Jin Xiaoyi didn't say it, but Pei Yuansheng saw her thoughts from Jin Xiaoyi's eyes.

"Take it off if you want. Pei Yuansheng spread his arms and looked at Jin Xiaoyi with a big smile, "Haven't you coveted President Ben's beauty for a long time?" Come on, for the sake of you taking care of me for so long, I will give you some benefits tonight." ”

Jin Xiaoyi swallowed quietly and asked a little embarrassedly, "Really?"

It seems that Pei Yuansheng is really in a surprisingly good mood tonight and is easy to talk to.

In normal times, he would never have spoken to her like that.

"Really, President Ben is hard to follow. He looked at her expectant expression on her face, and inexplicably thought of laughing again.

He hadn't joked with anyone in a long time since he was getting sicker.

In the past, in the eyes of many people, he was a playboy with a bold style, or in other words, an out-and-out master of flirting with girls.

He did that in front of outsiders, on the one hand, to hide his physical condition, and on the other hand, it also had something to do with his own character.

In the business field, everyone is vain and wronged, and the pressure is so great, how can he not find some fun for himself to relieve the pressure? If he had any bad taste before, that is, teasing the little girl, commonly known as "flirting with girls".

He knew that he was good-looking, perfect, rich and handsome in all aspects, and ordinary girls had no resistance to him at all.

So he became more and more reckless, often looking at one and flirting with the other.

But he often leaves after teasing, and he still ignores Fang behind him even if his heart is broken.

Retribution, perhaps?

Let him meet Tang Xiao.

Compared to Liezi, he is indeed not a good home.

Retsuko is a dedicated person, he knows what he wants, so he never spends his energy on flirting with women who don't matter.

It can even be said that the woman he doesn't like, the woman who doesn't plan to get married, if it is not necessary, he will not take a second look at it at all.

Only a man like him is worthy of a perfect love from the beginning.

Thinking of this, Pei Yuansheng lowered his head and smiled, hiding the loneliness in his eyes, and pulled his thoughts back to Jin Xiaoyi in front of him.

Want to tease her?

He actually liked to see her blush and shy.

Frankly speaking, Jin Xiaoyi looks good, although it is the day after tomorrow, but it is very natural, perfect, and it makes people look very comfortable.

Such a reserved and elegant woman, when she is as shy as a little girl, is actually very attractive, and has a special charm that mixes the maturity of a woman and the youthfulness of a girl.

"Jin Xiaoyi, have you fantasized about the situation in front of you many times?" he asked with a sneering expression.

Jin Xiaoyi's fingers had just touched Pei Yuansheng's chest, and before a button was unbuttoned, her ears turned red a little bit.

The tips of the ears are especially red and transparent, as if they have been boiled in a pot.

There was no need to look up, Pei Yuansheng also knew that her delicate face must have been dyed with two blushes.

He looked at her with amusement, "Why don't you speak? You really often secretly sexualize with me when you're alone...... body. ”

He deliberately lowered the last few words, and the end note was even slightly longer, showing a charming meaning in such a night.

"I ...... I didn't. Jin Xiaoyi said softly, tried to overcome the psychological barrier, and continued to unbutton his clothes.

"Is there really not?" Pei Yuansheng chuckled, "Look at you, the red ones are like braised prawns, and you are embarrassed to lie?" Jin Xiaoyi, if you dare to confess to me, don't you dare to admit that you fantasized about me?"

Jin Xiaoyi bit her lip, her ears were so red that they were about to drip blood.

It was a long time before she snorted and said, "Hmm...... I—I do have ...... Fantasized. ”

Pei Yuansheng wanted to tease her at first, but when the other party really admitted it according to his wishes, he couldn't help but feel embarrassed.

This is the first time that a woman has admitted to his face that she has thoughts about his **.

That's really ...... A wonderful flower among women.

Of course, he himself is even more bizarre, and he can be called shameless.

Before he met Tang Xiao, he had always been a person with no discipline.

If it weren't for the fact that he couldn't help but tease a few times when he saw a beautiful woman casually, how could Ji Xiaoru miss him later.

But there is nothing to be proud of, he hurt Ji Xiaoru.

Looking back now, how bad he was in the past, relying on his good skin and born with a better family background than others, he thought that women all over the world could not resist his charm.

And because he knew that he had congenital heart disease like his father, he would leave this world early one day, so he gave up on himself and wanted to live as he wanted, even if he was a playboy who changed women faster than clothes in the eyes of others.

He was smug, thinking that he didn't touch a leaf in the flowers, but he didn't know how many women were unhappy because of how many detours he had taken.

He's a really bad guy.

Perhaps God has its own arrangements in the dark, and those who sow bitter fruits will surely reap the fruits one day.

