I said, "Ahri, I want to be alone."

I walked slowly and aimlessly by myself.

At 8:30 p.m., the streets are bustling with traffic.

I stayed downstairs in a shopping mall, looked around, watched the people come and go, and a sense of loneliness came to me. In the midst of this bustling traffic, I was surprised to find that among the smiling or expressionless pedestrians, penetrating the soul, they were all a group of lonely creatures, everyone was looking for a place of spiritual sustenance, but they did not know where to moor. In the end, in the continuous searching, I realized that there was no one else but myself.

I once thought that the warmth that Yuan Zhi brought me could be absorbed for a lifetime, but unexpectedly, this warmth was as fleeting as fireworks, looking back on the way I came, I suddenly found that my subconscious had already had a thought: if I don't want to break the thought and move towards the opposite road, I can only hold on to Yuan Zhi and go forward together. And the road ahead will only be a muddy one. And the choice I made in the end was to escape, to keep drowning in the past, to stay where I was, not to take a step forward in any direction, to cling to the warm tail, to let Yuan Zhi stay in place like me, but I felt so difficult. The flow of time pushes the cycle of life, and maybe time stops in order to keep a person's footsteps.

I suddenly remembered Sanmao's words in the rainy season: S, you are my quagmire, I have long been stuck in it, whether I struggle or not, I have to sink. If you can't save me, take me and sink with you.

The more you struggle, the faster you sink. Perhaps, if I don't struggle, maybe I can wait until the next day for someone to save me.

So be it, why struggle? Let it be.

I looked up at the sky, exhaled deeply, and said to myself with a smile: Sister, be happy.

I lowered my head, but found Cheng Qinli standing not far from me, and I smiled at him.

He came up to him and said, "Go home."

I borrowed his mobile phone and called Yuan Zhi.

The phone was quickly connected, and Yuan Zhi said: Ali, is she okay?

My heart was suddenly full, I thought Yuan Zhi, you always have me in your heart.

Yuan Zhixu guessed that it was me, didn't speak, and didn't hang up the phone.

The silence on the other end of the line reassured me. What does it matter, you're here.

After a long time, I said: Yuan Zhi, she is very beautiful.

But he said: Li Ji, you and Ali are very happy together.

I looked at Ali, smiled, and said, "I love Ali the most."

Yuan Zhi smiled over there and didn't speak.

I said, "Yuan Zhi, we're all fine."

Yuan Zhi didn't respond for a long time, and Ali also stared at me, maybe they didn't expect me to be so peaceful now.

I said: Yuan Zhi, I love you, you want to be happy.

Yuan Zhi sighed and called out, "Li Ji...", but didn't say anything more.

And I said, "Good night, goodbye." After hanging up the phone, I wanted to laugh, but I couldn't laugh, and tears flowed involuntarily.

Everyone understands the truth, but in the end, it is impossible to resist human instinct.

Ali sighed and stepped forward to wipe away my tears.

I cried and said, "Ari, why do you all like to sigh?"

Ali said: There is a crybaby by his side, and he can't sigh if he doesn't want to.

He touched my head and said, "Go home."

Well.

When I returned to Zhou Sheng's house, I felt exhausted and fell asleep.