Yang Li, who came to Shenzhen alone, was very lonely, and she was also very confused about her future, and she didn't know where to go next?

I rented a small single room in a remote part of Shenzhen, and then looked for a job, but I was often confined to the door because I had no academic qualifications. Yang Li is even more helpless about her life. After wandering the streets of Shenzhen for a few days, I returned to my rental house and cried.

The body and soul can't accommodate themselves anywhere, and I want to go back to my hometown, but my hometown is better than wandering outside. Hometown is hell for Yang Li.

Yang Li's enemy in this life is not someone else, but her father! She and her father are like enemies in the previous life, and they will continue to grudge inexplicably in this life.

Every time I return to my hometown during the Chinese New Year, my father still scolds myself like when I was a child, and if I talk back, my father will beat me. Once during the Spring Festival, my father scolded me for no reason, and I almost fought with my father, thinking that even if I couldn't beat it, I should vent my resentment in my heart, but I was stopped by my mother and brother.

Although my brother is married and has opened his own hairdresser in his hometown, my father still gives my brother money. After Yang Li went out to work at the age of 14, no matter what happened, she never asked her father for a penny.

Sometimes she called and ordered Yang Li to call her brother and greet him! Yang Li's heart was sour: When did her father and brother care about her? He is an elder brother, so he should care about and greet his sister, so why should his sister go to greet him first? Not to mention that Yang Li often sends money to her father, and her father gave Yang Li's hard-earned money from her part-time job and compensation money for her injury to her brother for marriage and opening a shop.

Yang Li felt more and more that her life was not only a tool for her father to make money, but also a lifelong slave of her father and brother! In her father's invisible subconscious, the whole family served her brother! It was just that her father and brother did not realize this subconscious.

Yang Li received the phone call and said angrily: "He is an elder brother, I am a younger sister, it should be him who calls to care about me, not me to greet him?"

Dad: "Call your brother, you say that, don't you want to!" and hung up.

Once, Yang Li went back to her hometown to apply for it because her ID card was about to expire. When I got on the bus, I called my dad in advance and asked my dad to pick me up at the county station (because my home is in a remote rural area, so there is no car passing through my hometown), and my mother has been urging my dad to pick me up. Unexpectedly, when I arrived at the station, I called my father, hung up directly at first, and after playing the second time, my father received: "I'm playing cards!"

After answering for the third time, Yang Li heard the sound of mahjong rubbing, and the phone came: "Playing cards!"

Yang Li had to take a bus from the county seat by herself, and then went to the town to return home on a motorcycle.

When I got home, my mother asked, "Didn't your dad pick you up?"

Yang Li: "He's playing cards! I'll come back by car!"

After a while, Dad came home and said how much he had lost today...

Yang Li looked at her father with an unhappy face and said angrily, "I don't want to pay attention to you." I'll leave tomorrow!" (Yang Li understands how powerful her father is.) It's not the Spring Festival, and when I usually get home, my dad definitely doesn't welcome it, and I don't like it, because it costs money to eat and drink when I get home)

Dad: "Then you can go by yourself!"

The next day, Yang Li was carrying her luggage, and her mother saw that Yang Li had just come back and left the next day, crying like a child, and sending Yang Li out of the village while crying. Yang Li saw her mother so sad, and she also burst into tears.

Yang Li went to the police station to take a picture of her ID card, called her father, and asked him if he wanted to come to get the household registration book?

Dad said on the phone: "I have something to do! You go back to Chongqing and mail the household registration book back, I won't come to pick it up!"

In fact, Yang Li knew in her heart that her father just didn't want to see herself, but in fact, there was nothing wrong, even if she had something, she would go to the mahjong parlor to play cards.

Yang Li is not very familiar with her hometown, and she doesn't know anyone, because when she was a child, she was at home except for school, and she didn't dare to go anywhere, as long as she went out, she would be scolded by her grandmother and father to go home and call it housework, or help with farm work.

In my hometown, I am like a little bird who is kept in a cage and is abused and scolded every day, no matter how much I am bullied by others outside, at least my heart will not hurt so much! My spirit will not be so easily destroyed.

Yang Li is actually not strong at all, if it weren't for the fear that she would die, her mother would be beaten and scolded by her father even more, and she would be ridiculed and ridiculed by the people in her hometown, Yang Li would not have continued to live in this cold world a long time ago!

After wandering around the streets of Shenzhen for a few more days, because of economic reasons and helplessness in reality, Yang Li bought a ticket to return to Chongqing.