This can't complain about others, but if you want to complain, you can only complain about yourself who acted arbitrarily in the distant past.

"You said you helped me change my clothes when I was unconscious, so you should have seen it...... Jin Xiaoyi, my body is not as good-looking as you think, right?" Pei Yuansheng seemed to have no shame, and talked to her about his own body so casually.

Jin Xiaoyi knew in her heart that he didn't care about herself, and in his eyes she was not a woman who needed to be taken seriously, so she could be so shameless and frivolous.

If it's a smile...... If it were a smile, he would not have said these things lightly.

This realization made Jin Xiaoyi feel a little frustrated.

However, this is not a night where emotions should be wasted on depression and depression.

It was the last night she was able to spend time with him alone.

Jin Xiaoyi tried to cheer herself up.

"I didn't dare to look at it. Always quick...... Pei Yuansheng, you know, I have always respected you. She looked up and looked at him.

The top two buttons of the blouse have been unbuttoned, and the next ...... She suddenly lost her courage a little.

"Thank you for respecting me. He looked into her eyes, and there was not much sincerity in his tone.

She knew that he was still unhappy that she had helped him change his clothes without his knowledge.

"I'm sorry. ”

She didn't want to explain more for herself, so she could only apologize honestly.

"Stupid or not, you're not wrong, I know you did that when you couldn't help it. Jin Xiaoyi, if you like someone, you must make yourself humble, let yourself be unconditionally accommodating to the other party, just now it was obvious that I was making trouble unreasonably, you have the right to be angry, and you also have the right to scold me. Pei Yuansheng said seriously, "Come, look into my eyes, Jin Xiaoyi." ”

She looked at him in a daze, his eyes were really good-looking, as if they contained the Milky Way.

"If you want people to respect you, you have to respect yourself. He said to her, "If someone treats you with frivolity, you don't have to tolerate it at all, even if you like this person." No relationship is worth sacrificing your self-esteem, as a woman, if you first put yourself in a very low position, don't take yourself seriously, and only have each other in your eyes, then guess what a man will think of this woman?"

Jin Xiaoyi was speechless.

She never thought about these questions, she only knew that she liked someone and that her whole world had to make way for that person.

This man is the master of her world.

And this man, now sitting in front of her, looked at her with his beautiful eyes, and told her something that no one had ever taught her.

"No man respects and loves a woman from the bottom of his heart who doesn't even love himself. Jin Xiaoyi, love yourself before loving others. Those who do not love themselves will certainly not love others. ”

"Self-sacrificing love can only move oneself and has no meaning to the person you love. He added.

"That'...... I like you, don't you...... It doesn't make any sense?" Jin Xiaoyi muttered.

"Of course not. He couldn't help pinching her red earlobe, "Don't look down on yourself too much, Jin Xiaoyi, you are very good, you take good care of me, you are a very good woman, I have said similar things many times, so, don't be presumptuous, you can't be with me, not because you are not worthy of me, but because I am not worthy of you." One day you will understand that you deserve better. ”

Jin Xiaoyi shook her head, "I don't want others, in my heart, no one is better than you." ”

Pei Yuansheng looked at her helplessly, "Okay, but, Jin Xiaoyi, I bet with you that one day you will completely forget about me and have your own happiness." ”

"I'm not betting with you. Jin Xiaoyi shook her head firmly.

"Why?" Pei Yuansheng looked at her amusedly, "Are you afraid of losing?" Don't worry, even if you lose, no one will come to you to ask you for a bet. ”

"I'm afraid you'll lose. Jin Xiaoyi completely unbuttoned Pei Yuansheng before he knew it.

The dark pajamas were open, revealing a thin, pale body, and a terrible wound on the chest and heart that had just been stitched up.

In addition to this, there are other scars from surgery.

Looking at his body, one can imagine how many surgeries and surgeries he has had in his more than 20 years of life.

More boldly than ever, she reached out and stroked the old and new scars on his body.

Her eyes were full of distress.

"Pei Yuansheng, I love you. I'll never forget you for the rest of my life. As she spoke, she leaned over and kissed him lightly on the chest.

The cold tears on her face accidentally touched his chest, and he felt a small ripple on his skin, a feeling that was very strange to him, after all, no woman had ever kissed his chest so boldly, and no woman had ever left a tear on his chest.

"The first time I changed your clothes, I knew ...... All the rumors you used to have were fake, what you with women, you had dozens of bed partners - it was all fake, and you wouldn't do that because you're going to hide the secret that you have a heart attack, and you don't just let people see the scar on your chest from surgery. Jin Xiaoyi said with tears in her eyes, "Besides, how can a person like you who has a habit of cleanliness sleep casually with others......"

