I made a silencing motion and motioned for her to keep quiet.

Little Pineapple tilted her head and looked at me with a pair of cute big eyes, her little head tilted to the side, "Dabi, what's wrong with you?"

Black Rose looked at me worriedly, and when she looked at the little pineapple, a smile appeared on her face. She picked up the little pineapple and tapped it on her nose affectionately, "Your dad is playing with you, and he's going to buy you a doll, do you want the little pineapple?"

As soon as the child heard what he liked, he immediately forgot all those unhappy things, only to see the little pineapple patting the little hand of the meat whirring, and said happily, "Yes, yes, dad is better than mommy, you buy me a doll quickly." ”

"Let Daddy take you there, your sister Ji is still waiting for me over there." Black Rose put the little pineapple on the ground, "But you can't let Daddy carry you anymore, you're a big girl now, you have to be independent, understand?"

Little Pineapple's mind was on the puppet, and she didn't listen to Black Rose's words very carefully, so she just took my hand and shouted, "Dabi, let's go, buy me a puppet." ”

I looked back at Black Rose and cast a pleading look at her, hoping that she wouldn't tell Ji Muqing about it.

Fortunately, the headache appeared for a while, and it didn't happen again.

But I was always afraid that the situation would suddenly happen again, so after a while with them, I excused myself to go back and have something to do, and left.

On the way back to the hotel, I called Mr. Wei and told him about my situation, "Mr. Wei, it has been less than a month since I last took the pill, and my headache symptoms have reappeared, does this mean that my headaches will become more and more frequent?"

Mr. Wei's sighing voice came from the phone, "Back then, your father gave you a lot of golden snake grass in order to develop your intelligence, but you didn't know that the side effects of golden snake grass were very great. The medicinal properties have been hidden in your body for so many years, and as you get older, the side effects will become more and more obvious, but I am afraid that it will hurt more than once a month in the future, and the frequency may become higher and higher. ”

In other words, I can't even hold on for half a year.

The sudden news hit me so hard that my hands were so weak that I didn't even have the strength to hold the phone.

"Qingxuan, you must find the Medicine King as soon as possible, maybe, your illness can still be saved. Mr. Wei reminded me.

I didn't want to find the Medicine King earlier, since I talked to Mr. Wei that day, I have contacted Han Yanxue and Melanin, asking them to help me keep an eye on the whereabouts of the Medicine King as much as possible, but so far, there is no news at all.

If you can't find the King of Medicine even in the cold smoke and snow and melanin, then no one in this world can find the King of Medicine anymore.

Come to think of it, this is the catastrophe of my Zhao Qingxuan's life, and I can't hide it.

I'm not afraid of death, my life should have left with my comrades-in-arms three years ago, but now that I have concerns, I have nostalgia, and I want to leave without distractions, but I'm afraid it's difficult to do.

"Qing Xuan, how many pills are left of the pills I gave you?" Mr. Wei gave me a total of four pills that day, I have already taken one, and now there are three left.

According to the budget at that time, taking one pill a month could barely support four months. And these four months are enough for Mr. Wei to practice two more.

But at the moment, it seems that four pills are not enough to last for four months.

Mr. Wei reminded me, "Qingxuan, although that elixir can relieve the symptoms of your headache, it is actually a symptom rather than a cure, and you can't take it too often, because if it is too frequent, the more you go to the back, the less effective the medicine will be, and it will only greatly shorten the time of the effect." Therefore, if you are not in unbearable pain, it is best not to take pills, so that self-title can be resisted. ”

I understand what Mr. Wei meant, that kind of pill has the same effect as painkillers, and the more often you use it, the more dependent you will be on it, and the next time the pain attacks, the more unbearable you will be.

I nodded yes, "I see." ”

"Hurry up over there, let me help find the whereabouts of the Medicine King, and I will also send my four apprentices to find it. Qingxuan, I still say the same thing, if you really can't hold on, go back to the mountain with me, I can at least help you recuperate, so that you don't have so much pain. "Mr. Wei has always been very calm, and it is rare to see him lose control of his emotions.

I know that he has me in his heart, and he also thinks about me, and I remember that kindness.

I didn't want Mr. Wei to worry about me, so I said, "I see." ”

Actually, I don't know what to do at all.

It has been less than a month since I got married to Ji Muqing, how can I leave her, and for what reason should I leave her?

