Chapter 100: I can't help myself from birth
"We didn't have a later. ”
Qin Qian replied.
The voice is light, cool and cool, and it penetrates into people's hearts.
She took a deep breath, turned off the faucet, and pulled the tissue next to her, wiping her hands as she turned back.
She raised her eyes, looked at the man, and paused word by word, "Zhai Junlin, we have no future." ”
Hearing this, the man's face turned pale.
He opened his mouth, but suddenly he didn't know what to say, as if he had a big rock stuck in his throat.
After a long time, he stuck out a sentence, "Why?"
Why not later?
Why?
The tall body suddenly fell slightly, "Why did I sit to this extent, and you didn't waver in the slightest." ”
"Is it true that only by giving away your life will you have a little soft-heartedness and be able to feel a little sincerity towards you?"
He suddenly took a deep breath, swallowed his saliva, and laughed lowly to himself, "Or ...... Do you also think...... I'm not worthy of you?"
No.
Qin Qian wanted to say that there was no question of whether he was worthy or not emotionally.
It's just that...... As she said to Zhan Yue, people like them can't help themselves from the moment they are born.
What's more, it's still in the special pool house.
The girls of the Chi family, before participating in the selection of heirs, did not live for themselves for the first ten years, not even for their own family, the meaning of their lives is for the future and future of the family.
If she is not chosen, if her family feels sorry for her enough, at least she can marry a husband who is okay within the scope of her choice.
The girl who was chosen...... She will dedicate her life and her husband's life to pass on the spirit of the family.
And she is the one who has no self since birth, and has no future when she is chosen.
Surviving in a large and intricate family is a cold and heartless thing.
People can only be invincible if they have no feelings.
Once she cares, she has a weakness.
If the weakness is grasped by the various branches of the family, it is easy to lose judgment and make decisions that are not conducive to the long-term future of the family.
This is unacceptable to other branches, and it is even more intolerable to the family.
They will not punish the people of the branch line, but will simply and directly and brutally eradicate the weakness of the head of the family, making her a machine that does not need to be armed and armored.
"Yes. ”
She looked back at the man, her face expressionless, and her eyes were cold, as if there was no variegated color in the ice and snow, and it was as white as a barren.
"Looks like you're pretty self-aware. ”
If she is an ordinary woman, she is not the one chosen.
Qin Qian thought about how much she hoped to be with Zhai Junlin, who protected her with her life; that touching, that affection, that desperate, and that momentum were all the expectations and desires she had had, and she had dreamed for half a lifetime.
But she couldn't.
If she is with Zhai Junlin, it will be equivalent to painting the ground as a prison and locking him in the Chi family.
Since then, the rest of his life has only lived for the future of the Chi family.
She doesn't want to.
This half-life pursuit, the desire is close at hand, but in the end I have to choose to refuse.
"I am the future head of the Chi family, what are you? As long as the Chi family moves its little fingers, it can make Taifeng stagger, so what do you take to be with me, and what do you use to stand on my side?"
He has the wings of an eagle and a sky that belongs to him.
He should soar in the sky that belongs to him, not in the cage of the Chi family.
So she could only answer against her will.
Even if she said it was heartbroken, it hurt him to hear it.
"Or do you think that I am a great philanthropist, and I will help Taifeng and help the Zhai family to reach a higher level?"
"Didn't you have a little idea of what you did to me in the Zhai family at the beginning? Who gave you the courage and confidence to think that I would re-accept the people who hurt me once?"
"Before, I was nothing, so I didn't care about anything, but now it's different. I have a great future, do you think that I am willing to have anything to do with someone as low as you?"
Her words were ruthless, and every word was heart-piercing and hurtful.
"Do you think that as the future heir of the Chi family, I will allow a person who does not have a good family background and strong strength to enter the door of the Chi family? Even if the Chi family can afford to lose this person, I can't afford to lose this face!"
