Chapter 171: Atonement
I looked at the man's back, and I only felt that there were three flavors of true fire in my body, and a longing that I hadn't had for a long time was spreading in my heart like a vine.
I closed my eyes and lay on the bed, picked up the pillow and held it in my arms, rolling around, my fingers rubbing irritably between my hair, my vision obscured by the scattered hair.
"Hmm...... "I think it may be a fever, and wearing too much clothing causes a heat and cold?"
The sound of water in the bathroom was dripping, and what came to my mind was the man's broad, straight back, slender and straight legs, strong waist, and flat and tight lower abdomen...... And that handsome and resolute face......
The heat that had subsided hit me again, and I rolled over and touched a piece of firm skin with my arms in a random way.
Hmm, when did he come back? I don't know?
There was a beeping sound in his ears, as if he was on the phone, but as he was calling, there was a female voice prompting "The phone you dialed has been turned off".
I shook my head, thinking that maybe it was because of my high body temperature that I had actually gotten a little comfort from the other person.
Following this coolness, I unconsciously lay on the strong chest.
"You're done?" I had the illusion that I had gone back to three years ago, when we were still together.
He had just finished taking a shower, and he had the mint of the shower gel and the residual temperature of the cold water, and I was greedy and didn't want to let go.
Perhaps, I subconsciously blocked those barriers, perhaps, some impulse broke through the defenses of reason.
I didn't know, but emotion and reason were tearing each other apart, and I shook my head hard.
When I looked up, I saw those black eyes full of heat, emitting a blazing flame.
With a vestige of sanity, I propped up my upper body with my hands and tried to get up and tumble down, but ......
He looked straight at me, and the next second, I had an extra pair of iron tongs around my waist to stop me from leaving.
I wanted more and more, and my breath became shorter.
"Chu Qingchuan, don't ......" I want to push it away.
But he ignored me, and his dark eyes were unfathomable.
Even though I refused, my writhing body betrayed my reason.
"Yangyang, you miss me too, don't you?" he whispered in my ear.
I don't dare to admit it, subconsciously I feel that it shouldn't be like this, there are still a lot of misunderstandings between us that have not been clarified, he has not seriously apologized to me and admitted his mistakes, if he goes to bed like this, what is the matter?
I hurriedly reached out to grab his tight arm and murmured, "No, no. ”
However, I don't know that such a performance of anticipation and self-control has boosted men's eagerness even more.
How did I become so unfocused? I bit my lip in frustration, trying to maintain my sanity with pain.
However, Chu Qingchuan's gaze and expression at this time seemed to be stunned by something, and the emotions in his eyes were different than ever before, and they were overwhelmingly intense.
I feel more and more that something is wrong, is it because of alcohol?
At the same time, I suddenly remembered that Chu Qingchuan seemed to have scolded Ethan before leaving, saying that he was cheap?
So, could it be that Ethan did something in the wine?
After a brief shift in my attention, my brain cleared up a bit.
I turned my face away and didn't want to pay attention to him.
But he brazenly said to himself: "I don't deny it." I love it when you scold me. ”
His shamelessness has reached a qualitative change, and I sigh to myself.
Suddenly, a drop of sweat dripped down his toned chest muscles, like a drop of boiling water, hot and hot.
After a brief moment of soberness, I felt like I was terrible.
"I'm leaving. "I wanted to get up, but it still seemed to linger.
However, he looked dissatisfied, staring into my eyes: "Go?"
I was immediately glared at by him, as if he had taken advantage of others, crossing the river and demolishing the bridge, which was a little unkind, so I said righteously: "Then for the sake of fairness, I will wait for you to finish before leaving, and you don't go in." ”
His gaze locked on me was unfathomable, and the next second, I found myself holding my hand as he pulled it up.
"Don't!" I subconsciously refused.
"Are you sure?" he said in a threatening tone, his eyes a little dangerous, staring at my mouth.
I immediately sensed that something was wrong, and immediately silenced him, letting him hold it.
Immediately, he snorted, the green tendons on his neck protruded violently, and his teeth were clenched, as if he was enduring something.
His chest rose and fell violently, beads of sweat on his forehead, his cheeks were stained with a faint red tide, his dark eyes were staring at the scorching sun, and the scorching flames were burning.
Chu Qingchuan, you bastard!
I scolded and stared at him angrily, but I only saw his smug eyes, as if he was declaring war on me.
After a long time, he finally let me go.
I pursed my lips and struggled to get up, trying to get dressed and leave.
