930. Finally, I lost you
With Ji Xiaoru's understanding of Tang Xiao, she can roughly guess that this will be the case.
However, when did Lu Chenxi feel moved by Tang Xiao?
And the most important thing is that for Ji Xiaoru, even if Tang Xiao didn't like Lu Chenxi at all, it is an indisputable fact that Lu Chenxi likes Tang Xiao.
Otherwise, what is that picture?
Why did Lu Chenxi hide the facts in private with Tang Xiao in front of him?
Ji Xiaoru never denied that Tang Xiao was better and better than herself, and the two should have their own characteristics in terms of appearance, but in her eyes, she always thought that Tang Xiao was more elegant and beautiful.
She had always been proud to have such a friend.
Before true friends, we should appreciate each other instead of hating each other or comparing each other.
In Ji Xiaoru's mind, she and Tang Xiao are real friends, and she never thought that she would have any conflicts with her in her life.
In this world, Tang Xiao is her most trusted person.
It's just that......
The fact that the man she loves the most and who plans to spend her life with is in love with her girlfriend still hits her deeply.
Tang Xiao was so good to her that she couldn't hate Tang Xiao, let alone complain and scold her.
But this doesn't mean that she won't have a trace of mustard in her heart.
They couldn't go back to the old days, she thought.
There's no going back.
"Okay, I got it. β
She said lightly.
Tang Xiao couldn't hear any emotion from Ji Xiaoru's tone, but the more this happened, the more scared Tang Xiao felt.
She inexplicably gave birth to a panic that she was going to lose this friend-
Xiaoru has been enthusiastic and cheerful since she was a child, and has a lot of good friends, and she has been cold and does not like to be close to people since she was a child.
When she had nothing, she once asked Xiaoru if one day she was sick and couldn't do anything, would she leave her alone.
Xiaoru smiled and said, No, if you are sick, I will definitely stay by your side to take care of you, help you, and when you get better, I will take you out to travel and relax, in short, I will never abandon you, you can rest assured!
Tang Xiao still remembers Ji Xiaoru's sweet smile at her at that time.
"Xiaoru, can you tell me what happened?"
She clutched her phone tightly, and she couldn't wait to rush to Ji Xiaoru's side immediately and talk to her clearly.
"Heh......" Ji Xiaoru let out a wry smile, sighed and said: "Xiaoxiao, I think I myself am a failure, I will lose everything to you, do you know? Some people have said to me before, will there be pressure to be friends with you, after all, you are always so good, always so good, even if you get married casually, you can marry the best, Cheng Lie spoils you very much, he can help you settle any problem, you don't want to have children, he won't force you to be married for so long...... You see, you are perfect, you are lucky, God is always on your side, and compared to you, of course, I can't compare with everything. β
"But I never felt anything, and when people said that kind of thing to me, I thought they were jealous that I had such a good friend as you...... I think it's my honor to be friends with you, and it's really the most fortunate thing in my life to be able to make a gentle, elegant and perfect friend like me, who has had average grades since childhood, and who is frizzy and hot-tempered. β
"I was wrong...... I now know I was wrong. You're a man...... You are just so good, good others look at you, I stand by your side, like a green leaf lining your red flower, those people are always attracted to you...... I thought I didn't care about this, anyway, I bumped into shit luck, and Lu Chenxi likes me...... I didn't expect that even Lu Chenxi would be attracted to you, smile, who are you? Why does God favor you so much?"
"Of course I believe you don't have any ideas about Lu Chenxi, but he looks okay, as a woman, he always has vanity and wants to attract more men, right? No matter what you do or say, all in all, you have successfully made Lu Chenxi like you. You succeeded, smile, I lost in front of you, lost a mess...... The two people I am most unwilling to lose in this world are destined not to belong to me......"
Ji Xiaoru said as she spoke, tears streaming down again.
She sat in the empty room, looking at the mess, suddenly sober, suddenly confused, suddenly wanting to cry, suddenly wanting to laugh.
"Giggle...... Giggle...... Giggle......"
She finally threw her head back and laughed uncontrollably.
It's funny, it's funny.
Her boyfriend, who fell in love with her best friend-
How did this kind of old-fashioned plot happen to her?
"Hahahaha...... Laughing, why do you think I'm so unlucky? I wish I ...... I wish it was just a dream!!"
"How nice it would be if it was a dream...... Hahahaha...... God, why are you playing with me like that? Laugh, you know, I even want to...... I even hope that Lu Chenxi has never liked me, so that I will neither lose love nor friendship...... How nice that is!!"
Listening to Ji Xiaoru's desperate cry on the other end of the phone, Tang Xiao's eyes were wet unconsciously.
