129 How unbearable I must have been then
"Auntie, I won't let them meet Mu Bai's parents. Lin Manshu's voice trembled a little as she spoke.
"Why?" asked Xiao Rong.
"If they quarrel in front of Mu Bai or Mu Bai's parents, then how unbearable I should be. Lin Manshu said and lowered her head to play with her fingers.
Xiao Rong looked at Lin Manshu, as if she saw the girl she saw for the first time more than twenty years ago. She sat in the park of the neighborhood with a very small boy, playing with her fingers in the same way.
As she passed by them with the young Hanyu, Kobayashi looked up at her. At that time, Lin Manshu's cold eyes impressed her, and those eyes didn't look like what a teenager should have.
Xiao Xiaohanyu seemed to like Lin Manshu at a glance and ran over to play with her, but no matter how much he teased her, he couldn't get a response.
Afterwards, Xiao Xiaohanyu asked Xiaorong: "Mom, why didn't she ignore me?"
"That said, maybe she doesn't like to play with you. Xiao Rong squatted down and looked at Xiao Hanyu and said.
"Liar, other children like to play with me, she must be shy. Xiao Hanyu said confidently.
Xiao Rong smiled and asked, "Then we will come to play with her tomorrow, shall we?"
In this way, Xiao Han asked Lin Manshu to play with him every day after tomorrow, and it took many days before Lin Manshu paid attention to him.
Later, Xiao Hanyu and Lin Manshu became good friends, and Liao Rong also became acquainted with Lin Manshu's parents. She often observed Lin Manshu's state and felt that this girl was very distressing.
After knowing that Lin Manshu's younger brother Lin Huijing had an accident, the Lin family was even less like home. When Lin Manshu broke up with her parents and said that she would never see her parents again, Xiao Rong realized that the long-term quarrel between her parents would bring so much harm to the child.
And today's Lin Manshu's words made Xiao Rong feel that her parents hurt Lin Manshu far more than that. Don't look at Lin Manshu's self-confidence everywhere she goes, but in fact, her heart is very fragile and she has more inferiority.
Especially in front of the people she likes, she has a stronger sense of inferiority.
Xiao Rong held Lin Manshu's hand in her hand and said softly: "Silly boy, how can you be unbearable? You are so good, only others are not worthy of you, which round will they pick and choose." ”
Lin Manshu hooked her lips and smiled, her smile pale and weak.
"Auntie, do you know what I liked most when I was a child?" Lin Manshu suddenly looked up and asked Yu Rong.
"Like what?"
Lin Manshu smiled self-deprecatingly and replied, "I like it when you're not at home." In the past, every year you would be away from home for a month, and then send Hanyu to my house for foster care, which was my favorite time. ”
Xiao Rong looked at Lin Manshu with a puzzled look, and didn't understand the reason why Lin Manshu said this, but Lin Manshu's explanation made her understand, not only understood, but also a little distressed.
"Because...... In that case, my parents would have estimated that there were outsiders and they wouldn't quarrel for a month. It was such a rare time. ”
Xiao Rong looked at Lin Manshu and didn't know what to say to comfort her. The scars that were buried deep in my heart when I was a child are the most difficult to remove. Fortunately, Lin Manshu trusted her and was willing to tell her these words. It's always better to have someone to talk to.
Lin Manshu was lying on Xiaorong's lap, like a little girl who had been injured outside lying on her mother's lap. Xiao Rong also stroked Lin Manshu's head gently like a mother, giving her warmth.
The two of them stayed quietly in the courtyard, blowing a small breeze.
Later, when Rong returned to the room with a blanket, she found that one piece was wet. Think about it carefully, that blanket was given to her by Lin Manshu at that time, and the water stains on it should be the traces of Lin Manshu crying on her lap.
Xiao Rong sighed and said, "Alas...... How bitter this child's heart must be. ”
Lin Manshu sat in the room, her eyes were not focused, and she didn't know what she was thinking.
A familiar ringtone sounded in the house, and Lin Manshu picked up her mobile phone and saw that it was a call from Xiao Mubai. She wanted to pick it up, but stopped the moment she pressed the answer button.
At this moment, what came to her mind was the appearance of her parents arguing. Crazy roars, unbearable invectives, and even fights......
When those scenes came to mind, she didn't have the courage to connect with Xiao Mubai's phone.
What if the parents of both sides quarrel when they meet--then I will be very embarrassed--No, I can't let such a thing happen--but, in the future, the parents of both parties will definitely meet when they get married--what if they meet and quarrel?-can't we not meet--Mubai's parents should have proposed to meet......
All kinds of ideas flashed in Lin Manshu's mind, and all kinds of possibilities kept emerging. In the end, she understood that if she continued to be with Xiao Mubai, she would definitely get married. Yes, she also loves Xiao Mubai very much, and it is not impossible to get married.
But when she gets married, she has to face the problem of her parents meeting, and she always can't trust her parents, thinking that they will quarrel at any time. If the person who cares about him the most sees his most unbearable side, Lin Manshu will never forget it for the rest of her life.
No matter how you think about it, it will end badly, and Lin Manshu suddenly has no courage for herself and Xiao Mubai's future. She was discouraged, so the courage to connect to the phone was gone.
