488. She doesn't love me at all
She quietly stretched out her hand, tentatively put it in his palm, scratched it gently, and then looked at him with wide eyes: "I don't sleep, if you're not busy, let's watch a movie together, right?"
In the past, he would never refuse her request, but this time, he had no intention of agreeing.
"I still have something to do, what movie do you want to watch, I'll play it for you. You'll be able to watch by yourself in your room later, okay?"
Although he seemed to be asking her, his tone didn't seem to be negotiable.
Looking at this completely unfamiliar Cheng Lie, she was extremely surprised, she knew that maybe he was the one in front of others, but she had long been used to him in front of her.
What the hell happened to him?
Did she offend him somewhere?
She really couldn't guess, and she felt a slight grievance in her heart.
Obviously he was still very unwell, but he still had to pretend that nothing happened, but he treated her with such an indifferent attitude.
"Why can't you watch it with me?" she said with a long furrowed brow, puzzled, "Do you have anything important today?"
Instead of answering her question, he looked at her quietly and asked, "Why can't I have anything else?" or do I have to have something very important to do so that I don't stay here with you and watch the movie you want to see?"
Tang Xiao was stopped by this question.
For so long, he has been taking care of her wholeheartedly, pushing off almost everything and staying by her side every day.
She was so used to seeing him all the time except sleeping, so she forgot that he was supposed to have a life of his own.
He's right, it's that she's too self-righteous.
It's that she thinks of herself as too important, and there are many, many more important things for him. She shouldn't have made spending time with herself the most important thing in his life.
For a moment, she realized how stupid and ridiculous she was.
In this world, how can anyone take it for granted that the other party is their vassal, and everything should revolve around them?
What's more, he is not an ordinary person, he is Cheng Lie.
"I'm sorry, I see. She lowered her head, a bitter smile on her lips, "It's me who is not good, and it always takes up your time." You don't have to accompany me...... I'll just watch it myself. ”
Looking at her like this, Cheng Lie almost relented again.
In fact, he can put everything off for her, he can give her all his time, even if she is willing to watch boring movies one after another, he is willing to accompany her to the end.
However, thinking of the secret between her and Pei Yuansheng, and thinking of what she hid from herself-
He felt like he was being fooled. He felt that all his efforts had become ridiculous.
He looked away, so that he didn't look at her lost appearance, and hardened his heart and said, "What you want to see, I'll help you get it, and then you can see it yourself, or I'll ask Nurse Xiao Li to come and accompany you." ”
"No, I don't. She said in a muffled voice, "Don't bother Nurse Li, after all, everyone has their own things to do, and Nurse Li is also very hard." You don't have to help me play a movie, I just read a book by myself for a while. ”
“…… What book?" Cheng Lie was a little irritable in his heart.
"Any book is fine. Her head hung lower.
The thought of being alone in this bedroom, with those cold medical instruments, made her feel uncomfortable.
She wants to go out in the sun, or maybe she has someone to talk to her.
It's just that she thought of what Cheng Lie said just now and felt that he was right.
Everyone has their own things to do, and those things are much better than spending time in a room with a sick person.
Whether it is Cheng Lie, Nurse Xiao Li, or others, they have done too much for her as a patient. She couldn't rely on anyone else.
She should make herself independent, hasn't she always been independent before she met Cheng Yeol?
Why, now because of a small illness, has become so dependent on others?
She really shouldn't have ruined other people's lives just because she was not in good health.
She can't be too selfish.
"What kind of book?" Cheng Lie's voice sounded in his ears, "Are you so casual?"
His voice was slightly higher than usual.
Tang Xiao blinked, raised her head and looked at Cheng Lie, her eyes were very innocent, as if she didn't understand what she said that she shouldn't have said, which made Cheng Lie unhappy.
"Hmm...... You can read any book, and you read those books anyway, don't you?" she said.
The books on the bookshelf were sent by Cheng Lie after she got sick, basically they were what he liked to read, and he also consulted her at that time, she only mentioned a small number of medical-related books, but those books had basically been read by her during this time.
What she meant was that maybe he could recommend a book that he liked to read.
But in Cheng Lie's opinion, she seemed to be angry.