Since he wants to cut off the relationship, he should be hard-hearted, and the more ruthless he hurts people, the more completely he can die......
Looking at her clear eyes that were cold and emotionless, Zhai Junlin roared in pain: "Don't say it again!"
Say no more!
Say no more......
Obviously not such a person, why do you have to force yourself to say such things?!
He stretched out his hand and pressed Qin Qian into his arms, put his arm around the woman with trembling arms, and choked up, "Don't say it again...... Say no more......"
As if pleading, "Don't talk about yourself like that......"
Hearing the sound, Qin Qian's body stiffened.
I felt the trembling of the man's body, and the tense muscles, but not the arm that was too hard.
She raised her hands, but she never dared to echo this man's affection.
His hands were frozen in mid-air, his fingertips were cold, stiff as rusty machinery, unable to move.
Qin Qian's eyes were red, dry and sour, but he never dared to wet his eyes with tears.
She stubbornly insisted, not crying in the arms of men, not crying in front of men.
She felt the rise and fall of the man's chest, as if it was trying her best to calm herself.
He pulled her out of his arms, and the two pairs of red eyes looked at each other, and just one glance made people's hearts seem to ache again!
"Don't be who you say you are. ”
These words are concise and the voice is quiet.
People can't hear any emotions, and people can't understand what the intention is.
Zhai Junlin put his hands on her shoulders, loosened and held them tightly, shook them again and again, and then reluctantly shook them again......
Eventually, he gazed deeply at the woman and withdrew his hand.
He turned around in a lonely way.
The moment he turned around, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath before he opened his eyes again and walked out with his feet raised.
Walking out of the doorway, the afterglow crashed into a figure, leaning against the wall outside the door.
He turned his head, and before he could see his face, he felt a sinking on his shoulders.
The maroon hair was as charming as gold in the orange light.
He looked at him, his blue eyes reflecting his somewhat depressed face, and slapped him twice on the shoulder.
He withdrew his hand and walked around him into the kitchen.
He remembered what he had said when he had come to the hospital that day.
Compared with before, Zhai Junlin once again deeply understood the meaning of his words......
Zhai Junlin turned his head and looked at the back of Zhan Yue, who was still sitting on the small sofa in the living room, and his lonely body immediately stood up.
The pain in his eyes was replaced by firmness, he raised his feet and stepped forward, looking at Zhen Ji and Kang Zhan, "Let's go." ”
……
Inside the kitchen.
Qin Jue entered the house and happened to see Qin Qian, who was facing away from him and raising his hand to wipe his tears.
He stepped forward and reached out to take her into his arms, allowing her to rest on his shoulder.
He didn't speak, and he didn't move again.
Just let her lean quietly and slowly clean up her embarrassed and sad mood.
After a long time, he whispered: "Why do you say so much?"
Qin Jue expected that Qin Qian would reject Zhai Junlin, and also understood that the so-called refusal was unilateral protection.
It's not that she can't face it together, but what she once faced, she already has a deep shadow.
She was terrified.
Because I am afraid, because I care, I have to push the other party away.
"Perhaps...... In the future, he will be strong enough to stand by your side and protect himself and you?"
He has this realization, and he will have this ability if he goes through it a little more.
"I don't want to. ”
Qin Qian said.
Qin Jue was slightly stunned, "Did something happen?"
Qin Qian took a deep breath, got out of his arms, turned around, faced him sideways, and leaned against the wall with his back.
"My grandfather was very capable, the best person I ever met. When he was there, my grandmother lived like a princess. ”
She lowered her head, half-lowered eyes, and her face was soft, "All the people of the Chi family, including great-grandmother, also said that my grandmother is the happiest one among all the heirs of the Chi family. ”
"Because, my grandfather, with great consciousness and ability, guarded my grandmother and us under his wing, and gave us a happy fairy tale castle. Let no one hurt us in the slightest. ”
Xu thought of a lot of good memories, and the corners of her lips rose shallowly.
