There is always a period of time in a person's life, not long, maybe just a short paragraph, maybe just a few days, very confused, very tangled, very profound, but often it becomes a turning point in life, it comes and goes, so that people can not grasp, can not sigh, unable to reverse.

In fact, since she came back, especially for many days in the next row, Yingying has always been sullen and hiding in a corner where no one is in a daze, she misses Pan Jinchao deeply, and she can hardly breathe without his air. Seeing that the New Year is approaching, she really doesn't know what to do next, her father doesn't want to speak, and she can't ask about it, fortunately, the next few family affairs were also rejected by him, only saying that the child is too young, and he will talk about it a year later.

But Lily urged her all day long why she didn't see each other, and asked her for candy, so she only lowered her head and smiled snickering, and ignored her.

On the morning of the thirtieth day of the Chinese New Year's Eve, on the last episode of the old year, Yingying met Xiaojun. "Rush to the market?" Xiao Jun stopped in the crowd to greet her. "Hmm...... Are you also in the market?" Yingying also greeted him politely, and from such a close distance, Yingying saw Xiaojun's rather masculine face and timidly didn't dare to raise her eyes to look, "Have you bought anything?" Xiaojun asked again, Yingying looked down at the things she was carrying, and said with a smile: "I didn't buy anything, just jog around!" "Oh......" Xiaojun smiled, seemed a little embarrassed, just when Yingying smiled and was about to pass like this, Xiaojun suddenly said: "That- Yingying—— how did you meet that?" Yingying seemed quite embarrassed to hear this, so she showed a rather embarrassed smile and said, "I don't want to!" "Why don't you want to?" Isn't it good?" Xiao Jun looked at her in confusion and asked, Yingying looked up at him, and saw Xiao Jun's eyes and mouth were different, and suddenly, she felt panicked, so she lowered her head and said lightly: "I don't want to say ...... now-well, then I'll go over!" Before Xiaojun could react, Yingying had already walked over, and heard Xiaojun only shouting "Yingying-" in the back, Yingying's heart was crossed, and she walked over without looking back.

At noon, Yingying walked to the head of the set with a few things in her hand, and saw that Xiao Jun was leaning against the bridge with his elbow and looking up at the sky at the bridge, and then he turned his face to look at her deeply, and this glance poured out all his sorrows.

He has seen a lot of girls, who are either bewitching or thoughtful, but none of them are as touching and heartfelt as her. From the little girl with two pigtails and two eyes when she was a child, to the handwriting he saw her writing, to his deep degeneration into her soul, into her melancholy eyes, and into the figure of her standing alone in the sky and hoeing grass in the summer day...... Even though it was the storm of that summer, it still did not change her holy status in his heart...... However, that's it, there really can only be this between them-

Yingying choked in an instant, this time she made a decision, watching him walk in front of her, from such a close distance, Xiaojun looked at the extremely familiar and unfamiliar girl in front of him, he actually felt so helpless, at this moment, even time and space are still, all languages are redundant and redundant.

"Why haven't you gone back yet?" said Yingying, facing the dry riverbed in winter.

"Well,——" Xiao Jun glanced at Yingying deeply when he heard this, just this glance he collected her appearance into the bottom of his heart, he knew, he should have known a long time ago, he should have known that the green wattle floating in his heart, he should have beckoned to it gently, he actually couldn't take anything away.

It turned out that he had too much to say in his heart, and he wanted to share their most innocent and wonderful dreams with her again, but that kind of wait could really only sink in his heart forever, and could only swagger in the deepest part of his life, even if it was expressed in the most beautiful language, it would lose its original form; he also wanted to tell her about his long-standing attachment to her, especially after entering college, but at this moment, that is, right in front of him, he knew very clearly that they could really only do this, until now his pocket still contained the letters he wrote down to her or to himself day and night, or Xu Zhimo's poems"Farewell to Cambridge", sometimes there are too many words and emotions, language and even letters have lost their function, and what can be said has become pale.

In the face of Xiaojun's wordless affection, Yingying's eyes showed a confused emptiness, at that moment her heart was empty, there was nothing in her mind, what was the past, what Pan Jinchao, or even their past was ethereal, they just stood quietly, facing the dry riverbed in winter, and the whole world was silent for a while.

