I came home and tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. The face twisted to the left thought of Shi Qing's new love Mo Momo, and the face twisted to the right thought of Shi Qing's old love Song Ge. Facing the ceiling, thinking about getting back together with the old love, facing the bed, thinking about Shi Qing and the new love, passionately holding hands and saying goodbye. In order to prevent himself from thinking crankily, he took a skipping rope and jumped more than 1,000 times under the building of the community. When I entered the door, I didn't take off my shoes, and I fell asleep next to the sofa. After clinical studies, insomnia is self-inflicted, but at the same time, it can be cured by itself. It's just that with the appearance of Shi Qing, I don't know how many exhausted and sweaty nights I will spend in the future, and how many sleepless nights I will spend listening to the rope and the earth colliding alone with the lonely music of the two springs reflecting the moon.

Over the years, I've gotten used to being hands-on. It's not that I like to be unique, but that life forces me. Who doesn't want to have someone around them to ask for warmth when they are sick. Who doesn't want to chop vegetables by themselves, and someone runs over and shouts to scold and put a band-aid on it, or take a sip of saliva to stop the bleeding like in an idol drama. Who doesn't want to watch ghost movies, there is a hug waiting to drill by himself. But the reality is that when I was sick, I silently read the instructions and took the medicine according to the dose, and I was disgusted by the leaders for going to the company and was slow to move. Cooking by himself, his fingers were cut off, and he could only hold the half of his finger and sigh. Occasionally, I wanted to stimulate my nerves and seek pleasure, but I found that Xin Rong was afraid to get into my arms and said, Mom, I don't want to watch ghost movies. A word woke up the dreamer, and now there is a person who must rely on me, and I have to be invincible. When I was out of breath, I also wished there was a bomb shelter to breathe. But I forgot, where did the bomb shelter come from in peacetime. Foolish people talk about dreams, and only stupid people will go crazy and whisper about the impossible.

Xin Rong kissed me before going out, and she said, "Mom, if there is something unhappy, forget about it." Although her heart was very warm, she still wiped away her excessive saliva with her hands in disgust. Fortunately, life treated me well and let me go around and get Xin Rong. Even though I had the idea of beating her out a long time ago. The child is high. She came unexpectedly and abruptly. I never thought I'd get pregnant because the security was so good. But objective facts do not change because of subjective consciousness. The moment I knew I was pregnant, my first thought was to send her away. I can't give her a stable life, and I hate his dad even more. Her dad would remind me of my terrible past. I want to say goodbye to the past, or not goodbye, and bury that memory more appropriately.

The butterfly effect is that a butterfly in South America can cause a hurricane in Asia with a flap of its wings. As for how I met Takami, I think it all started with that three-person trip.

It was the eve of the college entrance examination, and Egret gave me special information, saying that they would go to Yuntai Mountain next weekend and make an appointment to meet at the ticket office. After three years of getting along, it's not that she doesn't know what I think about Shi Qing. Egret and Shi Qing didn't get together either, although the grapevine said that they were a recognized couple of B big. Egret said that she would help me watch Shi Qing at B University, and I agreed. When any senior sister sees such an existence as an egret, she will be discouraged. I didn't have many friends since I was a child, but I once thought that Egret was a friend I could work with for life. She treated me with courtesy and offered her clever tips, and she contributed her wisdom and strength on my road to chasing Shi Qing. But I don't know why, Shi Qing and I have quarreled with each other a lot more times than before. For example, Shi Qing will arrive later than the agreed time. For example, when I really wanted to see him, he always had something that he couldn't leave. So we often quarreled, and Shi Qing said that I was too naïve to grow up. I complained that Shi Qing didn't understand me.

As expected, I pretended to meet Egret Shi Qing at the ticket office. Shi Qing's eyes widened in astonishment, and then he paced over quickly. "Why are you here?"

"Buy a ticket, what else can you do. ”

"You know I didn't mean that. ”

"It's too stressful and you need to soothe your mind. ”

I blinked my eyes in pity and gently grabbed his T-shirt with my hand. I thought to myself, he himself was not wandering around the temple the day before the college entrance examination. I didn't say it because I knew that his IQ gave him the capital to do whatever he wanted.

