Chapter 180: Just let it be
New Year, in the countdown bell, as scheduled, in the military commission compound to accompany Chief Xu and his wife to spend the first day of the new year, the second morning of the New Year, after breakfast together, Jian Yi and Xu Tingrui took Xiao Yi to the capital.
Kou Mingyan's case, although it has not been tried for a long time, but the fact that others are in the detention center cannot be changed, plus Li Yazi was deported to Switzerland, this year's New Year, the Kou family is destined to be much colder, because of this, therefore, on the second day of the New Year, Jian Yi and they went to the capital.
You must know that he went to Kou's house on the second day of the New Year, and as a son, it was the first time for Xu Tingrui to have a history.
Although the eldest sister and the second sister of the Kou family are both celebrating the New Year in the Kou family, and the third sister of the Kou family also rushed back to the Kou family on the second day of the New Year, the Kou family looks quite lively on the surface, but the most concerned thing in the heart of the old man Kou is always Xu Tingrui, the only son of the Kou family now.
Although the old man Kou never said it, and never asked Xu Tingrui to go back to Kou's house to accompany him for the New Year as a son, how could the three sisters of the Kou family not know, so before the Chinese New Year, the three sisters took turns to call Jian Yi, so that Jian Yi was speechless during the New Year, how to persuade Xu Tingrui, and they took Xiao Yi back to Kou's house together.
But in fact, Xu Tingrui was not as difficult as the three sisters of the Kou family imagined, two days before the Chinese New Year, Jian Yi just mentioned it to him a little, and he readily agreed.
Naturally, Chief Xu and Tang Qiuwan did not have any objection to their going to Kou's house in the capital on the second day of the New Year, but were quite supportive.
Set off in the morning, and when they arrived at the Kou family's mansion, it was just lunch time, because before the Chinese New Year, they knew that they were going to come on the second day of the New Year, so the three sisters of the Kou family had already arranged everything properly, and when they arrived at the Kou family's mansion, a sumptuous lunch was served on the table, and a large family gathered around the big dining table, talking and laughing while eating, so happy and lively.
After lunch, everyone sat together and chatted for a while, and then, Jian Yi and Xu Tingrui took Xiao Yi to the cemetery to see Jian Ruoru.
Originally, the old man Kou and the three sisters of the Kou family were going to go together, after all, they were in-laws, although they were gone, but it was normal to go to sweep the tomb of their in-laws and pay respects.
However, he was ruthlessly rejected by Xu Tingrui, because he knew that when Jian Yi went to see Jian Ruoru, he must have a lot to say to Jian Ruoru, especially about Li Yuanming's father, so he didn't want everyone to join in the fun.
"Dad and eldest sister, they are going to pay homage to my mother, and it is also out of good intentions, if you don't let them go with them so directly, will they feel uncomfortable, right?" got into the car, the car started, and Jian Yi glanced at Xu Tingrui.
Xu Tingrui buckled the seat belt of the safety chair for Xiao Yi, and then directly hugged Jian Yi beside him into his arms, hooked his lips and smiled, "It doesn't matter if they feel comfortable or not, the important thing is that my wife is comfortable." ”
Jane Yi, "......."
In the future, she must not question Xu Tingrui's arrogance and unreasonableness, because his arrogance and unreasonableness are likely to be because of her.
The car, soon on the highway, Jian Yi was a little sleepy, leaned on Xu Tingrui's arms, and fell asleep unconsciously, and when she felt the speed of the car drop down, and when she opened her eyes and woke up, it happened that the car drove into the cemetery, gradually drove to the location of the parking lot, and stopped.
"Mom, are we going to see Grandma soon?" Xiao Yi, like Jian Yi, also slept a little, the car stopped, he also woke up, rubbed his sleepy eyes, and asked Jian Yi in a milky voice.
"Hmm!" Jian Yi nodded, "We're here, come, get off!"
Saying that, Jian Yi took Xiao Yi's hat and scarf, went to put it on him, tied it, Xu Tingrui just took her scarf, wrapped it around her, and then got out of the car.
Because the car was too warm, and she just woke up, so after getting out of the car, a cold wind blew, and Jian Yi couldn't suppress a shiver, Xu Tingrui saw it, and immediately took a cashmere shawl from the car and draped it on her body, and then, one picked up Xiao Yi, put a long arm around her, lowered his head to kiss her forehead, and asked softly, "Is it still cold?"
