Xiao Yang sat up suddenly, he looked at Qi Zhixuan, looking at him so seriously and directly for the first time.

Because he felt that Qi Zhixuan might have something to say, in fact, as long as Qi Zhixuan was willing to tell him, no matter what it was, he was willing to listen, he actually wanted to know more about Qi Zhixuan.

He felt that he sometimes seemed to know Qi Zhixuan quite well, but that was just an illusion, in fact, he didn't know the real Qi Zhiyi at all, and the more he came into contact with it, the less he understood.

"Xiao Yang, in fact, I'm not as happy as you think", Qi Zhixuan raised his eyes to look at Xiao Yang, just a glance, and then quickly looked away, he didn't need Xiao Yang's approval or sympathy, he just suddenly wanted to say something.

Isn't it his happiness that Xiao Yang is jealous of and resentful? Isn't it that Xiao Yang feels that he Qi Zhixuan has the kind of family affection that Xiao Yang can't have? But Qi Zhixuan may not really be as Xiao Yang thinks, everyone's life will not be perfect.

Xiao Yang rarely didn't interrupt his words, nor did he look at him with the kind of aggressive eyes that made it difficult for Qi Zhixuan to continue to speak, Xiao Yang just looked at him quietly, listening to him, and there was even a trace of tenderness in his eyes.

"I don't have a good relationship with my mother, she has always been strange and indifferent to me for as long as I can remember, I know that her character is like this, I try to understand her, but I can still often feel that in fact she seems to be tired of me."

Qi Yu rarely showed the kind of love that a normal mother has for her children to Qi Zhixuan, and he has always been indifferent to Qi Zhixuan.

Xiao Yang didn't expect Qi Zhixuan to tell him this, he never knew this, in Xiao Yang's heart, Qi Zhixuan should be an existence that is favored by his parents, and his mother should treat him as a treasure, because at that time Xiao Yang thought that Qi Zhixuan was Xiao Zhang's son, then Qi Zhixuan's existence must be favored, how much his father spoiled him He himself knows, of course his mother should also spoil him, and his existence should make Xiao Zhang more able to love them for a long time and be responsible for them.

"But it's not that miserable, because there is a person who gives me a sense of home, even though he is not related to me."

Qi Zhixuan naturally glanced at Xiao Yang when he said this, and the person he was talking about was naturally Xiao Yang's father, Xiao Zhang.

Many times when only Xiao Zhang is present, Qi Yu and Qi Zhixuan will feel relaxed, it seems that Xiao Zhang is the link between the two of them, Qi Zhixuan's luckiest childhood is to have a father like Xiao Zhang.

"I didn't have much intimacy with my mother, and even when I was in college, I lived on campus, obviously in the same city, but when I lived on campus, she actually felt relieved", Qi Zhixuan chuckled helplessly.

Qi Zhixuan didn't know his mother, he didn't know anything at all, there seemed to be nothing else between them except blood relationship, and the only warmth in childhood was given by Xiao Zhang, and it was given by the father of the person in front of him.

"Xiao Yang, your father is very good to me, I know you hate him for being good to me, but he is really good to me, he is willing to do anything for me, in his heart I am his son, and I am also willing to do anything for him, but there is no chance, but you are his only son", Qi Zhixuan's heart suddenly sank when he said this.

It felt as if it was getting more and more wrong, Xiao Yang suddenly had an inexplicable panic in his heart, I am his only son, so what? You can do anything for me?

"Xiao Yang, I ......"

"Enough, I don't want to hear you say this," Suddenly, Xiao Yang slammed a fist on the pillow with some anger, Qi Zhixuan is like this, no matter when he is unwilling to say a few words that Xiao Yang wants to hear, is it so difficult to say a few nice words?

But what exactly did Xiao Yang want to hear? Xiao Yang himself may not be clear, and Qi Zhixuan was even more puzzled by Xiao Yang's inexplicable temper at the moment, but since Xiao Yang didn't want to listen, he still kept his mouth shut.

Regarding Xiao Yang's temper, Qi Zhixuan originally felt that he had learned to endure it well, but at this moment he still felt inexplicable grievances and sadness, he had never said these words to anyone, and he suddenly wanted to tell Xiao Yang today.

It also takes courage to tell Xiao Yang this, he finally tried his best to push a door open to Xiao Yang, but this door was slammed shut by Xiao Yang's words, and he may not have the courage to say it in the future, and he may not want to say it again.

Fortunately, there may not be any need for such an exchange between him and Xiao Yang, such an exchange is too intimate.

Suddenly found that fortunately Xiao Yang interrupted him, otherwise he wouldn't know how many jokes he was going to make? What did he think he had to do with Xiao Yang? Xiao Yang didn't care or interest in knowing about his.

He even wondered if there was a little bit of his own weight in Xiao Yang's heart?

