I can't swim.

I could only close my eyes in the water, the water on the surface of the lake was warm, but it was cold underneath.

In the darkness, the discomfort of fear struck again, and I panicked, already in complete unconscious confusion.

At the same time, water poured into my nose and I struggled desperately, but I didn't know how to survive.

When I felt someone grab my neck from behind and put it against my back, my breathing almost stopped.

The little girl appeared in front of my eyes, and the memories hidden in the cabinet poured out.

"Mild tear on the lower body", "Mold infection", "Why does the doctor bleed?", "Yangyang, don't scratch", "Auntie smeared ointment on you", "Don't, don't", "Electric shock treatment", "Yangyang is obedient, grandpa is here, don't be afraid, you are the bravest child"......

Those words were rampaging through my mind, from different people, switching between different scenes.

The little girl's eyes were like two black holes, and the bitter hatred swallowed me.

Caught in painful memories, I mistook Chu Qingchuan, who was rescuing me at the time, for that man.

I had the idea that he was the root of all evil, and I was going to die with him!

I opened my eyes suddenly, I was stunned by the demon in my dream, my vision in the water was not clear, Chu Qingchuan was behind me again, I broke free fiercely, but he didn't let go.

In the confusion, I somehow turned to face him, I reached out my hands and grabbed his neck, and we tangled and pulled underwater.

I must have looked a lot like a water ghost back then. Later, I asked Chu Qingchuan, and he smiled and said that he was a beautiful water ghost, the kind in Liaozhai.

"Kill him!" the little girl's voice rang out in my head: "He hurt you!

"They all deserve to die!Let him die!Kill him!" "If it weren't for him, I wouldn't have been in the hospital for half a year"......

I am now like a puppet manipulated by her, who uses my insecurity and hatred of the past to destroy my will and judgment.

It turns out that the strength of a person at the time of dying is indeed terrifying, and Chu Qingchuan, who is familiar with water, has not been able to break free from the shackles of my hands for a long time under my brute force.

Suddenly, I felt a pain in my mouth, and his thumb was grabbed and slammed by him, and the pain was piercing, so I relieved my strength, and he survived.

By this time, I had choked on a lot of water, and my brain was even more confused due to the lack of oxygen.

When he approached me again, my soft, warm lips blocking my mouth with excessive oxygen, I kicked him so hard that it seemed to kick him in the waist.

I felt his whole body sink as if he were suddenly weak, and I lost consciousness with it.

"Well done, all those who violate us, go to hell. "I was lying in the darkness when a cold voice came from above.

I don't know if I'm dead, my body can't move, only my brain is active.

"Finally, we can see the light of day again. "It was her, the little girl, with a dim light on her face, and her arm holding the rag doll, as she approached me step by step.

I finally had a chance to talk to her.

"Yangyang, I'm sorry I forgot about you. I said.

She flashed her big empty eyes, grinning but not smiling: "Your memory has never been good, you killed your grandfather, didn't you forget to avenge him?"

I was silent.

"It's okay, you've already killed someone from the Chu family, and for the rest, let's take our time. The most important thing is to find the man and kill him with your own hands. The little girl's tone was cold, like a devil had taken possession of her body.

"I, killed someone?" I asked, confused.

"Yes, the man who sank to the bottom of the lake, he cheated you for the first time, and hurt you for another woman, he deserved to die, he deserved to die. Her smile grew more and more exaggerated, until she finally conjured into a sinister face.

Chu Qingchuan?!

I woke up and opened my eyes to the hotel's stylized room.

The door was slightly closed, and someone outside was whispering softly, this was supposed to be a suite.

Jiang Haocheng's voice suddenly increased: "What? No way?! Doctor, you say it again?! Why did I say it was okay before I came, this is not good?!!!

My heart tightened suddenly, and I lifted the covers and ran out.

"!" Jiang Haocheng hurriedly turned his back to me when he raised his eyes and saw me.

I didn't care about what I was wearing, so I grabbed his arm and shouted, "Who do you say is wrong? Is Chu Qingchuan dead? Where is he?" You take me to him!"

Jiang Haocheng froze suddenly, he turned his head halfway and turned around, not daring to look at me, and said, "You are in the sun...... Let's change my clothes first. ”

I was even more determined, and I patted him on the back so hard that it crackled, and I didn't notice that my hand was numb.

"Did he die to save me? Take me to him! I didn't mean to, I really ...... Whining...... Wow!" The more I spoke, the more sad and excited I became, from choking to wiping tears, and finally I couldn't help but cry out loud "Wow".

That's a human life, or Chu Qingchuan's, he died to save me, how could I be indifferent?

Tears couldn't stop flying out, I alternately wiped them with the back of my hands, couldn't restrain the sound of whimpering, and finally simply ignored it, and opened my mouth to cry.

"Jiang Haocheng, what should I do? He was killed by me, I shouldn't be so fierce to him...... He has been showing favor to me, caring for me, and helping me, but I still shook his face to show him, since I was a child, except for my grandfather, no one has treated me as well as him, woo...... He always said that I had no conscience, was I really...... Woo...... No conscience...... All those who are good to me will die ......" I cried breathlessly, huge sadness filled my mind and heart, and Chu Qingchuan's face kept flashing in front of my eyes.

Jiang Haocheng was finally reluctant to turn around, but looked at me with a confused expression.

In my opinion, he just didn't know how to comfort me with that look, after all, I overheard him calling.

"You don't have to comfort me, I'm sadder than anyone else. I know that he still has Sister Meng and Xiaoxiao, whether they like me or not, I will take care of them for Chu Qingchuan. "My arms were all wet, and I couldn't wipe the tears off my face.

"No, Blazing Sun, you calm down first. He reached out to tat me on the shoulder, but he shrank back.