"Let's go back!" said Xiao Jun for a long time.

Yingying glanced at Xiao Jun, she originally thought that he would say something, or pull him to a secluded place to listen to him, there must be an explanation and an ending between them. But is that it?

"Well, then I'll go back...... Yingying bowed her head and walked past Xiao Jun.

Eternal sorrow

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The scene of late spring and early summer

A young man stands in the shade of a tree that shades the sky

A girl sitting on the other side

The head hung deeply

The past has passed by a number of years

When all the dust settles

The only thing I don't understand

Only—

The girl looked up

The eyes were endlessly melancholy and confused

In a quiet little village

The teenager bowed his head deeply

The gaze reflects a pool

Beauty and sorrow

In the full stomach of melancholy and entanglement, the sound of firecrackers on Chinese New Year's Eve was deafening, Yingying lay quietly on the bed in the dark night, her tears fell, her mind was full of Xiaojun's lonely eyes, but she saw the big car of the annual rings rolling over mercilessly, she didn't know what the new year would be, she kept her confused eyes open and listened to the last sound of firecrackers disappearing into the dark night, she still felt boundless melancholy and confusion, but the only one who could eliminate this boundless melancholy and confusion was Pan Jinchao, in such a moment of melancholy and lonelinessShe suddenly missed Pan Jinchao's broad chest and heavy warmth, she believed that Pan Jinchao must be facing this dark night at this moment and deeply missed her: "Jinchao! Jinchao! We must be together, we must be together......" There is no way to send it, so she turned on the light and wrote a longing letter to Pan Jinchao.

On the first day of the new year, at the beginning of the new year, there is an unwritten rule in the countryside that has been handed down for thousands of years, starting from this day in the morning, all industries are to be wasted, students do not do homework, farmers do not go to the ground, workers do not work, even housewives cook in the morning are dumplings prepared the night before, anyway, do nothing on the first day of the new year, otherwise it means that they will be busy for a year, so on this day, the men, women and children on the village will come out, a group of young and young, the old and the old will sit together, behind the front door, outside the village, everyone will run a door, worship a year, kowtow, have a taste of the world。

Originally, Lily, Yingying, Famous heroes and a few girls of the same size on the village are playing together, helplessly slipping Lily and Yingying left the famous heroes and those girls, although Yingying has long since stopped going to school, but Lily's words, deeds and opinions Yingying is still quite able to echo one or two, unlike those girls, as soon as they open their mouths, they can embroider a flower and get a few dollars, and they can buy a silk scarf, earrings, or they are better than whose object looks a little better, the famous man is going to get married after the New Year, and he is wearing the clothes that the man bought, and there are more vassal postures to be married between words。 Lily and Yingying agree that they are vulgar and ignorant, and they gradually walk away from them.

However, as soon as she pulled it up, Lily still couldn't leave Xiaojun in three sentences, and as soon as she talked about Xiaojun, it was very different from her high-minded and arrogant image just now, Yingying also felt that Lily would always seem so humble in front of Xiaojun, in the past, when she talked about him, she always had some trivial things, Xiaojun's clothes, words and deeds were all topics she talked about, and now Lily's tone was obviously more complaining and helpless.

“…… Xiaojun's dead look, how dare you say big words!" Lily muttered as she walked.

"What are you talking about?" asked Yingying as she walked.

"He said that as soon as he entered the university, he found that the high school entrance examination and the college entrance examination were simply the basis for entry, if it was as easy as he said, then why didn't he take the Tsinghua University or Peking University or something?"

"......" Yingying listened while walking, but did not answer.

"A person as crazy as him, Yingying, I can't figure out whether he will like a girl, what kind of girl will he like if he does? Anyway, I don't think he likes any girl!"

"......" Yingying still didn't squeak, Lily said it, but she didn't want to echo, that layer of subtlety Yingying understood very well, Lily liked Xiaojun, Xiaojun liked her, she felt a miserable helplessness.

"You don't hear him say every day that this girl is bad, that girl is bad, and even movie stars say that he seems to be able to find fault with everyone......"

