I asked Chu Qingchuan a little worriedly: "If you keep the shares in your hands, will Lu Xingchen and them be unfavorable to you?"

Chu Qingchuan raised his lips and asked me if I cared about him?

I noticed that he seemed to like to draw conclusions from me that I cared about him.

"Of course. I'm not such a casual person as Mr. Chu, even if I am with ordinary friends of the opposite sex, I will be honest with each other. "Even if I admit it, I'll have to hold it.

Chu Qingchuan is still smart, and immediately understood the meaning of my words.

He pinched my nose and warned me fiercely, and if he mentioned Han Lu's incident again, he would be unkind to me.

"Oh, I can't say what you can do? You know how much psychological damage you've done me? I don't feel like I'm going to love anymore. "The more I talked, the more I got stronger.

He rubbed his temples and said that he had lost his footing and hated him for eternity.

After the joke, he still seriously answered my confusion.

"I have a friend who is an industrialist and has been very interested in the real estate industry in the mainland in recent years. Some time ago, we discussed, he wants to come to Jiangcheng to develop, just next month the government is going to auction a piece of land, he will come to bid, by the way to investigate the current situation of the Chu family, if he thinks it is appropriate, he will consider taking the Chu Group. Chu Qingchuan said.

I thoughtfully asked him, "Then you will become a major shareholder again?"

"Chu's network, channels, customer base and supply chain accumulated over the past decades are all very valuable. Rather than falling into the hands of Lu Xingchen and Li Hongyun, it is better to use it for yourself. At this time, he looked like he was scheming.

I found that the biggest difference between the two of us is that I can be seen by him at a glance, but he seems to have many faces.

He was like a Rubik's cube that needed to be arranged and combined, but I didn't have the ability to make all the faces appear in front of my eyes in an orderly manner.

"In that case, why did you refuse Chu Jingnan's request for help in the first place?"

Chu Qingchuan's dark eyes looked at me: "I am a businessman, and businessmen are egoists. ”

After he finished speaking, he looked at me quietly.

I touched my face and asked him what was wrong? What does it have to do with me?

He said it was okay and glued an eyelash from under my eyelid.

I yawned, the candlelight conversation was a bit long, the amount of information was too much, it might be too much brain, and I was a little tired.

Moreover, in his arms, I felt a sense of peace and relaxation that I had never felt during this time.

I finally realized that Zhou Wenhan's advice to me was right, find someone to sleep with.

Just when I was about to fall asleep in a daze, a warm voice came from my ears: "Only for you, it was an accident." ”

Before I could think about it, sleepiness hit me, and I fell asleep.

Soon after, the dark door opened again, and this time, I felt a little more courage to walk up to the little girl.

I crouched down and looked into her empty eyes: "Yangyang, what do you want?"

She raised the corners of her lips, and an emotionless arc appeared in her mouth: "Sister, you really disappointed me." As soon as that man appears, you don't care about anything. ”

With that, she turned around, and those memories appeared like projections in the endless void behind the door.

I deliberately didn't look at those pictures: "Yangyang, I promise you, I will find the person who hurt us and let him receive the punishment he deserves." Don't hate the person who loves us, he's good to us, he wants to help me and will help you. ”

I could feel her rejection and hostility towards Chu Qingchuan. In her heart, through the behavior that I had with Chu Qingchuan, she had equated him with the beast back then.

She smiled at me and looked at me with utter disappointment.

I told myself that she was my inner demon, that she wasn't real, but it didn't seem to help, that her aura was too powerful and dominant.

"I won't trust you anymore, you don't deserve to grow up in place of me. Her sudden sharp gaze swept towards me, and the moment the four eyes met, I seemed to have been drilled into my body by something, completely entering an unconscious state, and I only felt that there was nowhere to vent the hatred in my heart.

……

"The scorching sun!" Chu Qingchuan's short and majestic cry pulled me back to reality.

I woke up to see myself sitting on top of him, my hands in his throat.

By this time, he had already broken one of my hands, and I came back to my senses before I felt pain.

He furrowed his brow as if he wanted to see through my eyes.

