Chapter 50
Xiao Yang shook his head and chuckled, not knowing whether he was laughing at himself or Qi Zhixuan.
But I have to admit that Qi Zhixuan's words are very useful to him, anyway, his heart softened at the moment.
He rubbed Qi Zhixuan's hair helplessly, and then gently pressed Qi Zhixuan's head on his chest.
Xiao Yang didn't know where he felt it, anyway, he couldn't help but want to press him in his arms when he looked at Qi Zhixuan like that.
Maybe it's from instinct, Qi Zhixuan is an important person to him, and he has already admitted this to himself.
Xiao Yang's feeling at that moment just now was a little crying and laughing, how painful it was when he pressed Qi Zhixuan on the bed that day, Qi Zhixuan didn't say a word, but now Qi Zhixuan told him that he was afraid, is this coquettish?
Qi Zhixuan's head left Xiao Yang's chest, and then he looked up at Xiao Yang, in fact, he was also entangled in his heart.
The feeling just now couldn't help but not only want to please Xiao Yang, but even he wanted it himself, just like Xiao Yang wanted to get him, his feelings for Xiao Yang were just as strong.
Xiao Yang smiled and pinched the face that made him both painful and happy, "Baby, let me take a bath first." ”
Xiao Yang is probably going to take a cold shower, so that he can calm down.
His heartbeat has not subsided until now, this kind of hard braking is not only here in Qi Zhixuan, he really has never experienced how many people have crowded into his bed before, and how many people have begged him to get on.
Did Feng Shui take turns? He actually lost to Qi Zhixuan, Qi Zhixuan is really annoying, he has to try a new life.
When Xiao Yang turned around to take a bath, Qi Zhixuan still grabbed Xiao Yang's hand tightly, and he grasped it very tightly.
Xiao Yang hooked the corner of his mouth and touched his lips, "What's the matter?"
Qi Zhixuan shook his head a little disappointed, his feeling at this moment was also indescribable, he felt that he had messed up the originally beautiful night.
Xiao Yang lightly pressed against his forehead, "It's okay." ”
After receiving such a considerate and gentle understanding from Xiao Yang, Qi Zhixuan let go of Xiao Yang's hand with confidence.
Looking at Xiao Yang's back and entering the bathroom, Qi Zhixuan felt that this Xiao Yang was perfect now, and he liked this Xiao Yang too much.
Maybe this is the reward God gave him, made him hurt once, and then gave him such a Xiao Yang in order to compensate him.
But how long can this kind of Xiao Yang last? Can such a Xiao Yang really belong to himself?
In the past, Xiao Yang made him feel heartbroken and tired, but now this Xiao Yang makes people feel at ease.
He likes this feeling, but he doesn't dare to really put his heart in Xiao Yang's hands, he is afraid that one day Xiao Yang will suddenly get bored, suddenly remember his previous life again, and suddenly be a jerk again, at that time his heart doesn't know how to be crushed, and it makes him scared to think about it.
When Xiao Yang came out of the bathroom, Qi Zhixuan was standing on the balcony pondering, looking a little confused and worried.
Xiao Yang walked over lightly, hugged him from behind, and didn't say anything and looked into the distance with him.
Xiao Yang's chest is really strong, such a person should be able to give people a sense of security, but I don't know how long this security belonging to Qi Zhixuan can last, no matter what will happen tomorrow, he and Xiao Yang are together at this moment.
When he went to work the next day, Qi Fei came again, unexpectedly persistent.
Maybe everyone has an attachment in their hearts, and the person in Qi Fei's heart seems to be more out of reach than Xiao Yang's.
Qi Zhixuan saw Qi Fei coming out of Xiao Yang's office, his mood was not high, and the two of them should not have negotiated.
Qi Zhixuan wanted Xiao Yang to help Qi Fei, but he didn't seem to have such a right, and he didn't even have a position.
Xiao Yang's attitude was also expected by Qi Fei, Xiao Yang had never been so easy to speak, and he was not surprised that he would fail at all.
On the way back, memories swept uncontrollably, too many memories that should have been dusty jumped out of his mind without warning, there were so many memories, Qi Fei felt that he had probably experienced the things of other people's lives in the past thirty years.
Qi Fei's childhood was unfortunate, because he had a father like that, he was too drunk and gambling, and he always did something to his mother, so his childhood was depressed and unhappy, and he was not truly free until his father left.
But any freedom comes at a price, and happy people are similar, while unhappy people have different pains.
