"The safety of the Commander's Crossing needs to be confirmed, we don't know the deployment of the Bark Cheng's troops, and it is not a good idea to rush there, since this has been very close to their defense line, so we need a team to investigate first. ”

"I'll go, I can choose a team of people to go forward to investigate first, and if the chief is okay, then send someone to inform the little marquis!" You Rui took the lead in getting up and asking for his life, Bai Yan nodded, glanced at everyone, and said: "The brothers of the pioneer camp need time to recover, so we are the vanguard now, General You is indeed the best candidate, as for the others-"

"I'll go!"

"I'll go too!" As soon as Bai Ze's words fell, Nangong Rehe stepped forward immediately. Bai Yan glanced at him, didn't speak, and after a pause, he tilted his head towards You Rui and said, "General You has been a pioneer since he was in the hands of his father, and he knows what kind of people and horses are needed under the environment, Brother Qin Chi and Qin are quite familiar with this place, you can take him with you, and the others will ask the general to arrange it himself." ”

"Yes, my subordinates will go. You Rui turned around and left, Nangong Rehe followed a few steps in a hurry, and then turned around and came to Bai Yan: "I'm going too." ”

Bai Yan ignored him, only gestured to Bai Ze, and said: "Go and see Shaoqing's situation, let Xian Yi find out if there are any pills that suit his eyes, and then tell Sù Gongzi, the team will set off after two hours, if he is tired, take a rest first, I will arrange this side of the matter and then go to him." ”

"Hey. Bai Ze was a little depressed because he couldn't go first with You Rui, and when he turned around, Nangong Rehe's face was even bigger, knowing that there would inevitably be a quarrel between the two, so he hurriedly jumped away. Sure enough, he didn't go far before he heard Nangong Rehe's fierce questioning.

"Why doesn't the little marquis allow me to go with me, could it be that my Nangong Rehe is now a wasted person, and he can't save his father's life, and now he doesn't even have this ability, is it that he will go to the battlefield in the future, and he will have to hide behind the little marquis to seek protection!"

"As I said, until you have plucked your barbs and treated everyone calmly, not only will I not agree to be a pioneer, but I will not let you join the front line of any siege. Nangong Rehe, fighting to the death and fighting for survival are two completely different concepts, if you don't value your life at all, don't expect me to let you join this war. The gentleman's gift to you is not for you to squander like this!"

"My life is my own, you can't control what I want!!"

"Your life is Shaoqing and Bai Ze and those brothers who died in front of the city of Jishui! Nangong Rehe! When they used their lives to save you and defend you from arrows, why didn't you say such things to them! I know how difficult the pain of losing your father is for you, but if you look around you, there are so many brothers, and how many of them have not experienced this kind of pain. You are really not qualified to say such a thing, especially here......" The angry scolding condensed into a scar in the end, Bai Yan closed his eyes and turned his head away, while Nangong Rehe stood silently in place, and after a long time, he suddenly turned around and ran away.

That's right, I really don't have the right to say such things, especially in such a land that is stained red by countless bloods. However, hatred is such an indelible emotion, no matter how long it has passed, the madness that comes from the bottom of the heart cannot be erased at all!

"Nangong?" Nangong Rehe's crazy figure made Wufang stop, and after calling once without responding, he no longer walked towards Bai Yan, but followed Nangong Rehe's footsteps. The snow stopped once and then fell again, and Nangong Rehe ran headlessly, until he was out of breath and couldn't run anymore, he stopped with his hands on his knees. Flawless paused not far from him, watching him bend down and gasp and then kneel in the snow, neither stepping forward to comfort him, nor bothering him, but only looking at him quietly, not in the vast land with him.

"I want to be alone for a while...... "is like the dense snowflakes in this quiet, so small that there is no trace, you don't have to think, you don't have to suffer, you don't have to face a qiē......

"I know how you feel, because I've had the same crazy thoughts. Flawless exhaled softly and slowly stepped forward: "The moment my mother died in front of my eyes, my whole world was also dark......"

The eyebrows jumped fiercely, and tears finally fell in Nangong Rehe's closed eyes, the back of his blue fingers slowly relaxed due to the flawless and gentle words, and the rough ten fingers pressed into the snow, and the forbearant choking turned into unbridled crying.

"I understand the pain of hatred, so I know the harm it causes to those around me. Before I met Bai Yan, I always stayed alone in my own world, refusing to approach anyone, and everyone was afraid of me and feared me, because they never knew that the cold and ruthless Leng Gongzi in front of others would also have a weak side of human nature. I have lived like a puppet with no emotions and no joys and sorrows for more than ten years, and even forgot what happiness looks like for a while, surviving in the pursuit of the Great Jin Dynasty, climbing in the struggle for imperial power in the Great Zheng, and all I think about every day is how to live, such a day...... It's too painful......"

"Childe ......"

"When the gentleman was taken back to the camp, I stood aside and watched you guard him, as if I had returned to the day my mother died, and the pain could not be recalled...... Because that scene is still vivid in my mind, the pain of the skin is still vivid......"

"Don't say it, Childe, don't say it again......" Xu is same experience resonated with people, so the flawless words did not arouse any resistance from Nangong Rehe, he whimpered and knocked his forehead heavily on the snow, and then hugged his arm tightly.

Yes, compared with the son, he at least had a happy and even good time, with the company of his father, and the little marquis growing up together, which is also incomparable to many soldiers here, he should be grateful for the one he once had, but it is precisely because of this that he makes himself even more unforgettable.

"The reason why Bai Yan is controlling you everywhere now, in fact, you know very well, you just can't get over the hurdle in your heart. Nangong, no one will blame you for being strong, even if you are as cheerful as ever and live happily every day, no one will blame you, and you don't have to treat yourself like this at all!"

"But, Daddy, he's going to blame me......"

"Have you forgotten what your husband said to you before the battle? He said that if you want to live well, it is a good ......."

"Xianyi, do you see Childe?Chixiao is ready, I'll go and load the things first. Bringing Chixiao to Xianyi, the bow turned to his horse, Xianyi was bowing his head to tidy up the flawless tent, but he was frustrated by the cold fingers that kept the tent open, and was about to ask the bow to help, but suddenly someone took the tent from behind.

"What for?" she muttered, looking back, and suddenly froze. Nangong Rehe squatted behind her, silently folding the tent in his hand, and didn't stop looking back, only frowned, and said coldly with reproach: "In the future, let others do these rough jobs, and there will be no men in this camp." ”

Xian Yi couldn't come back to her senses for a while, and seeing Nangong Rehe quickly fold the tent and prepare to leave, she got up and raised her voice behind her: "There are so many men in this camp, but I just want one person to help me, are you sure he will appear after hearing it?"

Nangong Rehe's footsteps paused, he didn't look back, but his tense body gradually eased, and after a stalemate with Xianyi for a long time, he suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, turned around, and looked at this end of the dense snow curtain.

"What I said to you in Acacia Valley still counts, but after all I have been through, I don't know if I can still face you calmly, Xianyi, I need time. ”

"I'm willing to wait, no matter how long it takes, as long as you don't give up the promise you once made to me, I'm willing to wait by your side and walk with you!" R638