"I ...... I'm sorry. I explained humbly, deliberately avoiding him with my eyes and nowhere to put it.

"Who were you talking to?" he asked me sternly, and I wondered if the conversation in my dream had turned into babbling.

"No, it's just a nightmare. I hastened to explain.

He was no longer as patient with me as he had been, but pressed me to tell him everything that had happened, or he wouldn't mind prying my mouth open in the most direct way.

I looked at him puzzled, the most direct way?

"I want you, I've been putting up with it for a long time. As he spoke, he got up and pressed me to the bed, and ripped off the shoulder straps of my nightgown, so violently that I immediately defended myself with my teeth and claws.

I screamed hysterically, but he didn't stop until I finally realized the disparity in strength and cried and begged him to let me go.

"Tell me. Chu Qingchuan pulled me up and ordered fiercely.

I sat cross-legged, wiped two handfuls of tears, and asked him, "What do you mean?"

"If I did die at the bottom of the lake yesterday, would you be widowed for me?" he asked me this question instead of answering me.

Remembering what he had just done to me, I said that it would definitely be sad for a while, and that life should still be sunny after that, after all, the Si people have passed away.

His face became extremely ugly, but he didn't say a word.

I guessed he must have been secretly scolding me for having no conscience, so I quickly laughed and said, "Just kidding, it's not good." I was wrong, don't be angry, king. ”

Chu Qingchuan then warned me: "I said I would wait for you, but I didn't wait for you to perfunctory me. I originally thought that your claustrophobia was only punished and confined when you were a child, and it was not so serious. But when you came back from a business trip, you developed a rejection of physical contact with me, and I believe you remembered something. Falling into the lake yesterday, if it weren't for Jiang Haocheng, they found it in time......" He said this, squinting at me.

I suddenly remembered something, and when he was defenseless, he suddenly lifted his T-shirt, and I saw a large bruise on his waist, which was shocking.

At this time, I remembered that at the bottom of the lake, the kick I kicked before I lost consciousness, was it so hard?

I swallowed, he can really pretend, after all kinds of activities this day, I didn't find out that something was wrong.

"Does it hurt?" I stared intently at the injury, "Don't kick your internal organs." ”

Chu Qingchuan said quietly: "That's a kidney." ”

Of course, I know that it is the kidney!

It's a good thing he didn't continue to investigate, otherwise I wouldn't have been able to afford it.

"After Cheng Xun passed away, I received intervention therapy for a period of time, PTSD, which is a common psychological phenomenon after people have been severely traumatized. Your symptoms are very similar, that bottle of medicine was prescribed by a psychiatrist, what did he say?" Chu Qingchuan spoke again, returning to his normal tone.

No wonder he seems to know my condition very well, it turns out that he used to be a patient.

"Say that there is no problem, and slowly get better, and heart disease still needs heart medicine. I said casually.

Chu Qingchuan let out a low roar, "Cheng Jiaoyang", and I actually subconsciously sat up straight immediately.

This conditioned reflex, what about dog training?!

"If you don't want me to help you recreate the situation, you'd better tell me about your assault. He admonished.

"How do you know I've been ......?" I knew the answer before I could even ask.

My reactions couldn't be more obvious, he's such a smart guy and knows a thing about PTSD, you can guess it.

I panicked a little at the thought that I was about to be unable to hide it.

"You're not a doctor, tell you what you're doing?" I was dying.

"I'm better than a doctor. Say it or not!" He lost his patience, and he was about to pounce on me again, and he found a very high-sounding reason for himself: "The best way to treat escape is to force it, either heal or go crazy, if I miss and make you crazy, I will put you in the best mental hospital, rest assured." ”

"You're going to be extreme! We're going to talk about science!" I thought to myself, how could he do this to me?

"Chu Qingchuan, I can be sure of you, are you still going to lock me and Han Lu in the same ward?"

The next second, I saw him lift the T-shirt with both hands, take off his arms and throw them at the end of the bed, revealing his strong upper body.

"Wait!" I hurriedly spread my fingers and reached out to stop him, after all, he only had one piece of clothing left on him.

