Listening to her babble so much, he closed his eyes forbearingly, and it took a long time for him to regain a little strength from the pain to talk to her.

"Xiaoru, do you think you really love me?"

"Of course I love you, I love you so much, I can't live without you, I can't leave your ...... in my life."

She burst into tears and choked up, "So, don't leave me, love me, love me forever......"

"Xiaoru, if you love someone, you don't keep asking for each other, and you don't keep asking for each other. ”

He leaned back on the sofa with his eyes closed, and said lightly: "You said so much, all of them are asking me for love, have you ever thought about what kind of love I want?"

“……”

Ji Xiaoru was stunned.

He was so tired that he wanted to be alone, but he knew she wouldn't leave.

Sure enough, she quickly rushed over and hugged him again, and said: "Whatever you want, I can satisfy you, you tell me, what do you need me to do for you?" Lu Zi, I can do anything for you, as long as you don't leave me, as long as you don't change your heart, you will love me forever and forever." ”

“……”

Hearing these words, he thought, she really would never understand.

Perhaps, everyone has their own obsessions, and her obsession is that the person she loves will never leave.

Even if the other party is dead, she does not accept this fact and stubbornly asks the other party not to leave.

Therefore, he could only pretend to be Lu Chenxi to meet her ridiculous and pitiful request.

He smiled bitterly, reached out and touched her back, and what he wanted to say could no longer be said.

And she was happy with it, because he was still willing to hold her and comfort her, which at least showed that he would not leave her now.

Ji Xiaoru, who had been tossing for a day, fell asleep in his arms like this.

And the maid, Yi Xiaoxiao, has been standing on the side in a daze, watching all this.

Pei Yuansheng used his last strength to carry the sleeping Ji Xiaoru back to the bedroom and put her on the bed, and helped her take off her shoes and cover the quilt.

After doing all this, he was tired and painful, and had to sit on the edge of the bed to relax.

After a while, seeing that Ji Xiaoru showed no signs of waking up, he finally relaxed and walked towards the study.

It was only in the study that he was able to attain tranquility.

The maid, Yi Xiaoxiao, quietly cleaned up the mess at the dining table.

She glanced back at him at the sound of his footsteps, and he smiled apologetically at her.

Yi Xiaoxiao's eyes showed sympathy.

He knew what she was sympathizing with, but he didn't want to give any more explanations or expressions, so he walked straight into the study and closed the door.

In the middle of the night, he stood by the window and lit a cigarette.

His body has never been allowed to smoke or drink.

But in extreme exhaustion, he decided to give himself a brief relaxation.

remembered that when he was young, he often smoked with Liezi Lu Zi A Meng.

At that time, the four of them were still high-spirited teenagers.

Can you imagine that so many changes will happen when you grow up?

No one could have imagined that Lu Zi would become the earliest of the four.

Once upon a time, he always thought that he would be the first to leave.

It's unpredictable.

He sighed and exhaled a pale blue smoke ring.

At this moment, without warning, a sharp pain crossed the heart—

It was as if someone had stabbed him in the heart.

His eyes went black, and his whole body was hit by pain, and he fell to the side uncontrollably.

"Bang-"

This time, he hit the desk behind him, his ribs almost broken.

The intense pain that struck him again made his knees go limp, and he fell to his knees.

"Ah......h

A shallow moan escaped from her pale lips.

Even though he was in a study with very good sound insulation, he still didn't dare to relax, and he tried his best to restrain himself.

"Mr. Lu?"

Yi Xiaoxiao's voice came from outside the door.

Pei Yuansheng frowned, thinking, what is she doing at this time?

He wanted to drive her away and tell her not to bother him, but when he moved his lips, he couldn't make a sound in pain.

There was a blackness in front of him.

His fingers pressed tightly against his chest, the green tendons on the back of his hand burst out, and his forehead was covered with fine cold sweat.

The more painful it is, the more time is infinitely extended.

Time magnifies and lengthens the painful feeling, and every second is so difficult.

He was used to patience.

Isn't this how you grew up?

It is strange that in this world, joy can be shared with many people, but pain can only be borne silently by one person.

Then it dawned on him that it seemed as if there was nothing left for him but pain.

He has no bonds with anyone, he is born alone, and he has never left him for a second.

Pain was his old friend.

When he felt numb to life, it came to him and convinced him that he was still alive.

In the darkness, he trembled with intense pain, cold sweat dripping from his forehead to the corners of his mouth, and he pursed his lips and laughed in the pain that made people feel so kind.

Suddenly, the door was pushed open.

Light from the living room came through, breaking the darkness inside.

Immediately after the sound of footsteps sounded, Pei Yuansheng didn't even have time to react, the man had already come to him.