"Dad, I'm not cold. Xiao Yi looked at the two of them and immediately replied crisply.
Jian Yi smiled brightly and shook her head, "Your body is a furnace, and it won't be cold at all when you hold it." ”
Looking at the little woman in his arms, for her words, Xu Tingrui hooked his lips and smiled quite satisfied, and went to bow his head and kiss her forehead, "Then let's go!"
"Hmm. ”
Holding Jian Yi in their arms, the family of three walked up the mountain while talking, and after walking for about a quarter of an hour, they came to Jian Ruoru's tombstone.
In fact, when she hadn't approached yet, from a distance, Jian Yi saw something in front of Jian Ruoru's tombstone, and when she got closer, she realized that it was a bunch of lavender.
Looking at the bouquet of lavender, which was actually not very good-looking, Jian Yi's eyebrows frowned slightly, and an indescribable feeling immediately surged in her heart.
Because she knew that among so many flowers and plants in the world, her mother loved only lavender.
Knowing that her mother loved lavender, that was the person.......
"It's another bunch of lavender, won't it still be that person!" At this time, an uncle who was cleaning the cemetery came over and couldn't help but sigh when he saw the purple lavender placed in front of Jian Ruoru's tombstone.
Because of the Chinese New Year, there are more people who come to sweep the tomb and pay respects, so even during the New Year, there are people cleaning the cemetery.
"Which person?" Looking at the uncle who was cleaning the cemetery, Jian Yi hadn't opened her mouth to ask, and Xu Tingrui took the lead in asking for her.
The cleaning uncle looked at Jian Yi and the family of three, from their compelling luxury and the bodyguards and servants who followed behind him, he knew that their identities must not be simple, so the cleaning uncle smiled and replied patiently and friendly, "In the past few weeks, a middle-aged man has come to this tombstone every day with a bunch of lavender, and he stays for several hours every day, and this bunch of lavender is estimated to have been left yesterday." ”
After listening, Xu Tingrui bowed his head and said politely, "Got it, thank you old man." ”
"You're welcome!" said the cleaning uncle, taking away the bunch of lavender in front of Jian Ruoru's tombstone, throwing it into the garbage truck, and then pushing the garbage truck and leaving.
Jian Yi stood in front of the tombstone, looking at the somewhat rickety back of the cleaning uncle who was gradually walking away, and her eyebrows gradually frowned.
Actually, without the uncle saying it, she could guess who the person who took the lavender to see Jian Ruoru was.
Except for Li Yuanming, there should be no one else!
Without saying anything, as if she didn't know anything, Jian Yi took a bouquet of daisies from the hands of the servant behind her, knelt down on one knee in front of the tombstone, looked at Jian Ruoru on the tombstone, and said with a slight smile, "Mom, Ting Rui and I took Xiao Yi to see you!"
"Grandma, my parents and I are here again, are you here alone?" Xiao Yi stood beside Jian Yi, also looked at Jian Ruoru on the tombstone, and spoke softly, and then took out some of his favorite candy from his pocket, put it in front of the tombstone, and grinned, "Grandma, this is the candy I brought you, it's delicious, you can try it!"
Jian Yi looked at her sensible son beside her, raised the corners of her lips happily and smiled, "The candy that Xiao Yi gave to grandma, grandma will definitely like it very much." ”
"Mother-in-law, in two months, you will be a grandmother again, although you can rest assured, I will definitely take care of Jian Yi and their mother and son. Xu Tingrui was on the other side of Jian Yi, and he also knelt down on one knee beside Jian Yi, and stroked Jian Yi's high bulging leather with his big palm.
"Grandma, my mother will give me a younger brother, are you happy?" Looking at Jian Ruoru on the tombstone, Xiao Yi said happily, although no doctor explicitly told them that the baby that Jian Yi was pregnant with was a boy, but everyone automatically acquiesced that what she was pregnant with was a boy, and even Jian Yi herself sometimes felt that she was pregnant with a boy.
Jian Yi glanced at Xiao Yi and couldn't help but raise her lips and smile, "Grandma is very happy, grandma likes children the most, especially like Xiao Yi." ”
"Hee-hee....... I also like my grandmother the most, because my grandmother gave birth to my mother, and then my mother gave birth to me. ”
"Yes, your grandmother is the greatest, she gave birth to your mother, and then your mother gave birth to you, and I also have a wife, and I became a father. Across Jian Yi, Xu Tingrui looked at Xiao Yi, and the father and son patted their asses together without a trace.