Yingying listened silently, thinking in her heart, Xiaojun's bitterness is known to everyone, but he has always been gentle and low-key towards her, thinking of this, her heart is much heavier, however, then she heard Lily continue: "Do you know?

"Say me, what do you ?—— me," Yingying asked with innocent eyes.

"He said that you look ugly in this gown, and you wear high heels, and you walk and drag ...... the ground," Lily said and glanced at Yingying, and imitated Xiaojun's words vividly.

"What does it matter to him when I get dressed?—— Yingying's face couldn't help but grow when she heard this, she originally trusted Xiaojun very much, but he said this about her behind her back, so for a while, I don't know if it was to alleviate her grievances or to show off her happiness, she finally spoke: "...... This is what my boyfriend bought with me on the pedestrian street, I just like this color, what does it matter to him——".

"Yingying, are you talking about a boyfriend?" Lily asked, turning her face to look at Yingying in surprise.

Yingying nodded shyly when she heard this, and at this time, she couldn't care about being reserved, and she couldn't hold back a little bit of Pan Jinchao's thoughts during the Spring Festival: "He is a technician in our factory, many girls like him, and we have been dating for a long time!" she said sweetly, for some reason there was a spirit of courage, but she couldn't care about the colorful Luoying behind her.

While listening to Yingying's story, Lily looked at Yingying with her eyes, she saw Yingying's face like a peach blossom, and her shy pink cheeks, so she couldn't help but stab her badly: "No wonder I see you getting more and more beautiful, it turns out that you are moistened by love!"

Lily's collision seemed to be a bit too hard, and it almost knocked Yingying into a stumble, "Why are you hitting me?——" Yingying couldn't help but tilt her head and hit Lily again, and the two of them "giggled" and laughed wildly, as if they had returned to their old childhood.

Not far away, Xiao Wei and Xiao Jun came over, Lily and Yingying were standing under a branch on the side of the road chatting, Yingying saw Xiao Jun's dejected expression from a distance and couldn't help but feel heavy.

"Why are you going to follow them?" Seeing them approaching, Lily looked at them and said coquettishly.

"'I met her in my heart in the street this night, and my feet decided not to listen to the call to go home with her, and the cold wind of late autumn was not allowed to blow away her-'We want to be flower messengers!'" Who knew that Xiaojun listened to it and improvised to sing "Flower Messenger", and walked towards them emotionally with a heavy expression just now, indeed, Xiaojun has a good voice, once upon a time, as long as there were any entertainment activities in the class and school, the teacher always liked to get him to sing a few songs, and at the moment listening to him only sing a few words, they couldn't help but be moved:" It's good, sing it again!Sing a few more words!" Lily was overjoyed, and Yingying couldn't help but echo her, seeing Xiaojun let go of herself like this, Yingying was also relieved.

At this time, Xiaowei walked up to his sister, scraped the bridge of her nose with his hand, and jokingly said, "Forget it!

Lily was reluctant to listen, she crooked her neck in front of her brother, stomped her feet and played coquettishly: "I don't! I don't care—my brother, you say I have a dog's tail and ——."

Everyone laughed, Xiaowei couldn't resist her, so he had to spare: "Okay, it's not a dog's tail flower, it's a peony flower with a national color and fragrance, it's a good ?——."

"Okay!" Lily immediately replied cheerfully, and stopped playing tricks for a while, "I like peonies!"

"What I said - Yingying is a peony with a national color and natural fragrance!" Xiao Wei said, and couldn't help but look Yingying up and down.

Lily immediately pursed her mouth to look at Yingying, indeed, there is no doubt that Yingying today can definitely be called a beautiful woman like a flower, with a graceful posture and affectionate eyes, although she doesn't admit it, although she grew up with her since childhood, but after all, she completely lost in terms of beauty, especially in front of Xiaojun, so she said in a hurry: "I'm a dog's tail flower, you are still a dog's tail grass, anyway, no matter what, you are not as good as me!" Lily said fiercely and looked at Xiaowei with a stupid look, and for a moment the two of them chattered there as if they were at home.

Xiao Jun lowered his head and laughed at his brother and sister, Yingying also laughed, and then the two of them felt a little embarrassed, Xiao Jun asked, "Don't you go out after the New Year?"

