The 117th morning light Have you ever loved me?
Shi Chuxi finished packing up his things and left the room without looking back.
The man didn't follow, she exhaled, and there was a soft sand under her feet, so she couldn't help but take off her shoes and carry them in her hands, and walked barefoot on the beach.
The sand here is softer than the beach in front of the estate, the sun is less dazzling, and the scenery is indeed more pleasant.
But these were far from alleviating her boredom.
Looking left and right, the closest to her on the beach was a mother and son, playing surfing in the waves, the little boy was about fifteen or sixteen years old, not afraid of surfing at all, and his mother was applauding and cheering beside him.
She retracted her gaze and picked up her phone to dial the number with confidence.
……
The wind blew on the beach for more than an hour before she returned to the sea view room.
The man was still in the room, and he had just finished a phone call, looking at her with bottomless eyes.
"Something you want to tell me?" she looked at him calmly.
"Well, there's good news for you. His thin lips hooked into a charming smile, his tone was low and lazy, and his steps approached her like a cheetah staring at its prey.
She trembled all over, and subconsciously retreated until there was a corner behind her, and there was no way back.
The last time he spoke like this, it was when he announced Rong Xixi's failure, and this time when he said such things again, with the same smile, she had already guessed something.
It's nothing more than another person who wants to help her who has failed again.
"What happened to Jiang Mucheng?" she asked, her lips trembling.
His stature was too tall, and in this small space he completely enveloped her, and the smile on his handsome facial features was fatally dangerous, "A man who seduced my wife, wanted to get her to divorce me, and helped her secretly find a divorce lawyer, what do you think I will do with him?"
"You won't do anything to him. She quickly lifted her chin and smiled firmly, "He's a partner of the Blackwing Group, if you kill him like you did to my family." The money you invest will be wasted, oh, by the way, there is one more thing you don't dare to do to him, although the relationship between him and his half-brother Jiang Yang is not good, they are brothers after all, Jiang Yang has a military background behind him, you don't dare to touch the people of the Jiang family. ”
His unfathomable eyes looked down on her, "Very good, you are sure that I don't dare to take him, huh?"
She looked up at him slightly, "I'm just thinking from your standpoint. Isn't it above all else in your eyes? If Jiang Mucheng is moved, it will do you a lot of harm and no benefit to the Black Wing Group. ”
"Oh, since you know me so well, why don't you guess what I'll do with him?"
She was suddenly silenced, not daring to say any more.
Jin Heng's face was like a brief calm before a blizzard, and he raised his hand to grab her chin, "Actually, to teach a person, there are a hundred ways to not be fatal and not hurt yourself, do you want to see how I deal with him?"
"Don't!" she bit her lower lip. I don't know if it's panic or emotional tension, I grabbed his sleeve tightly, and looked incoherent, "He just wanted to help me, and he didn't do any substantial harm to you, I never cared about you when you found other women or had an affair with them, do you think you're so fair?"
"You want to be fair with me?" he laughed, the harder his hand became, "I'm sorry to tell you that there is no such thing as fair in my dictionary." ”
"Jin Heng, since you don't love me and refuse to let me go easily, then if you want this marriage to last for a long time, you and I have to play our own games. ”
"Say it again. ”
Her eyes moved slightly, she looked up at the flowering board, and repeated calmly, "I said, there is no need to spend the honeymoon, you and I will play our own games in private from now on." ”
"To each his own?"
"Yes, I'm so young, it's impossible to waste a good time in my life on you alone, in the future, I will still find someone who loves me and loves me to marry for the rest of my life. As for you, you can also use this time to look for other Bai Fumei, country F is not suitable, you can go to a few neighboring countries next door to find it. Like we said last night, when you find the right one, we will divorce. ”
There was a few seconds of dead silence in the room.
"Fang Yuan, you really impress me!" his eyes shrank heavily, and his heavy eyes seemed to eat her, "I've spent so much time on you, and I haven't gotten tired of playing with you, so I can't help you plan for me what I'm going to do next." ”
"That's what you promised me!" she widened, "You told me so well last night, you can't talk and don't count!"
"I was drunk last night and don't remember anything. ”
"Jin Heng, are you ...... It's vile and shameless!"
Her body was pulled from the corner to the air, and her whole person was pressed against the cold and transparent floor-to-ceiling window, her angular face was close at hand, shrouded in a layer of ice slag, "I am not the only one who is despicable and shameless, how are you better than me? Last night you told me that there is only half a year left in the one-year contract, who is more despicable and shameless?"
The man's hand gradually grabbed her neck, she couldn't breathe, and her hands desperately tried to break his hand, but she couldn't move.
He looked at her flushed face expressionlessly, and the next second he let go of his big hand, and coldly watched her leaning against the floor-to-ceiling window and breathing heavily.
