"I ......" Su Jinchen couldn't say it, only slightly turned his head, "It's not important." ”

Peach Blossom forced his face back, stared at him and said seriously: "Why doesn't it matter? You just want to be worthy of your heart, but is this really what it looks like? Is your heart happy? Are you happy? Are you satisfied with your behavior? Have you ever asked your heart?"

"It doesn't matter. Su Jinchen pressed the corner of his mouth and coughed, and said again.

"It's important. Peach Blossom said word by word, "Life is in the world, life is unhappy, what is the difference between living and dead? When you encounter injustice, you can't stop it happily, you can't laugh unbridled when you encounter happy things, your grievances, your forbearance, your scrupulousness and self-discipline will only make people who really care about you and feel sorry for you sadly." Are you right about them? If you have the slightest apology, then your guilt is useless. ”

"I can't deny that you have a point. Su Jinchen still stubbornly believed, "But I'd rather suffer it myself." As he spoke, he couldn't help coughing.

"Is it just that you suffer it yourself? Where do you put those who care about you? There is no half trust and no pity? No matter relatives, friends or wives, the most important thing is to trust each other and entrust them sincerely, but you only care whether you have a clear conscience, but sometimes blindly giving is not necessarily right, maybe it is just your wishful thinking, others do not want to accept such a heavy love, maybe she wants equality, understanding, trust and mutual giving! But what you give is not so, but you still think how great and noble you are. ”

"I didn't!" Su Jinchen said hurriedly, and there was another rapid cough.

"Okay, okay, whatever you say, it's what you say. Seeing that he was coughing uncomfortably, Peach Blossom couldn't help but be anxious and stopped talking.

Su Jinchen still insisted on explaining, "Peach Blossom, although I didn't fully understand what you said. But I knew I had to do something wrong. But I can't think too much about it now, as long as the end result is good, I feel that everything is worth it. ”

"Don't say anything, lie down and rest, I'll pour you some water!" Peach Blossom got up.

Su Jinchen's gaze followed closely and chased after him.

In the afternoon, in order not to make Su Jinchen so boring, Peach Blossom took out a pen and paper and said seriously that she wanted to paint Su Jinchen.

Finally waited until the peach blossom said that the painting was finished, Su Jinchen took it with anticipation, and was stunned, "Uh, what's the matter?"

"Yes, this is my dress designed according to your figure, how about it? Isn't it beautiful?" asked Peach Blossom very seriously.

Su Jinchen looked at a chic design dress on the paper, which was eight points similar to his own figure, and he had no head and face.

"What's wrong, isn't it pretty?" Peach Blossom continued.

"Good, good-looking. Su Jinchen said a little sneeringly, "I thought it was ......."

"Why?" Peach Blossom really likes to see him tangled and twisted.

"Nothing. Su Jinchen put down the drawing paper and said.

Poof! Peach Blossom finally couldn't help but laugh.

At the end of the day, although the peach blossom was casual on the surface, and even made Su Jinchen happy in the past, in fact, he kept mentioning it in his heart, but he was afraid that Su Jinchen would see it. Although Su Jinchen was sick some time ago, he did not have any cough symptoms, and today he suddenly coughed, isn't it? Peach Blossom shook her head to stop herself from thinking nonsense.

At night, when she saw Su Jinchen asleep, Peach Blossom hurriedly got up and walked out.

Su Jinchen waited quietly for a while, and then sat up. In the dark, Su Jinchen didn't know what he was thinking, so he was silently stunned for a while, and then got up.

After lighting the lamp, Su Jinchen found the paper and pen on the table when Peach Blossom was painting in the afternoon, on which there were pictures of the clothing designs that Peach Blossom drew for herself in the afternoon, and said that she would wear them for herself in the future.

Later...... Su Jinchen remembered the longing look on Peach Blossom's face, and smiled a little bitterly. There was a sudden suffocation in his chest, and he pressed it with his hand, but he couldn't help but cough again.