"How can I be calm? Chu Qingchuan is dead! I haven't seen him for the last time......" I collapsed instantly, crying until I was dizzy from lack of oxygen.

The experience when Grandpa Chu and Grandpa left poured like a flood, but I can't tell you clearly, and the mood now is a little different from that time.

He is not my relative, but he can make me feel heartbreaking.

Every expression he had before, laughing, smiling, chuckling, angry, calm, cold, angry...... It's all vividly swirling in my head.

I wiped my tears, my body went limp, and I sat directly on the carpet with my legs crossed.

"Are you so looking forward to my death?" After the key card opened the door, I heard Chu Qingchuan's voice.

I froze in place, not daring to look back, for fear that everything was an illusion.

I tilted my head and focused my gaze on Jiang Haocheng's face, trying to judge by his expression whether I was hallucinating.

Jiang Haocheng's throat rolled, and his gaze fell behind me.

"Brother, the person is awake, I'm leaving, you can explain to her, this girl is afraid that she is crazy......" he said and walked around me, as if he was particularly afraid of touching me.

I heard him whisper to Chu Qingchuan: "When she woke up, she ran out and asked me if you were dead...... What a feud? What the hell do you say you did to her...... Alas......"

Jiang Haocheng muttered like a Tang monk, and Chu Qingchuan roared "Get out" in silence!

Then there was the sound of doors opening and closing.

I came back to my senses and turned my head to see the familiar tall figure.

Rising from the ground, I threw myself into his arms, wrapped my arms around my lean waist, and rubbed my face from side to side on the clothes on his chest, mixed with joy and sorrow.

Soon his clothes were wet, and he couldn't tell the difference between snot and tears.

He was carrying the convenience bag in both hands, so he had to rub his chin against the top of my head with his head and say, "Good, I'm fine, I'm not dead." Who's going to take care of you when I'm dead, huh?"

I hugged him and didn't let go, just smelling his breath was reassuring.

I never knew I would have such a deep attachment to him. Maybe it's just that I'm afraid of dying again, I thought to myself.

I jogged and said, "I woke up and heard him call the doctor and say what's wrong?" I thought ......."

"Oh, probably his dog. Chu Qingchuan thought about it and replied to me.

"I don't care, you're a dog. "I'm almost scared to death, I'm really miserable by Jiang Haocheng's mental retardation.

He laughed, and then said let me go first, and he put down the food, and went home to make it until I woke up and could eat.

"No, what if you turn into a puff of green smoke and drift away?" I said to him with tears in my eyes.

He took a breath and looked down at me with a gentle gaze like a child.

"Okay, then don't let it go. He bent his knees and placed the things in his hand directly on the ground, and a princess carried me off the ground.

I followed his gaze and looked down, only then did I notice the clothes I was wearing, and my face suddenly became hot.

This is probably his T-shirt, a white short-sleeved cotton model, a little thin, I don't wear underwear, my chest is proud, and he hugs it like this, and the hem only covers a little bit of shame.

He lowered his head and kissed me on the lips, but only a dragonfly dripped. I buried my head in the socket of his neck, leaning sideways against him.

Probably because the little girl in the subconscious did not wake up, or decided that the loss and recovery after death prevailed, I didn't even feel repulsed by such an intimate act.

He lay me down on the big soft bed, leaned over and asked me if I was hungry, and before I could answer, he got up and said to go get me something to eat.

I immediately looked up in a panic and put my arms around his neck, preventing him from leaving.

He frowned, and I noticed that there was a bruise on his neck.

I felt guilty in my heart, which should have been pinched out by me in the water, which shows that I really wanted to kill him at that time, but he didn't blame me at all.

"Don't look at me like that, I can't help but want to bully you. He reached out and scraped the tip of my nose.

I shook my head lightly and whispered, "I'd rather you bully me than let you leave me." ”

His hot snort hit my face, and the tip of his nose rubbed against me and said, "Not now, I can't bear it." ”

"I didn't mean that, I just didn't want you to leave me. "I didn't dare to look at him directly, after all, our relationship is very awkward, and I don't know what position I am basing myself on when I say such things.

"I never said I wanted to part with you, it was you who ignored me and showed off your power in front of me with your new love. Chu Qingchuan's thin lips brushed between my forehead.

"He's not ......," I hurriedly explained.

But after only three words, he interrupted: "Don't put other men in front of me, I don't like it." ”

I muttered, "I didn't say it first." ”

He reached under the hem of my T-shirt and gently pinched my waist: "During my absence, you didn't even have two taels of meat, what the hell is going on?"

"Can you not say it?" I was ashamed to say, especially in front of him.

He was silent for a moment and said no.

"Then I'll tell you again. I excused myself.

"Good. He probably saw that I really didn't want to say it, and he didn't force me.

"I confiscated your medicines, and you are not allowed to rely on them in the future, they will make you addicted, drowsy, and sluggish, you know......? I have, I can help you, trust me. His thumb rubbed against my lips, his eyes full of encouragement and confidence.

"What do you know?" I was surprised that I hadn't said anything, and he seemed to have guessed everything except the cause.

"Your bottle of medicine is for depression and neurasthenia, based on your previous performance......" he nodded, reached out and straightened out the broken hair around my neck and chest, stared at me and said, "You are like an overly frightened little girl now, too fragile for me to touch you." ”

"Don't you blame me? I almost killed you, I kicked you to the bottom of the lake, did I? where else did you get hurt?"

"Of course you have to pay the price. He smiled at me and said gently, "But not now, you can't stand it." ”

I took the initiative to raise my head, and he immediately reached out to support the back of my head, and I kissed him on the lips and looked at him: "I can, do you want to?"

I want to repay him, and I want to break the shackles that shackle me.

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