"In a word, you immediately draw a line with Jiang Mucheng, if I find out that you are secretly dealing with him, even if he breaks his arm or leg, it will not affect our cooperation project. ”
"Ahem......" She coughed for a while, and when her breath calmed down, she squeezed out a voice from her throat and said: "The boundary between me and the opposite sex has always been very clear, I respect marriage and will not cheat in marriage." But you, since you don't love me, and you don't care about my love, then don't care which of the opposite sex I'm connected to, it's a lot, isn't it?"
"You can think of this. He was indifferent to her cynicism, and suddenly pressed her lips to the flap of her lips, and spoke slowly and hoarsely, "It can also be assumed that I only allow the governor to set fires and not allow the people to light lamps, in short, in this marriage, all the rules are up to me." If I say wrong, I will be wrong, and if I say that you are not allowed to have dealings with Jiang Mucheng, you are not allowed to have dealings! You have no other choice but to obey!"
She opened her eyes wide again, her lips and shoulders trembled in unison, "Jin Heng, you are shameless!"
He sneered: "I'm shameless, you don't love me all the way you love me to death or live." ”
"Who loves you, I don't love you!"
"Then who do you love?" he began to bite her lip with his teeth, as long as she struggled a little, she would bite more than a point, without pity, her eyebrows and eyes were fierce, and her thin lips were frosted: "Are you still thinking about Bo Yunshen? A non-existent man is so worthy of your nostalgia?"
"Yes, I know he doesn't exist, but I just love him because he's my husband. I love all of him, I love his tenderness, I love his thoughtfulness, I love the way he cooks, I love his distress and I kiss my expression...... You're not him at all, and you'll never be him!"
"Yuanyuan, I asked you to be well-behaved, but you didn't listen, why do you have to love a man who doesn't exist, why do you have to force me to be angry?"
The man's face was gloomy to the point of almost distorting, and his big hands tore at her clothes, just as rough and brute force, revealing a frenzy that wanted to tear everything apart.
"Jin Heng. You're a psychopath, you're a pervert! You go away, go away, go away!" she scolded him without thinking, scuffling and making a lot of noise under him, hiding her face and refusing to let him kiss him.
He gasped and looked down at her, the corners of his lips curling colder, ripping off the last of her garments, and getting straight to the point in her incredulous eyes.
His eyes were too cold, his movements were cold and mechanical, and there was no chance of stopping or buffering her.
The two of them were in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, not even the curtains were drawn, and at night, outside the floor-to-ceiling window was a white soft sand, and the laughter of tourists was faintly heard on the beach in the distance.
How could he do this to her?
What if someone sees it?
What did he think of her, a woman?
Shame and pain mingled with each other, and all her tears welled up at once.
All night, endless pestering.
At two o'clock in the morning, she glanced out of the floor-to-ceiling window before she fainted, thunder and lightning, pouring inch, and smiling bitterly, which is probably the difference between not loving women and holding women in the palm of her hand.
……
It's past three o'clock in the morning.
She woke up from a nightmare.
Looking up and touching the cold sweat on her forehead, she sat up, like a crushed body with a tearing pain.
Biting her lip and enduring the pain, she saw the man lying beside her.
The lightning that constantly flashed illuminated the entire room from time to time, and also illuminated his handsome facial features like the face of a devil.
She stared blankly for a long time, got out of bed barefoot, and silently went into the bathroom to wash her body.
The light in the room was dim, and I could barely see clearly.
Not daring to sleep again, she lightly found a white T-shirt and a skirt to change into, and no longer had the strength to sit on the carpet to rest.
Suddenly remembering something, despite the pain, my legs struggled to rummage through my bag, and there was a box of medicine in the innermost compartment.
Before she came, she quietly made preparations, dug two and put them in her mouth, and stopped at the last moment, she forgot to pour water.
The lights in the room turned on instantly, and the blinding light made her subconsciously close her eyes and hide.
"What are you eating?" the man silently got out of bed and snatched the pill from her hand.
She opened her eyes, adjusted to the light, and calmly replied, "I don't want children." ”
Without saying a word, he took the pills to the bathroom along with the box in her bag, and in a blink of an eye he heard the sound of flushing the toilet, apparently he had thrown all the pills away.
She was still sitting on the carpet, her long hair hanging down.
He walked a few steps towards her.
She heard footsteps. Subconsciously move your body backwards.
He narrowed his eyes condescendingly, smiling rather than smiling, "Don't you want to give birth? If I'm not mistaken, last night was your time of danger. ”
Her body trembled slightly, her red eyes looked down at her white toes, and she asked lightly, "Did you really never love me?"
"Xixi. ”
Hearing him couldn't help but call her the original name, she forgot to cry for a while, looked at him with a confused face, begging with persecution: "Whether you are Jin Heng or Bo Yunshen, I don't care, I just want to know an answer, have you ever loved me?"
