"Actually, the conflict between us wasn't that bad at first. ”

"Xiuying, one of my teammates, created her personal brand before me, but her brand is run in the direction of charity, and I, in their eyes, may just be for myself. ”

"Anyway, because there was a precedent, the members didn't have much of a problem with the idea of starting my own fashion brand at first. ”

"It's Taeyeon...... That is, the captain of our group, she talked to me in private. ”

"Everyone is an adult, no longer the little girl when she first debuted, and some things are inconvenient to say even if the relationship is good, except for Taeyeon, who is the captain and doesn't have too many worries with me. ”

"Actually, I was a little touched by the way she talked to me, because it proved that she cared about me and that it was a beautiful thing to be cared for. ”

"She approached me and talked to me about my plans and visions for my future career, and I also took the initiative to mention to her that I would try to maintain the activities of the group while developing my own career. ”

"Everything seems to be unfolding beautifully. ”

"But soon things changed, first the company was adamantly opposed, they seemed to think that if I had another business, the whole group would go downhill, and then ...... It's the conflicts that slowly arise between the members and me. ”

"I can't deny that I have a strong sense of career, or should I say that I am ambitious? Just like I had to make my debut as an artist, I began to unconsciously put more and more energy into creating my own brand, and even later I went against my own words, and I really affected the group's business because of my own business. ”

"I admit that I did it wrong. ”

"I tried to find an opportunity to apologize to everyone, you may also know my character, I am a person, I am very face-saving, it is really difficult to make such an apology, so I also made a long decision, and by the time I really want to apologize to everyone, it is too late. ”

"When I finally pulled my head out of my personal career, I suddenly realized that the people around me had begun to slowly distance themselves from me. ”

"I think it's weird, why?"

"Even if I do make mistakes, I admit that I did them wrong, and I will try to try to balance them in the future, but is this really an unforgivable mistake?"

"I understand what the other members think, at least I understand what most of them think, they think I want to leave, they all think I'm starting to find a way out for myself. ”

"Yes, I don't deny it, I'm looking for a way out for myself, can we still be an idol for a lifetime? I can still be popular before the age of thirty, what should I do after the age of thirty? Especially like me, in addition to popularity, singing is not top-notch, and my performance is even worse, can I always be an artist? Can they always be an artist?"

"I'm aggrieved. I hope they understand me that this is a choice, not a betrayal. ”

"They all felt that I was going to defect from the group, and then lead the national group of Girls' Generation to fall apart...... But I never thought about it! I never thought about leaving the group. ”

"But then even Taeyeon didn't understand me. ”

Or that she was the first to change her attitude towards me. ”

"Speaking of which, you might be surprised. After all, hearing what I said before, you might think that I have a good relationship with her...... Indeed, we have a good relationship, but sometimes it is because of a good relationship that at some point the change in thinking becomes more and more irreversible. ”

"Taeyeon has always valued her youth as very important, extremely important, and since she became the captain of Girls' Generation, she seems to have taken on a heavy responsibility on her shoulders, and I can feel the pressure in her heart. ”

This sense of responsibility has even changed her mindset. Her original dream was to be a solo female singer, but after her debut in the group, she regarded the group as more important than her ideals. ”

Because the group is still in the stable period and is not suitable for solo SOLO, she has always obeyed the company's arrangement and honestly carried out team activities. ”

"She's a strong person and a stubborn person. ”

She stubbornly believes that all actions and people that are not good for the combination are bad. ”

"Even I am no exception. ”

"So, how good my relationship with her was, and then how stubborn the obsession that thought I betrayed the group. ”

"Later, I couldn't stand the atmosphere in the group, coupled with the oppression of the company, and the invisible friction between me and the members from time to time, all of which were completely different from the past. ”

"The gap between us is starting to become more and more apparent. ”

"But I thought that everything could be reversed, and I thought that there was room for remedy. ”

"But I didn't expect ......"

At this point, the girl's murmuring finally stopped.

She wore slippers and sat in the dark corridor for a long time in silence before she sniffed sharply, raised her hand to silently wipe away the cold tears on her cheeks, and said calmly into her mobile phone: "But I didn't expect that I would become like this today." Without a word of notice, and even deliberately choosing to tell me about it before our trip was about to start, I could feel the humiliation they had given me. ”

“……”

The man on the other end of the line fell silent.

He listened quietly to the girl's long remark, and after two seconds he suddenly asked her a question.

"Do you know if sharks are solitary or social animals?"

Well?

After hearing this, Zheng Xiuyan, who was still immersed in sadness, couldn't help but be stunned.

Why did you suddenly talk about such a strange topic?

"A lot of people think of sharks as social animals, but they're not social animals, most of them like to be alone. ”

Before she could answer, the person on the other end of the phone answered on his own.

Zheng Xiuyan frowned involuntarily, her eyes were still slightly red, and she held her mobile phone and asked, "Ah, why are you suddenly saying this?"

"While it might make you a little angry to say that, the reason I say this is that I want you to be a shark. ”

Zheng Xiuyan was stunned again.

"Sharks are the dominant ones in the ocean, but did you know that sharks don't have swim bladders compared to other normal fish. ”

"Without a swim bladder, it has no way to control its own ups and downs, so it can only swim constantly throughout its life, and once it stops, it sinks to the bottom of the sea. ”

"It never stops, and it's because it never stops that it makes it strong. ”

"The reason why the shark is the hegemon is because it does not stop because of any difficulty, because it is constantly moving forward that makes it strong. ”

"So, I want you to be a 'shark'. ”

The man's voice became very gentle and calm on the other end of the phone, and he said softly to the girl through the phone, "Now, do you understand what I mean?"