Spread out the palms of your hands, and a touch of bright red jumped into your eyes.

Su Jinchen took out a square towel and wiped it silently. Then he picked up the pen, his wrist was suspended, and he meditated on the words countless times in his heart, but at this moment he couldn't write a word, and the tip of the pen fell on the paper, smudging a little hazy ink.

After a long time, Su Jinchen sighed, put the pen aside, and dragged his increasingly weak body out.

As soon as I got out of the cave entrance, I looked at the dark night, and the little light in the cave seemed warmer and warmer. Su Jinchen thought about it, turned around and put the candle lamp on the lampshade, carried the lantern to the entrance of the cave, carefully fixed the lantern on a branch next to the cave, and then turned around and left with confidence.

As soon as he took two steps, Su Jinchen felt something.

"Why don't you leave?" Peach Blossom's voice sounded from behind him.

Su Jinchen's body stiffened, turned around and smiled: "It's a peach blossom? ”

"Oh, that's right," Peach Blossom nodded, "then you go, I'll wait here." ”

"Uh, okay. Su Jinchen touched his nose and was about to turn around, but he heard Peach Blossom remind: "It's dark, bring up the lantern." ”

When the two returned to the cave, Su Jinchen lay on the bed, saw that Peach Blossom was sorting out the bedding as usual, hesitated for a moment, and asked, "Aren't you going to find Mr. Zhao at this time?"

"I'm disappointed that I didn't go?" Peach Blossom glanced at him.

"It's not. Su Jinchen hurriedly shook his head, "I'm just asking." ”

"Hmm. Peach Blossom nodded, shook the quilt, leaned over to blow the lamp, and then lay down.

The two of them had different thoughts, and although they lay quietly, neither of them fell asleep. The mountain breeze outside was blowing, Peach Blossom blinked her eyes, and a tear slipped silently, but she didn't seem to be aware of it.

"Are you angry?" said Su Jinchen softly for a long time.

"Nope. Peach Blossom's tone was calm.

"You have. Su Jinchen said: "Actually, you thought about it during the day, right? ”

"I just want to know now. Peach Blossom looked in Su Jinchen's direction in the dark and said, "What is the good result in the sentence you said during the day that as long as it is a good result, it is worth it?"

Su Jinchen was silent for a moment and said, "I hope you are safe." ”

"So, in order not to let me get sick, do you want to leave quietly and choose to fend for yourself?" asked Peach Blossom.

Su Jinchen couldn't hear Peach Blossom's tone a little, but he had a vague trace of unease.

"Answer me. Peach Blossom said, his tone was calm and a little tough.

Su Jinchen suddenly realized that he seemed to be losing something most important, which made him feel a little uncomfortable and puzzled.

"Do you trust me or do you still believe that Old Man Zhao can make an antidote?Or have you really given up on the future?, or is there nothing in this world that is worth your nostalgia?!" Peach Blossom couldn't wait for him to answer.

"No!" Su Jinchen said urgently.

"Do you like me?" asked Peach Blossom, "answer me seriously." ”

Su Jinchen clenched his fist at his side and said, "I like it." ”

"Okay, Su Jinchen, I solemnly tell you now that I like you too, maybe it's your appearance or maybe it's your personality, I can't tell. But I know better that what I like must not really like. Now, no matter what the future holds, I have chosen to let go of all my scruples and accept my heart. But I don't want such a relationship to be based on your self-righteous dedication, that will only make me feel untrusted, I thought I had made it clear during the day, but your actions tonight told me that you didn't understand. Su Jinchen, I repeat, I don't want to be a canary who is cared for, I hope I am the one who stands next to you and walks side by side with you. If you can't do this," Peach Blossom paused, "then, you can leave if you want, I won't stop you anymore, and you will be left to fend for yourself." If you stay. ”

Peach Blossom sat up suddenly, and her voice was cold, "If you stay, just fucking hold on to me! Don't fix these moths for three days! I'm tired, I don't have time to look at you like a thief every day!"