Because he couldn't obey her as before, and put down everything to concentrate on accompanying her, she deliberately said these words to anger him and make him feel sorry for her, right?
Did he really spoil her?
Why must she be so willful, that everything must be based on her own feelings, and that she would not think about his feelings a little?
"Okay, if you're sure you can book anything, then be prepared for a boring afternoon. He said coldly, walked over to the bookshelf, picked up a book, and threw it on the bed.
Tang Xiao picked it up and took a look, and found that the cover was a text she couldn't read at all, Italian, German, Spanish?
Not everyone is as proficient in multiple Chinese languages as he is, and he can read any foreign book with relish.
Tang Xiao looked at the tome in his hand that seemed to be full of alien words, flattened his mouth and said, "You deliberately fixed me, right?" I know that I can't read ......."
"Didn't you say it yourself, any book you wanted?" he said lightly, "I thought you could read any book with confidence." ”
She sensitively sensed the hint of mockery in his tone, and looked at him in surprise, "You know that I don't know anything other than English. ”
He didn't bother to argue with her: "So, why do you say 'whatever'? next time, please give specific requirements, otherwise you think that everyone else is a roundworm in your stomach?"
Tang Xiao knew that Cheng Lie was right, but he would never say this usually, no matter how wrong she was, he would only tolerate her with infinite patience, instead of pointing it out bluntly like this.
She really couldn't understand why Cheng Lie suddenly seemed to be a different person, or that the distance between them suddenly became distant, even though he was standing in front of her, she felt like a galaxy in between.
Her eyes were a little red, perhaps because she had been loved, cared for, and cared for a long time, and she had lost her sense of independence and became fragile and sensitive.
She felt that she was hated by Cheng Yeol, and the question was, did she really do anything that made him hate?
She desperately remembered that if she had done something wrong, it was nothing more than obvious unhappiness that he had not stayed with her.
But she didn't force him to stay and take care of her, did she?
Looking at Tang Xiao's aggrieved appearance, Cheng Lie felt irritable for a while, and he felt that he had no way to stay in this room anymore.
Otherwise, I'm afraid he will relent.
In the past, he was reluctant to say even a heavy word to her, and he was reluctant to make her feel a little unhappy.
Now, he personally made her red-eyed.
This gave him a sense of guilt that he was bullying the weak.
And he has always regarded himself as her strongest backing.
He was reluctant to let others hurt her, but he came to hurt her, which made him feel very annoyed and irritable.
It's just that what has been said is hard to recover.
There's no way he's going to turn back the clock for a few minutes and leave nothing happening.
He tried his best to apologize to her and reach out to take her into his arms to coax her, desperately remembering her hatefulness in his mind, and then hardened his heart again, returned to the bookshelf, and picked out a rather interesting travelogue and put it in front of her.
"Look at this one. He whispered.
Tang Xiao looked down at the book, and remembered in his mind the words that Cheng Lie said to her when he was sitting on the sofa chair reading this book a few days ago.
She remembered very well that while he was reading to her those wonderful sentences in the book, he said to her: "This place is really interesting, smile, get well quickly, and I will take you there when the time comes." We lived here for ten days and half a month, and our phones were turned off, and no one cared about them, and there were only two of us left in the world, what do you think?"
"Okay. She knew that he had always done what he said, so she had no doubt that he would take her to that place in the future, although she didn't know exactly where that place was in the world, but she had absolute confidence in her man, and as long as she followed him, everything would be fine.
However, after only a few days, he suddenly became so cold that she was puzzled.
Would he still be willing to take her to those places?
Will he leave here today and never come to see her again?
She felt an inexplicable fear.
So she clutched the book tightly, raised her head and asked Cheng Lie, "Lie, will you still take me to the places mentioned in this book?"
"......" Cheng Lie did not answer.
He didn't know what to say.
Of course he is willing to take her wherever she wants to go, even if it is the moon, as long as she wants to go, he will help her achieve it, provided that she really loves him.
Does she really love him?
Is there really no one else in her heart?
After receiving a call from Uncle Yan and hearing Uncle Yan ask him to convey her words, he became uncertain about the answers to these questions.
He didn't even know if he should immediately relay to her what Uncle Yan said.