He did it, and became the most convincing one of the Chi family in a hundred years. ”
She pursed her lips, and in the blink of an eye, a tear fell down.
But it is precisely because of his strength that countless people covet his position, and countless people also fight with him. ”
Qin Qian let out a long breath, "Grandma Zeng said that the more powerful a person is, the heavier the burden on his shoulders. ”
"So...... My grandfather had an unusually heavy burden on his shoulders. In the end, he chose to sacrifice himself for the mission of his grandmother and for the love of the Chi family......"
"If there is a choice, now, I hope that my grandfather can be like Meng Fengnan, who has no ambition or ability, so that at least he can hold hands with his grandmother and accompany him until he is old. ”
Her voice was hoarse, and she paused.
It's like reining in your emotions, and it's like moistening your dry and sore throat.
"I don't want to...... I don't want him to end up like my grandfather. ”
Although the word "he" was not specified, Qin Jue understood who he was talking about.
"I'd rather him live without merit and without ability, than for him to be as heroic as a fool to bear the sin he deserves. ”
"Not to mention ......"
Qin Qian chuckled, "What's more...... He was not an orphan like my grandfather, alone. ”
"He has his own family, he has his own relatives, and what he has is a harmonious and complete home. How can I be so selfish and let him abandon him?"
"If the Zhai family is unexpectedly suppressed or persecuted because of me or because of him in the future, how will we face each other?"
She slowly raised her head, raised her eyes, and showed a helpless and wry smile in her eyes, "In the Chi family, for the sake of profit, what can't a crazy person do?"
She cupped the corners of her lips and looked up at the ceiling and took a deep breath.
It's like restraining all the emotions surging in my heart, "So, I think it's good." ”
Looking at the smile she squeezed out, Qin Jue felt distressed.
Then you choose everything, and hold it alone? Don't you be afraid, you will become your next grandfather?
Qin Jue wanted to ask, but he didn't say it.
……
Qin Jue took the fruit plate out first, Qin Qian calmed down in the kitchen, cleaned up his emotions before going out.
When she arrived in the living room, she found that Zhai Junlin, Kang Zhan, and Zhen Ji had left.
Her eyes darkened, and then she adjusted her state, stepped forward with a smile, and chatted with Yu Ran.
Everyone played together for a while before the show ended.
When Zhan Yue and Yu Sheng left, Qin Qian sent them to the door.
Zhan Yue turned around and said to Qin Qian, "After you go back, be careful." If you need anything, feel free to contact me. ”
Qin Qian nodded and said okay.
"Don't just talk about it. ”
She smiled, "Could it be that you really want me to have any needs?
"You know what I'm talking about. ”
In such a family, how can there be the word peace and quiet.
What's more, she is not a small and inconspicuous person in the family, but she is the target of everyone when she goes back.
"Hmm. ”
She hummed softly, and then pushed Yu Sheng into the man's arms, "Speaking of which, now I'm going back too, you two, just find a time to get things done." I'm going to dress up for your wedding. ”
"Of course, it won't steal the limelight from your bride. Qin Qian explained with a smile, then blinked his eyes, "If necessary, I can ask Qin Chu to make you a flower girl!"
"This can be had!" Yu Sheng raised his index finger and gladly accepted the offer.
Zhan Yue did not nod, but did not refuse either.
Just looked down and doted on the woman in her arms full of joy.
"See you later. He pulled the woman's collar and tightened the scarf for her before he walked to the elevator with his arms around her.
After taking two steps, he turned back again, "By the way, although Zhai Junlin was not good before, he is okay now." ”
After speaking, he walked towards the elevator without looking at Qin Qian's reaction.
The elevator doors opened, and the two entered the elevator.
After the two of them went downstairs and got into the car, Yu Sheng asked, "What do you mean by that?"
"What?"