However, my legs hung on the edge of the bed, and I remembered that my pajamas were in the bathroom.
The head is still a little dizzy, and there seems to be an undercurrent in the body that is ready to go.
"You go. "I felt that it might be a bit dangerous for me to leave like this, so I changed my mind and ordered the man sitting at the head of the bed to get out of here.
"Good. He responded so happily?
I was a little surprised, but I felt a lot better.
Too lazy to bother with him, I accidentally saw the stain on my body when I looked down, so I got up and staggered and walked barefoot to the bathroom.
Before he could take a step, he was picked up by the person behind him.
"Put me down. I patted him on the shoulder.
"Let me take a shower before I go. When his low voice whispered in my ear, I felt as if there was a thin thread tugging at the nerves.
I was ashamed of myself and was bent on using cold water to extinguish the remaining flames.
"I'll wash first. I scramble.
"Okay, I'll carry you in. "He doesn't fight with me.
When I got to the bathroom door, I insisted on coming down and pushed him outside: "You are not allowed to come in!"
"Hmm. He stood deftly outside, and I walked into the translucent glass bathroom, feeling like a ghost.
I suddenly had the illusion that the obedient Ai Hui had reappeared.
The bathroom was covered with a layer of steam.
I leaned against the tiled wall behind me, my eyelids sinking and the heat in my body steadily mounting. I had no choice but to crouch down along the wall, curling up, my mind devoured only the wreckage.
I buried my head between my legs in frustration, feeling that nothing was true.
When I felt someone come in, I looked up unconsciously, and in the heat of the mist, I saw a long body standing in front of me.
He turned off the shower, crouched down beside me, and asked softly, "Still uncomfortable?"
However, as soon as I tried to speak, I was drained of what shred of my sanity by the smell of masculinity in my nose.
I held out my hands, and he looked flat and motionless, letting me hold him.
"Don't drive me away?" he asked.
"Hmm. I answered.
The love of men made me lose my way in the wilderness.
Suddenly, the scene of being bullied on the side of the road three years ago suddenly popped into my mind, and I subconsciously wanted to kick him away, and uneasy fear struck.
He grabbed my ankle with agility, and probably saw the fear in my eyes.
He was stunned, then stopped and sat up, then hugged me to his lap and whispered in my ear: "Yangyang, don't be afraid, I won't bully you." Yangyang, I'm sorry. ”
"You lied to me. "My voice was a little choked.
"Yangyang...... Yang Yang ...... "He kissed me, slowly, very patiently.
At the same time, the moment he saw the tattoo on my back, I felt a blockage in his movements.
He leaned over and kissed the outline of the tattoo, and his words were a little vague: "Yangyang, I love you." ”
This sentence made my eyes wet in a moment, and the image that bothered me was gradually fading.
When I turned around, I saw the quivering, bulging blue veins in his neck.
【……】
That night, we left behind everything other than emotion, and we were left with only two entangled souls.
When I woke up, my whole body felt like it had been disassembled, sore, weak, numb, and scattered.
After all, we still have to face reality.
I looked down in frustration at the honey-colored little arm that was stuck in my chest, and the other passed under my neck and became the neck pillow for my sleep.
Behind him, there is a fiery skin.
In a fit of rage, I picked up the arm on my chest and bit it down.
However, unexpectedly, not only did he not hide and break free, but instead stuffed it into my mouth, with an attitude of "even if you bite, when you are happy, when to let go".
I suddenly lost the momentum I had just now, and tried to push him away, but I was caught in my arms.
"Let go!" I warned through gritted teeth.
However, a kiss fell on my neck, and the man's slightly tired voice was charming, and the words that came out made me angry: "Don't let go." ”
"Are you going to make a face? I'm going to sue you right now! You're teaming up with Ethan and those beasts, waiting for you to be ruined!" I deliberately created a crime against him, trying to provoke him.
However, his concentration was getting better now, and all I could hear was a low laugh.
He suddenly rolled over and pressed my back up against the bed, his hand under my neck pressed my shoulder with his backhand, and the calloused palm of his other hand rubbed gently against my back.
"Why only one wing?" his lips spewed hot and moist, still refreshing.
I buried my face in the pillow, not bothering him with his question.
"One wing, how do you fly?" he said, and I felt kiss after kiss fall along the outline of the tattoo.
"You can't take care of it!" I muffled.
"I don't care about you, who cares?Seal the fire?Or Qiao Rui??," he kissed last time on the scar on my back.
I felt the pain, and from there it spread to my heart.
Suddenly, I turned around and pushed him aside, and I pulled the thin quilt around me, sat up, and glared at him.