Jian Yi listened to the words of the two of them, quite speechless, but the smile on her face was so bright and bright that people couldn't take their eyes off.
Not far away, more than ten meters away, Li Yuanming stood there in a daze, holding a bunch of purple lavender in his hand, looking at the incomparably happy family of three in front of Jian Ruoru's tombstone, and the smile on Jian Yi's face like a summer flower.
Presumably, this is the picture that Jian Ruoru wants to see the most!
If it weren't for his distrust back then, then Jian Ruoru must still be alive now, everything would definitely be a completely different scene.
It's just that there are no ifs.
It was he who was wrong, it was his unfirmness and distrust that caused all their misfortunes and tragedies, if there is an afterlife, he is willing to stay by Jian Ruoru's side for the rest of his life, life after life, to repay the love and debt owed in this life.
In front of the tombstone, Xu Tingrui felt two scrutinizing glances, lifted his eyes to look in the direction where the two gazes came, and when he saw Li Yuanming standing more than ten meters away, he nodded slightly and greeted Li Yuanming.
In fact, from an outsider's point of view, he sympathizes with Li Yuanming, after all, he is also a victim of the incident, but thinking from Jian Yi's point of view, Li Yuanming is indeed not worthy of forgiveness.
Because although Li Yuanming loved Jian Ruoru, he didn't give her 100% After Jian Ruoru was insulted by the accident, not only did he not find out why Jian Ruoru suddenly slept with other men, but resolutely chose to escape and leave, and did not listen to any explanation of Jian Ruoru, did not understand the truth, it can be said that he willingly walked into the conspiracy designed by Zhou Min, completely gave up Jian Ruoru, and when Jian Ruoru came to him again with the child, he still did not believe that the child was his.
Perhaps, there were various reasons why Li Yuanming didn't believe it at that time, but even if his feelings for Jian Ruoru were a little firmer, it would not be the consequence like today.
Therefore, it confirms that sentence, poor people must have something to hate, even if it is him Li Yuanming.
What's more, as Jian Yi's husband, no matter whether it is right or wrong, right or wrong, he will definitely stand by Jian Yi's side unconditionally and maintain a highly consistent position with her.
Jian Yi, who was originally talking to the tombstone, found that Xu Tingrui was not quite right, and also turned her head sideways, and looked along his line of sight, when she saw Li Yuanming, who was standing more than ten meters away with a bunch of lavender and didn't seem to dare to approach, Jian Yi's eyes did not have many emotional fluctuations, as if she hadn't seen anything, but after a glance, she withdrew her gaze, looked at Jian Ruoru on the tombstone, smiled slightly and said lightly, "Mom, he's here! These days, he has come to see you, the lavender he gave you, do you still like it?"
"Hey, Second Grandpa!" Xiao Yi heard Jian Yi say "He's here", he was very curious, looked sideways, and saw Li Yuanming not far away, his big black eyes immediately flashed with countless curiosity and confusion, and then ran towards Li Yuanming, shouting happily, "Second Grandpa, why are you here, are you also here to see my grandmother?"
Li Yuanming looked at Xiao Yi in front of him, smiled lovingly, leaned down, hugged Xiao Yi, and nodded, "Well, the second grandfather also came to see Xiao Yi's grandmother." ”
"How did the second grandfather know my grandmother, my mother said that my grandmother had passed away for a long time, and my grandmother passed away before I was born. Xiao Yi was puzzled, and asked Li Yuanming with big black eyes.
Li Yuanming curled the corners of his lips and smiled, narrowed his sour eyes slightly and said, "Because Xiao Yi's grandmother is the second grandfather's favorite person, a long, long time ago, the second grandfather knew Xiao Yi's grandmother. ”
Xiao Yi looked at Li Yuanming, furrowed his brows and thought, he didn't seem to understand his words, but he didn't ask anything more.
Glancing at the confused Xiao Yi in his arms, Li Yuanming didn't say anything more, but hugged him and walked towards Jian Yi and Xu Tingrui.
"Tingrui, Yiyi. Walking over, Li Yuanming was the first to speak, looking at Xu Tingrui and Jian Yi calling them.
