Chapter 31: Nirvana
After being discharged from the hospital and returning home, Yingying still ignored Liao Guanghui, resentful in her heart, why did she have to give birth to a child with him if she knew this? For the sake of her pathetic and pitiful child waiting to be fed! Yes, as long as Yingying looked down at the child in her arms waiting to be fed, her heart couldn't help but soften, she was so greedy to suck her **, and she was so kind and inseparable, then she felt that all the past, all the grievances and sorrows were insignificant, and she had to treat her well in this life.
It's just that the original idea of waiting for the full moon to leave angrily is so unrealistic, where can she go with such an infant baby? What can she expect to live? Unless she is really ruthless enough to leave this child alone, but ask herself if she really can't, she will never be a woman like Lin Hong. When Yingying was breastfeeding the child, she was in such a dilemma, and her tears quietly slipped into the hidden corner.
The days are going on like this day by day, but the desperate nightmare of life is invading her day by day, so she thinks that apart from the child, is she really desperate? Thinking about the current predicament, she can't help but deeply regret the past day by day--heh! The first thing that comes to mind is -- Pan Jinchao! What a wonderful and melancholy emotion, if she could be with him and understand him, they would still be a sweet couple, better than living in such a humiliating way with Liao Guanghui now, and blame her stubbornness and dislike—and, Xiaojun's retribution, yes, retribution! If she had made up her mind to wait for him—Xiao Jun must have hoped that she would guard him and wait for him, but she didn't, she betrayed him. betrayed that innocent emotion, that's why she suffered such a fate, fell into the unbearable situation now, and, there was that period of drunken and gold-obsessed days, clearly knowing that kind of life was unreliable, but giving up herself like a moth to a fire,—— if you really want to find a self-justifying reason for yourself, that is to meet her! It's better not to see her, if she never sees her, at least in her heart still retains the pure reverie of her childhood, there will be no despair and depression after seeing her, maybe she can still retain the general vitality of fate, and then continue to knock on the door of the destiny stone, maybe there is another world, maybe it will not fall into the current difficult situation at all,—— But who is good to say, everything is destined, maybe it is because Lin Hong deliberately blocked her way forward, blocked the dangerous road of uncertain life and death, think about the hardships of that day, where will there be the life of the child in her arms at this moment? Even if everything is wrong, it was a mistake from the beginning, and it has already been a thought. Yingying dissected herself deeply every day, stripped herself, with deep grief and remorse, she was dissected and stripped thoroughly, she rubbed away her tears and continued to live, although her heart is dead, everything about her has come to an end, but this life is still going on, life is still flowing forward, she still has to work hard to live, desperately live.
The old mother went back to her hometown after leaving the hospital, Liao Guanghui still ran out, Yingying saw it in her eyes and endured it in her heart. Although it has been a full moon for a long time, they have already returned to their normal married life, and it will be over when it has passed, originally Yingying thought that Liao Guanghui was just a simple hunger and thirst, and he would change it back when he was slowly normal, but in fact it was really not like that. Although they have now returned to normal married life, the relationship can never return to the kind of harmony and calmness that it used to be, it seems so far-fetched and attached, Yingying was already full of grievances and asked for nothing, Liao Guanghui still loves to match, and runs out when he has time, completely without the heart to put it on her mother and son. Yingying didn't want to ask, so she just treated her as dead, as long as she could feed the child every day, even if she didn't live in vain.
But the sores always have to be made, Yingying is cold every day, looking at Liao Guanghui as if there is nothing, the two of them don't have a good word to say all day long, they choke at every turn, and the contradiction is getting bigger and bigger day by day, Liao Guanghui is anxious and says, if you don't want to go with me, just leave! The child can take it away if he wants to, and leave me if he doesn't want to take it away. Liao Guanghui is now completely addicted to that woman, Yingying and her mother and son are not even worth anything in his eyes, he even feels that he is not married, and he has not married her, if he is unhappy to dump her mother and son, it will be a casual matter. But he only verbally said that Yingying delayed him and hurt him, blaming her If she hadn't inserted it in the first place, he and Wu Min would have become a couple, and the implication was that Wu Min had become a fragrant dumpling, but he never mentioned his affair with the woman. Yingying was even more desperate and angry when she heard this, and she was very aggrieved, so she lowered her heart and said angrily: "The child is left for you, there is no door! I won't leave—— don't think I don't know what you think, you want to tell me to go, Hello An Ansheng went to live your happy life, I tell you, this is not a door! I don't have to live with you, it is God who forced me to have no way out, but I don't want to ......live with you for a moment if there is a little way." Yingying said with tears splashing, day by day, day by day, grinding like this, the temperament of the two people reached the limit, they quarreled while talking, and then they threw things, smashed everywhere, and then fought, at this time Yingying did not show weakness, she fell more fiercely than him, smashed more fiercely than him, I can't wait to express the resentment in my stomach and fight you to death and I will die and scatter the gang, the current Yingying is like a crazy woman who has lost her mind, the two of them are in a hurry Liao Guanghui is even more to get her to roll the eggs, he doesn't even have the love to raise her mother and son, but the more this is the case, the more Yingying is determined not to leave, and the neighbors watch all day longAs soon as Yingying was annoyed, she shook him out of the affair with the woman in the video store, and everyone else tacitly pulled and persuaded her, and the landlord's sister-in-law grabbed her ear and whispered: "What nonsense are you talking about?!—— don't talk nonsense! Who on this street doesn't know her? If this spreads the brilliance, don't mix it up on this street......" Yingying became more and more rebellious when she heard this, and howled and shouted: "What are you afraid of! If you dare to do it, you dare to do it, and you can still run away if you are caught in bed!" When Liao Guanghui heard this, he leaned crookedly on the corner of the wall and still looked at her with a smile, how many people were fighting, otherwise he would like to slap her to death, but he had to stimulate her fiercely: "Hey, hey...... I'm telling you, she's very good...... You don't even know how good it is!she'll come over as soon as you leave!" Liao Guanghui said that his eyebrows fluttered when he was intoxicated, Yingying reached out and threw a pot over, but fortunately Liao Guanghui dodged away.