"That's what you said to Qianqian!" Yu Sheng said while fastening his seat belt, "Do you recognize what Zhai Junlin means? But aren't you Luan Zhou's brother?
"You're his brother. Zhanyue started the car, looked ahead, turned on the high beams, and concentrated on driving.
But between the words, there is a vinegar smell that can't be concealed.
"I just objectively evaluated my shallow ex-husband. He turned on his turn signal and drove the car out of the community, "What's more, Luan Zhou loves Qianqian, doesn't Zhai Junlin also love her? ”
Actually, he didn't think that Qin Qian would be with Bo Luanzhou in the end, although they had been in a relationship for so long, and that man loved her so deeply, but in the end, they missed it more than once.
What's more, when Bo Luanzhou was faced with a choice, he gave up Qin Qian.
What Qin Qian needs is someone who will not let go no matter whether there is a sea of swords and fires in front of him, whether there is a future or not, at least he will have firm feelings, even if a moth fights the fire!
But......
I can't tell if there will be a turnaround when she has such a deep relationship back then, and when she encounters a man who repents and never lets her go again.
It's just that this time Qin Qian goes back, it is equivalent to that man has the opportunity to get close to her again, and he is about to lead Zhai Junlin.
"As long as the relationship is there, even if there are any twists and turns in the middle, they have each other in their hearts, won't they come together in the end?" Yu Sheng disagreed.
And she felt that it was Qin Qian's first love, and it was so unforgettable.
"Have you forgotten that before Zhai Junlin, there was another Song Fancheng?" Zhan Yue was unhappy about Yu Sheng's unconditional support for Bo Luanzhou.
But after so many years, I got used to it.
The most important thing is that Yu Sheng is fortunate that he has no emotional entanglements with Bo Luanzhou, and he is quite relieved.
Although it is inevitable, it is still a bit of a snack, and the patience is over.
However, between Bo Luanzhou and Zhai Junlin, although he has always had no good impression of Zhai Junlin, he also feels that he is too weak now.
But in contrast, if he really had to make a choice, he would rather Qin Qian and Zhai Junlin be together.
"That's right, and Song Fancheng!" Yu Sheng suddenly made a difficulty, "But you say, whether it is Bo Luanzhou or Song Fancheng, it is thrilling and unforgettable." This...... How did Zhai Junlin suddenly jump in?"
"Because he's a shallow ex-husband. ”
"Just an ex-husband in name only?"
"That's enough. Zhanyue stopped in front of the traffic light and tapped his finger lightly on the steering wheel.
"Why?" Yu Sheng didn't understand.
However, Zhan Yue turned his head and glanced at Yu Sheng, without explanation.
……
Here, Zhai Junhao and Qin Jue had a very happy conversation.
Because Qin Qian said that he asked Zhai Junhao to send Yu Ran back, Yu Ran also stayed in Banshan Yazhu.
Wait left and right, wait until you are sleepy.
Later, Qin Qian and Sister Li cleaned up the room, she was idle, and they cleaned all the places in the room except for the bedroom.
As soon as she finished cleaning, she was just slumped on the sofa with her waist on her back, when she saw Zhai Junhao suddenly stand up, "Let's go, I'll send you home!"
Yu Ran: ??
She looked at Zhai Junhao with a question mark on her face, and wanted to ask him, was it on purpose?
She was depressed, and her face was amazed, "Get rid of Zhai Junhao, are you blind? Are you tired when you don't see me? You will die if you wait for me to sit for two minutes?!"
Zhai Junhao didn't care about Yu Ran's face full of unwillingness, reached out and grabbed her back collar, lifted her up, and walked out.
Yu Ran reached out and grabbed the bag, struggling, and asked, "Are you the devil?"
At the door, Zhai Junhao stopped and asked her to change her shoes.
At the same time, his hands slapped heavily on Yu Ran's shoulders, only to hear Yu Ran's pain "whoosh".