His fingertips ran over her tear-filled cheeks: "You love me enough." I will be good to you for the rest of my life, although I can't be like Bo Yunshen, but at least I will give you the best of everything, so that you can live this life without worry. ”
"What you say, even if I leave you, I will still get it. I'll ask you one last time, have you ever loved me?"
His fingers paused, slowly falling, and the whole person fell silent.
"Yuanyuan. His voice was cold again, "You already know the answer, there's no need to ask me again and again." ”
She sniffed involuntarily and clenched her hands into fists. She quickly let go again, she wanted to hold something, but her palm was empty, she didn't hold anything, and her pale face smiled coldly, "Well, I'll also tell you an answer, unless you love me, I won't give you a baby." ”
The man in the dark did not hesitate, and said directly: "Then you can't have children in this life." ”
It was like a cold knife stabbing into the heart suddenly.
She looked up at him, her watery eyes open to the maximum, hollow and lonely.
A few seconds later. She lowered her eyes, her body no longer trembled, and her tone was coherent, "Very good, thank you for telling me the truth." ”
The man bent down, his sturdy long arms picked up her light body without saying a word, lowered his head and bit her ear, and his deep voice was hoarse and sexy, "It was you who reminded me that you didn't get pregnant during the dangerous period last month, maybe you did too little, and I have to do it a few more times this time." There will always be a success. ”
"Don't!" her face changed drastically, almost screaming, "Jin Heng, if you dare to mess around again, I will kill you." ”
However, the reality is like this, she is a woman, and women are born to be inferior to men in physique, and in the end they can only be succeeded by him.
She kept scolding him, scolding until her throat was hoarse.
He refused to carry her to the bed, and remained in this position on the carpet.
It rained all night, lightning and thunder. It's like playing mourning music for what happened to her.
All is calm.
Her hair was messy, her legs were shaking as she stood on the ground, and she watched feebly at the man in his shirt in the morning light, without even looking at her, as if she was just a tool to vent.
He doesn't love her......
She couldn't lie to herself anymore, for so long, she had been trying to get that Bo Yunshen back from him, and this time she saw that it was impossible.
It's really impossible.
She bit her lip tightly, not wanting to cry, but uncontrollable tears fell down.
Looking down and looking for the clothes that had been thrown on the ground, she pulled open the door and ran out, ignoring the pain everywhere on her body.
The man's eyebrows were cold. Didn't chase it out like yesterday.
……
Shi Chuxi didn't run far, in fact, Jin Heng also expected that she wouldn't be able to finish running, she didn't have a mobile phone with her, she didn't have a wallet, she didn't know her life, except for wandering outside, she would eventually return to the room.
She sat down on the edge of the beach in a daze, the waves ebbing and going, rushing past her feet and back again.
The sun rises in the east, the sea is dyed red, and everything looks so vibrant.
Watch a sunrise like this. She suddenly felt that maybe her life wasn't so bad, and that the previous layout could still continue.
The difference is that this time she will not have the slightest soft-heartedness.
When the sunrise was fully reflected on the sea, she got up from the sand and walked barefoot in the direction she had walked in the soft sand.
……
When Chu Xi entered the presidential suite according to her fingerprints, the man was just about to go out in a hurry, and she passed him without squinting.
His gaze fell on her, and his footsteps stopped, and his big hand grabbed her arm, and pulled him to him: "Why are your hands so cold?"
She didn't look at him, and she didn't have any expression, and replied lightly: "It's not cold." ”
His Adam's apple rolled. As if to say something, I looked at her for a long time, and finally just said, "Come with me to eat something, and then come back to sleep." ”
She only said four words: "You let go of me, I'll go by myself." ”
He didn't mind her coldness, as if they had never quarreled, and he didn't torture her all night, he casually picked up his coat and draped it over her, "If you don't feel well, sleep for a while, I'll go get some food, and then wake you up to eat." ”
She didn't say it was good, and she didn't say it was bad.
He picked her up and went back to the bedroom, put her on the bed, covered her with a quilt, leaned over and kissed her on the forehead, "Sleep." ”
She closed her eyes for a moment, and the man had not left, as if he was standing by the bed and watching her for a while, and then the breath gradually faded.
The room was calm.
She didn't open her eyes.
She's really sleepy.
Need for sleep.
After falling asleep this night, she slept for a whole day, and when she opened her eyes again, it was dark outside, and her head was a little heavy, as if she had a fever.
I remember that during the day she was woken up by him to eat or be fed medicine. I don't remember the specifics, but she fell asleep after eating, like she couldn't sleep enough.
The next day, she was still the same.
