China's annual strong traditional festival: the Spring Festival was sent away by the Lantern Festival on the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, for the southern countryside in the 90s, the Spring Festival is a sacred festival, worship the gods and ancestors, family reunion, remove the old and welcome the new traditional festival.

Everything is reviving, spring is returning to the earth, wild flowers are blooming all over the mountains, and birds are chirping and singing.

In the evening, when it was time to eat dinner, a woman in a two-story house suddenly felt unbearable pain with her big belly, and the woman's mother-in-law saw that the woman was about to give birth, and slowly helped the woman into the bedroom.

With the painful screams of the woman's cry, a baby croaked and fell to the ground. The woman's mother-in-law threw her hand aside from the baby's legs on the ground and looked: It's a baby girl!

With a look of disgust, she walked out of the bedroom and told her that her son was a girl! The woman's mother-in-law and husband continued to eat with their 3-year-old son. The woman collapsed on the bed exhausted due to the labor pains and exertions of childbirth.

I don't know what time it was, but when the woman woke up dimly, she saw the baby girl lying naked on the cold ground with the umbilical cord attached. As a mother, I felt a pinprick pain in my heart.

Quickly picked up the dying baby girl on the ground, took scissors to cut the umbilical cord, and held the baby in the basin to wash the amniotic fluid and blood on the baby girl's body. After washing, wrap the baby girl in a cloth and put it in a warm quilt.

The woman looked at the fainting baby girl with expectant eyes while crying, sitting on the edge of the bed and quietly waiting for the baby girl to wake up.

Because women do not nourish their bodies when they are pregnant, the baby girl is much smaller than the average newborn, small and black, and there is no breastfeeding, and she can only feed the poor baby girl with sugar and boiled water for a few days after birth.

The mother-in-law and her husband insisted on discarding the baby girl, so that the woman was worried every day, fearing that she might lose her flesh and blood at any time, and she was still in grievances and fear every day during the confinement.

One day, the husband and mother-in-law scolded the woman, and the woman cried sadly and aggrievedly while holding the baby that was not yet a month old. While the mother-in-law and her husband were not at home, the woman mustered up the courage to secretly take the money that her husband had locked in a drawer.

Holding the baby in swaddling clothes, he stepped on the train back to his parents' house with several twists and turns. (The woman was hit on the head by a wood that fell from a neighbor's house when she was 5 years old, resulting in her intelligence staying at 5 years old forever, no logical thinking, a slight language barrier, no schooling, no literacy, and no money).

After a day and a night of trains, buses, and a few reverses, I finally arrived at my mother's house. The stepmother (a woman has no biological mother since she was born) saw that the baby girl was small, dark, and dying, and immediately angrily scolded her stepdaughter and son-in-law, and scolded her for holding the baby from her stepdaughter's arms. The woman cried out loud and aggrieved. When the neighbors heard the noise, they rushed over and talked about whether the baby could be fed. (My grandmother's family lives in a small town)

Since there was no breast milk, the baby's grandmother borrowed bean juice from a neighbor who sold tofu to feed the baby. Slowly, the baby's complexion is getting better day by day.

Two months passed, the baby turned white and bigger, and the baby's mother and grandmother finally breathed a sigh of relief.

After a while, the phone rang, and the grandmother received a call from the baby's father, so she angrily shouted and scolded the baby's father and grandmother on the phone.

It turned out that the baby's father called because he wanted the baby's mother to come home and take care of his 3-year-old brother, instead of caring if the small, black baby girl was still alive?

The baby's mother took the phone and scolded aggrievedly, and then told the baby's father that the baby girl was still alive. Thinking that there was a young son to take care of, he agreed to go back.

The baby's grandmother snatched the phone and asked angrily and loudly: "You haven't named your daughter until now, and you don't ask your daughter when you call, you only care about your son?"

The baby's father thought on the phone for a few seconds, then casually said: just call "Yang Li" and hung up the phone.

Yang Li has lived with her grandmother for about a year, and Yang Li's father has not paid any child support to her grandmother for more than a year.

Because my mother misses Yang Li too much, she misses Yang Li with tears every day. Mom always secretly tries to call Yang Li.

Yang Li's grandmother couldn't bear to see the separation of mother and son, so she promised Yang Li's mother to come and borrow her granddaughter who had been raised by her for more than a year and rescued from death.

Due to a natural lack of nutrition, Yang Li, who was almost two years old, slowly learned to walk.

When Yang Li returned home, she washed her face with tears every day, and her mother was even more sad and pitiful. Dad was not at home for three days, except for going to work, playing cards in the teahouse. After returning home, I saw my mother every day that I was not pleasing to the eye, and I beat my mother every day, punching and kicking her.

