790, I'm so useless
Ji Xiaoru put the medicine box away, sat opposite Tang Xiao and held her cheeks and said, "Do you think that you used to be too bad at taking care of people, so now you want to learn to take care of others more, instead of always letting others take care of me." β
"Well, you used to take good care of me. Tang Xiao hurriedly comforted Ji Xiaoru.
"No, I'm very careless. Ji Xiaoru sighed and expressed strong dissatisfaction with herself, "Men must like gentle, careful, and caring women, right? β
"Where am I as good as you say. Tang Xiao smiled bitterly, "Really don't praise me anymore, in fact, I also have a lot of bad points." β
"What's wrong with you?" Ji Xiaoru's eyes widened, "Xiaoxiao, you are a goddess in my mind, a goddess, you are perfect, beautiful, gentle, careful and capable, I don't think Cheng Lie is worthy of you!"
Hearing the word Cheng Lie, the smile on the corner of Tang Xiao's mouth froze-
finally forgot about Cheng Lie for a while, thinking that by talking to Xiaoru non-stop, he could force himself not to think about him, but as a result, he didn't have a few words, and he brought the topic to Cheng Lie again!
Is it true that if a woman is with a woman, she will definitely talk about each other's partner from time to time?
But when a man is with a man, he would rather talk about basketball and games than about women.
Ji Xiaoru in front of him was still thinking in pieces: "I'm not saying that Cheng Lie is bad for anything else, I think he has too little time to accompany you!
After Ji Xiaoru finished speaking, she realized that what she said was a bit exaggerated, stuck out her tongue and said, "Oh, anyway, if he can accompany you more, then he can be regarded as a good husband and barely worthy of you!"
Tang Xiao listened, except for a bitter smile, there was only a bitter smile.
"It seems that every woman's biggest requirement for her husband is companionship, but there are few men in the world who can do it, right? Because in the minds of men, 'responsibility' or 'career' and the like are more important than 'love', which may be the difference between the needs of men and women. β
Tang Xiao thought about it, and pinched his eyebrows as if he had a headache, "Before I met Cheng Lie, because I was split by Jian Sicheng, I was disheartened during that time, and I planned to live alone for the rest of my life, so I found Qiao Feifei, who was also forced to marry by his family, and planned to marry him by agreement." At that time, I never thought about who I wanted to fall in love with, let alone believe in the word love, I felt that all I pursued in my life was a career and a stable life - in retrospect, I think that kind of thinking is more masculine thinking. β
"But I met Cheng Lie, married Cheng Lie, and slowly fell in love with him, although it can't be said that he gave up his career completely because of him, but, more or less related to his family, sometimes I also think, how love has such a big impact on women, I used to think that career is the most important thing for me, but I really fell in love with someone to know, I can give up anything for him, whether it is career or other, it is not as important as him. β
"It's ridiculous, isn't it? Xiaoru, I'm not the Tang Xiao you knew before. Now I'm actually quite useless, not only do I have no career, but I also don't have any ability, and I also thought about becoming strong for the people I love, but there seems to be no way, and I don't know what it means to be strong. I only know that I can't even control my emotions, and he can always easily touch my heart and affect my every move - such a me, it is really useless. β
Tang Xiao said this long paragraph in one breath, and his heart was finally a little more comfortable.
She exhaled softly, smiled at Ji Xiaoru and said, "Xiaoru, I'm sorry, I used you as a trash can again." β
"Why do you say I'm sorry! I don't mind being your trash can, anyway, I don't dump any less garbage at you!" Ji Xiaoru still had a relaxed smile on her face, and she didn't seem to be affected by Tang Xiao's negative emotions at all.
Tang Xiao suddenly envied Xiaoru, Xiaoru was always full of cheerful and pleasant atmosphere, and there were few times when she was particularly depressed, except-
Tang Xiao's eyes appeared in front of Xiaoru's tear-stained face in her sleep, and she couldn't bear to think about it anymore.
Perhaps, in a person's life, he will always have to experience this or that kind of suffering, whether he is rich or poor, whether he is high or low, whether he is a man or a woman, young or old.
No one can avoid the pain, even if the person doesn't seem to be in pain at all, but behind the smile, whose wounds are less than whom?
"Xiaoxiao, I can understand you, in fact, no matter what you are now, you have always been that smart, excellent and a little proud girl in my mind! Moreover, compared to before, I think you are now more smiling, more willing to accept others, and confide in the people around you, isn't this a kind of transformation? Who said that to become strong, you must become a strong woman in your career? I don't think so!" Ji Xiaoru said to Tang Xiao with a smile.
"Then what do you think makes it to be strong?" Tang Xiao asked.