On the third day, she was in better spirits, the burn seemed to have subsided, and she was the only one in the room when she woke up, the floor-to-ceiling windows and curtains were closed, and she could vaguely hear the sound of people playing in the water and laughing on the beach outside.
Den.
The man was in the middle of a video conference when he saw a delicate figure flashing at the door, hurriedly ended the meeting, got up and followed.
Shi Chuxi didn't walk fast. Kicking the pebbles under my feet, I don't know what I'm thinking.
In the past two days, her spirits have gradually improved, but most of them don't like to talk, and he wants to take her out to sea to play, or to fight Erfu, but she refuses.
He took a few steps forward, looked at her face that seemed to have lost a lot of weight, and even the size of a slap, and slowly opened his mouth: "Yuanyuan, will I take you to the second stop of your honeymoon tomorrow, do you want to go to Barcelona where you want to go the most?"
Her slender curly eyelashes moved, and sure enough, she raised her face and said without thinking, "Yes." I'm going to Barcelona. ”
His thin lips pursed into a straight line, "Then you go and pack your bags that afternoon." ”
"Good. There was a clear glimmer of brilliance and anticipation in her voice.
At noon, after lunch, she began to pack her things.
Busy before and after, carefully arranging everything into a few large suitcases, without the help of the maid, she actually did it in an orderly manner, messy but not messy.
That night, Shi Chuxi went to bed early.
Jin Heng returned to the bedroom after handling things, and she no longer slept alone in the corner, but slept in the middle of the bed.
He went to bed quietly, his long arms holding her in his arms. She had always slept lightly, but she just moved, obviously as if she knew he was hugging her, but she didn't resist.
In the middle of the night, she seemed to be frightened in her arms, and began to murmur in a low voice, "Don't ...... Don't fail to ...... Not ......"
The sound was low and indistinct.
He thought she was still having nightmares about that night, and the next moment his hand rested on her back.
"Don't ...... Don't take my dad...... Father...... Elder brother...... Wake up...... Don't leave me alone...... No...... Don't leave me behind...... Don't leave me behind......"
Tears fell from his closed eyes, his eyelashes were wet, and the sound of sobbing was even more pitiful.
Her hand unconsciously grabbed his pajamas.
Since the two of them had fallen out, he would occasionally hear her having nightmares in the middle of the night, and never once had her voice been so clear.
"Don't, don't go, Mom!"
She struck a spirit, as if she was awake.
Shortness of breath and disordered, trapped in a nightmare and not coming back to his senses for a while.
His fingertips cupped her jaw, his eyes were unfocused, and his whole person was pitifully vulnerable.
Jin Heng hugged her tightly in his arms and gently comforted her: "It's okay, it's okay, I'm ...... with me."
Her voice was still sobbing, and her fingers were grabbing the hem of his shirt harder.
He ran his fingers through the tears on her face, waited for her to finally calm down, and asked her in a low voice, "Have a nightmare?"
"Hmm......" she nodded slowly.
His eyes quietly crossed the undercurrent, and kissed her sweaty forehead, "Dreams are reversed, don't think too much, empty your brain, and then forget all the nightmares." ”
Seeing her lose her soul, a pair of eyes still didn't gather much, not only did not reject his intimate hug, but also buried her little face deep into his arms, as if she was very dependent on him at this moment.
He didn't ask her again, and quietly put his arms around her.
It took a long time for her emotions to calm down, and she nestled in his arms from tense to relaxed to deep sleep.
Her family......
He meditated in his heart, slowly closed his eyes, and did not move again. I kept this position all night.
……
The first rays of the morning sun entered the room with the sound of the waves, and the little figure curled up in the wide arms on the bed woke up.
Shi Chuxi's eyes widened and he met the man's bloodshot black eyes, and a blind person could see that he seemed to have not slept all night.
She turned her face away, tried to withdraw from his arms, and said lightly, "Why don't you wake me up, or let me go?"
His unconscious body, stiff to the point of non-consciousness, finally moved, and his handsome face reverted to an indifferent appearance, and he rolled over and got out of bed.
On the beach.
Jin Heng received a call from Fu Ling.
"The Herschel Castle you're looking for has been found. ”
"Where?"
"Where else could it be, in your woman's hands. ”
Jin Heng held the phone in one hand and put the other in his pocket, "Impossible." ”
"How could it be impossible?" Fu Ling said with a nonchalant smile, "Earlier, we all thought that Fang Ning had put the title deed of the castle in the safe of the Swiss bank. I spent a lot of effort to check, and found that Fang Ning only had money and no title deeds there. I checked from the people around her one by one, even her first boyfriend, and finally found the head of the director of the welfare home. ”
"Heh, you're stupid and blame others?"
Fu Ling couldn't afford to be looked down upon by him like this, and cursed: "Jin Heng, do you still want that castle anymore?