Suddenly, there was silence for a while, and neither of them spoke anymore, and some emotions they were not very good at expressing.

Obviously, I want to get close, but in the end, it always backfires, and I always don't know how to express my inner emotions.

Xiao Yang didn't know when he had such a change in his psychology, didn't he just want Qi Zhixuan to stay by his side and do anything for him without resisting? And now, shouldn't Qi Zhixuan's willingness make him happy?

But why did he feel unhappy? His heart felt a little heavy.

This is not what he wants, he is neither happy nor happy, but feels a trace of pain, he never knows what the pain tastes like, maybe it is like this at this moment, he looked at Qi Zhixuan pursing his lips and frowning and felt inexplicably uncomfortable.

Did Qi Zhixuan give him a feeling of charity? Qi Zhixuan made him deeply feel his humility and shamelessness.

But does he care? When did Xiao Yang start to care about this? Didn't he never care what others thought of him?

The night didn't seem to be easy for either of them, but no one compromised to speak first.

It wasn't the first time they slept in the same bed, but it was the first time Xiao Yang really didn't touch him at all.

Although they didn't make the last step, whenever they slept in the same bed, Xiao Yang would always put his arms around him and fall asleep.

He was used to Xiao Yang's appearance in bed and out of bed, and Xiao Yang's good mood was a rare moment of warmth for him.

Xiao Yang closed his eyes tightly and never opened them again, Qi Zhixuan quietly looked at this face that made him painful but loved so much that he couldn't extricate himself, Xiao Yang's eyebrows were slightly wrinkled, you can imagine Xiao Yang's mood at the moment.

Maybe it's also a habit, my own psychology is terrible, but I always have to care about the feelings of others first.

But this other person just makes him worry about his stomach and makes it difficult for him to let go, why should he fall in love with such a person?

Qi Zhixuan couldn't even tell where Xiao Yang was good, but once his heart beat for a person, then all the good and bad rights and wrongs would lose their meaning, and everywhere his eyes went, every corner of his heart, there was only this person.

Qi Zhixuan stretched out his hand slightly, and gently touched Xiao Yang's eyebrows, he loved this person so much that he couldn't help himself.

The moment Qi Zhixuan's fingers touched Xiao Yang, Xiao Yang's heart couldn't help but tremble, and the depressed feeling was so blocked that he was about to suffocate, for a moment, he thought forget it, it didn't matter why he stayed by his side, as long as he wasn't.

Even Xiao Yang himself felt that he would compromise, but after he suddenly opened his eyes, he blurted out, "Don't touch me", he slapped Qi Zhixuan's hand away, he never could do it, he cared why Qi Zhixuan stayed by his side.

It is impossible for him to be indifferent to squander Qi Zhixuan's pity or gratitude to him, he never needs such feelings, he is Xiao Yang and has no shortage of love, but he just let Qi Zhixuan stay by his side like this, which makes him feel extremely aggrieved, the person who stayed, Qi Zhixuan himself didn't say anything, but he himself felt aggrieved.

The more he cared, the more he couldn't help thinking too much, and he even felt that Qi Zhixuan's touch just now was pity.

There is a real impasse between them, many times it is like this, it seems that they can get one step closer, but one is not careful, everything is pushed so far, obviously they don't want to do this, but they can't control it.

In the next few days, Xiao Yang was very cold to Qi Zhixuan, and even deliberately avoided him.

I don't know who Xiao Yang is punishing like this, as if his own mood can't be clear, but he feels confused.

He was so confused that he didn't know what to do, so he chose to do nothing, he stayed away from Qi Zhixuan and at the same time away from the mercy that Qi Zhixuan, whom he hated the most.

He even remembered that when he had fallen asleep with Qi Zhixuan in his arms, Qi Zhixuan felt a little stiff, he felt shameless, and he felt as if he was being disliked, what was he thinking?

Emotionally, Xiao Yang doesn't feel like a gentleman, he can be happy and comfortable, why should he care if others are sincere to him, he never cared about it for so many years before, if he cared about this, how could he have played outside for so many years.

But because of this, he was even more at a loss for what he was feeling now, and he didn't know what it meant.

Qi Zhixuan himself is quite self-aware, and he always tacitly agrees not to appear in front of Xiao Yang as little as possible.

The two of them went back to the beginning, Qi Zhixuan went back to Xiao's house to live, but Xiao Yang didn't go back much, he didn't like to go back to live in the first place, and now it feels meaningless, Xiao Yang's heart is terrifyingly empty, and there is always such an emotion that can't be vented.

He felt that he was going crazy like this, and he went to the fox friends meeting a few times, and he felt quite ridiculous, because he actually remembered what You Yi said, can you settle down? Xiao Yang felt that he probably couldn't settle down.