I remember that in the past, I had dinner with a girl, and when I paid the bill, I beckoned to call the waiter, but she handed the money over first, I quickly stood up and asked the waiter to return the money to her, but she didn't agree, and then forced me to pay, and then she gave me the money on WeChat.

At that time, I just smiled, and I couldn't help but feel that this girl was different from others, but then I gradually got acquainted and found that she was actually a very lonely person in her world, and it was this loneliness that wrapped herself up that made her only take many things to heart.

When other girls wanted the boys to empty their pockets for them, she would even give us the money for a taxi when she was partying with us.

Such a girl looks really impregnable, she doesn't want anyone to care, she doesn't need to be comforted, even if it's late to play together, we send all the girls home and look at her and just ask, you can do it.

She said, yes.

Then we went home.

She never bothers others, unlike some girls, when the light bulb at home is broken, call a boy to help, and come back from out of town to call a boy to take over, she is the kind of person who will not trouble others as long as she can move.

Such a girl is a very special existence, easy to be ignored, easy to be forgotten, because she doesn't need others, and others don't need to come into her life.

By last year, many boys around girls changed a few waves like a horse, she was still alone, wearing jeans and ponytails walking on the road, when someone came to pick up someone on a rainy day, she could only wait for the rain to stop alone, when someone boiled brown sugar water during other people's menstrual period, she could only go to the drip alone, she could watch a movie alone, she could go to the clearing alone, or she could close the doors and windows and sit on the bed and watch horror movies alone, no one cared about her, anyway, she was so strong, she could do anything, even if the men all over the world disappeared, she could live a good life alone。

Such a girl will disappear in your world one day for half a year and no one will find out, and at the end of last year, she posted a circle of friends: Let's fall in love.

I realized that I hadn't seen her for a long, long time, and I left a message saying: Got a boyfriend?

She said, no, just hair.

I don't know what to say, some girls who are too independent are often alone in the end, she won't ask you to unscrew the mineral water bottle, she won't ask you to kiss coquettishly, she won't ask you for a gift during the holidays, and she won't stick to you for fear that you will go away.

They are independent, they don't like to take advantage, and they don't like to trouble others, these are all advantages, but it is all in one girl that makes her suffer.

When I returned to Shenzhen after the Chinese New Year, she was also there, and simply sat in the café for a few minutes, I said, do you have a boyfriend?

She shook her head.

I said, don't ask too much.

She said, I just look hard to chase, but I'm actually very good at chasing. I'm just a little bit independent, I just hate to trouble others, of course I can't learn those shy girls, I feel like I'm not wrong about these, but I'm wrong, it's wrong to be different from other girls, it's wrong to live not to be like a boy, others always think you're strong, think you don't need comfort and won't be sad, so every time I'm always ignored, because any girl looks like she needs more care than me, those girls, can't unscrew a mineral water bottle, and me, the bottle cap can be easily pried open.

She smiled bitterly as she spoke, I said, this world is so unreasonable, we are all sentient beings, so love is also worldly, boys like gentle and shy, like the kind that makes people look protective, like the kind that depends on themselves.

But you, any boy will always have frustration around you, because you don't need them at all, they can't find a place next to you.

In fact, you can try to be weak, you can take off the armor on your body, isn't the relationship between people interdependent, you, a person lives too seriously, and encloses everything in his own world, so that others can't enter you.

She didn't speak, I looked out the window, the street lights were dim, I smiled and said, you can be someone else's princess, and then be your own queen, when there are two people, be softer, and when you are alone, you can walk with the wind.

She laughed and said, "Good."

I don't know if I really know, or just casually, anyway, when I paid the bill, when I beckoned to the waitress again, she sat quietly, and when I walked out of the café, I saw her wearing high heels, which was a change she had never seen before.