"Don't say it. Pei Yuansheng stopped her, "Now is not the time to discuss my private life. ”

Jin Xiaoyi sniffed, helped Pei Yuansheng remove the bloodstained clothes on his body, and took a new set of clean pajamas for Pei Yuansheng to change into.

When he was dressed, he was in a better mood and began to tease her: "Don't you take the opportunity to touch it a few more times? ”

Jin Xiaoyi's fingers swept across his chest, and a fine pain appeared in his heart: "I only feel uncomfortable and distressed when I see it, and when my fingers touch it, I feel even more painful, as if how you hurt in the past has passed to me through my fingers." It made me feel that kind of pain again. ”

"Oh, what a pain. Pei Yuansheng thought it was funny.

"There are many kinds of ......," Jin Xiaoyi shook her head, "It's okay not to say it." ”

Pei Yuansheng didn't pursue it again, after all, pain is not a good topic.

Jin Xiaoyi helped Pei Yuansheng clean up and poured a cup of hot milk for Pei Yuansheng.

Pei Yuansheng sat on the bed with a glass of hot milk in his hand and leaned on the pillow, looking at Jin Xiaoyi who was sitting on the edge of the bed trying to put his mobile phone together.

Feeling guilty in his heart, Pei Yuansheng said: "I'm sorry, I'll pay you a new one tomorrow." ”

Jin Xiaoyi put aside her mobile phone, which had been completely destroyed by Pei Yuansheng, and looked at Pei Yuansheng with a smile: "Parting gift?"

"Well, sort of. Pei Yuansheng said a little carelessly.

He looked at Jin Xiaoyi's face under the light, and suddenly praised: "You look like you now, it's beautiful." ”

Jin Xiaoyi was caught off guard by Pei Yuansheng's praise, her heart was like a deer, and she didn't know how to put her hands and feet.

Sitting there in a proper manner, she forced herself to compose and said, "Oh, yes?"

"Yes. He looked at her with a sincere smile on his face.

Jin Xiaoyi was once again fascinated by Pei Yuansheng's laughter, and shouted in her heart Are you better?

But I don't know why a sentence popped up: "I'm not beautiful, my current appearance is all made up." ”

As soon as the words came out, I felt disappointed.

However, the words spoken are like water spilled out, and there is no reason to take them back.

Jin Xiaoyi was secretly annoyed, she was simply a humanoid atmosphere destroyer.

"Whether it's whole or not, it's all you. There's nothing wrong with pursuing beauty, and I apologize to you for those things I said to you when I first met you before. Pei Yuansheng said to her apologetically.

Jin Xiaoyi knew he was referring to the time at the bowling alley. At that time, Tang Xiao knew that he liked Pei Yuansheng, so he tried to create a chance for himself and Pei Yuansheng to be alone, but in Pei Yuansheng's car, he mercilessly pointed out that her whole face was made up.

At that time, she really felt hurt.

But...... That's all in the past. She never thought that he remembered what he had said to him at that time, and that he would one day receive an apology from him.

"It's okay for me. She laughed and said, "You don't have to apologize." I actually don't shy away from this matter, since plastic surgery is my own choice, there is nothing to admit. Although at that time, I would have preferred that in your eyes, I was a natural beauty, but ...... That's not very useful, is it? I learned later that if you like someone, you don't just like someone's appearance. You're not a superficial person like me. Of course, I'm not saying that the smile is not pretty, I mean, what you value more is the connotation. Xiaoxiao's personality attracts you, even if she changes her face, you will still like her, right?"

Pei Yuansheng smiled and said, "Well, that's the case. Jin Xiaoyi, you know me very well. ”

"I like a person for so many years, and I have been around this person for so long, if I can't have a deeper understanding of this person than others, it is really a vain liking. Jin Xiaoyi said self-deprecatingly.

Pei Yuansheng stared at Jin Xiaoyi's flawless-looking face, and had to admit that the plastic surgeon was indeed very clever.

Every inch of her facial features seems to be carefully handled, the curvature of the corners of her eyes and eyebrows, the height and folds of the bridge of her nose, the shape of her lips and the thickness of her lips, the straight line formed between her chin and the bridge of her nose and mouth-

Everything is the most perfect and durable look.

It's so perfect that it's a bit distorted, and it looks like a 3D beauty drawn by a computer.

Pei Yuansheng tried to recall what Jin Xiaoyi used to look like.

He remembered that when he was looking for someone to investigate Jin Xiaoyi, he had seen Jin Xiaoyi's previous photos in the stack of materials that were not thin or thick, except for plastic surgery.

He has always had a good memory, even if it is not so good-looking, if he has seen it, he can slowly piece it together in his memory.

Memories helped Pei Yuansheng restore her former face in her mind little by little.