"You, do you really have a way to help me?" I asked, hesitantly.

He patted me on the face and said, "How do you know if you don't try it?" Otherwise, you think about how to kill me every day, and I won't be able to do my job?"

I lowered my head, and after a fierce battle of thoughts, I finally made a decision.

"Chu Qingchuan, you really don't care about my past? even if it ...... I ......, "I'm spitting."

"Of course I do. He looked at me aggressively, and I hung my head in frustration.

"If you can't even accept your past, why ask others to accept it?" he added.

His words were like a slap in the face, which made me realize that the reason why I was so mindful and wanted to hide from him was because of my own lack of self-confidence.

"Chu Qingchuan, listen up, I'm going to say it. ”

I took a deep breath and pulled the pillow over my arms and hugged it in my arms.

He sat cross-legged across from me and began to listen with a serious expression.

I reminisced about the process peacefully, probably because I was awake and didn't have the same reactions as I did when I was hypnotized.

By the time I had finished the last word, there was a long silence in the bedroom.

I didn't dare to look up, I didn't dare to look at the face of the man opposite, and even though I knew he wouldn't look down on me, I couldn't overcome my low self-esteem.

Actually, I can realize that everything he did before was deliberately trying to scare me. I can continue to resist, and he will not really violate me.

But I could also feel that he cared about me, and he wanted to help me from the bottom of his heart, but I couldn't resist any longer.

His kindness to me made me suspect that I didn't know how to love at all.

I thought that my love for Chu Jingnan was so deep and poignant, but Chu Qingchuan told me that the correct way to open love should be to bear the wind and rain hand in hand.

He wants me to have the ability to withstand the wind and rain, and will protect me from the wind and rain when I can't do it.

I can't help but empathize, the same is love, Chu Qingchuan's delicacy and thoughtfulness towards me, but I have never realized it in Chu Jingnan.

The love that I always thought was nothing more than self-righteousness and wishful thinking to be good to others.

I used to hate Chu Jingnan and felt that I was wronged and hurt, but now that I think about it, the root may be in myself.

Knowing how to love is really more important than love itself.

"Sunshine, let me talk to her. Chu Qingchuan's calm voice pulled me back to reality.

I was a little incredulous, what did he say?

He saw my doubts and asked me, "You feel guilty about her in your heart, so you don't dare to face her." But if you hadn't forgotten, what would you be like now? Have you ever thought about it?"

I was stunned, if there was a if, I might have been depressed a long time ago, and it was impossible for me to choose to live hard and heartless like now, no matter what happened.

"Forgetting is not an escape, but the best self-preservation mechanism chosen by the brain. You don't need to feel guilty, you're not sorry for anyone, on the contrary, you should be proud of yourself. "Chu Qingchuan's encouragement to me is like a bubbling spring, washing away the dust in my heart.

"Really?" I finally dared to meet his gaze: "Chu Qingchuan, it's not me who is wrong, do you?"

Chu Qingchuan nodded, his ink-colored pupils were like the calm sea at night, undisturbed, and made me feel at ease.

Tranquility is also a strength.

Both Zhou Wenhan and Ah Shui have told me before that it is not my fault, but I am still obsessed, and although I am relieved, I can't let go of my feelings from the root.

However, when Chu Qingchuan said this to me, I seemed to hear the cage where the little girl had been living in seclusion vibrating gently.

I could feel a different kind of emotion in her heart, such as panic.

That's never been the case, she's always been strong, full of hatred, dominating me.

But at this time, her empty eyes were actually a little more flustered.

"Don't trust him!" she finally lost her breath and walked out.

"Blazing Sun, believe me, no matter what I do for a while, don't be afraid, hold my hand and don't let go. Chu Qingchuan whispered to me.

After that, he turned off all the lights, and the heavy curtains blocked out the light from the outside world, and everything fell into darkness.

My palms were sweating nervously, and the little girl's sense of confusion was even greater.

I didn't know what would happen next, but I believed in Chu Qingchuan, but she had nothing to rely on, so her fear was a hundred times greater than mine, and I actually had a sense of pleasure in dominating the situation.

：。 ：