Hanyu found a naturalist book on his grandfather's side, and before leaving, Yan Maohua said that he would add some books, so that Hanyu could find them here after reading them, but don't turn over the last row of books.

On the day of the heavy noon, the dinner was another big family gathered together for dinner.

The Yan family has several days of gathering to eat together every year, except for Lin Suxin, who only appears on the day of the New Year's Day every year, and at other times she will stay at home on the grounds of worshipping the Buddha.

Hanyu heard that her mother didn't go to the main hall to eat, so she went to shout.

Lin Suxin refused to go, and Hanyu bitterly said that it was useless, so she had to leave.

Old Madam Yan didn't want to see Lin Suxin more often.

When Uncle Yan was alive, he had a very good relationship with Lin Suxin, and he raised his eyebrows and fell in love. Lin Suxin has a docile personality, and in the face of her mother-in-law's criticism, she will only obey and never resist, but Uncle Yan knows that Mrs. Yan treats Lin Suxin harshly, and Uncle Yan naturally wants to protect Lin Suxin. Lin Suxin married him, and now she is a member of the Yan family, but Mrs. Yan has always treated the Lin family as an outsider, which also makes Uncle Yan dissatisfied. Uncle Yan has a good temperament, he never makes a big noise, he only persuades gently, knowing that the Lin family has been wronged, he will make a long speech, and when it comes to Old Madam Yan, he is convinced. Mrs. Yan is the kind of person who eats soft and not hard, and her eldest son's set is very useful to her.

After Uncle Yan passed away, Lin Suxin didn't show up often, but when Mrs. Yan was sick, she would ask Lin Suxin to go over to serve the sick, and she would punish her if she had a slight mistake. If it weren't for Yan Maohua's later speech, there would be someone around Old Madam Yan to serve, and there was no need for her to serve, which meant that the Lin family would not come to Mrs. Yan next time. It also makes Mrs. Yan worry-free, don't always think about how to torture others for fun. Mrs. Yan is angry, dare to love her son is gone, this daughter-in-law still has to live a good life?

Goodbye Lu, her body has been revealed, her cheeks have also gained a circle, and Lu, who has always had a gentle smile, is now smiling reluctantly, and her face is stiff.

When Hanyu arrived at the main hall, he greeted them one by one, from grandfather, grandmother to second uncle, second uncle, and then to third uncle and third uncle, and the younger brother and sister also politely called Sister Hanyu. There are not many people at the Yan family's table in an ordinary big family, except for their children, the concubines of the Yan family naturally have no right to serve at the table.

When the summer solstice comes, Hanyu's bedroom windows are covered with a layer of white silk veil to prevent mosquitoes from entering the room. The curtain tent on the jade couch was also replaced with a new pink gauze tent, pink and tender color, and there were large peach blossoms embroidered on it, which were also embroidered with yarn, so you could see the outside through the curtain. This is still made by the mother herself, such a wonderful and delicate needlework is only the mother will, Hanyu touched the gauze tent, only felt the cool feeling of the tent, very comfortable. She said that she wanted to send an embroidery to Shizuka, but she stopped for so long and never did it again, she only cared about reading and practicing every day, but forgot that her mother was lonely, and she should still accompany her mother more.

Hanyu thought that her mother must not have slept at this hour, so she got up, got off the bed, and told Mama Hong that she was going to her mother's side.

Lin Suxin is usually embroidering at this time of the night. Her life is very simple, she worships the Buddha every day, recites scriptures, embroiders, makes clothes, and occasionally sits in a daze when she is free.

"Mother, are you sleeping?" Hanyu arrived in her courtyard and asked her through the window.

Lin Suxin straightened up, got up and opened the door, "It's all night, why did you come here?"

"I'll see if my mother is asleep, are you still embroidering?"

"Come in and talk. I'm making clothes for you. ”

"Mother, I have a lot of clothes, and you're still making them for me?"

"There are no too many clothes. Lin Suxin sat in front of the embroidery frame, pinching the embroidery needle and continuing to embroider.

"How can this dress be so big? I can't wear it this big. ”

Lin Suxin curled her lips and smiled, and said with emotion, "Child, you will always grow up." ”

Yan Hanyu only felt a stump in her heart, and said, "Mother, I also want to learn embroidery." ”

"You read books every day and study medicine, how can you have time to embroider? You, don't worry, my mother will make all your clothes. ”

In the last life, my mother passed away, leaving behind two large boxes of clothes, robes, skirts, underwear, and embroidered shoes...... All the clothes on her body and her mother didn't know how many nights she had stayed up to do it. Hanyu only knew how stupid she was at that time, blamed her mother for it, and left regrets.

"Mother, I'll take the time to learn, I want to do it. "A person who gives so much always needs to give her something in return. What did she reciprocate? In her previous life, she only gave her mother a lifetime of loneliness, and in this life, would she repeat the same mistakes and let her mother be lonely for a lifetime? Even if she made a dress for her mother with her own hands, a companionship, it would be a kind of reward.

The movements on Lin's hand paused for a moment, and he said in a low voice, "It's okay, it's only serious for girls to learn these things." ”

In the silence of the night, such whispers are clearly audible.

"Does my mother regret that I am a daughter?"

"Silly boy, you are your mother's child, whether it is a woman or a man, it is your mother's flesh and blood, it is good to read some books, my mother just thinks that women have guarded the inner house all their lives, and it is good to be knowledgeable, even if they become a talented woman in everyone's mouth, it is not very useful. ”

Yan Hanyu heard this, but felt that there was another stuffy stick on his head. Her grandfather didn't stop her from studying, and her mother didn't make her study, was it right or wrong for her to study?

"Mother, I'm sorry, I misunderstood you. ”

"Don't talk stupid, let's go back and rest early, we'll talk about something tomorrow. ”

"Mother, is it okay for me to rest here with you?" Yan Hanyu asked in a glutinous voice.

"Okay, you go to bed first, go to bed early, my mother will go to bed soon after embroidering this. I called Mama Lin to ......"

Yan Hanyu sat next to Lin Suxin, "Mother, I'm not sleepy now, I'll watch you embroider and sleep with you for a while, don't call Mama Lin." ”

"Good. Lin Suxin lowered her eyebrows and smiled, and continued the embroidery work in her hand.

Mother's hands are thin and white, slender and soft, I saw her two fingers pinching the embroidery needle, the little finger slightly raised, the wrist raised and hung down, Hanyu only felt very beautiful. Hanyu looked up at her mother's face, her face was very calm, but her eyebrows were slightly twisted all the time, even when she was smiling, that kind of sad love was still revealed. Is she bitter, sorrowful, or resentful? Hanyu has no way of knowing. 's mother is obviously in the prime of life at this age, but she is widowed and has an empty house, and Hanyu feels pity in her heart.

At night, when Hanyu fell asleep, she only felt that someone next to her was patting her gently, which was a feeling of affection that she hadn't enjoyed for a long time. Hanyu hadn't tasted this feeling of love and pampering for a long time, and she only felt like she was in a dream, and she just wanted not to wake up.

"I'm sorry, Hanyu, it's all my fault, it's all my mother's fault. The familiar and gentle voice sounded softly.

Hanyu wanted to answer her very much, Mother, it's not your fault, how can this be your fault? Mother, don't blame yourself, it's none of your business! She wanted to say this, but the feeling of sleepiness made her feel weak, and her mouth squirmed a few times and turned into babbling, and then fell asleep.

Mother's sorry sentence didn't understand what Hanyu meant until many years later.