It is rare for two women to sit down and talk, and the sun is shining outside the window, the birds are murmuring, the breeze is gently floating the curtains, and the flower tea on the coffee table in front of them exudes a curling fragrance - this is a fairly clean afternoon, and this kind of afternoon is actually quite suitable for talking.
"I think that making myself more and more mature, becoming more and more determined in my heart, being able to face it calmly no matter when it happens, and not easily collapse completely because of someone or something - this is a kind of strength!" Ji Xiaoru thought about it and said.
When Tang Xiao heard Xiaoru's sentence "Don't easily collapse completely because of someone or something", the hand holding the glass shook violently.
The steaming flower tea in the cup splashed out at once, spilling a few drops on Tang Xiao's legs.
Ji Xiaoru hurriedly stood up and said, "Are you okay?"
As he spoke, he took a tissue and came over to wipe it for Tang Xiao.
Tang Xiao let Ji Xiaoru wipe the tea stains on her legs, thinking to herself that the reason why Xiaoru regarded Pei Yuansheng as Lu Chenxi was because she couldn't afford to lose Lu Chenxi, and isn't this what she called "completely collapsed because of someone or something"?
"Xiaoxiao, why are you in a daze again?"
Ji Xiaoru helped Tang Xiao wipe the tea stains on his legs, stretched out his finger and shook it in front of Tang Xiao's eyes, and said with a smile: "Soul return, soul return." β
Tang Xiao was stunned, his eyes looked at Ji Xiaoru, he wanted to laugh, but he couldn't.
Her heart was heavy, worried about Chenglie for a while, and worried about Xiaoru for a while.
People live in this world, unless they are particularly withdrawn and indifferent, otherwise, everyone will have at least a few people who can never be lost.
They can be friends and relatives or lovers.
How many people can honestly face the loss of their loved ones?
In this way, there are really few truly powerful people in this world.
Most people are weak.
"Nothing...... I was just thinking about what you just said. β
"Do you need to think about it?" Ji Xiaoru couldn't believe it, "I'm just saying it casually, you don't have to take it seriously haha, don't you know that my cultural achievements have been very average since I was a child, and now I can't even use the idiom of four words correctly, what I said, can it stand up to chewing?"
"Yes. I think what you're saying makes a lot of sense. Tang said with a smile.
"Ah, no," Ji Xiaoru scratched her head and smirked: "I didn't expect what I said casually to be so reasonable, wow, I'm really amazing!"
Ji Xiaoru's silly appearance amused Tang Xiao at once.
Xiaoru is really a pistachio, Tang Xiao thought to himself.
"Xiaoru, thank you, after your enlightenment, I feel much more comfortable. You are truly my nobleman. β
"Hahaha, don't dare to be, don't dare to be. Ji Xiaoru was played in the TV series, hugged his fists towards Tang Xiao, and said, "You are my nobleman!"
"I, won't I......" Tang smiled and said, "Why don't I know." β
"Really. You are my nobleman, why are you lying to you. Ji Xiaoru said sincerely.
Tang Xiao knew that if she asked Xiaoru why, Xiaoru would definitely be able to come up with a lot of reasons, so she simply didn't ask, and asked directly: "Okay, it seems that the two of us are each other's nobles." β
"That's it, it's hard to find a confidant! It's already great to be a confidant, so a confidant is a nobleman!" Ji Xiaoru concluded.
Tang smiled and said, "It makes sense, it makes sense." β
The two chatted for a while, and Ji Xiaoru saw that Tang Xiao's voice was still very hoarse, and she didn't dare to talk to Tang Xiao again.
"Xiaoxiao, why don't we watch TV! Don't talk, I'm afraid that the more you talk, the more hoarse your voice becomes." β
"It's okay. Tang Xiao felt that it didn't matter, and besides, he didn't need to use his brain to chat with Ji Xiaoru, and the whole person was very relaxed.
"No, no, no, I can't be the culprit of your bad colds. Ji Xiaoru said resolutely, "Come on, watch TV, if you are sleepy, go to sleep, I will go out to buy vegetables at about four o'clock, although you are recuperating at home, I will contract today's dinner!"
"Xiaoru, you are so good to me......" Tang Xiao held Ji Xiaoru's hand exaggeratedly and said with a touched face.
"It should be, it should be. Ji Xiaoru said arrogantly: "Who called us good sisters! In the future, if I have a mouthful of food, I will have a mouthful of yours, and I will never let you be hungry and bitter!"
"Okay! Your kindness, I can't forget it!"
The two held hands and looked at each other with teary eyes, and they were moved.
After a while, the two of them laughed out loud again, as if they thought that the two bosses were not too big people, and they were still acting here, which was really naΓ―ve.
But no matter how old a person is, there is still a child living in a small corner of his heart, and sometimes depending on how close the relationship between two people is, it depends on how naΓ―ve these two people can be when they are together.