Liao Guanghui went out again, Yingying knew that he was going to find the woman again, so she entrusted the child to the landlord's sister-in-law, and quietly went to the video store alone, thinking that I would not have a good life anyway, and I would tell the world what you two dogs and men had done, so that you would be ridiculed and abused by everyone.
There were two or three people in the video store, and the woman was leaning on the counter, and when she saw Yingying coming in angrily, she didn't squeak, she just looked at her and went inside, there was no one on the bed in the room, and she scanned all the corners again, and found no place that seemed to be hiding.
"What about Liao Guanghui?——" Yingying returned to the counter and asked unceremoniously in person.
When the woman heard this, she said indifferently: "I don't know......"
Yingying looked at her foxy and bewitching and couldn't scratch her face, but she suppressed the anger in her heart, exhaled deeply, and said viciously: "Isn't he all in your bed?
"That can't be helped—— the woman seemed to be interested when she heard this, and immediately changed her tone and said arrogantly: "...... He's got his own legs up! What's the matter with me?" The woman said presumptuously and rolled her eyes at Yingying, and then lowered her head calmly.
When Yingying heard this, she suddenly felt her whole body tremble, yes, what could she say? Can she not know what kind of person Liao Guanghui is? In the face of such a pair of dog men and women, she was really speechless.
"Hmph—— what you said is weird, if you don't seduce him, how can he come to you? Why doesn't he find someone to go?!" Yingying snorted contemptuously from her nostrils. At this time, the two people next to him looked back in surprise, and when they looked at it, they made ambiguous expressions and walked out one after another.
"Yes, I'm not a good thing, hehe-" The woman smiled self-deprecatingly, and then she said in a dignified manner, "He hasn't been here for a long time! He is now going to the third floor of the Water Cloud Pavilion,—— don't you regret it?
"-regrets?" Yingying stubbornly raised her head to meet the woman's provocative schadenfreude smile, "I also want to thank him for that!" Yingying's expression was extremely cold as soon as she spoke, and she could feel her own ruthless aura. "Why? Didn't you two get better! You didn't just fuck me all day, and you'd be gone!"
"Hahaha......" The woman laughed on her back when she heard this, she laughed so madly, her voice was slightly rough and unruly, her face was flamboyant and bold, and she saw that Yingying had swept away her hatred and resentment before, and felt that she was very cute, so when she finished laughing, she looked up at Yingying and said: "Liao Guanghui blows with me all day long, his women are not worse than me, if it is true—— I think it is just appearance!"
When Yingying heard this, she turned her face with disdain, and then heard the woman say again: "Let me tell you the truth, marriage is the biggest deception for women, and the most incredible thing is that women in the world are still jumping into it one after another...... Alas, my sister and I were also in that cage!" said the woman, her face suddenly became extremely sad.
Yingying raised her eyes and looked at her in surprise.
"If you don't die, you have to live shamelessly!" The woman said with a solemn face, and suddenly smiled again: "Actually, you should also thank me for letting you see the true face of your man-"
"That's not necessary, I originally knew what kind of person he was,—— but every woman didn't want to believe that her man was such a man if she didn't catch it herself,——!
"Most of the men in the world are brutes,—— oh no,......!
Yingying heard her say this, and heard the word "understand" from her mouth was quite emotional, thinking that she was so extravagant to "understand" this situation, so that for a while there was a feeling of meeting a soulmate, and her heart suddenly erased the intention just now.
"Actually, I also had a happy life as everyone said...... "About the woman, she also saw that Yingying was also a person who could be gentle, so she opened the conversation, and before she could speak, she had a longing expression: "Originally, I thought that meeting him was the best thing in my life——"
Yingying looked at the woman and said that there was an extremely pure affection on her face, and when she wanted to speak again, she frowned and closed her mouth, Yingying raised her head and saw a person coming in at the door.
"Xiao Man——" came in with a bloated middle-aged man, who shouted with a smile on his face when he saw Xiao Man.
Xiao Man was her name, and when she saw the man, she whispered: "He's here, I can't talk to you! Don't say anything for the time being, let's talk another day." Then he changed his voice and responded: "Yo—— Director Wang, why are you willing to come and play with me when you have time?" Xiao Man said angrily, her posture only needs to move a little carefully to make the man swoon, and he will be defeated.
"Where can I be free?—— I have to come to see Xiao Man if I don't have time, you don't want me, I still have to think about you?" The man walked up to him and stared at Xiao Man back and forth a few times, Yingying hurriedly retreated when he saw this.
"What nonsense?——" Xiao Man first reprimanded him with a grim face, and then changed his mood and showed a smile: "...... Thinking of you!"
At this point, Yingying had already walked out of the video store with interest, and when she looked back, she saw that Director Wang had crooked his neck and was fitting on Xiao Man's scalp.