He smiled and raised his eyebrows slightly, "No, I am an angel among the devils." ”
Hearing this, Yu Ran was so angry that she almost vomited out a mouthful of old blood.
Seeing the two fighting.
Qin Qian showed an aunt-like smile.
"Sister, then let's go!" After Yu Ran changed her shoes, she waved her hand at Qin Qian with a smile, then turned her face and immediately collapsed, glared at Zhai Junhao fiercely, and walked towards the elevator.
When Qin Qian saw her, he slammed his slam on the elevator button in a huff.
I couldn't help but smile and shake my head.
"Why didn't you tell her?" Zhai Junhao was a little curious.
Originally, I was waiting for Qin Qian to tell Yu Ran at night, and then I saw her screaming with excitement and tears in her eyes.
He also laughed at her by the way, after all, he also contributed, so if he laughed at her, she could only be angry but couldn't do anything to him.
That kind of look that can't get used to you and can't get rid of it should be fun.
Who knows, after waiting all night, Qin Qian didn't mean to say anything.
"That Qin Ran's concert is also because of you, right?"
Qin Qian raised his eyebrows, "Where did you see that?"
"When she said that Weibo, your expression was a little moved, and then immediately went to get the phone, thank you, right?"
Qin Qianwan smiled, "Yes, the insight is amazing!"
"Don't divert the topic, you've done so much for her, don't you tell her?"
Qin Qian chuckled, his gaze crossed Zhai Junhao's shoulder, and looked at Yu Ran, who was clasping his chest with his hands and stomping his feet, his whole expression softened.
"No need. Sometimes I don't understand, I don't know, but it's also a kind of happiness. ”
She looked at Yu Ran's figure and said with a smile, "Maybe she will know in the future, and she is not in a hurry." Just let her be happy. ”
Hearing this, Zhai Junhao was stunned.
Tilting his head slightly, he seemed to think carefully for a moment before he suddenly realized.
Showing his good-looking little tiger teeth, "GET!"
He saluted Qin Qian with his two fingers together.
As soon as he turned around, he raised his feet and didn't go out, but he suddenly turned around, approached Qin Qian, and asked her in a low voice: "I heard Qin Jue say, you want to leave?"
As he spoke, he cautiously looked at Yu Ran, worried that she would hear it.
"Hmm. I'll be gone in two days. Taking in his small movements, Qin Qian chuckled, "Don't tell her in advance." Now that she is in a state of joy, it is not a good mood to part, so don't spoil her joy. ”
"She's right, you're really her lucky star!" Zhai Junhao nodded.
"But when you go back, be careful. If there is anything I can help with, feel free to contact. He asked, a little worried.
"Got it!"
For Zhai Junhao, he has always been concerned about the action, and Qin Qian has always been grateful for this big boy.
"You are, Yu Ran is a good girl. Take advantage of it. You know what?"
In the past, in the face of everyone's questions about this aspect, Zhai Junhao was 100% resistant.
And today, I don't know if it's because of Qin Qian, or because I thought she was leaving, in order to reassure her.
He didn't run away, but raised his hand with a smile and patted Qin Qian's shoulder, "Don't worry, I know it in my heart." ”
After saying that, it happened that the elevator over there reached the floor and opened.
I saw Yu Ran turn around and glance at Zhai Junhao angrily, "Let's go!"
Then he looked at Qin Qian, smiling softly and brightly, "Sister, I'm leaving!
"Good. Qin Qian smiled and waved goodbye to her.
I saw Zhai Junhao raise his feet and step forward, and Yu Ran had already entered the elevator.
Zhai Junhao followed the elevator, and before the elevator door closed, he could still see Zhai Junhao carrying the collar behind him, and Yu Ran turned his head and exhaled the scene of the two arguing.
That scene was cute and warm, and Qin Qian was a little reluctant to retract his gaze.
How wonderful is this kind of life!
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