Then, there was a voice of great surprise and nervousness: "Mr. Lu... Are you okay?"

"It's fine. ”

Pei Yuansheng moved his lips, but he couldn't make a sound.

She frantically reached out to try to help him, but he raised his arms as best he could to block her movements.

"Don't touch me. ”

This time, he finally made a very faint sound.

Faint, but very clear, cold.

It's still so rejecting people thousands of miles away.

She thought.

The familiar indifference and alienation are exactly the same as before.

He hasn't changed at all.

From the first time she saw him, to now, so many years have passed, and her face has changed several times, but he has never changed.

This familiar feeling gave her a sense of safety and security.

She would have been caught off guard if he had suddenly changed into a different form, but no matter how she changed, he would still be the same, which made her very happy.

"Okay, I won't touch you. ”

She stood quietly and obediently beside her, "Mr. Lu, I'll wait for you to get up by yourself." ”

He looked at her with a slight surprise.

In the hazy light, her not very beautiful face showed a quiet grace.

This kind of grace has made her appearance rise a few points.

However, at times like these, he still doesn't like to be around.

"You go out first. ”

He said lightly.

She didn't have a superfluous expression, nor did she say anything, and said obediently, "Okay, Mr. Lu." I'm right outside the door, and you can call me whenever you need it. ”

Pei Yuansheng was uncomfortable, and he really didn't want to speak, so he waved his hand at her.

She walked out lightly.

Soon, the door was gently shut.

Back in the familiar darkness.

Pei Yuansheng held on to the chair next to him and stood up with difficulty.

He struggled to move his heavy, painful body to sit down in his chair.

He recalled it carefully, and finally remembered that in the safe in the corner of the study, there was also a box of medicines that he used to take often.

After the successful heart exchange operation, he thought that he would never need this medicine again.

It was still Mu Zihao who did things safely and insisted on leaving a box of medicine for him. He was afraid that Ji Xiaoru would find out, so he hid in the safe.

The cups in the study were empty, and he swallowed a few pills dry, closing his eyes and trying to swallow them.

Half an hour later, the pain eased slightly.

He knew that Yi Xiaoxiao must still be waiting outside the door, so he said lightly: "Yi Xiaoxiao, you come in." ”

As soon as the words fell, Yi Xiaoxiao pushed the door and walked in.

"Mr. Lu, what do you command?"

"Come here. ”

Yi Xiaoxiao approached, her face calm, as if this situation had happened countless times before.

This couldn't help but surprise Pei Yuansheng.

It's strange that she has been here for a short time, but every now and then she gives him a familiar feeling.

But this face, he was sure he had never seen before.

He has never remembered people's faces, and if a person is not good-looking enough, it is difficult to remain in his memory.

Yi Xiaoxiao's face is logically not qualified for him to remember, but he is very sure that her face, which is not beautiful but full of characteristics, will not be forgotten if he has seen it.

So, where does this familiar feeling come from?

He desperately needed an answer.

"Yi Xiaoxiao, we used to ...... Have you seen it?"

He asked.

"Mr. Lu, I don't think we should have seen it. ”

She replied nonchalantly.

"Oh. ”

He nodded thoughtfully and didn't go any further.

The two were silent for a moment, and Yi Xiaoxiao suddenly asked, "Mr. Lu, are you okay?"

Pei Yuansheng looked at her and replied slowly, "I'm fine." ”

"But I just—"

"You don't see anything. ”

Pei Yuansheng said in an extremely determined tone: "Nothing happened, you never came in just now." ”

Yi Xiaoxiao opened her mouth, revealing a surprised expression.

"Do you remember?"

He asked, staring sharply at her.

She blinked and nodded slowly, "Yes...... I remembered. ”

"Well, let's get out. ”

When he had finished speaking, he stopped looking at her.

She stood there and hesitated for a few seconds, but she couldn't help but say, "Mr. Lu, you should rest early......

"Get out. ”

He was bored with her concern.

She knew his character very well, he didn't need anyone's sympathy and concern, and he only felt hypocritical from the bottom of his heart when it came to verbal greetings.

So, if a person tries to give him care, but the person does not enter his heart, then, he will never appreciate it.

He only wants the people he wants, the people he affirms and appreciates in his heart, to give him care, to take care of him.

It's a pity that he is forever chasing someone who can't be his.

Therefore, he was destined to be lonely and pitiful.

It's not that no one loves him, it's that he rejects the love of all.

Yi Xiaoxiao looked at him with a kind of pity, feeling that she knew him better than anyone in the world, and at the same time, she also knew very well that she might not be able to enter his heart for the rest of her life.

But what does it matter.

She didn't want anything else, she just needed to be able to stay by his side day and night, day and year.

Seeing him every day is the greatest reward God has given her.