"Your call is currently unanswered, please call again later......"
Xiao Mubai waited for a long time, only waiting for the voice of the customer service lady, and was a little lost.
"What's going on? Are you already asleep?"
Xiao Mubai looked at the time, it was just past nine o'clock, and muttered, "No, she won't go to bed so early." ”
"Then why don't you answer the phone? Did I her off?"
Xiao Mubai thought about it carefully, and it didn't seem to make Lin Manshu angry. It's not his character to sit and wait like this, so he just called and asked Xiao Hanyu, fortunately, there is such a spy by Lin Manshu's side, so that Xiao Mubai can hear Lin Manshu's news at all times.
"Hey, what are you doing?" asked Hanyu.
"Did Man Shu sleep?" asked Xiao Mubai.
"I don't know, you call her yourself. Xiao Hanyu said.
Xiao Mubai said: "I just called, but no one answered." ”
"That's sleeping. Xiao Hanyu said perfunctorily.
"Don't be so perfunctory, you go and take a look, give me a letter. Xiao Mubai said.
"Don't go. Xiao Hanyu directly refused.
"Roar, the wings are stiff, go and see. Xiao Mubai pretended to be stern and said.
Xiao Hanyu knew that if he didn't help Xiao Mubai to see it, he would definitely torture him all night, so he could only helplessly go to Lin Manshu.
While walking, Hanyu said again: "Alas...... This dead girl, why don't you answer the phone. ”
"Ah, don't talk about my family Manshu, be careful that I beat you. Xiao Mubai said very protective of his wife.
"Why don't you two move in together, you have to torture me, a roommate. Xiao Hanyu said.
"You must want to live with Shen Jian to live with us to live together, so you can't fulfill your wish. Xiao Mubai said jokingly.
Xiao Hanyu said: "Whatever you want, it's not me who suffers anyway." ”
Xiao Hanyu had already walked to Lin Manshu's room, and when he saw that the bedroom light was still on, he knocked on the door, but there was no response inside.
"Did I sleep, I went in. ”
Xiao Hanyu pushed open the door as he spoke, and found Lin Manshu lying on the bed, seemingly asleep. He approached and saw that Lin Manshu had her eyes closed and her breathing was even, thinking that she must be asleep.
Xiao Hanyu carefully turned off the light in the room and walked out.
"Man-sook has already slept. Xiao Hanyu reported the situation to Xiao Mubai.
"Really? I went to bed so early. ”
Xiao Mubai was a little surprised, he knew that Lin Manshu's sleep was not good, and he slept late. She broke her biological clock so suddenly that people were not used to it.
"yes, she barely slept so early. Xiao Hanyu also said.
In fact, Lin Manshu didn't sleep, she heard Xiao Hanyu knocking on the door in the room, and thought that Xiao Mubai must have sent him over to see her.
She hadn't thought about how to go with Xiao Mubai in the future, so she wanted to avoid contact with Xiao Mubai as much as possible, so as not to make irrational decisions.
So Lin Manshu lay down and pretended to sleep, so that she could hide for at least one night, so that she could think clearly.
After Xiao Hanyu left, Lin Manshu got up from the bed again, didn't turn on the light, walked to the window and opened the curtains, borrowing a little faint moonlight.
The phone rang again, this time it was the sound of a text message, Lin Manshu opened the text message, and it was Xiao Mubai who sent it.
I didn't expect you to go to bed so early, but it's okay to go to bed early and get up early. I'm going to go on a date with you in my dreams, good night, and I'll see you tomorrow.
Xiao Mubai's tone was lively, not miserably mixed with a little worry, but Lin Manshu was preoccupied.
Xu because Xiao Mubai's text message mentioned dreams, Xu because Lin Manshu had too many thoughts during the day, and she actually dreamed this night. It's not a good dream, though.
In the dream, her parents met with Xiao Mubai's parents and were discussing her marriage with Xiao Mubai. At first, the two families were lively and happy.
Later, for some reason, her parents quarreled, at first they just scolded each other, and then they actually moved their hands, and the banquet was messed up.
She wanted to persuade her parents and explain to Xiao Mubai, but in her dream she couldn't do anything, so she hid helplessly under the table and cried.
Lin Manshu, who was hiding under the table, saw the mocking eyes of Xiao Mubai and his parents, and that kind of look frightened Lin Manshu woke up from her dream.
"Whew, Whew......"
After waking up, Lin Manshu had not recovered from the shock in her dream, and gasped for breath. At this moment, the sky was not yet bright, and the night wrapped the room, Lin Manshu felt that her face was wet, and a wipe turned out to be cold tears.
She carefully recalled the dream just now, and found that her younger brother Lin Huijing was also in that dream, he, like herself, hid under the table when his parents quarreled, crying helplessly.
It's been a long time, and it's been a long time since Hui Kyoto had fallen asleep, and this time the dream turned out to be in such a situation, I'm really sorry for the deceased.
"Huijing, you're scared too. Lin Manshu muttered.
I remember that at the beginning, she was with Lin Huijing, hiding under the table and crying helplessly when her parents were angry. That was the scene that appeared the most in Lin Manshu's memory.