That's when I discovered the mystery of this room.
This is supposed to be a QQ Hotel-themed suite, with some instruments similar to torture instruments hanging on the wall, leather whips dipped in half-meter-high glassware, ropes, masks, and tights......
I swallowed unconsciously, feeling a little scared when I thought about it.
"Brute!" I forgot what I heard at the front desk say last night, "There's only one room left."
Chu Qingchuan propped his elbow on the surface of the bed with one hand, and leaned over and looked around.
"I didn't do anything. Why are you scolding me?" he was innocent.
I couldn't see him forever "I'm not wrong", looking at the scratches and bites on his body and suspicious red spots, I pulled the quilt off my body, revealing the same scarred body.
"What is this called not doing anything?!This is all evidence of a crime!" I said loudly, not feeling shy at all.
When I realized that he looked at me playfully for a moment, and there was no sign of mistake at all, I really felt that this man was hopeless.
I still had a moment last night, and I thought he was Ai Hui.
Just as I was about to get out of bed and go to the bathroom to pick up my pajamas, I caught a glimpse of something out of the corner of my eye.
I walked over to the table, pretended to pour water, sneaked the handcuffs in front of me, and when I turned around, I carried them behind my back.
Chu Qingchuan was still half-lying on the bed, squinting at me.
I pulled the foot of the bed and put my foot on his shirt and put it on my body, blocking what I was holding by the way, and walked towards him.
"Give me my phone. I pointed to the inside of his pillow.
He probably thought I had something to say, but when he heard this, the look of anticipation on his face disappeared immediately.
As soon as he reached for it, I quickly snapped his right wrist with the chain above the wall.
How to say, in the past two years, under the leadership of Liu Yixian, I have also learned to embroider some flower boxing and embroidery legs, and in his defenseless situation, I can win with one move.
Of course, I know that if I miss, there will never be a second chance.
Taking advantage of the moment he was stunned, I grabbed his other arm again, pinched the acupuncture point between his elbows, paralyzed his arm for a short time, and then cuffed it into the other.
He was hanging his hands and frowning at me, his eyes showing signs of danger.
But I limited his mobility, and there was no fear at the moment.
"Haha, you Chu Qingchuan also have today? Oh no, I forgot to ask you, who is it today? is it Ai Hui? or Chu Qingchuan? or whose new love?" I got out of bed, walked over to the glassware, and pulled out the leather whip soaked in water, and the label on the glass bottle said "SALT".
It's so ruthless, it seems that I don't need to alarm the people's servants, I can take revenge myself. I thought to myself, holding the whip in both hands and pulling it.
It's sturdy.
Chu Qingchuan actually raised his lips, looked at me expectantly, and said provocatively: "Will you play?"
Enraged by his contemptuous tone, I walked up to his side and put the whip in his face: "Just try it." ”
He looked at me and smiled, his eyes shining with a faint brilliance.
Distraught by his gaze, I reached out and pulled the blindfold over the bedside table, blindfolding him.
But at the moment when his eyes were covered by me, I saw his bottomless eyes, and I almost fell into them.
Actually, I didn't want him to see my hesitation, timidity, and inability to do anything.
I clenched my fists, took a deep breath, and told myself to give him back all the unhappiness!
"Why?are you afraid?, or are you not dare?" asked me arrogantly as I was trying to build my mind.
I lost my temper at once, and the whip flicked through the air, making a crisp sound on the wooden floor.
I subconsciously glanced at the whip and swallowed.
"Don't you hate me?
It was my rhetoric that deceived you for the first time, harassing you, pestering you, forcing you to be my lover, and making you follow me with grievances.
It's that I'm very bad, I always like to force you, and I pick the door, I'm not willing to spend money on you, and I'm perverted.
It's me who is in the twilight and in the twilight, amorous, and full of peach blossom debts.
It was I who hooked up with other women, and finally chose one to fly away with others.
It's a bastard, scumbag, who didn't get a license with you, and didn't let you get half of my property.
It is to leave you silently, and carry you behind your back to be under the same roof as other women.
It was I who caused you to almost be insulted by others, but I am beautiful on my side, drunk and lying on the incense, regardless of your life or death.
I'm damned, isn't I?"
His slow voice had a spell of demagogy and manipulation, and I remembered that these were the words I had said to Ai Hui that night.
He remembers, he remembers.
"Don't say it!" I finally threw the first whip at him, stimulated by him.
The long whip marks gradually turned red, and he did not say a word, and he endured the whipping himself.