Compared with the current appearance, that face is really too ordinary and ordinary.

No one will want to take a second look at it in the crowd.

If she was that ordinary appearance, it should be impossible to come to him.

Even if she didn't come to him, it would be very difficult for her to achieve the position she had previously obtained in a five-star hotel.

This is an era when most people look at faces.

Or it should be said that there are very few people who do not look at their faces.

Life is stressful enough, who wouldn't want to have a good-looking face in front of them?

Due to a variety of factors, it is already becoming more and more difficult for women to find a job.

If a woman like Jin Xiaoyi has no background and wants to occupy a place in a five-star hotel inspired by competition, in addition to excellent business ability and smart mind, an eye-catching appearance and an impeccable good figure are also an indispensable must-have.

He had mocked her mercilessly, and looked down on her from the bottom of his heart.

He thought she had plastic surgery just because of vanity.

Now, as he gets older, he understands her better.

Once a person begins to understand another person, he or she cannot help but feel empathy for the other person.

He mentally contrasted her two faces, imagining how much effort it would take to make such a transformation.

Not everyone has the courage to use a knife in the face.

She couldn't help but wonder, what kind of mood did Jin Xiaoyi, who had just become an adult, have to go for plastic surgery at the risk of being disfigured or even dying?

"Jin Xiaoyi, you...... Does it hurt? ”

Jin Xiaoyi's heart trembled slightly.

It's the first time in so many years that someone has asked her such a question.

There is no surgery that doesn't hurt.

Especially with a knife that moves in your own face.

Bone Peeling ...... How can there be no pain in the skin?

The money she saved at that time was not enough to go to a plastic surgery hospital abroad with better medical conditions for surgery.

No matter how formal the domestic plastic surgery hospitals are, the technology is limited after all.

There are also many who have had an accident during cosmetic surgery and can never wake up again.

When it comes to the news afterwards, most people will not only not sympathize, but will even laugh and ridicule a few words.

I want plastic surgery, I took the risk to go to the operating table, life and death are up to heaven, who can blame if I die?

I knew that something would happen, and I spent money to suffer and give myself a fake face?

……

People affirm people who work hard for their studies and work, people praise people who work overtime to buy a car and a house, and even if they work hard to lose weight, they will be respected.

However, people who have plastic surgery don't.

They will only become the object of other people's after-dinner pastime.

If the plastic surgery is successful, they will say that these people have nothing more than a fake face produced on the assembly line.

If it fails, people will say, it's self-inflicted.

No one will ask them if they are in pain, if they are afraid, and no one will feel that it is a commendable thing to work hard to be beautiful.

No one. There has never been a person.

Even her family didn't understand it.

In the eyes of Jin Xiaoyi's family, instead of using the money she desperately saved for plastic surgery, it is better to work hard to make up a little more and pay a down payment for a small house outside the fourth and fifth ring roads in Chengbei.

Jin Xiaoyi is not good-looking enough, and her personality is not smart enough, if she has a real estate, she should be more popular in the marriage market, and it is easier for a man to want it.

All the expectations of Jin Xiaoyi's family for her are just "a man wants it".

They don't know how good and perfect the man Jin Xiaoyi loves in her heart is.

They don't know that what Jin Xiaoyi is pursuing is not "a man wants it".

Isn't a woman who is not good-looking qualified to pursue a better life and a higher class?

If a woman who is not good-looking, does she have to marry an ordinary man?

No.

Jin Xiaoyi was unwilling to accept that fate.

Her fate should not be in the hands of others, and her Jin Xiaoyi's life should not be limited by other people's eyes.

She wants to live for herself.

She wants to pursue love, no matter how unattainable it is.

Even if she never had one, at least, she had come closer, reached out and touched.

It's also better than an ordinary life-

Marrying an ordinary and wooden "honest" man in the mouth of others, in order to give birth to the next generation, in order to buy a house with property rights for 70 years, he spent his life in camps, busy between the company and the kitchen, squeezing the subway every day, picking up and dropping off children, cooking three dishes and one soup for his family, there is no love in his heart, there is no light in his eyes, and on his more ordinary face that has been devastated by the years, there is only exhaustion but exhaustion.

If you are lucky, you will be dull until you are old, and you will be called a good wife and mother by outsiders, and you will be written into your essay by your children-

My mom is ordinary, but a good mom.

I don't have any sex/life with my husband, because I can't give birth to anything from each other, and my body is crushed by my busy life and I just want to sleep in bed.

No passion, no love.

There is only a mechanical repetition of living for the sake of living, which cannot even be called a sense of mission. It's like a machine without flesh and blood.

How terrible it is.

This was never the life Jin Xiaoyi wanted.