Yang Li, who was only 3 years old, saw her father brutally beating her mother, helplessly scared and frightened. When my father beat my mother badly, my mother often couldn't think about it, and hanged herself several times, which scared Yang Li and her brother to cry while holding her mother's legs.

Every time Dad comes home, Mom serves tea and water like a slave, washes and cooks, the dishes are not with appetite, Dad loses his temper and smashes a bowl directly at Mom, Mom cries, Dad lifts the table, the more Mom cries, the more angry Dad becomes, and punches and kicks Mom.

The windows, TVs, DVDs, and amplifiers at home were all smashed. After smashing it, I regretted it and went to buy it again after a few days.

Dad's motorcycle couldn't catch fire, and he also asked his mother to vent his anger, and his father was in a bad mood, as long as he saw his mother, he got angry, and punched and kicked it on his mother.

Dad is always having an affair, because he likes a beautiful female college student, he divorced his mother, and in order to get along with the female college student, his father gave the family money and monthly salary to the female college student.

The girl's family is poorer than Yang Li's family, living in the mountains, her parents did not hesitate to let their daughter break up other people's families because they liked her father's money-making and stable job, and her father was almost not at home in those months, they were all at the home of the female college student, honoring the parents of the female college student.

Dad never cooked, swept the floor, or did not do laundry at home, but in that female college student's house, he was a different person. My mother, a person who married far away, had no relatives and friends to help her, and there was no one to confide in, so she always cried sadly and aggrieved every day.

One day, my mother took 3-year-old Yang Li and her 6-year-old brother to climb the mountain to find my father. When they found the girl's house, the girl's parents did not feel ashamed and naturally made dinner.

The female college student's family ate at the same table with Yang Li's parents, brother, and Yang Li, and the father saw a green vegetable worm put it in the mother's bowl in front of everyone on the table, humiliated her mother, and shouted loudly: "Eat!"

Mom was humiliated in public by the extremely scumbag father, and my mother cried out aggrievedly, put down the dishes and chopsticks and took Yang Li and her brother home.

My mother cries every day and spends every day in sadness. A few months later, the family's money and goods were cheated out by the female college student's family, and the scumbag's father went home without shame.

Grandma is a feudal person, extremely patriarchal, and often slaps Yang Li's head when she doesn't like it. dotes on my brother, if there is something delicious, I ask my brother to eat it first, and my father and mother fight, most of which are also provoked by my grandmother.

The clothes Yang Li wears are all leftover from her brother, she is barefoot in summer and wears shoes given by others in winter. Dad bought snacks, toys, and bicycles for his brother, but never bought them for Yang Li.

When all the children around her have new clothes and bicycles, Yang Li always cries with envious eyes and inferiority. Dad would rather use the money to play cards and lose to others and eat, drink and have fun, than buy clothes for Yang Li and her mother.

My brother always bullied Yang Li and always beat Yang Li. Every time he fights with his brother, his father beats and scolds Yang Li indiscriminately, pretending to scare his brother, and his brother will run away.

In the memory of the 3-year-old Yang Li, her father beat her hardest twice, once when she fought with her brother, and her father slapped the young Yang Li in the face directly. The face instantly became red, red and swollen. One time was a summer evening, just after eating, the power went out in the house, and the candles were lit. Dad and grandma were chatting, my brother was sitting next to my father, my brother deliberately slapped Yang Li, Yang Li just wanted to go back and slap my brother, my brother dodged suddenly, and accidentally hit my father's cheek with his forehead, and my father was angry at the time, and asked loudly, "Who is it?"

The elder brother replied, "Sister!"

Dad slapped Yang Li 5 or 6 times because of the pain of being hit by his brother, Yang Li's face was numb and she couldn't cry, her grandmother on the side was frightened, her mother was stunned for a while, and Yang Li cried heartbreakingly for a while. When her mother saw Yang Li who was beaten, she cried loudly in distress, crying and scolding: "Anyway, you and your mother can't get used to our mother, we will drink rat poison tomorrow!"

Because my mother accidentally injured her head when she was 5 years old, her intelligence stopped forever at 5 years old. The feudal thinking of father and grandmother believes that 'the mother is a mentally disabled person, and the daughter may also be mentally disabled in the future', so they often ridicule, abuse, and beat Yang Li and her mother.

Yang Li's father and grandmother didn't like Yang Li and her mother, and the neighbors around her also bullied Yang Li and her mother. Seeing Yang Li and Yang Li's mother is like seeing a madman, driving and hiding far away. Many of them don't know their mother's name, and their name is Mother Yang Crazy.

The bad adult relatives also sarcastically mocked Yang Li, "Your father doesn't like you, what qualifications do you have to fight with your brother? You see that I often buy clothes, snacks, and toys for my daughter, what about you? Ask your father to buy them for you! Haha!"

