"...... me?...... It's okay. What about you? You must be living a happy life. Liu Chunjiang's tone sounded as if he was casually chatting with a stranger, and he seemed very calm.

"I ......"

The expression on Xue Kemei's face didn't know how to describe it, she seemed to have a thousand words to say in her heart, but she didn't know where to start and how to answer his question. At this time, in the depths of her inner harbor, it was as if a twelve-level storm had been set off in an instant, and it was difficult to calm down.

However, in the end, Xue Kemei just said lightly:

“…… Well, it's okay. It's like that every day, it's not good, it's not bad. Bland. ”

"Oh, that's good. Liu Chunjiang nodded. There was no expression on his face either.

In fact, if you want to talk about Xue Kemei's life in the past few years, as she replied just now, it is not good, but it is not bad.

In terms of material life, the salaries of Xue Kemei and Zhao Tiangang add up to more than 100 a month, they have no burden, they do not lack food or clothing, and they live a life that is not tight for one child, just like a piece of good farmland, and the annual harvest of grain fields is not small; Spiritually, however, it was a different story.

In the years that Xue Kemei has been married, she feels that she lives in a spiritual desert every day, and she is lonely and desolate in her heart, and she would rather stay in the unit 24 hours a day than go back to that home.

She and Zhao Tiangang were at home and couldn't speak ten sentences a day.

Every day at home, she was like a prisoner in captivity, living like years, year after year, day after day in the depths of her soul.

For Zhao Tiangang, she didn't even want to look at him more. Although Zhao Tiangang is not bad to her.

It wasn't until later, because of the addition of a baby daughter Juanjuan to the family, that Xue Kemei's cold heart gradually changed.

We know that the reason why Xue Kemei agreed to marry Zhao Tiangang was to be able to rescue Liu Chunjiang. For this reason, she buried her love affair and stepped into a spiritual grave.

Of course, to this day, she has never regretted this step she took.

There is only one reason, and that is because she loves Liu Chunjiang deeply. In a sense, it was Xue Kemei who rescued Liu Chunjiang from the abyss of death.

However, Liu Chunjiang didn't know the truth about what Xue Kemei did. Because Xue Kemei didn't talk to anyone else.

At that time, most people in the factory believed that even if Liu Chunjiang could not be sentenced to death, he would at least have to stay in prison until his hair turned gray before he could come out.

Therefore, people can understand that Xue Kemei later married Zhao Tiangang, and feel that this is normal and not surprised.

Because no matter what, even if Xue Kemei's love for Liu Chunjiang is dead or alive, but, after all, feelings are feelings, and reality is reality. Liu Chunjiang's life is over.

At the time, it seemed that if you married someone like Liu Chunjiang, it would be crazy.

Let's not say if he can come out, take a step back, even if he can come out, it will be far away, and who knows when he will be able to come out?

That's not all, there is another issue that is more important, that is, even if Liu Chunjiang can come out in the future, it is not such a simple matter as two people getting married.

In that era of family composition and origin, once someone in the family carried such a stain in history, it was not only a problem that affected this generation, but also continued to affect the next generation. In the future, when the child grows up, not to mention going to school, recruiting, joining the army, being promoted, joining the party, etc., these major life events will be affected, even if you find a partner, no girl will be willing to give it to you.

Of course, Liu Chunjiang did not resent Xue Kemei, he could fully understand the choice she made.

He knew that the girl he once loved in the past, or the Xue Kemei he still loved deeply, no longer belonged to him.

Their love has become a piece of history in the memory of the past like the rolling river.

Liu Chunjiang's heart was uncomfortable, as if there were thousands of knives piercing his knife.

He was deeply saddened by the misfortune of his fate. For some time after that, he couldn't eat or sleep. As long as I am free, the shadow of Xue Kemei will appear in my mind.

There was a time when he was very depressed and decadent. He drank alone all day.

Later, after some time, he saw a book lent to him by Lu Zhiqiang in the dormitory, so he remembered the chief engineer of the cement factory he met in adversity when he was in the vertical kiln workshop, and remembered some of the truths he had told him.

Since then, he has buried his precious feelings deep in his heart. At the same time, he is no longer depressed. He's going to pick himself up, he's going to rekindle hope for life.

He schedules his time tightly every day, almost except for work, and spends his time on studying every day.

Only by learning that knowledge can his wounded mind be anesthetized, can he forget the pain of the past, get rid of Xue Kemei's shadow in his mind, and get a trace of comfort.

It didn't take long for the university to resume the college entrance examination system, and Liu Chunjiang made up his mind to continue his studies in the university.

He resigned from the cement factory, studied hard for several months, and after some hard work, he was finally admitted to the master's degree in economics at Peking University.

Now, when he came to the work department of the party committee of the cement plant to report again, he didn't expect to meet Xue Kemei here again.

The pool of stagnant water in his heart, which had already calmed down, was stirred up at once.

However, he quickly restrained his feelings. He knew that she, Xue Kemei, no longer belonged to him.

