Postscript.

On a hot night in Xiangcheng, the whole city seems to be shrouded in smoke and fire with roadside barbecue stalls lined up with the smell of beer and cumin. The crowd was filled with the cacophony of guessing orders and bragging.

“…… Tsk! Peng Zechou lost 100 million yuan in a single gamble in Macao! You have to know what era it was! It's amazing! But he doesn't care—— what is the meaning of the great storm? Until now, the Dapeng Hope Primary School he donated to build is still well-known, and it is all about to be recorded in history! I just can't remember the name of the villa he gave to my old mother-in-law,—— I can't remember! Now it has become a tourist attraction, and what is it called,—— is 'a collection of ancient and modern, Chinese and foreign, and the masterpiece of architecture! That atmosphere, luxury! Grandma is a bear! Last year I went on a trip and also collected my money......"

"Appeal ——!"

"Appeal ——!!"

Liao Guanghui's boasting immediately attracted the unanimous sighs of everyone. Although from the very beginning of his speech, some people have lowered their eyebrows with disdain, once ordinary people always pull the life deeds of those big men on themselves, some people are unconvinced to doubt its authenticity. Although most of what he said was obtained from the media, and his personal emotional color was added.

Liao Guanghui has been getting more and more blessed recently, he is shirtless, oily and fat, sitting on a small stool, the palm wearing Pan Jinchao's gold ring keeps hugging back and forth on the shy belly, he sweats like rain, and at the same time he commits himself picking up the cup and leaning up: "Ha...... ——!" he slapped the fat man next to him.

"Don't say it in vain, don't you care, listen, tired of it——!," the fat man yelled at him impatiently, rolling his eyes at the corners of his mouth.

At the end, Liao Guanghui finally laughed a little embarrassedly, and said to the fat man: "-Tired of listening, get out!"

The fat man was playing with a small stool in his hand, and when he heard this, he turned his face backwards with disdain, and then his eyes were immediately attracted by something, and fell on a dilapidated flat-screen TV hanging on the open-air wall not far away, and even his expression froze in an instant, and he tilted his head forward to look at the picture in the TV, and while he showed an exaggerated expression with joy, he said: "Hi ~ Yo! Li Dian! I like you to die——"

"You're a bear! I still like you to death! If you're a powerful person, she'll play with you too—— my daughter-in-law is here—— wait a little longer, and it'll be over immediately!" Seeing this, Liao Guanghui waved his big hand above his head, saluted Yingying, who had just walked in front of him, and hurriedly picked up a string and handed it to Yingying: "Daughter-in-law, you eat——"

Before Yingying could shake her head disdainfully, a seven or eight-year-old boy jumped out of a van on the side of the road not far away and ran over to this side: "Dad, I want to eat mutton skewers too!"

"Okay!Dan'er, come and sit here and eat!" Liao Guanghui looked at his son greedily eating mutton skewers, and several people at the table also greeted him warmly, giving Xiao Dan'er something delicious.

"Let's eat—— don't talk nonsense, wait a minute, the children are sleepy!" Yingying just now seemed to hear Liao Guanghui blowing nonsense again, so she glanced at him, and urged a little impatiently. Although he was disgusted with Liao Guanghui's three views, it was already a habit of nature, and at some point her personality had quietly formed a set of immune systems that could accept all his bad thoughts and behaviors. She has just come back from the stock, and by the way, she will pick up the child at the boarding class, and she will not have to go to class tomorrow and Saturday. There were also two girls standing beside Yingying, and Siqi Si was already like her, both of them had become young girls.

"Huh, sister-in-law is here?" the fat man was staring at the TV stupidly, turned his face to find Yingying behind him, and exclaimed in surprise.

