273: Bit by bit

When do you feel the happiest moment of your life?

If you had to take the time to think about it, then I will regret to tell you that it was not your happiest moment.

When the human brain is stimulated, it will subconsciously remember the stimulus, which is called scar memory in research. Stimuli include both bad and good. And there is a study that shows that the time that bad things stay in the brain is often more profound than the happy things, because the brain autonomously chooses to protect itself.

Bad things will hurt it, and good things will make it forget to protect itself when it is happy.

But when a person is old, the things that remain in his mind will change, and the most worrying memories are the good things, because over time, the brain heals itself on its own.

It's a wonderful phenomenon, so don't worry when you're young and tossing and turning and can't sleep because of a painful past, it's just a matter of time.

After a long time, it will naturally pass.

However, in the long course of time, you must have your own moments of happiness, which is called metastasis.

Those memories hidden in the depths of your brain are the most precious things in your life.

If you still have to take the time to think about it, it only means that what you have stored is not impressive enough.

I can answer without thinking about it at all: My happiest moment is every minute with Ji Muqing.

Don't think I'm trying to make her happy, I've never been like that.

I'm not good at rhetoric, preferring to prove myself with practical actions.

I also never promise what I may not be able to do, and the future is unpredictable.

In some people's eyes, I may be a freak.

I act like an honest man, but sometimes I can fight back like a smart man.

I am not honest or treacherous, I am not simple or shrewd.

If I really want to find a word to describe myself, I think indifferent is more suitable for me.

That's right, it's indifferent.

A kind of indifference that sees through everything.

It may be difficult for many people to understand and understand this, and some people may not be able to understand it for the rest of their lives. It doesn't matter, everyone has their own ideas and favorite lifestyles, others can not understand, but as long as they don't make others feel blocked.

Life is only a few decades in the world, so why bother with so much.

When I have nothing to do, I often read some online novels, and I have to admire the authors' brains are really big, and they can think of any whimsical plot. The average reader may be very happy to read it, but in my opinion, I can only laugh at those things.

I have no right to criticize anything, or how ridiculous a book is, how unrealistic it is, and how ridiculous it is, fiction is inherently higher than life.

If I were also the hero of a book, then I must be the most non-existent kind, with no pursuits, and I don't like to deliberately pretend to be slapped in the face, trying to integrate myself into life.

Such a protagonist, I guess readers don't like to watch it.

After reading a few of those books, I decisively gave up reading the same type of book again, and it really didn't make me like it, and of course, I couldn't hate it.

I prefer to read prose or poetry collections, especially poetry collections, good poems will bring people a kind of spiritual enjoyment.

There is also prose, simple words can compose a beautiful picture, and this is the author.

It brings people spiritual enjoyment, not the YY of the supervisor's consciousness.

I have a book of poetry by my bedside right now, and I read it every night before I go to bed.

After settling Ji Muqing, I took the poetry book, opened it, and found the page I saw yesterday.

The length of a collection of poems is usually very short, and some may be just a few sentences, but you need to understand the mood, background, and environment of the author when writing the poem. When you look at everything together, there are often new discoveries.

A collection of poems is definitely not just a few sentences that outline a beautiful picture, it also represents the author's thoughts, sustenance, and wishes......

When you calm down and ponder the author's thoughts, it's actually a pleasure.

The sound of me flipping through the book was very light and soft, trying not to make a harsh sound, because Ji Muqing slept relatively lightly.

The long-term high-intensity stress made her a little nervous and her sleep quality was very poor.

Sometimes a car passing by outside would wake her up with a honk.

Neurasthetics can also cause hair loss and bad skin, which was alleviated after I injected her with Reiki. But I still hope that she can enjoy sleeping while she is sleeping, and not to solve her physical fatigue.

The day is hectic and cathartic, and the night is quiet, so you should enjoy it.

The curtains weren't drawn, leaving a little gap, and I scared the bed and walked over to close the curtains.

In the early hours of the morning, the bustle of the city gradually replaced by quiet.

A few stars appeared in the night sky at some point, twinkling and twinkling.

The stars are in a strange position, but when linked, they seem to form a pattern.

