Chapter 40: Let go
It's too painful, when will she be able to let go of this person who doesn't belong to her, the two are like coming from different worlds, and the light he has is far away from her.
The alcohol was overwhelmed, but she felt extra conscious, at least she could dry her body and hair, and smile at herself in the mirror, wouldn't it be fine?
People say that life is unsatisfactory nine times out of ten, but she has never seen those one or two.
Lying on the bed, I just felt that the world was spinning, and my mind was replaying everything that had happened recently over and over again, and in the final analysis, it was her greed.
If it was just friends, it wouldn't be so sad, would it?
But how can people who are tempted at first sight be willing to be only friends?
Tears slid down their eyes, wet their sideburns, and into their ears. Late at night is a time when people's emotions are amplified, and many small things will be magnified. Sad too.
She felt that she was getting farther and farther away from Mo Yu, and she had already questioned herself in her heart more than once, what did she want? Want Mo Yu to be her boyfriend? Want to get married together in the future?
Please, be realistic.
Who doesn't understand the truth, when it's really their turn, who can still pass this hurdle plainly.
It's just because when I persuade others, I'm not an insider, and I don't feel heartache. I won't feel that sad feeling, and I only persuade him to let go and let go slowly.
But he never thought about how tormented he was from the perspective of the person concerned, and now it is really his turn, and the needle is pierced in his body, and he really feels the pain in his heart.
Well, it's a pleasure.
I finally figured out why there are always people in the world who love but can't help but continue to maintain an ambiguous relationship, and refuse to give up or stay away.
Is it still longing for the sweetness that seems to be nothing, and he doesn't dare to think about it in the future, he feels impossible, he knows that there will be no result, and he still wants to accompany him for a while.
Tang laughed and laughed self-deprecatingly, laughed and laughed when he laughed, and laughed after crying for a while. If in this life, she can't forget what Mo Yu should do, her whole life is so long, how far should it be forever?
She covered herself in the quilt and cried, over the years, has she seen him intimate with other girls less often, there are work reasons, there are also personal reasons, every time I see it, I can't suppress the sadness.
If you don't like it, you won't be sad.
Tears were hot and wet long hair. The heart really hurts, although this kind of pain has no status, and it doesn't even qualify. decided to give up, but thought of the past, he once accompanied her to the sea to watch the stars.
Although he was reading another person on the Ferris wheel, he really felt very happy at that time.
For the humility of this liking, even if it is just watching him laugh through the screen, I feel very satisfied. Every time, when I persuade myself to let go. When I saw what was going on about him, my beating heart couldn't calm down.
It's too hard.
If the two have never known each other, if they see him so close to other girls, maybe they won't feel so uncomfortable.
At least they never knew each other, and they never had memories together, but now it's different when it comes to taking it out again.
If there really are gods in the world, can you open your eyes once?
I don't dare to ask for any future and future with him. I just want to let go of him completely this time, and this relationship, maybe not even a feeling, can be sealed up this memory, and it won't hurt if you don't touch it or think about it.
There are so many excellent girls around him, and it won't be good without her. The earth still rotates the same, the sun still rises the same, and whoever lacks it cannot live.
persuaded himself to start diverting his attention, his eyelids became dry and sour because of the crying, and he fell asleep groggyly.
Ye Luochen is in the kitchen, busy making tomato pasta.
Ye Zichen sat on the sofa outside, using the remote control to change the channel aimlessly, looking absent-minded at this time, this state has never been rare in Ye Zichen, maybe only in private can he take off the mask of hypocrisy and show his family the truest side of himself.
"What do you think of her?" Zi Chen asked without a head or tail, and Luochen was cutting the tomato knife with a clear pause, almost cutting his fingers. Although Zichen is a few years older than him, there is also telepathy between the two of them, and they don't need to say anything to understand what they want to express.
"Are you talking about Tang Xiaoxiao? I think it's okay. Luochen's perfunctory answer seemed to be reluctant to mention more.
Zi Chen held his cheeks, at this time, he was not as cold as in the mall. This moment can also be very gentle.
faintly teased: "It's okay? It's very similar to that girl." ”
Falling dust was silent. My brother never mentioned that girl to him, which was the psychological forbidden area between the two brothers that they were most reluctant to touch in the past.
The expression on Luochen's face darkened significantly. Zichen turned off the TV, got up and went to the kitchen, wanting to help his younger brother: "The two are different after all, no matter how similar they are, they can't be exactly the same." ”
Luochen asked rhetorically, "Haven't you already seen her?"
Zichen shook his head: "No, I just saw the photos that Uncle Tang sent me, and I didn't see the real person, as if the girl already had someone living in her heart." I've never been rejected when I've grown so big. ”
Luochen smiled: "Me too." ”
When my brother's seconds understood the meaning of this, they all chased it?
Gently pushed Ye Luochen: "Good boy, dare to rob me?"
Ye Luochen still smiled: "No, no, maybe I really treat her as a substitute for that girl, it's really my fault for her, if you like it, I can be a month old to help you match." ”
Zichen almost choked on the small tomato that he had just put in his mouth.
Luochen looked like he hurriedly patted him on the back and handed him the warm water that had been set aside for him to drink.
Zichen said: "It's not to the point where I like it, I just think this girl is very different." Maybe I've never been rejected before, it's a strange feeling. ”
Luochen boiled the noodles into the pot and said, "We have been in the United States for so long, and we really get along well." It's just that I didn't expect that after being with me for so many months, her heart has always been on that man's body and has never wavered. ”
Zi Chen nodded thoughtfully and said, "No wonder they will reject me, it turns out that they are already famous." ”
The time slipped to two o'clock in the morning, and although he had to get up at six o'clock in the morning to work, Mo Yu couldn't sleep at all now.
I was very sleepy, but I couldn't sleep, and I always felt like something was missing.
The phone is picked up and put down, and the eyes open and close. Tossing and turning, there is no feeling of falling asleep.
However, he soon understood what was missing, there was no good night for Tang Xiaoxiao tonight. Did something happen? Or did she forget to say it tonight? Or did she not sleep?
That day she asked what kind of relationship they had, and it was really, very difficult. If it's a girlfriend. Then he really is, he hasn't thought about it in that direction, and he doesn't have any plans to do so at the moment.
If you say that you are an ordinary friend, there are some things that are indeed beyond the boundaries of friends.
At last...... What is it? It's a really confusing relationship. The two men never had any intimate physical contact. But he also understood Tang Xiaoxiao's intentions for him.
When I think about it like this, the gap in my heart seems to have been filled a little bit, but I still can't sleep.
The next day, Tang Zhihai finished the meeting, and as soon as he returned to the office, Tang Xiaoxiao came.
"Dad. I'd like to discuss something with you. ”