Under Han Yu's intently gaze, the video began to play, first a shaky picture, and then a face he was very familiar with appeared in front of the camera...... That's himself.

Through the confirmation of his eyes, he was very sure that it was him, it was him Han Yu!

“OK…… Uh, the first day of the program. While I'm not a big fan of doing this kind of thing, I'd rather make a rough note just in case. ”

In the video, Han Yu is wearing a casual home outfit, and sits cross-legged while adjusting the camera.

To be honest, Han Woo couldn't see much of Richard in him, but by comparing his memories with the background in the video, he could be sure that the video was recorded a few months before he returned to South Korea.

He also noticed the word he used in the video, "Plan?" What is it?

"The preparations before going home are basically in the final stages, but I can't go back in the way I am now, I can't ......"

Han Yu in the video shook his head inexplicably at the camera, he raised his hand and scratched the corner of his forehead, and then said:

"Over the past few years, I've tried to see several well-known psychologists, but they have all disappointed me with my diagnosis. They all thought I was fine, and it seemed that my subconscious avoidance had affected the correct judgment of others. ”

"I used to try to study psychology in the hope of being able to learn to enlighten myself when I was under too much pressure, but now it seems like the right and wrong decision. ”

"I can't open up to others, and I've always been able to reasonably avoid the doctors' problems, so I now find that no one but myself can perceive my real problems......"

Having said this, Han Yu in the video looked up at the camera again, his eyes were surprisingly complicated, he stretched out his hand to pick up the shooting equipment, put it in front of him, and whispered in his mouth:

"It's hard for people who have thrown themselves into darkness to be completely clean when they break free, and I'm only now understanding that. ”

"Although there is a clear difference between me and the past, the past me still has a great influence on who I am today. ”

"I found that the darkness of my past life was still haunting me and had been accumulating over the years. They pop out of my mind from time to time, especially as my return date draws nearer, and when I think of Yuna and my family, I become more and more unsure if I should go back to them......"

"Because their world is light, and I have come back in darkness. ”

"I know that my mind can clearly realize that if this continues, even if I can go home without any problems, as long as those dark memories are still in my mind, sooner or later they will get out of control, and they will turn into real psychological problems and make me a madman. ”

"To be honest, I feel like I'm faintly having a split personality right now. ”

"Unfortunately, the doctors couldn't find out what was wrong with me, and I couldn't tell them my secrets. ”

"Knowing what is right but not being able to do it is also a confirmation of my worries. ”

"There is no doubt that I went home to give my family back the me they needed, not to me who has so many secrets, is suspicious of everyone, and can even casually despise life and law. ”

"I'm too dangerous to be around them. ”

"Crazy people are crazy because they are crazy and don't know it. ”

"I can't guarantee that my control will allow me to act well in front of them for the rest of my life, so ...... I felt like I had to do something about it. ”

"This is the record of the first day, I decided to visit a famous psychiatrist again in a secret capacity, I no longer need him to diagnose me, I just need to get treatment from him. ”

"Hopefully, this will work. ”

After the last sentence was finished, Han Yu in the video pursed his lips to look at the camera and turned off the shooting equipment with his hand.

Han Yu sat on the sofa, thinking about every sentence in the video just now.

Now that his memory is almost complete, he can fully understand what he means by the words he utters in the video.

Whether it is Han Yu in the past or Han Yu now, he is a person who attaches great importance to his family.

In his life, his family is everything to him, and because he has lost it, he cherishes it more.

However, what surprised Han Yu was that he didn't expect that he had realized the problem of his psychological state before returning to China and tried to treat it.

At the moment, these video files should be the records of his treatment process, but judging from his current situation, it seems that his treatment at that time still failed in the end?

Han Yu thoughtfully clicked on the next video and continued to watch it.

The camera pans, and his own face reappears in the frame.

"As of today, it has been exactly one month since the program began. I found that the results of the treatment with the doctor were not satisfactory, or not effective. The reason is that my psychological defense is too strong, and because there are so many problems left in my heart that it is difficult to solve them uniformly, and if this continues, I am afraid it will be difficult to see the effect. I think I should probably do it the other way......"

Watching the entire video quietly, as expected, the treatment had little effect.

Next, Han Yu opened the video files one by one in order, and he found that these video files were indeed the footage he had recorded in the months before he returned to China.

In these videos, he learns that he has made various attempts to adjust his mental state before returning to South Korea, some for a longer period of time, such as a month, and some for a shorter period of days.

In short, these attempts ended in failure.

Looking at it all the way, even Han Yu, who is now sitting in this house, couldn't help frowning.

He seemed to have foreseen the end of the day, but was that really the case? So why couldn't he remember those months?

Finally, when he clicked on the penultimate video, at the end, Han Woo heard something that lifted his spirits.

“…… I suddenly had a whimsical idea, but if it came to fruition, I thought it might solve my problem once and for all. I'll go back and think about it. ”

Whimsical vision?

Han Yu immediately clicked on the penultimate video, and as soon as the video played, he saw himself in the video staring at the camera with an indescribable look, and waited for a few seconds before slowly speaking:

"I've devised a new treatment plan, and since my psychological problems are difficult to solve together, can I solve the problems that exist in my past one by one by dividing my memories?"

For a moment, Han Yu, who was sitting in front of the video, couldn't help but squint his eyes, a little stunned.

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