Yingying said, "Go, there's nothing to do at home!" she said easily, and cleverly put her situation aside, "What about you? When will school start?"

"The sixteenth day of the first lunar month!" Xiao Jun said, and then he paused, and then sighed softly—

Yingying was surprised and looked up at Xiao Jun, only to see Xiao Jun's confused expression, and she couldn't help but be shocked in her heart, so she silently lowered her head.

"I know that ?—— Yingying has a boyfriend now!" Lily said as she suddenly approached.

Xiaojun was surprised when he heard this, and looked up at Lily inexplicably, Yingying was also at a loss, and the two of them looked at Lily inexplicably under Lily's words, and their hearts gradually sank.

"It's impossible?—— Yingying, do you really have a boyfriend?" Xiaowei also said.

"Huh, how could I talk nonsense? Don't believe it, you ask Yingying——" Lily said in a conclusive manner, but she looked at Xiaojun with her eyes.

Yingying glanced at her, and felt that the scar between them in the past had ruthlessly collapsed this time, and since this was the case, she had no choice but to acquiesce with her expression.

At this time, Xiao Jun's ignorant and inexplicable eyes just now suddenly changed, and he sneered in his usual sour, playful, and mean tone, and said the most meaningless words: "Heh—— what's the matter of having a boyfriend!"

When Yingying heard this, she knew that all the good things she had ever had had fallen apart at this moment, and she finally saw a shallow cold smile hanging on the corner of Xiao Jun's mouth, broken, she knew that the thin bond between her and Xiao Jun was broken, so fragile, so ruthless, she could only watch it fall apart in an instant.

And Lily's friendship was even more shattered, and she looked at Lily's expression with indifference and almost determination, so she also stood resolutely and arrogantly, with the corners of her eyes slanted not far away, and she did not say a word.

She spent the whole Spring Festival in a dazed and boring way, she was extremely lonely and lay on the bed, there was an indescribable discomfort in her heart, she didn't know how fragile and thin the world was, she only felt like a dehydrated fish stranded on the shore that she couldn't adapt to, Xiaojun was like a touch of auspicious clouds gently floating and drifting away, just because her incomprehensible mountain was not enough for him to stop and stay. Since that day, she has never seen Xiaojun again, of course, she also deliberately dodges, forget it, what should be passed is passed, and what should be lost is lost, maybe this is the price of growth.

On the morning of the sixth day of the Lunar New Year, according to the customs and habits of the countryside, the custom of visiting relatives to visit the New Year on this day is nearing the end. Yingying glanced at it and lowered her head, of course, she knew that Lily's red tweed gown was not as beautiful as Xiao Pan's fancy one, and Lily was not as well dressed as she was.

Lily walked slowly, with a resolute smile, she didn't even look up, of course her grace and grace were vulnerable in front of Yingying, Yingying didn't intend to greet her.

However, when she came to her, Li Jinfeng greeted her with a smile: "Lily, why are you going?" At this time, Lily smiled as if she was flattered, "Huh...... I'll go to my uncle's house!grandma......!" Lily's tweed gown is so pretty!" Lily walked over, Li Jinfeng looked behind her back and admired, Lily listened to the busy turn around and looked herself up and down intoxicated, and said unwillingly: "Yes! grandma—where is it beautiful?!"

Yingying looked at Lily's hypocrisy, and couldn't help but smile bitterly, she knew that no matter how hypocritical Lily was, she had already gained the upper hand, just like when she was defeated by Lily, but this time her tragedy was not inferior to her back then, yes, she knew that this time Lily lost only this hypocrisy.

Lily finally glanced at Yingying, who had been smiling indifferently, and then turned her head and walked forward with a cold expression in her heart, and then she heard Li Jinfeng turn around and taunt Yingying: "Look at how beautiful Lily's red tweed is, look at you to buy a gown, you have to buy that color, it's not old or tender, how ugly!"

When Lily heard this, she just walked not far away, and the corners of her mouth couldn't help but hang the smile that Yingying had just revealed, she knew, both of them knew that the former friendship was really gone forever, it was so desperate that it couldn't be kept, and it didn't even have time to feel a little sorry for it.