"I'll send you back now. ”

"Why, I'm afraid I'm ruining the good interest of you two here. ”

Sometimes, I think Egret is a master of love, Shi Qing is the one who is hanging, and I am the one who is hanging by Shi Qing. Although neither of them admits to liking each other. Fortunately, I have a thick face that is invulnerable, and I am entangled in soft grinding and hard bubbles to the end. Even if he was harshly sarcastic and acted as a strong man, he was willing, so Shi Qing has never won against me, and yes, no one can win against a person with no bottom line.

I don't remember the first half of that trip very clearly, probably because the second half was too memorable.

For some reason, the egret fell into the river, and I didn't have time to call Shi Qing, so I jumped into the river by myself. Because of the torrential rain a few days ago, the water level of the river has risen rapidly, and the key is that the only thing that the invincible egret can't do is swim. I tried to swim to the egret, but was pushed away by a force. I watched as Shi Qing dragged the egret ashore and did artificial respiration while pressing. A strange but truly terrible thought came to me, and if I drowned at this time, no one would find out. I watched the beautiful and clear lake slowly dive, and Shi Qing just now pushed me away, and he pushed me away. My back seemed to have been hit by Qiao Feng's eighteen palms, and the pain that penetrated through the internal organs. This time I really seem to see it. It's not a matter of time, even if I wait for him for a hundred centuries, the person he chooses will not be me. I held my breath for too long, and the instinct to survive immediately swam to the shore. The self-written and self-directed drowning scene can only play a dual personality and save itself. When I swam ashore, I wished there was a safe exit for me to go back to the classroom of my senior year of high school and write materialistically.

I don't know how long I came out of the river, my clothes and hair were almost dry, and only my face was wet all the time. I looked up, suddenly hoping for the next thunderstorm, so that I couldn't tell if it was tears or rain on my face. Then a bolt of lightning struck the memory center of my brain, and then disappeared all memories with Shi Qing.

Suddenly, I felt a tightness in my waist, and I turned my head and bit the arm of the visitor.

Shi Qing, who was bitten, was not angry at all, and said in a tone that made me turn into a puddle of water, "Take my hand and slow down." ”

I sat on the rocks outside the fence, a little further beyond the cliffs. I'm afraid of heights, I don't know if the heroic rescue of the beauty just now is too lethal, and now I don't feel dizzy and sweaty palms when I look down now. Compared to the valley, Shi Qinglai, who pushed me away, was even more terrifying. An irresistible force lifted me back up the stone steps. I jerked free of his restraints, probably too hard, and I fell straight down the stone steps. The villains will eventually die, and the embarrassed people will end up eating.

I tried to get up, but I fell down harder. Shi Qing directly landed me on his shoulders and carried me like a sack. He didn't let me down until he saw the stone bench.

"Don't move. Looking at Shi Qing's face that had medicated my wound, I saw his pursed lips again. The scene where Shi Qing gave artificial respiration to the egret is being replayed again.

"What it's like to kiss. ”

"I thought you had been in the river for too long, and the left cerebral cortex was flooded with water in the frontal lobe, causing aphasia. ”

I didn't wait for him to finish his next sentence before I blocked his words and used my lips. I kissed him. It was very long, I didn't move, and Shi Qing didn't move. I don't know how long that kiss lasted, but I felt Shi Qing kiss me back. But it was too short, too short for me to tell, and he was already out of my lips. Then I saw that the face that had always been calm became embarrassed and panicked.

"I'm going to call a tour bus to take you down the mountain. ”

Shi Qing's back resembled that of a fleeing outcast, disappearing beyond the horizon along with his bag that had not yet had time to zip it up. Looking at the various first-aid medicines scattered around his feet was evidence of his stumbling escape. Later, I really waited for the tour bus to pick me up. It's just that there is no Shi Qing in the car. The two of them probably left early. That afternoon, I just said one word, what it feels like to kiss. How horrible my kiss is for you to bear it.