Twilight Bar.

A woman in her thirties told me her story.

It was in the afternoon a week after the villa incident, Xiao Ziqing asked me, she said let me see an important person, because I had nothing in my hand that day, I cleaned up, and then went.

The story didn't seem to have much to do with recent events, but I listened patiently.

It was a March afternoon in 2002, and she and Tao Shutian met for the first time.

Tao Shutian wore a snow-white shirt and held a blue-black umbrella, like a prince in an ink painting, smiling and walking into her small clinic.

His clear, dark jewel-like eyes stared at her face until her little face flew red.

Tao Shutian coughed lightly, cleared his throat, and reminded her in that magnetic baritone: "Little nurse, your eyes are very good, but I think you should check my body." ”

When she came back to her senses, she felt even more embarrassed, and hurriedly took the thermometer upside down, Tao Shutian grinned, and a mouthful of snow-white teeth shook so much that she couldn't open her eyes.

When she took Tao Shutian's temperature, Tao Shutian's gaze never left her face.

She pretended to keep a straight face, but her heart was pounding, Tao Shutian said: "Xiao Zihui, yes, a very poetic name, just like your whole person, looks like an elegant poem." ”

"Then what are you, are you painting? How can you describe people like this, compare people to poetry. ”

Xiao Zihui sneered.

Suddenly, Xiao Zihui thought of something, and a flash of inspiration flashed in her head: "By the way, how do you know that my name is Xiao Zihui?"

"I've hugged you. ”

Tao Shutian smiled mysteriously, but Xiao Zihui was stunned.

Tao Shutian continued his mysterious smile: "It's been more than ten years in a blink of an eye, and that little hairy child has grown into a big girl now, hehe." ”

This is Tao Shutian, Xiao Zihui's father's comrade-in-arms, who changed jobs this time and came to live in their small town for a few days.

Xiao Zihui was supposed to call Tao Shutian her uncle, but at the age of 17, she fell in love with this man who was not many years older than her.

Although Tao Shutian was born in the military, he is more like a scholar.

That year, Xiao Zihui worked as a nurse in a small clinic in their town.

Tao Shutian fell ill because of the discomfort of the water and soil.

On the days of recuperation, they stayed together.

Tao Shutian has a lot of humor and knowledge, and there are many common topics between them.

The time on duty at the clinic was boring, but because of Tao Shutian's existence, Xiao Zihui felt happy every day.

Tao Shutian would read Shakespeare's poems, Byron's poems, Su Dongpo's poems, and Liu Yong's poems to Xiao Zihui.

Tao Shutian will also tell stories from his college and military life.

Tao Shutian said that far away there is a piece of paradise called Shangri-La, where there is a Tibetan girl who can sing very beautiful songs, but the Tibetan girl is buried under an avalanche in order to save a border soldier.

Every time he talks about this, endless sadness always flashes in Tao Shutian's eyes, staring at Tao Shutian's deep eyes, the young and ignorant Xiao Zihui always has an urge to hug him.

Tao Shutian was sick and was leaving, Xiao Zihui cried.

Tao Shutian said don't cry, children, I will accompany you to Shangri-La when you have the opportunity to see the secluded snow-capped mountains, the verdant grasslands, the mirror-like waterholes, and the Tibetan girls who are integrated with the beautiful scenery and leave beautiful legends.

Xiao Zihui believed Tao Shutian's words.

In order to adapt to Tao Shutian's life, Xiao Zihui began to read poetry and write essays, and then changed her career to become a writer, and even changed the city where she lived.

A few years later, Ms. Xiao became a professional writer for a newspaper.

She spends most of her time every year traveling north and south, writing other people's stories, but she never meets him again.

When she was 22 years old, Xiao Zihui fell in love, and her boyfriend was also a retired soldier.

Maybe Xiao Zihui wants to find Tao Shutian's shadow in others, but it's a pity that this boyfriend is not interested in poetry.

Her boyfriend is busy with business, and Xiao Zihui is busy writing.

Because there is less gathering and more separation, the communication between them is like a chasm, and when they are together, it is like facing the enemy, and the air is so depressed that they can't breathe.

At this time, Xiao Zihui met Tao Shutian again.

Among the high-rise buildings in Shanghai, Xiao Zihui saw Tao Shutian with a stubble on his face.

Once Bai Jing's face had been plated with the vicissitudes of time, only the pair of eyes remained the same, Tao Shutian still stared at her face for a long time, and then silently took out a cigarette.

In the mist, Tao Shutian leaned on the railing of the embankment bridge on the bank of the Huangpu River, and his tone was full of helplessness and desolation: "I spent all my savings to treat my wife, and now I am working at the construction site, and I am so tired from working overtime that I am about to fall apart." ”

Xiao Zihui bit her lip: "God, Brother Tian, can I invite you to a glass of wine?"

Tao Shutian's body shook and sighed deeply.

In the box of the floating bar, Xiao Zihui drank a lot of wine, filling herself to the point of dying, and then plucked up the courage to hold Tao Shutian's hand, tears swirling in her eyes: "Brother Tian, have you ever experienced the taste of missing someone? Over the years, after you left, I have been thinking about a person, but that person has never understood."

"Child, some things are boring, you are too persistent. ”

Tao Shutian gently put Xiao Zihui's hand back on the table and dialed Xiao Zihui's boyfriend's phone.