"Well, excuse me—— you're watching TV," Yingying said with a cold face. Now she doesn't like to smile much, and her face always seems to be covered with a layer of frost, except for the warm tenderness in the depths of her eyes when she looks at the children. Now her world and the goal of life are so single, she doesn't want to care about anything else, and she doesn't have the heart to talk to others more, not even to smile at others. The fat man listened and stretched out his head to watch TV boringly. Yingying's mother and daughter also looked back at the picture on the TV.

"According to the exclusive report of Detective Wang Liuer, a few days ago, in the ultra-luxury seaview villa purchased by the famous director Li Xiaoguang for the popular movie star Li Dian, the reporter witnessed the picture of Jia Tai Pictures CEO Duan Shijie and Li Dian spending leisure time together, I don't know how Li Xiaoguang feels when he knows what to do?——"

What is playing on the TV is a video of a stunning celebrity and a domineering president being unscrupulously intimate, he is now the famous director Li Xiaoguang, who is now dominating the status of film and television in the rivers and lakes, abandoning his wife and children, and not hesitating to use all resources to make the 18th-tier artist Li Dian popular, and now he has just been popular and shows his affection with the domineering president in such a high-profile manner.

Yingying's mother and daughter all looked intently at the picture on the screen, the flickering fluorescent reflection on her mother and daughter's faces, looking so peaceful and serene. Now Yingying is already a happy mother, Siqi is already a big girl, Siyuan is already very big, she is the most dexterous and dexterous little girl, just like those cute and sensible little girls around us, Yingying knows, when she grows up, she will change, whenever she is sensible and clever chattering in front of her, Yingying will let her go quietly, she has a sweet mouth, and will be considerate, often lying in front of Yingying when she is most tired to beat her back, pinch her shoulder, Yingying's expressionless face is neither happy nor praise her。 After Siyuan, she became pregnant again, and Liao Guanghui told her that we would get married if we gave birth to a boy, and we would register the child when we got married. So when it was found out that it was a girl again, Liao Guanghui said, let's beat it, I can't afford to raise more children. She didn't react either, anyway, come with the worst, she has an infinite bottom line to face everything. Later, after finding out that it was a boy when they were pregnant with a little egg, they got married with a big belly. No one from her mother's family came, and she didn't go back, but simply got a certificate and got a household registration. However, she gave her father some money, which was a little property from the sale of real estate from her mother Lin Hong and her grandparents, and her grandparents had passed away early after that.

used some of the property sold from her mother Lin Hong, bought two storefronts in the new development zone, and bought a van. She also got her driver's license, and the van became her usual means of transportation, as long as there was anything she needed to do, something to buy, she would drive and go. is neither trim nor dressed, and all day long without makeup, revealing a large area of melasma on her face, and not smiling all day long, she is alive and well with the image of an omnipotent and fierce woman. Some people have said that she is stupid, and even Liao Guanghui said that when she inherited the few properties from Lin Hong, she asked her if she would ever be with her, but she didn't even bother with her, so she bought the façade that should be bought and did what she should do. Her state of mind has been like the surface of the lake, quietly unable to stir up a ripple, she knows very clearly what to do, what is some fireworks and water, all the good and bad she can face indifferently, and there is no longer any obsession in her heart. It doesn't matter what kind of person you spend your life with, what matters is that you understand what this life is all about.