She covered her mouth to keep herself from crying.
She has so many things to say to Xiaoru, she can explain, she can really explain-
But where do you start?
How can she tell Xiaoru that she has neither lost love nor friendship?
What she lost was someone who loved her dearly.
But Lu Chenxi's death does not mean that she has lost her love.
Love never goes away.
As long as she Ji Xiaoru is alive, as long as she still loves Lu Chenxi, their love will never disappear.
She really wanted to tell her that everything was just a misunderstanding, and the Lu Chenxi next to her was not the real Lu Chenxi.
Yes, maybe Pei Yuansheng still likes him, maybe Xiaoru has found some clues, but this does not mean Lu Chenxi's betrayal.
Lu Chenxi has never betrayed you...... Xiaoru.
She really wanted to tell her that in her eyes, she Ji Xiaoru was the most dazzling and beautiful existence.
Being able to be her Ji Xiaoru's friend is her Tang Xiao's pride, okay?
In her most miserable and helpless girlhood, it was Xiaoru who accompanied her, like a little sun, warming her and shining on her all the time.
She always refused to be close to anyone at that time, and never dared to reveal her heart and express her true emotions, so that she always looked cold in the face of the enthusiastic Xiaoru.
While enjoying Xiaoru's kindness to her, she didn't dare to respond to her, because she was afraid that sooner or later Xiaoru would get tired of her as a friend, and leave her to be with other friends.
She fears the loss of her only friend, however, the girl who always looks at her with big beautiful eyes and a smile tells her that she wants to be her friend forever.
"I'll tell you a little secret...... I'm actually embarrassed, but I still want to tell you. β
The teenage Ji Xiaoru sat on the swing frame, tilting her head to look at Tang Xiao who was sitting next to her, her eyes flickering, and a shallow smile on her white and beautiful little face.
"What? You don't mean to confess to me. β
Tang Xiao, who was wearing a washed and slightly whitish school uniform, sat expressionlessly on the swing rack next to her and read a book, she was not smiling at that time, and compared with the lively and active Ji Xiaoru, she looked a little old-fashioned.
But it's very strange that these two people stick together every day, although it is always Ji Xiaoru who comes to find Tang Xiao, but as long as there is a place for Ji Xiaoru, there will definitely be Tang Xiao next to him.
"Hee-hee...... It's okay to say it's a confession, right? Anyway, it's pretty much ...... Hey, I want to say, I don't know why, I'm always very happy and secure with you, really...... Don't laugh at me!"
Ji Xiaoru rubbed her cheeks, which were a little hot, and secretly looked at Tang Xiao.
Who knows, at this time, Tang Xiao, who was like a little adult, put down the book, looked sideways at Ji Xiaoru and smiled.
The teenage Tang Xiao rarely smiled, and even Ji Xiaoru hadn't seen her laugh a few times in total.
Tang smiled at this, and Ji Xiaoru was stunned.
"Don't laugh at my ...... If you laugh at me again, I'll leave......"
Ji Xiaoru had the urge to run away.
"Xiaoru, actually, I'm the same. β
Ji Xiaoru would never have thought that Tang Xiao would say this to her with a smile.
"I'm the same, I'm happy and secure with you. Thank you, Xiaoru. β
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Tang Xiao's tears finally burst out of his eyes.
At this moment, what came to mind was that under the sunset that day, Ji Xiaoru, who was wearing a pink dress and a single ponytail, first looked at her blankly, and then suddenly opened her mouth and smiled stupidly, and rushed over to hug her.
"Yike...... I know it's best to laugh and laugh! Laugh, we're going to be good friends for life, by all means!!"
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She never doubted it.
Even, in her life plan, there has always been Xiaoru's existence.
When everyone is dying, they can still go out to bask in the sun with their grandchildren in their arms, and go to the supermarket to buy fresh fruits and vegetables with their eco-friendly bags...... It's all something they agreed with each other.
But now, is she going to lose her?
She didn't know how to defend herself, unless, she told her that Lu Chenxi was dead, and the person next to her was Pei Yuansheng, and Lu Chenxi had never had anything to do with her Tang Xiao.
Can she say that?
Tang Xiao closed his eyes and let the tears roll down his cheeks.
"Xiaoru, things are really not what you think, Lu Chenxi ...... He loves you, and you believe meβ"
"Toot toot...... Toot ......"
There was a busy sound on the phone.
Ji Xiaoru cut off the phone.
Tang Xiao sighed, and the hand holding the phone fell weakly.
Xiaoru ...... Forgive me for not being able to tell you the truth. Sorry ......"