That night, Xiao Zihui was lying in her boyfriend's arms, she didn't feel a trace of warmth, and tears invaded her heart drop by drop, why why, why did I keep your lovesickness for so many years, but in exchange for your sentence was too persistent, Tao Shutian, do you really not have me in your heart?

At my father's place, I heard a story about Tao Shutian.

Tao Shutian is the first batch of communications soldiers to serve in western Yunnan, during the service he fell in love with a Tibetan girl, the relationship between the two quickly warmed up, but in a snow disaster, which Tibetan girl to help them escape from the avalanche area, buried under the thick ice and snow, for this reason, Tao Shutian, who changed jobs, did not remarry because of the guilt of his life......

When my father told all this, Xiao Zihui had been married for more than a year, and Xiao Zihui, who was pregnant with her daughter, suddenly rushed downstairs like an erupting volcano, Tao Shutian, you liar, liar, why are you lying to me, why?

The world is looking for him, but there is no trace of him, Xiao Zihui is looking for him in the vast sea of people, but Tao Shutian in his heart seems to have evaporated from the world, and he has never appeared again.

My husband's company went public on the occasion of my daughter's sixth birthday.

When the family was watching TV on the sofa, her husband hugged her and said affectionately: "Wife, Zhang Jie and Xie Na got married in Shangri-La, and we will go there for a vacation when we have time and retake wedding photos." ”

Her husband's words seemed to touch a certain nerve in Xiao Zihui's heart, and those memories that had died suddenly came alive.

White clouds, blue sky, goshawks hovering, grass as green as a blanket, herds of yaks slowly walking in the sun, and under the distant snow-capped mountains, she saw a glacier.

It's like the plot in the movie, everything has been arranged a long time ago, Tao Shutian appeared again, in the yurt under the glacier, the man who was less than fifty but had gray hair, when Xiao Zihui pushed the curtain open and went in, Tao Shutian looked up and looked at Xiao Zihui The eyes were as deep and clear as before.

"You're finally here, but why are you here?"

"Back then, why did you tell me that you had a wife, why did you go to Shanghai, why did you reject me when you found me?"

"Some roads are close at hand, but you understand that some hearts are two points separated by the end of the world, and they cannot be connected. ”

Tao Shutian closed his eyes and shed muddy tears: "After Rama left, you are the only girl who makes me tempted, and the only girl I can't move, maybe, I really touched your heart for a second ten years ago, but all this has been the past." ”

Hehe, your second made my heart wait for you for ten years.

Hehe, it's so close, but you say that we are as far away as the end of the world.

Hehe, fate is always so helpless, why, always hurt each other.

The daughter asked sweetly behind her, "Mom, who is this grandfather, so handsome?"

woke up an old dream of Xiao Zihui, hehe, Tao Shutian, really handsome, he was so obsessed with him at the beginning, or a lot because of his handsomeness.

Xiao Zihui saw Tao Shutian touching my daughter's head, her face was full of love, but her eyes were filled with muddy tears......

I raised the cup of coffee in front of me that was gradually cold, and looked at the quiet and delicate lady in front of me, she was Qin Mengmeng's mother and Xiao Ziqing's sister.

Maybe if it weren't for the trick of fate, I would have had something to do with her.

However, none of this mattered, and I asked her: "You and Tao Shutian, is there really no handover, is it really so calm as water?"

With the professional sensitivity of a doctor, I always found that the woman in front of me was lying.

Although I don't know why she went to the trouble of talking to me about the past, it turned out to be a lie.

A strange light flashed in Xiao Zihui's eyes, and she asked me, "If I tell the truth, will you look down on me, and look down on my daughter because you look down on me?"

"Your business, what's your daughter's business, why are you involved with her?"

What annoys me the most is to hear others pull me and Qin Mengmeng together, does she even think that I am dragging my daughter?

Please, although I don't refuse the old cow to eat tender grass, I can't eat all the grass.

No matter how hungry a cow is, it is impossible to eat a poisonous weed, so it will lose your life, Xiao Ziqing saw that I was silent, and opened her mouth to break the deadlock: "Wu Xiao, Mengmeng must really like you, her age is the age when love is beginning to open, in their hearts, as long as they have a good feeling, they will be treated as love, why does my sister tell you her own story, I just hope you can learn something from this story." ”

"Don't worry, I will be like Tao Shutian in your story, hiding far away, and promise not to disturb anyone. ”

Since even Xiao Ziqing thinks so, maybe this matter is really that serious, because women's hearts are the most sensitive, and only women know what women are thinking best.

Xiao Zihui heard me say this, but shook her head vigorously: "Xiao Wu, I think you probably misunderstood what I meant." ”

"Sister Hui, do you mean anything else?"

I was a little dazed and looked at the two women in front of me, didn't they come together, why did they express very different meanings?

Xiao Zihui nodded and said: "If a woman can't be with the person she likes, no matter how much glory and wealth she has, it's just a passing cloud for her, if Mengmeng really likes you, and you are also interesting to her, just let it go, what mortal shackles, don't care so much......"

"Sister, you are stupid, how can you say such a thing, Mengmeng is still a child, a child, how can you ...... with him"

Xiao Ziqing knocked on the table angrily on the side, and the dispute between the sisters escalated again, when a WeChat message came from the mobile phone, from Qin Mengmeng: "Husband, where is it, your baby is hungry, and you won't come back to cook?"