Liao Guanghui is not the same as before, he cares about his family and loves his children very much, especially he loves Yuan Siqi very much, Yingying loves little eggs the most, especially when there are many children, there is always one who is the meat on the tip of the parents' hearts. This made Yingying confirm once again that her original choice was correct. In fact, since I got married with Xiaodan'er, the days seem to be much brighter. She and Liao Guanghui have been working hard for business and family all year round, and there is no longer vigorous vitality and happiness in her heart, and their vitality and happiness are built on the child's body. The years have quietly removed the traces of youth from their bodies, compared with the women of the same age who are dressed up in fancy clothes on the street, she looks vicissitudes and haggard, but she never disdains and will not do anything to apply powder and lipstick, but Liao Guanghui does not dislike her, he said: "What to rub and what to wipe, just the embryos of crooked melons and cracked dates, no matter how you dress up, you are also a monster!" Hearing this, Yingying was very unimpressed in her heart, she will always remember Liao Guanghui's gluttonous appearance in the early years, in the recognition she has accumulated over the years, men, in what a sanctimonious body, it is often not the will and brain that can be absolutely dominated, but the most primitive instinct of the animal. However, the animal's instinct is intermittent and ephemeral, and it is only once released that it can stand on the dignity of a human being, society and family. Liao Guanghui is such an example, whenever this happens, Yingying still remembers that there are probably not all men like Liao Guanghui in the world,—— she thinks of Pan Jinchao. But it was limited to a confused feeling, but he couldn't remember anything,—— even if he faced the ring on Liao Guanghui's hand all day long, he only gave up his imagination in infinite resentment and various excuses, and then numbed his soul. But she is not very forgetful, she remembers many things very deeply about her life in just a few decades, including snuggling in her grandmother's arms in the summer when she was a child, opening her eyes to count the stars in the sky, Li Jinfeng walking into the house on the first day of Huaibei, and those summer Xiaojun looking at her sad eyes...... Everything was so deeply engraved in her life, but there were only some things she couldn't remember. The cleverness of many great women lies in their grievances and seeking perfection to calculate a reasonable value for themselves, but in fact, under the seemingly harmonious and happy appearance, it is at the cost of their lifelong "happiness". "Happiness" can be discarded, but the hope of life must continue. Of course, Yingying has hope for life.

Xiao Dan'er was still sitting on the table eating mutton skewers, and when Si Yuan came over, Liao Guanghui also picked up a few skewers and stuffed them into her sisters, but they all politely refused. When they sat on a bench next to them to watch TV affectionately, Liao Guanghui began to guess the boxing order with his wine and meat friends again:

"-Let's finish these two bottles, and we'll finish it, right?"

"Okay, let's start ——"

"Three peach orchards!"

"Four seasons of wealth!"

……

The TV is still playing gossip entertainment about Li Dian. Siqi next to him looked at it and opened his mouth: "Mom! You know no, many male and female classmates in my class are infatuated with Li Dian, I don't like it; Mom, how can she be so casual, be good with him for a while, and ...... with another person for a while."

"Heh......" Yingying smiled coldly when she heard this, and the corners of her mouth curled disdainfully, revealing a wry smile. There are some things she really can't say to her children——

A woman, no matter how beautiful she looks and how brilliant her future is, will either become a queen, a famous prostitute, or a talented woman - like the dead Cai Wenji, Li Qingzhao, Zhu Shuzhen...... Their lives are not very happy. is no happier than an ordinary woman: she has only become a wife, but she does not have to bear the mysterious and poignant torment of fate......

"Mom, I know, 'Women are not born, they are made. Siqi leaned on Yingying's shoulder and said softly. Yingying looked back at her in surprise, Siqi glanced at her calmly, and then said, "I've read all your books!"

Yingying turned her head in surprise when she heard this, looking at the TV, and she suddenly felt that the relationship between her and Siqi was actually just a copy of a template.

The picture of Li Dian is still playing on TV, Yingying knows that after Xiaobin threw himself into the river and died many years ago, the little girl named Qiqi who ran away from home still has a splendid daughter world in her heart, and under that piece of Zhaoming, in the customs of the world, in the trial of thousands of years of civilization, it is blooming arbitrarily and stubbornly. That girl, now her name is Li Dian.

Different from the boiling of the bizarre world outside, Meng Liuyao is also behind the house in front of the village, and there is a story about a little girl who flies on the branch in the field. Lily said yes too. When I went back to my hometown to visit relatives during the Spring Festival, I saw Lily's family of three, and Lily just introduced: "This is the Fa Xiao I mentioned to you." The gentleman, who was very respectful, nodded at her and smiled, and walked away with the child. Yingying understands the relationship between the eyebrows and eyebrows, but when she snuggles up to two cute and handsome girls on her shoulders, she is also very satisfied with her own happiness that is low to the dust. But she still envied Lily in the end.

