I suddenly slammed the table, stood up, and said to Jiang Wenwen, "Those brutes last night, do you know where they are from, what are they doing? Can you give me specific information about them?"
"Why are you going to kill them and avenge me? Or are you going to beat them up and get yourself angry?"
Jiang Wenwen sneered, looked at me, and said to me: "Wu Xiao, let's turn the page on this matter last night, okay? Don't mention it again, let's talk about the game now." ”
Her tone was pleading, and she didn't want me to bring up the old story again, probably because she didn't want me to reveal last night's scar again.
In that case, what do I have to say?
I'm not the kind of person who chatters, and I'm not the kind of person who likes to expose other people's scars, I just can't bear it, I just don't think she deserves to be hurt like that.
But now I can't show it anymore, and I say to myself that if I were a man, I should silently remember last night.
and then quietly use his own means to find out the bastards who hurt her and solve them one by one.
When it comes to games, the first thing that comes to my mind is Wang Wei, and I also think of what Wang Wei told me last night.
It's all come to this, and I don't have to hide it from her anymore.
I said to Jiang Wenwen: "Wang Wei has made up his mind to target you, and he told me in front of me that you are the one who killed Zhang Mingxin, what do you think of his statement?"
"Since Wang Wei believes in you so much, why do you still betray him, as far as I know, you and Wang Wei have already fought side by side for Qiu Xinxin last night. ”
Speaking of Wang Wei, Jiang Wenwen was not as surprised as I imagined, and he behaved very calmly, and the calm was terrifying.
I was a little surprised, and couldn't help but ask her, "How did you know about my fight last night?"
"You don't need to know this, I just want to know, did you betray Wang Wei and didn't trust him at all? Have you ever thought that if what Wang Wei told you is true, your distrust of him will bring you ruin, and you will not regret it later. ”
Jiang Wenwen stared at my face, like a judge, interrogating a prisoner in an interrogative tone.
I sighed and replied, "I believe in my choice because now I have no choice." ”
Jiang Wenwen listened to my words, a strange smile appeared on her face, she couldn't stop shaking her head, I don't know what he meant by shaking his head, whether he felt that what I said was not true enough, or that what I said was too true, and the truth made her unable to believe it.
She took a cigarette out of her cigarette case and handed it to me: "I remember you told me last time that I should not smoke because it is too choking, because I am afraid that my beloved will suffer for me when he sees it." ”
"In that case, why are you still smoking?"
I took her cigarette, still the familiar pride, I don't know why she always likes to smoke this cigarette, maybe it's her habit.
She lit the cigarette, took a sharp puff, and slowly exhaled a smoke ring.
"Because smoking accelerates death, I like to smoke, and if I can die quietly in the clouds, it's not a happy way to die," she said. ”
"Do you like to die that much?"
After listening to Jiang Wenwen's words, I felt a little uncomfortable, young people, open their mouths and close their mouths to say death.
Although birth, old age, sickness and death are human nature, and everyone should face death with a smile, but we are all young, and death is still a very distant topic, and it should not be mentioned at such a time.
She didn't answer my question directly, but just smiled faintly, flicked the cigarette ash with her fingernails, and asked me: "Wu Xiao, have you ever watched the movie "Seven Deadly Sins"?"
"I've seen it, but I can't remember the plot clearly, why do you ask this?"
She suddenly asked me about the movie, and I was a little surprised.
She took a deep breath, her face became whiter and whiter, and her tone became much heavier: "If you have watched the movie, have you noticed the details inside, the first person to die in the movie is a fat man." ”
"It seems like this. ”
I tried to recall the plot of "The Seven Deadly Sins", and replied casually, at this time, her face slowly leaned over, and her voice became more and more depressing: "The game we are playing now is too similar to the killing mode in the movie!"