Xu Tingrui hooked his lips slightly and said politely, "Dong Li, Happy New Year!"
"My mother has been dead for so many years, you don't have to guard her every day, to atone for yourself, she can't feel it anymore. Originally, Xu Tingrui was the most mean and indifferent kind of person, but at this moment, looking at Li Yuanming, Jian Yi didn't know how many times more mean and indifferent than him.
Li Yuanming looked at Jian Yi, his thin lips opened lightly, and he wanted to say something, but in the end, he didn't say anything, just smiled lightly and lowered his head.
During this time in the capital, he personally learned a lot about Jian Ruoru and Jian Yi's mother and daughter, knew how their mother and daughter came over for so many years, and even more knew that after Jian Ruoru married the wealthy businessman Yu Sen, how Yu Sen abused Jian Ruoru, how he bullied Jian Yi's stepdaughter, and also knew what Jian Ruoru died for.
During this period of time in the capital, every piece of news he learned about Jian Ruoru and Jian Yi's mother and daughter was like a rusty needle, slowly drilling into the deepest part of his heart, the kind of pain and self-blame and guilt that pierced his heart and bones, tortured him completely unable to sleep, only after seeing Jian Ruoru every day, he would feel a little better in his heart.
"Mom, the second grandfather seems to be very sad, are you angry with him?Did the second grandfather do something wrong?" Xiao Yi stayed in Li Yuanming's arms, looked at Li Yuanming, who lowered his eyes and was full of sadness and self-blame, and then looked at Jian Yi, and asked with some anxiety.
Jian Yi looked at Xiao Yi, her eyebrows frowned slightly, and then she realized that what she said just now was indeed hurtful, so she tried her best to smile slightly, and said, "Mr. Li, in fact, except for the people who care about you, other people don't care about your sadness and self-blame at all, I have grown up, I have a family, I no longer need my father, my mother is long gone, and I no longer need a lover, so you don't need to be sad, let alone blame yourself, just don't know what to do, live like before, isn't it good?" From then on, I was just one stranger in my life. ”
- One more stranger!
Li Yuanming's eyebrows trembled slightly, as if his breath had been cut off.
Xu Tingrui listened to Jian Yi's words, and his good-looking eyebrows couldn't help but twist slightly, and he deeply felt that her words were like a sharp sword, directly inserted into Li Yuanming's heart.
Under the pressure of the dull pain in his heart, Li Yuanming raised his eyes and looked at Jian Yi, in those scarlet eyes, the tears of forbearance were turning, he said with great difficulty, "Yiyi, you can not forgive me, and you can not recognize me as a father, but please don't deprive me of the right to come to see your mother." ”
Looking at the huge pain in his eyes, as well as the difficult forbearance on his face, Jian Yi suddenly felt uncomfortable and sullen in his heart, as if he had blocked a ball of cotton.
"Xiao Yi, come down and say goodbye to grandma, let's go back, come to see grandma another day." She didn't want to make it uncomfortable for each other, so Jane Yi chose to leave first.
Xiao Yi looked at Jian Yi, and then at Li Yuanming, who was holding him, and suddenly hesitated, but Li Yuanming looked at Xiao Yi and smiled lovingly, "Xiao Yi is good, go back with your parents!"
As he spoke, he put Xiao Yi down.
"Hmm!" Xiao Yi agreed, "Then the second grandfather, Sister Xiao Shu and I will look for you another day." ”
"Okay, second grandpa is waiting for you. ”
"Hmm. Xiao Yi nodded heavily, then twisted to look at Jian Ruoru on the tombstone, waved his little hand and said, "Grandma, my parents and I are leaving, goodbye, we will come to see you another day." ”
"Mom, let's go. After saying a word to the tombstone, Jian Yi took Xiao Yi, then looked at Xu Tingrui, and said with a light smile, "Let's go!"
Xu Tingrui nodded, hugged her, and left the family of three together, but when he crossed Li Yuanming, he said two words to him very solemnly and sincerely, "Take care!"
Li Yuanming looked at the back of their family of three leaving, and his tears finally slipped down uncontrollably.
Because he knew that Jian Yi was not blaming him, but from the beginning to the present, Jian Yi had never thought of recognizing him as a father, and had never .......
"Husband, am I too ruthless and mean?"
On the car back, Jian Yi leaned back in the chair, raised her eyes to look at Xu Tingrui, and asked him with a somewhat self-deprecating smile.