The two of them stood and chatted head-on, and the two girls went to play together when they saw this. I haven't seen each other for many years, and that kind of incomparably familiar and incomparably unfamiliar emotions are mixed in front of the two people, but there is no embarrassment that Yingying will think. Lily looked at Yingying, who had gone through the vicissitudes of the wind and dust, and there was no disdain in her eyes, nor was there any high spirits in the past, and Lily's clothes were very simple and plain. "I'm finally seeing you again!" Lily said, looking at Yingying with emotion. "Yes, decades have passed!" said Yingying, who was already a vicissitudes of life, and looked up at the vast winter sky, yes, everything was handed over to time, and the years finally took away their original souls from their bodies, and gave them a look of life. She knew what she had given up and what she had insisted on, and the rest was something powerless that the years and life had fed back to her, and she accepted it very calmly.

"Yingying, do you know the current popular star Li Dian?" Lily said suddenly.

"I think I've heard ,——I don't watch much TV, oh - didn't we say a big star in the village? Who is it?" Yingying, who was originally wooden, seemed to be in a trance.

"Do you remember the strangeness?"

Yingying shook her head: "I can't remember what it looks like...... I remember when she was a child, poor ,——Isn't she your cousin?......"

"Yes, since my little Bin aunt died, Qiqi ran away from home inexplicably, and I can't remember what she looked like, if she hadn't thought of my uncle raising her, she came back and gave her a lot of money......"

"Hehe......" Yingying smiled bitterly when she heard it, remembered her strange appearance in the past, and sighed: "Then it's not easy for her to live......

said that the two of them were quite emotional in their hearts, and for a while they seemed to have returned to the old days of this closed village, and returned to their young and stupid years.

Lily still mentioned Xiaojun in the end.

"Xiaojun is a monk, you know?"

Yingying was immediately stunned when she heard this, as if she couldn't believe Lily's words, she muttered, "Yes, I heard that after he got married, his wife had a disease and died, but I didn't expect it...... He's going to walk into ...... Empty Door ......"

Sometimes, Yingying's heart will suddenly appear a boundless emptiness.

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The bloodstains of history

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When I was a child, my grandmother said to me:

"A woman is virtuous if she is not talented!"

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When I grew up, I turned the pages of history,

I saw that it was written on it

All of them are the deeds of the times when the king became a king and lost a king

As well as a civilization that is nakedly written full of barbarism, blood and violence

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Then, on the spine of the book where thousands of years of civilization are recorded,

And I saw it impressively,

Dripping with crimson blood!

It was the body of a woman who had been stripped and persecuted

and in the hopeless and distracted eyes of fate

Tears of blood flowed down

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Faintly, I heard

On the beacon tower, there was a sneer

I saw Yang Yuhuan in front of the slope of Ma Wei

Finally, a hopeless look back

Or Wu Zetian

Looking back at the end of the evening scene

The scabbard behind him was sharpened

What kind of spine is awe-inspiring?

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Su Daji, Li Shishi, Chen Yuanyuan......

I don't believe it,

The iniquity that was laid upon them,

People have no manners, and they are responsible?

How can there be the so-called "red face and troubled water" and "demon girl who died in the country"?

It's just a conspirator's desire to cover up

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Of course, there are also "singing praises to virtue" such as

"The Legend of the Daughters" -

It's just been written down over and over again

Adapt to the times

and foolishness to men

A set of spiritual shackles is just that

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Actually, why bother!

In that original, initially

When conquered by violence and barbarism

At the same time, it was conquered

Our broken humanity and light

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That's it

We were savage, conquered, civilized

Wrapped all the way forward......

From now on

Beauty is meant to please;

Love is trampled on;

Sex comes with the shackles of sin

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