There was some inexplicable silence on the phone.

It wasn't until I don't know how long later that Zheng Xiuyan suddenly came back to her senses.

She pursed her mouth tightly, hugged her legs and buried her face, and muttered quietly: "I don't know what you want to do when you suddenly say such a paragraph that seems to be very inspirational......

"Hahaha. ”

The man on the other end of the phone laughed heartily, but he didn't look embarrassed, and if it was a familiar person standing aside at this time, he would definitely be extremely surprised by the smile on his face.

In their respective lives, both of them are cold-faced people in the eyes of people.

But who knows what is really hot in their hearts?

"Actually, you know what I mean, right? Put it down as soon as possible, and look forward, you know that there are many people who have stopped because of one obstacle in their lives, and then sank to the bottom of the sea like sharks that no longer swim. ”

After hearing the man's words, Zheng Xiuyan raised her hand and rubbed her hair irritably, and muttered angrily, "It's easy for you to say it." Don't you understand what I said......? I treat them like sisters, and if the object is my own family, can you still talk about the past?"

"When I was six years old, my mom died. ”

A sentence rang coldly on the other end of the phone, directly blocking Zheng Xiuyan's words back to her mouth.

She blinked in a daze, then clenched her phone without saying a word.

"Strictly speaking, I don't have a father. So after my mom died, I became an orphan in the legal sense. But luckily, I wasn't too immersed in grief at that time. ”

"Honestly, I don't know why I remember the memories at the time, and I don't know what I thought at the time, but I just ...... It didn't take long to cheer up. Then, even more fortunately, I met my adoptive father, who and his family made me who I am today. ”

Having said this, the man on the other end of the phone paused, he also pursed his lips, and after some consideration, he took the mobile phone and continued:

"Listen, Maomao. I don't say this to arouse your sympathy, nor do I want to compare yourself to you. I mean – at least, you haven't really lost anyone, and trust me, there's nothing worse in this world than the loss of life. ”

"Although you have a disagreement with them now, it doesn't mean that this disagreement will last forever, even if you leave, they are still there, and you will have the opportunity to go to them again sooner or later. ”

"Leaving that company doesn't mean your career is over, don't forget, you're still an artist, you're still an artist, Jessica, no one can take away this. ”

"What you experienced tonight was just being forced to leave your old work environment and a group of good friends. ”

"However, the work environment can be found again, and the flawed friendship can be repaired later. ”

"I'll admit that something terrible happened to you today, but trust me, it's not really that bad. ”

"The most important thing you should do now is to pull yourself together. ”

"I heard Xiujing say that you are a proud person in your heart, you should not want people to see your embarrassment, right? Because the past can't be changed, you should think about the future now!"

The man's last words echoed in Zheng Xiuyan's mind like a thunderbolt.

She sat blankly on the stairs of the staircase.

After a while, she took a deep breath and said in a voice that finally had a hint of crying, "OPPA...... Do you know what the name 'Girls' Generation means to me?"

"I'll just ask one question, now you, if you have the chance, do you still want to go back to that group?"

Suddenly, the man's question stunned her again.

She couldn't speak at all for a moment.

"If you don't want to go back, then whatever that name means to you, it doesn't mean anything now! and if you want to go back...... Yes, but I want you to cheer up first, and when you're ready to face that crowd, try to go back, and I'll help you. ”

Can I help you?

Jung so-yeon put her phone to her ear.

After a moment, she lowered her head and raised her hand to wipe her tears with a silent movement on the other end of the phone that she didn't know about.

However, this time the tears could not be stopped......

The time when a person really feels sad is not the moment when she is sad alone to the point of numbness, but when she thinks that the whole world has turned away from her, but a hand reaches out and grasps her firmly.

“OPPA。 ”

"Huh?"

"Are you a shark too?"

The man was stunned for a moment, followed closely, and a smile appeared on his lips.

He held his phone and nodded in response, "Hmm." Me too. Therefore, it is not easy for two lone sharks to meet each other. It is not easy for me to comfort people once, and I hope that someone will not live up to my persuasion. ”

Sitting in the dark corridor, the corners of Zheng Xiuyan's mouth couldn't stop rising, obviously there were tears in her eyes, but when she heard the smile in the man's words, she couldn't help laughing.

When two lone sharks come together, it's certainly worth laughing about.

"I'm actually still sad, but ...... For these words of yours OPPA, I am grateful, really. Zheng Xiuyan said this very seriously with her mobile phone.

She didn't expect that after experiencing that incident, the first person in the world to give her warmth was actually an ignorant and masked "stranger".

As she said, she was grateful to him, not only for his words, but also for the sincere care in his words.

"Speaking of which, OPPA, how did you know so quickly that I was discharged from the group?"

After getting acquainted with each other, Zheng Xiuyan didn't have any worries when she spoke, she blinked her eyes that were still slightly red and swollen, and held her mobile phone curiously.

"Oh, of course it's because I'm your 'OPPA'. ”

The man on the other end of the phone said a witty thing that could be regarded as an avoidance, and Zheng Xiuyan wrinkled her nose when she heard this, but she also laughed again.

In any case, his appearance is an extremely happy thing for her.

"Oh, I guess we'll be back in the U.S. in a few days, and when the time comes, how about we meet?" Zheng Xiuyan suggested with interest.

Unexpectedly, the man smiled and said, "No." ”

"Why?"

"Because I'm going back to Korea tomorrow. ”

Zheng Xiuyan was stunned.