Xu Tingrui grasped her slightly cool little hand, put it to his lips and kissed it, slightly twisted his good-looking eyebrows, nodded lightly and said, "It's not too ruthless and mean, but it's more ruthless and mean than I thought." ”
"So, when you left, you told him 'take care'?" Jian Yi didn't understand just now why Xu Tingrui said these two words to Li Yuanming, but now she understands.
Xu Tingrui smiled, and in front of Xiao Yi, he couldn't help but raise his hand to pinch the bridge of her delicate nose, "Actually, I'm really worried that Li Yuanming won't be able to hold on, so I finally chose to accompany my mother-in-law." ”
Jian Yi looked at him, couldn't help but be stunned, and her eyes widened slightly, "How could it be?
"Wrong!" Jian Yi's voice fell, Xu Tingrui immediately denied her and explained, "Actually, the relationship between Li Yuanming and Zhou Min has always been bad, Zhou Min was able to dig out his mind to frame his mother-in-law, then she must have spent a lot of effort to force Li Yuanming to take her, so even if he loses his memory and forgets his mother-in-law and you, his life with Zhou Min may not be better, otherwise, he will not have Hui Xiaoyu, a confidant." ”
In the extended carriage, Jian Yi looked at him, quietly listened to his analysis, and did not speak, even Xiao Yi, who was sitting opposite them, looked at the two of them very quietly, listening to them talking, silently, although there were a lot, Xiao Yi couldn't understand at all.
"Before, Li Dong has always had amnesia, but looking at his current situation, he should remember everything, so he will accompany his mother-in-law every day, in fact, he is not atoning for his sins, just missing, and he doesn't expect you to forgive him, what he hopes most is that you can live well. Seeing that Jian Yi didn't speak, Xu Tingrui continued to say lightly.
In fact, whether Jian Yi recognizes Li Yuanming's father or not, the impact on him is really minimal, and he doesn't need to care at all.
However, he cares about Jane Yi and cares about Jane Yi's mood.
As long as Jian Yi does not forgive Li Yuanming, the father, and does not accept him for a day, it proves that the knot in her heart has not been untied, and every time she sees Li Yuanming, she is bound to be sad, even if she does not show it on her face, but Xu Tingrui knows that she is sad in her heart.
"So, you want me to forgive him and accept him?" Xu Tingrui's meaning, although it was not so obvious, how could Jian Yi not see it and not understand it.
The longer they are with Xu Tingrui, the more tacit understanding they have between husband and wife, and many things don't need each other to speak at all, and they often only need a look to understand each other's meaning.
Perhaps, this is the so-called heart figuring out, the heart has a soul!
"No, wife!" Looking at Jian Yi, Xu Tingrui's deep black eyes were extremely gentle and serious, "I just hope that you will let yourself go, and don't use your mother-in-law as an excuse to torture and punish yourself, perhaps, your mother-in-law has already let go of everything and doesn't care anymore, after all, I believe that what your mother-in-law wants to see is that you can live happily, don't be entangled by the grievances and grievances of the previous generation, and don't be distressed and sad about it." ”
Jian Yi looked at Xu Tingrui, for a moment, his low and mellow and incomparably gentle voice, every word he said, like a sweet spring, slowly flowed into her heart and moistened her heart.
She didn't know why Xu Tingrui knew herself so well and saw herself so thoroughly, but she couldn't deny that what he said was right.
"Mom, if the second grandfather does something wrong, you can forgive him, the second grandfather must not mean it, don't you want to see the second grandfather the same as before, we are all happy?" Opposite them, Xiao Yi sat in the children's safety seat, looking at them with big black eyes, dangling two small short legs, joining Xu Tingrui's ranks, and persuading Jian Yi as if he didn't understand.
Jian Yi glanced at Xiao Yi opposite, and then looked at Xu Tingrui beside him, and then lowered his head, pulled the corners of his lips slightly, and smiled, but he didn't know what he was laughing at.
After laughing, she raised her head again, looked at Xu Tingrui and Xiao Yi, and nodded, "I know, but give me some more time!"
Let her accept Li Yuanming as a father now, she really can't do it.
Xu Tingrui hugged her, lowered his head to kiss the top of her hair, and said softly, "Wife, don't force yourself to do anything, you just need to figure it out and everything will go naturally." ”
"Well, good!"