I couldn't find a reason, I couldn't convince myself, and I didn't know what to do if I really left her in the future, leaving her alone in this materialistic society.

The night outside the window was beautiful, with neon lights flashing and shouting from time to time.

I sat in an empty house, in stark contrast to the glittering world outside.

Death, loneliness...... I have been accustomed to these in the years I have been in the army, but I have never learned how to distinguish from others?

I held my head, and my heart was very depressed.

I don't know how long I sat like this, but the voices of black roses, little pineapples and Ji Muqing sounded outside the door.

"Xiaoqing, the little pineapple will trouble you to take care of it for a while. "It's the voice of the Black Rose.

Then came Ji Muqing's voice, "Why are we so polite between the two of us?"

The door next door opened, and Ji Muqing took the little pineapple into the next room.

Then, Black Rose came into our room.

I knew she was going to come for me, so I wasn't too surprised.

My pulse is so chaotic that it is obviously impossible to deceive her.

Black Rose came in, locked the door from the inside, and came to me. She didn't speak for a long time, as if she didn't know what to say, and it seemed that because this incident was too unexpected, she was not prepared at all.

She crouched in front of me and looked up at me, "Tell me honestly, what the hell is wrong with you?"

I knew that if I didn't say it, she wouldn't give up.

And Black Rose is well-connected, maybe he can help me find the medicine king together.

So, I told her the truth, and I pointed to my brain, "My brain is stimulated by a drug, and I get a headache every once in a while." I took the pill that Mr. Wei gave me before, and I suppressed the headache, and we both thought that my headache had been cured, but in fact, the pill just made me not feel the headache, but the stimulation of my brain by the medicine continued. During this time, the headache intensified every day, and it would appear from time to time, and even the effect of that elixir was getting smaller and smaller. ”

The more Black Rose listened, the paler her face became, "Why didn't you say it earlier, why didn't you go to the doctor?"

I shook my head, "It's useless, I took a plant called golden snake grass when I was a kid, and that plant can develop the human brain, but at the same time it can have side effects. It's been more than 20 years, and the medicine has been integrated into my blood and brain, and modern medicine can't solve it. ”

Black Rose didn't give up, "Impossible, there must be a way, there are so many people you know, they must have someone who can cure your illness." ”

I said, "If the Medicine King is here, maybe there is a way, but now no one has been able to find the whereabouts of the Medicine King, and I have contacted many people to help find it, but there is no news at all." ”

Black Rose hurriedly took out her mobile phone and dialed a phone number, "Sky Wolf, let the brothers help me find someone, Medicine King, be sure to do it as soon as possible." ”

She looked at me, worried.

I stared at her and looked at her with pleading eyes, "If you can find the Medicine King, it will naturally be the best, but if you can't find it...... I beg you to do me a favor and don't tell Xiaoqing about me. ”

Black Rose smiled bitterly, "Do you think this matter can be hidden from her for the rest of her life?When your headaches become more and more frequent, what will you do, can you be sure that she will not find out?"

I nodded, "I'm sure I won't let her find out, because I'll leave her before she finds out." ”

Black Rose's body froze, only to hear her sigh deeply, "Then have you ever thought about how you left her? All along, you have been so good to her, so that she has become accustomed to the days with you, and suddenly you are leaving, how do you want her to accept it? Don't tell me, you have to learn those bloody episodes on TV, and create some misunderstanding to make her sad for you...... I'm afraid you don't need me to say that you should understand, she won't believe it at all. ”

Black Rose's words reminded me that it was true that I had not yet decided what reason I should use to leave her.

Ji Muqing and I trust more than the trust between relatives, as if we are all in each other's blood.

No matter how she leaves, she is bound to be difficult to accept.

I can't even imagine what it will be like for her to be alone after I leave.

I covered my head with my hands in pain, "I don't know either. ”

I've never been so powerless, I've never been so overwhelmed, I've never been a person who is afraid of difficulties, but now, I really have a feeling of being powerless and at a loss.

Black Rose squatted down again and said to me earnestly, "I think you should tell her the truth of the matter, don't think that hiding her is good for her, and leaving inexplicably will make her even more sad." Since you will make her sad no matter what you do, why not let you continue to be free of deception between you? Perhaps, Xiaoqing is not as fragile as you think, and perhaps, she wants to carry through the difficulties with you?"

I didn't speak because my mind was so messy right now that I didn't know what to say.