Su Xiuling finished Liu Chunjiang's registration procedures, she looked up at her watch, and saw Xue Kemei and Liu Chunjiang printing documents there, so she said with a smile:

"......Oh, Xiao Liu, I'm so sorry, you helped me work as soon as you came, I really want to thank you, I'll invite you to drink one day." Today our child's kindergarten teacher called me and asked me to go a little early. I'm going to see what's going on?...... by the way, Xue Kemei, you don't have to pick up the child today, I'll just help you take the child home together." After speaking, she gently patted Xue Kemei's shoulder, squeezed her eyes towards her, and then went out with a bag.

It was quiet in the house.

Now, there are only two people left, Liu Chunjiang and Xue Kemei.

Liu Chunjiang heard what Su Xiuling said just now, his throat squirmed, and there was a sour feeling in his heart, he hesitated for a moment, and finally couldn't help asking:

"Are you ...... your children in kindergarten?is it a boy or a girl?...... how old is this year?It must be cute, right?" I don't know what was going on, Liu Chunjiang felt that his voice seemed to have a sour taste.

Xue Kemei was also a little flustered when she heard Liu Chunjiang's question, originally this stack of documents had been printed, and she should have replaced it with a new stack of paper, but she forgot about it......

"......Oh, you're asking my child?" Xue Kemei seemed to wake up in a dream, "It's a daughter, and she's about to be four years old." Well...... I can't see it, but the personality is very gentle. When talking about her daughter, it can be seen that Xue Kemei's face shows a happy look that can only be seen when a mother is a mother.

"...... almost four years old?" Liu Chunjiang muttered, then glanced at Xue Kemei, "...... time flies so fast......," Liu Chunjiang said with emotion.

"You ...... how old are your children now...... children?" Xue Kemei knew that going to graduate school was not like going to college, and he couldn't get married, and he didn't know if he was married now, so Xue Kemei asked cautiously tentatively.

Liu Chunjiang lowered his head. He sighed and fell silent. After a while, he whispered:

"I'm not married. I don't want to think about it now. His face turned melancholy.

At this time, two people were printing documents here, and neither of them spoke anymore, just flipping, and the other pushing the oil roller.

Xue Kemei could fully feel Liu Chunjiang's mood at this time. She guessed he must still be resentful of her. So, she restrained her feelings and tried her best to persuade him in a calm tone:

"Chunjiang, I know you must still resent me in your heart,...... But the past is gone. Time is not going to be turned back. You have to come out of the shadows of the past, and we all have to look forward. ”

Liu Chunjiang didn't answer, just lowered his head and kept printing documents.

Gradually, the footsteps and voices of people joking and giggling with each other came from the walk. People who have worked all day can finally go home.

The document was barely finished.

"Do you have anything to do now?" Xue Kemei asked, "If it's okay, then go back a little later, print all these documents today, and you can bind them and send them directly when you come tomorrow." Xue Kemei said as he neatly laid out the printed documents on a large table to dry.

"Okay, I'm fine, I'm not in a hurry, I'll be back later. Liu Chunjiang wiped his sweat with his arm and said with a smile.

Xue Kemei seemed to remember something all of a sudden, and asked:

"By the way, I forgot to ask you, did you just get here after getting off the train?"

"Yes, I also came here to report when I graduated from college that year, but because I was a few days late, I lost a month's salary, so I came early this time. Speaking of this, Liu Chunjiang couldn't help laughing.

Xue Kemei also smiled.

She remembered more than a decade ago, on that rainy afternoon, and her heart rippled.

Many years have passed, but she still remembers the scene.

Thinking of this, Xue Kemei's heart, which had long been numb and buried deep in his heart, recalled the scene when the two of them knew each other, as if he had some girlish shyness.

"Are there a lot of people on the train?" Xue Kemei diverted the conversation.

"It's ok. Not too much. ”

Speaking of the scene of many people taking the train, Xue Kemei couldn't help but think of the night when she and Zhao Tiangang took the train together that year. All of a sudden, her mood became a little depressed again.

The documents are finally printed.

The two of them walked out of the building, Xue Kemei took the car out of the carport, and when he saw Liu Chunjiang walking alone on the road, he said to him:

"Are you staying in a factory guest house? ”

"No need. You ride first. I walked slowly by myself. Liu Chunjiang refused.

"Okay, you walk, I'll walk with you. After speaking, Xue Kemei also jumped out of the car and walked side by side on the road with him.

Two people walked slowly on the road. At this moment, the afterglow of the sun was slanting on the skin of the earth, covering her with a golden coat. The sun is just right at this time. In the distant villages around the factory, smoke also rises, and it looks very kind.

They walked slowly like this.

Xue Kemei walked and walked, and she said with some emotion:

"Back then, when we were on the four o'clock shift and night shift in the vertical kiln, you were like this, picking me up every day. Looking back now, it feels like it was yesterday. ”

Liu Chunjiang also nodded and said:

"yes, I sometimes think back to that time. ”

Finally, when he came to a fork in the road, Liu Chunjiang said to Xue Kemei:

"Alright, that's it. Go home and get busy! I'm here. ”