My right eyelid suddenly jumped for no reason.

I asked, "Private detective?"

Lu Shu nodded and said, "Yes, our side is investigating his enemies, such as detectives and policemen are high-risk professions, and it is much more dangerous to go out on a mission if you are on the front line." ”

I nodded thoughtfully, and for some reason I suddenly connected some irrelevant things in my mind, but it was just a flash, and I felt that I was thinking too much, so I quietly waited for Lu Shu to finish dealing with these things.

When he was done, he closed the computer, took off his glasses and set them aside, rubbed his temples, and asked, "Do you want to keep this kid?"

I was wearing a big windbreaker, and I seemed to have gained some weight, and after a few days of recuperation, I looked good, so he pointed out to me.

I pulled up a smile and calmly stated, "Yes, but I'm afraid." ”

He asked, "Why?"

I laughed: "The child's father is a married man, and I am just a third party, reasonable and moral, unreasonable, so the whole person is entangled and painful, and there is no one to talk to." ”

Lu Shu asked, "How many months?"

I said, "Two months and one week." ”

I calmly confided in him what I thought, and I don't know why, some of them can't say it to Su Yunan, but they can say it to Lu Shu, he and Su Yunan are completely different people, Su Yunan is domineering, cruel and arrogant to me, Lu Shu is elegant, handsome as if he lives outside the world.

He listened quietly until I finished talking about my grievances.

He said: "What do you really want, is it a child, or that man's love. ”

I said, "I want them all." ”

Seeing that Lu Shu didn't speak, I laughed and said, "I want all of this, I'm very selfish, but I know my position and identity, and I can't get any of this." ”

Lu Shu got up and took two windbreakers, handed me one of them, and said, "I'll take you somewhere." ”

It's already early winter, S City is a little cold, my fingers are frozen, but Lu Shu has a warm breath, which makes people feel inexplicably reassured.

I followed him, and he led me to a temple in the mountains, with a bodhisattva in the center of the temple, and a statue of Buddha, and the temple was filled with calming sandalwood.

Lu Shu said: "I used to come here when I was confused, and I calmed down inexplicably, and it seemed that everything had a direction." ”

I looked at Lu Shu's appearance and laughed, he asked me what was wrong, I waved my hand and said it was okay, and I also learned from him to kneel down and look at the Bodhisattva.

I said, "Actually, I don't believe in this, and I think it's useless, so many people in the world come to the temple with big and small troubles, so how can the Bodhisattva be busy?"

Lu Shu shook his head with a smile: "It's not sustenance, it's meditation by yourself, figuring out what you want, and figuring out what you yearn for most in your heart." ”

I nodded thoughtfully.

He said: "People in their own field, do what they should do, they have to bear what they should bear, let alone step into other people's fields? Miss Su, find out what you really want." ”

He took me to the temple for a long time, enlightened me a lot, invited me to a meal, and sent me home.

To be honest, I'm embarrassed, I feel like I'm bothering him every time, and I haven't given him any consulting fees, but he doesn't mind, I sometimes wonder if he has a girlfriend, because in my impression, not to say that there is no desire, but also less desire, and it is elegant and surprising.

And in the days that Su Yunan was away, I really went to the temple a few times, and it seemed that my heart was really not so impetuous.

However, some TV stations have been reporting on the footage of Su Yunan and Deng Qing going on a business trip together, and the two signed a well-known foreign water company, which is said to be the world's leader in the sewage treatment industry.

And during that time, my morning sickness at home became more and more obvious, I don't know if it was providence, and the adverse reactions that I didn't have before came all at once, as if God was punishing me, punishing me for my improper identity, and the child I shouldn't have conceived.

Su Mansion has been empty these days, and there is no one else except Zhou's mother to accompany me.

I've never felt that half a month is so long.

After Su Yunan left, I realized how small my circle was, I didn't have any friends, I didn't cultivate my own hobbies, and my body was lazy, and I chose some storybooks to read to the baby in my belly every day.

Reading and reading, tears remained.

I don't know when I became so pessimistic.

The love between the two of them and the success of their careers are reported on TV every day, I simply don't watch it, but go out for a walk, and because I haven't eaten barbecue for too long, I don't have taboos, and my stomach is bad, so scared that Zhou's mother hired a private doctor again, and it took a few days to slow down.

Mother Zhou shook her head and sighed: "My miss, don't make a mistake, Mr. will blame me, although he doesn't say it, I can see that he remembers you." ”

Zhou's mother said this for a reason, because he would buy me a gift every time he went on a business trip, and send it back to S City to me on the same day, to be honest, it was fake not to be moved, but when I remembered that he was on a honeymoon trip with Deng Qing, I felt ironic.

One of his gifts was earrings, custom-made, crystal pendants with my initials, which were extremely valuable.

I played, a bitter smile appeared on the corner of my mouth, turned my head to look at Zhou's mother and asked, "How long will he come back?"

Mother Zhou saw that my face was not good, so she hurriedly brought me a cup of hot water for me to drink, looked at me distressedly and said, "It's almost there." ”

I said, "I'm so bored at home, I'll go out for a walk by myself, and I don't need you to accompany me." ”

Zhou's mother was scared by me, afraid that I would eat and run away again, so she asked the bodyguards to follow me quietly.

I laughed and used a little trick to get rid of those bodyguards, it was not difficult for me, after all, I have been in the Su family for so many years, and I would not have survived under Su Yunan's men until now without a little trick.

I unconsciously walked to the Splendid Yuan nightclub, these days I always dream about it for some reason, I haven't been here, my mother never takes me to any dusty place, she will lock me and my sister in the house every time she comes out to work.

But every time I come here, I feel the urge to cry.

I can seem to imagine how my mother was trampled on here.

This is a high-class nightclub, a paradise for the upper class elite, I stopped in front of the door, and was about to walk in to have a look, when suddenly a pungent smell came from the tip of my nose.

"Hmm-" I instinctively resisted and whispered, but the sleepiness immediately hit me, and my whole body gradually lost consciousness.