His thoughts were taken back to three years ago, and although I now know the truth, I am back into the emotions of that time, unable to control myself.
I think of myself who was desperate at that time, the loneliness I endured alone in the past three years, and the worries I had day and night after Ai Hui was captured......
Tears welled up in my eyes as I confronted him with tears.
"You're a big liar! The moment you take me out of the rain, that's the beginning of your conspiracy, right?
You've done so much for me, you've been so nice to me, all to cheat me out of my heart and then smash it to pieces, see if I'm laughing?!"
Every time I spoke, the whip swung over him, and he recognized it.
However, as soon as he finished the last sentence, he gritted his teeth and said "no".
I didn't listen, and I dropped another whip.
"Didn't you say you wanted to marry me? Didn't you say you wanted to give me a home? Didn't you say that marrying me was the wisest decision in my life? Didn't you say you loved me, that you would give me a stable future, that you would always love me?
Why did everything change? Why didn't it all count? Why did you have to be nice to other people?
Why don't you say a word, don't give an explanation, and let other women wear my bunny slippers?
Why did I take my first love sister in and out of Fengyue Field when I was bothering to think of a way to think of a way for Sister Meng's illness?
Why didn't you call me for a long time and let me hear the voice?
Why is this marriage, if you don't get married, you won't get married, and you will go directly to the next unit drama without even a notice?
Why !!"
I didn't want to get his answer, I just wanted to tell him that I didn't care, I cared, and I cared about a little rabbit slipper, which could make me break down and cry!
"Chu Qingchuan, you bastard, I hate you all my life, and I won't forgive you for the rest of my life! You were obviously by my side that night, and you obviously heard all the words I said, but you pretended not to know anything!
I am so humble to keep you, I beg you to stay, I will not let you be with other women, I said that I will change all my shortcomings, I will learn from them to be gentle and generous, I say that I am not reckless and hard-mouthed, I hope you can hug me...... But you pretend you can't hear, you pretend that the person is not you......
Even if you betray me, I choose to forgive you, but what about you? You just leave in front of me with another woman, and tell me that there will be a time later!"
I whipped hard, Chu Qingchuan pursed his lips tightly, and the previous ruddy lips had turned white.
I looked at the blood marks one after another, both distressed and unwilling.
The whip after whip not only whipped him but also fell on my heart.
With each whip I felt a scab on my heart fall off, revealing new flesh that had grown and no longer festered repeatedly.
"Sun......
"Shut up!" I flicked again as he spoke.
"Since you want to hide it from me, you have to hide it thoroughly! Why are you coming back to do it? What are you here to tease me for? Do you think that I will still eat your autumn grass! There is no door! What Ai Hui, what Chu Qingchuan, I don't even know who you are, and you are embarrassed to say that you love me?!" My emotions were high, and more than three years of resentment, resentment, and grievance erupted with a crisp whip sound.
"No matter who I am, even if I die, the woman I love is only you. He said it word by word, clearly.
"You fart!" I wept and denied him, but there was a hint of solace in my heart.
yes, for three years, I've been wanting an explanation, and I've always done something that I regret.
However, even if I gave him a chance to say goodbye, the explanation he gave was still a lie.
No matter what he said or did at that time, the end would be a separation.
"Sun, I love you. If I hadn't met you when I had amnesia, I don't think I would have survived now. It was you who gave me a vague impression of the past, and after you left, my memories gradually surfaced, and Ruan Tianwei took me away from a mudslide, and the impact made me completely regain my memory. In Chu Qingchuan's low tone, my mood gradually calmed down.
Looking at the scars, my hands shook involuntarily.
Yes, if he hadn't recovered his memory, would Ji Chang have killed him directly?
He has suffered so much, I ......
"Jiaoyang, I remember you saying to the amnesiac Ai Hui, 'Even if he is so bad, I still can't forget him. I hate him, but I still love him. 'You still love me, don't you?'" His face was facing me, and I doubted for a moment that he could see through my heart even with an eyepatch.
My whole body trembled from the outburst of emotion I had just heard, and I lost my sense of proportion when I heard his question.
"Yes, I love you. I love you, which is the biggest mistake I have ever made, the root of all suffering. Therefore, the fault is all on me, and it has nothing to do with you! The person who deserves to be whipped the most is me. ”
I have scolded myself like this countless times, both as a warning and as a reprimand, and in short, I have tried countless ways to make myself forget about him, but I can't do it.
Thinking of this, with contempt for my own incompetence, I swung my leather whip and threw it in my face.
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