I gestured with my hand like an arrow.

Quiet city, cool night breeze, specially patterned stars, it's time for me to gaze at the starry sky.

Unfortunately, the weather is always changeable, and not long after the stars come out, the sky is covered with dark clouds and the wind is getting stronger.

I withdrew my gaze, closed the window, and closed the curtains again.

The room was particularly dark, because Ji Muqing could only fall asleep in complete darkness. And I, too.

I tiptoed to the bed, and I could hear Ji Muqing's even and steady breathing, and occasionally, snoring.

I have long found out that she is hitting the gourd, but Ji Muqing's snoring is very small and will not affect my sleep.

She is very childlike when she sleeps, sometimes turning around to find the most comfortable sleeping position, and occasionally giving me legs.

To prevent her from falling out of bed, I'll use my clothes off to block her from sleeping on the side she sleeps on.

I have to wake up several times every night because I take care of her, just like a mother takes care of a baby, always worried that the baby will kick the quilt.

I have never told Ji Muqing about this, what I want to do is to protect her silently, not in exchange for anything.

I don't need courtesy and love, I just want to protect the love in my heart, if it happens that the other party also loves me, then I have earned it, if the other party doesn't love me, then there is nothing to regret.

Fortunately, Ji Muqing loves me.

I haven't really been in a relationship, and I don't know what kind of way is the most harmonious when two people get along, and what kind of way can make love last longer.

There are often some lovers in love who break up suddenly or something, sometimes women blame men for not being gentle and inconsiderate, sometimes men blame women, anyway, there are always various reasons.

I think this way of arguing is a bit ridiculous, gentle, considerate, good to you, and these can also be reasons to break up?

When you accept someone as a show of love, don't you think that he will have a bad side?

No one is perfect, and everyone has shortcomings.

Now that you're ready to go together, accept everything.

If you want to break up, there is only one point, that is, you don't love anymore, and everything else is an excuse.

Many people always like to make excuses for themselves, the other party is not gentle and considerate, but they are just finding a reasonable reason for their own excuses, making the other party sad, and letting the other party pay for their dislikes.

I think that kind of person is very selfish.

I can't judge them for anything, people are selfish, aren't they?

All I can do is not let those things happen to Ji Muqing.

It's not that I'm boasting about myself, but I think that's how I should be a human being.

After reading a little poem, I turned off the bedside lamp and prepared to fall asleep.

Before going to bed, I would gently kiss Ji Muqing's forehead, Ji Muqing never knew.

In fact, I get up early every morning, and I will kiss her forehead, which is called a kiss in the morning and evening, I love her, it will not change for 10,000 years, and the kiss represents my heart.

I like to lie on my side, because I can feel Ji Muqing's breathing, which is very light and gentle, and sometimes it will be poured on my face, soft and fragrant.

This is definitely not in the eyes of the lover in the heart of Xi Shi, but, it is the case.

"Good night!" I said. There was no response, though.

Early the next morning, as usual, I got up early to prepare breakfast, excellent toothpaste, today's breakfast sold a few more points, I was afraid that Miao Zheng and Miao Xiaorong would come hungry again.

Today's volume is larger than yesterday's, and the people around me are even more surprised when they look at me.

Maybe after yesterday's experience, my skin is thick enough, and I don't feel it at all in the face of those people's surprised eyes.

I always make a lot of fresh shapes for breakfast, just like my mother cooks all kinds of cute meals to coax her children to eat. But what is different is that I didn't want to coax Ji Muqing, but I sincerely wanted her to feel my love at any time.

I'm not like those male protagonists in novels in my life, I will send flowers and create a lot of romantic scenes, send brand-name clothes and brand-name bags or something, I am integrating love into the bits and pieces of life, and the gaps I can think of are all stuffed.

This is the happiest appearance, this is the most beautiful appearance, compared to the things that can be bought with money, they are too worthless.

I'm very happy, my careful preparation was not in vain, Ji Muqing ate happily every time, and even her eyes were smiling.

So do you understand, why do I say without hesitation that my happiest moment is with Ji Muqing, because really, very happy.

When you put your heart into it, you will be rewarded.

And so it is.