Children don't have independent thinking, they see what adults do, they imitate what they do, the neighbors around them treat Yang Li and their mother like this, and children also bully Yang Li, always beating and scolding Yang Li.

It seems that Yang Li is like an ugly duckling, everyone dislikes it, everyone hates it. It's more like a rat crossing the street, everyone shouts and fights.

Back at home, the status of the family is like the queen mother, the father is like the emperor, the brother is like the prince, the mother is like a slave, and Yang Li is like the daughter of a slave.

Slaves and petty slaves revolve around the queen mother, the emperor, and the crown prince. Call the east and dare not go west, call the tea, and if you serve the wrong water, you will be scolded. The prince eats, and the little slave also serves, and the prince calls Sheng Fan, and if the little slave strikes because of emotions, the emperor and the queen mother will scold the little slave.

The prince eats the good food first, the prince uses the good things first, and the rest is eaten and used by the little slaves.

If the prince does not allow the little slave to use his things, if the little slave insists on using it, the prince will beat and scold the little slave, and if the little slave fights back, the prince will sue the queen mother and the emperor, and the emperor will scold the little slave.

One day, the little slave saw that all the children had bicycles, including his brother, and longed for one. I always go to see other children riding bicycles, and my brother also rides a bicycle to play happily with other children. Yang Li wanted her brother to ride a bicycle to carry her, but her brother refused to answer several times, and she would rather carry other children than Yang Li.

All the children go to school by bicycle, and Yang Li is alone and has to walk back and forth for nearly two and a half hours every day to and from school and home. My brother has never taken Yang Li once. Sometimes when she saw other children riding bicycles, Yang Li ran behind stupidly to chase after her. Because I was afraid of being late for school, and I didn't have a watch, I walked half the way and ran half the way.

One day, a girl from a neighbor's house saw Yang Li after school, because she was riding back alone and lonely. Yang Li said, "I'll take you back!"

Yang Li was very happy to ride a bicycle for the first time, walked to a junction that was about to reach home, about 400 meters long, 70 degrees of steep downhill, because the bicycle brakes failed, fell rapidly, almost 30 meters when there was a big cow, about to hit the big cow at the moment, the neighbor girl instantly tilted the car to the side, she and Yang Li fell to the ground.

Yang Li felt a sharp pain in her buttocks, lay on the ground for a while, and slowly got up from the ground while calling the neighbor's girl, and slowly helped the neighbor's girl up after getting up. She kept crying, and Yang Li wanted to cry too, and after shedding a few tears, she slowly helped the neighbor's girl home.

It's not that Yang Li is strong and doesn't cry, but she doesn't dare to cry, and she is more afraid and fearful in her heart.

When the girl came home and was lying on the sofa, her mother made dinner and asked her to eat and found that she did not raise her hand to serve the bowl, so she asked her, "Why don't you serve the bowl?"

She didn't dare to answer that it was because of the injury caused by Yang Li, and if it was because of the injury caused by Yang Li, her mother would beat her, but she just said that she had fallen on her bike.

Then her mother called her dad in a panic and told her dad to come back and take her to the hospital.

A few hours later, Yang Li saw her parents take her home, her hands wrapped in white gauze.

Later, she told Yang Li that she had fallen and dislocated her wrist joint.

Yang Li has always felt a severe pain in her buttocks, and she didn't dare to tell her mother, let alone her annoying father, so she could only endure the pain by herself, because she knew her father and grandmother too well, and if she did, they would not only not take her to the hospital to see her, but would beat and scold her.

Because of the pain in the buttocks, he walked very slowly, and he was often ridiculed by his classmates, and he was even more afraid to sit, so he could only sit on a stool with the base of his thighs in school. Yang Li thought that she would be fine after a few days of pain, but who knew that this pain had been painful for 2 years. Mom didn't notice that she was any different from before, and Dad and Grandma didn't care about her health.

Later, she realized that the tail vertebrae of her buttocks had been deformed, and there was a stone where she fell, and her buttocks just hit the stone.

Xiao Yang Li, who was tortured and mentally devastated at home, became more and more inferior and autistic, except for a mentally disabled mother who could not protect herself, Yang Li did not have a person to be close to, and her mother washed her face with tears almost every day, because of the reason for crying every day, Yang Li's eyes have begun to be short-sighted.

Yang Li often has suicidal thoughts and often fantasizes about suicide. But when I think of my poor mother, I can't bear to leave my mother. After his death, his mother will definitely be more pitiful, beaten by his father, and bullied by his grandmother......

Yang Li hated her father and grandmother incomparably, and Yang Li, who was still in kindergarten and couldn't speak a few words, secretly wrote a suicide note by herself.

The content is: "I love my mother, my mother is a poor person, I long more for my father to love me, I hope my father can treat my mother well in the future, if I die, I hope my mother can be happy every day, no longer cry every day, and be beaten by my father every day!"