Chapter 44: Not a Saint
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Gao Dakuan didn't say anything more, just opened the drawer of the table cabinet, took out a pack of cigarettes from it, handed it to Janice and said, "Do you want it?"
Janice's eyes widened and she didn't know how to answer, but she didn't force herself, but she pulled one out of it, and then pulled out a cigarette lighter to light it.
"I want it!"
Janice said with a sudden affirmation, her teeth biting her lower lip lightly, the expression on her face was nervous and hesitant, but the deep layers of her eyes revealed great anticipation.
Gao Dakuan stared at Janice for a moment, then handed over the cigarette case, and when Janice took out a cigarette, Gao Dakuan took the lead in lighting it.
Janice took a big deep breath and coughed violently, smiling at Janice, who had also lit a cigarette.
"For the first time?"
After Janice regained her composure, she smiled at Gao Dakuan and said, "Sorry to disappoint you, I tried it once many years ago. ”
Gao Dakuan was quite surprised: "I really can't see this." ”
Janice said, "Do you think I'm a skillful and gentle girl?" Haha, I can only say that you have all been deceived by me. ”
Gao Dakuan shrugged noncommittally.
"I had a boyfriend many years ago who worked the opposite of you, doing a lot of things that were on the edge of the law. ”
Gao Dakuan said: "It's hard to imagine that you would associate with that kind of person. ”
Janice laughed, "Don't underestimate a woman's past. After taking another puff of cigarette, Janice said, "At that time, I just liked that style of man very much, and it felt mysterious, like... Dance on the tip of the knife. ”
Gao Dakuan smiled: "It's really romantic enough." ”
"Romantic fart!" Janice scolded.
"I was so stupid when I thought about it!"
Gao Dakuan laughed noncommittally again.
"But overall, he is not bad, he is very good to me, it can be said that he cares a lot, but the fly in the ointment is that he often disappears for a period of time because of work matters. ”
Gao Dakuan smiled: "Maybe I was also busy at that time." ”
Janice smiled: "At that time, I was really like a resentful woman, I was afraid of him every day, and even affected my work a few times. It's ridiculous to think about it now, if he's hiding somewhere and having fun with other women, I'm still stupidly worried about him. ”
The first time I smoked, I said that it was instigated by him, and of course, a large part of it was because of his strong curiosity. ”
"How does it feel?" asked Gao Dakuan.
Janice shook her head and said, "I can't remember the specific feelings for a long time, or I don't feel anything, and what I remember most about that time is the excitement of being new and challenging authority." Besides, at that time, I was only smoking miniature e-cigarettes, not completely natural tobacco like yours. ”
Gao Dakuan said: "This is artificially planted. ”
Janice poured out the cigarette in her mouth and said, "It doesn't matter, it should be enough to sentence anyway." ”
Gao Dakuan nodded and said, "Your actions just now can be sentenced to one year in prison. ”
"And what about you?" said Janice, laughing.
"I'm going to be longer, knowing the law and breaking the law, and instigating others to smoke, I'm afraid I won't be able to come out for three years." With that, Gao Dakuan took a deep breath again.
"Haha, just now I was a hard-working, promising journalist, but now I'm a prisoner. ”
Gao Dakuan shrugged his shoulders and said, "Things are often like this, too impermanent. ”
Janice suddenly asked, "You were suddenly suspended, can't it be for this reason?" ”
Gao Dakuan shook his head and said, "Naturally not, if the group of people who want to fix me know about this, they are more willing to send me to prison." ”
"Okay. Janice leaned her upper body against the head of the bed, half of the cigarette between her fingers.
Gao Dakuan looked at the cigarette in his hand and suddenly said, "I have a friend who also belongs to my colleague." He had been smoking for many years, and it was hard to imagine that a law enforcer would know how to break the law, and I was the same at the time. However, due to the special nature of his institution and work, his actions have not been punished. It also made him even more arrogant, and even openly smoked in my office, which was really hateful to think about. ”
Janice frowned and smiled, "And this kind of strange person?"
Gao Dakuan smiled: "He is indeed a strange person, by the way, he can highlight many types of smoke rings when he smokes." ”
"Smoke rings?"
"It's just a strangely shaped smoke. Gao Dakuan explained to Janice, and his fingers slashed in the air.
"Really?" Janice's eyes showed girlish excitement.
"I really want to see it for myself if I have the chance. ”
Gao Dakuan shook his head and said, "There is no chance, he is dead." ”
"Hmm... I'm sorry. ”
Gao Dakuan said: "There is nothing to be sorry for, he did not die of lung cancer caused by smoking, which is God's favor for him." ”
After extinguishing the cigarette butt in his hand, Gao Da Kuan said: "For a long time after his death, I will think of him and think about what his life was like." In the end, I only came to one conclusion that belonged to me. He was a pessimist with a good heart. ”
"He lives and thinks more than I do. He had seen through the nature of the world at an early age, and he had been exposed to more of the dark truths. Like you and me, he knows that he is powerless to subvert reality, but he does not choose to escape, he continues to work in an almost compromised way, which seems cowardly, but in fact he is a kind of compassion for the world and all the people in the world. Of course, he also has his own personality and venting his dissatisfaction with the world, so he chose to smoke, and expressed his dissatisfaction with this illegal behavior, nothing more. ”
Janice pursed her lips and listened quietly, and when Gao Dakuan finished speaking, Janice said, "Your friend he... is a good person. ”
Gao Dakuan smiled: "In my eyes, he is a saint. ”
Janice thought for a moment and then said, "Maybe it is. ”
Gao Dakuan said: "I admire the saint very much, but I don't yearn for it." Because saints are often only recognized by posterity, they can't solve too many things when they are alive. ”
Janice smiled: "Heaven is fair, and you can't let one person take all the good things." ”
Gao Dakuan said: "I don't need God's favor, I just hope that God will give me a fairness, and I will solve the rest by myself." ”
Janice stared at the tall and gentle and said, "Why bother, in that case, you will be more tired than a saint." ”
Gao Dakuan turned to look out the window, the sun shining on his muscular body, reflecting a different kind of luster.
"Somebody always needs to do that..."