What did his father leave for, and Qi Fei had never been willing to think too much about it.
Maybe he also has the same violent genes as his father hidden in his blood, otherwise how could he finally bear to do it.
The bloody scene of that day stayed in his mind, always waking up from his dream when he thought he was about to forget, and then reminding him of what had happened over and over again.
And he remembered what his father said when he glared at him viciously, and he said, "You are more violent than I am after all."
Now that I think about it, his father's words were right, he was more violent than him, otherwise how could he have done it.
But he didn't regret it at all, he didn't regret that he shot more frantically than his father that year.
He was only thirteen years old that year, and he scrapped one of his father's legs, and he told him to get out of their mother-son world.
What does this mean for a thirteen-year-old? Maybe a lot of my peers don't understand that.
Since then, the man has really disappeared, and this disappearance has disappeared to the present, and he has been free until now.
But along with freedom, there is the difficulty of real life, his mother's health is not good, he has to support the life of a family on his childlike shoulders, and now I think about it and feel that I was too strong at that time.
At least compared to today's thirteen-year-old child, he is really much stronger, life is forced, who doesn't want to be a flower in a greenhouse.
He dropped out of school at the age of fifteen, became the sharpest knife on the road at the age of seventeen, went to prison at the age of twenty, and was released at the age of twenty-three.
Later, he came to this city, but unfortunately his mother died during the three years he was imprisoned, and he did not have time to fulfill his filial piety.
This may be the biggest regret in his life, but people always have to look forward and move forward.
Compared to his mother's life, he felt that he was actually not so miserable, at least he was still alive, and only being alive was real.
When a person dies, there is no more, and he has not had time to let his mother live a good life with him.
His mother is pitiful, she has spent her whole life in fear, she was afraid of his father, and then she has been worried about Qi Fei, so Qi Fei sometimes feels that maybe this is also a relief for his mother.
But he himself regretted it after all, and he could never make up for it.
He could only make himself better, stronger, or at least not let his mother worry about him in heaven.
Life before the age of twenty-three was heavy for him, and there were many profound moments in it, but it was not happy after all.
Everything is more like living for the sake of living, just for the sake of living, and there is not much yearning and hope in my heart.
The only happiest time in his life was when he came here and met that person after he was released from prison.
That person is simple and kind, and he fell in love with him at first sight, what a happy thing this is, but it's a pity that he is flying Qi and has never been a simple person.
His past and experience doomed him to not be able to simply have such a person, that person was like the bright moon in the dark.
It was he who made Qi Fei understand the taste of love, but unfortunately they couldn't go to the end after all, because what happened was never irreparable, and the most feared and unforgivable thing in love was conspiracy.
Qi Fei unconsciously drove the car not far from the Li family, and he couldn't remember how many times he had watched silently like this.
How many times did he wait in this place for half a day, just to take a look at Li Mingchen when he came out of the company.
On the road of waiting for Li Mingchen, Qi Fei has always been patient enough.
He played music softly in the car, which could temporarily calm Qi Fei's heart.
In fact, a person like Qi Fei is rough and cruel, and his own culture is not high, how can he know how to appreciate music.
Music is such a thing as a distant thing for him, a person who struggles for life, and he will not enjoy such a high class.
All the music he is listening to now is what that person likes, and Li Mingchen likes music.
He has a pair of slender fingers, he was born to play the piano, and his original dream was to become a musician.
Li Mingchen, who came from a superior background, never knew what poverty was, and he never even liked to be involved in business, so such a young master was born relatively simple, and compared with Qi Fei, he was too simple.
He was so simple that he fell in love with Qi Fei at first sight just because Qi Fei saved him, he was so simple that he thought that there were only two options in this world, the bad guy and Qi Fei, he never thought that maybe Qi Fei was also a bad guy?
Qi Fei couldn't help but raise the corners of his mouth when he listened to the music, because he suddenly remembered Li Mingchen at that time.
After he rescued Li Mingchen, Young Master Li actually found his place of work with a box of money, pointed at Qi Fei in front of everyone and said: I want him.
At that time, Li Mingchen was really simple and stupid and cute, but now, he lives with shackles, he hides himself, he doesn't trust people easily, he doesn't love people easily, he only wants to make himself stronger.
Suddenly, Qi Fei turned off the music, because the person suddenly appeared, and he walked out of the door of the company with a person who seemed to be discussing something.
He could still recognize Li Mingchen's figure at a glance, and he also knew that the one next to him was his cousin Li Mingyang.