Chapter 252 The end of the year is approaching

1.

Time passed quickly, and in a blink of an eye, it was New Year's Day in 1996, and the school had a day off.

After returning to school on New Year's Day, the school's work has entered the countdown to the end of the semester.

January 3rd and 4th are the days of students' final exams.

On January 5th and 6th, teachers graded the papers and counted the students' results.

On the afternoon of January 7th, the students officially went on winter vacation.

At nine o'clock in the morning of January 8th, the teachers' holiday meeting at Hushan Middle School ended, and the teachers went to the logistics office to receive the New Year's goods and benefits, and then dispersed and went home.

It was nearly noon, and the entire compound of Toyama Middle School became silent, only the whistling north wind was blowing fiercely, rolling up the flying loess and knocking on the glass windows.

In the spring, I lay alone in the warm dormitory, lit a cigarette and silently thought about my thoughts, and the stove in the corner of the wall emitted a warm smell, and occasionally made a "crackling" cracking sound when the coal was burning.

2.

The reason why Spring is not in a hurry to go home is because he has not yet figured out how to face his parents when he returns home. I don't know why, every time I go home in the spring these days, Chun Shuli and Zhang Xiuli will keep nagging in his ears about falling in love and finding a partner, and even the fourth uncle Chun Shujia and the second aunt are also involved in the preaching of spring, which makes Spring very annoyed, but he doesn't dare to attack, so he can only deliberately divert the topic or pretend to be deaf and dumb.

After the 96th year of the old calendar and New Year, I will be twenty-seven years old, and in the countryside of Hushan Town, this definitely belongs to the older youth. If a young man who works as a farmer in the village is unable to marry a daughter-in-law at this age, he may be beaten for the rest of his life. It is not unreasonable for parents to worry about their marriage, and this spring can be understood. Thinking of this, Spring let out a long sigh.

Although spring is also longing for a happy and sweet marriage and family of its own. But in the eyes of spring, a happy family is like an unattainable high-rise building, but this edifice must be built on the foundation of love and marriage as bricks. But where is your love? A marriage and family without love may collapse at the slightest disturbance. Such a family and marriage, spring does not want.

For love and marriage, spring has always been with the attitude of "rather lack than excess". Marriage is a lifelong event, not a "match", not a "match", let alone going to the farmers' market to buy vegetables, it is something that can be bought back with casual money. If love is the collision of hearts and hearts, then marriage is the contract of love, and family is the continuation and precipitation of love. Marriage and family are related to the happiness of their lives, and Spring doesn't want to easily hand over his love and marriage to a strange woman he doesn't know. If two loveless men and women get married just to end their singleness, or sleep on a marriage bed for some kind of selfish gain, then spring would rather not have that certificate.

The beginning of marriage means the beginning of family life, and family life is nothing more than firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar, tea, and trivial things flying all over the sky. However, spring is not yet mentally ready for all this.

Perhaps, one day, reality will grind away the edges and corners of everyone's dreams, and we will begin to slowly know how to capture the beauty of the symphony of pots and pans, know how to appreciate the fun released by oil, salt, sauce and vinegar, and perhaps slowly learn to understand the true meaning of life. But I don't know if I have enough patience to stay with a woman I don't like for a lifetime and stay with me until I get old, and I don't know if I will have the day when I will settle down and carefully appreciate the meaning of life.

In the spring, I couldn't help but think of Liu Qing again, the woman who made me think about it and worry about it, this unattainable but unforgettable woman, this woman who had given herself a lot of warmth and comfort in life...

In the spring view, love is actually very simple, that is, in your lifetime, give your love to the people you love. Isn't love just the exchange of love and love, the blending and collision of hearts and hearts? Spring has always had a fantasy in my heart, always fantasizing that I can be like the protagonist in a fairy tale, with the person I love deeply, even if we walk together in the wind and rain, it is also an indescribable happiness!

Alas, dreams are very beautiful, but the reality is always very cruel, some people are destined to have no fate for a lifetime, destined to hide each other deep in their hearts for a lifetime! Even if they can't help but think of her from time to time, think of the person they love deeply, but after all, it can only be a dream of Nanke! But spring would rather be immersed in this dream and never wake up...

Lighting a cigarette, Spring took a deep breath, then slowly exhaled smoke rings, looked up and watched the smoke rings grow bigger and bigger little by little, becoming more and more blurred, and finally dissipating in the empty room... Spring suddenly felt a little scared, will his love for Liu Qing be like this smoke ring, slowly dissipating into invisibility with the passage of time? If this is really the case, then where will his wandering soul go to find support?

3.

With a long sigh, Spring rolled over and sat up.

Spring's casual eyes were fixed on the letter on the bedside table, which was written by Chunyu to Spring, and this letter was written to Spring after returning home for New Year's Day two days before Chunyu.

When he got the letter from the teacher in the mailroom, Haru couldn't help but smile dumbly when he glanced at the address under the envelope. Although the two brothers Spring and Chunyu talked about everything, this was the first time that Chunyu wrote a letter to Spring. The reason why spring feels ridiculous is that the spring rain has just returned home on New Year's Day, and it is only a few days apart that I have to write a letter? Besides, there will be a winter vacation in a few days, so what can't I say when I am on winter vacation?

But then, what was written in Chunyu's letter made Chunyu unable to laugh. Chunyu took great pains to raise the issue of marriage and love in the spring in the letter, and described the worries and helplessness of his parents who overheard him about the spring marriage in the letter. Reading Chunyu's letter, Spring realized the seriousness of the matter, he didn't expect that his marriage and love would make his parents often sleepless at night, and it would be so serious that his parents doubted his sexual orientation, which was something that Spring had never considered before.

Holding the letter, Spring sat stupidly for a while.

It's been a long time, it's been a long time, and the spring has come back to its senses from its delusions.

Spring realizes that maybe it's really time for him to give an explanation to his parents.

4.

I smoked a few cigarettes sullenly, and when I saw that it was almost noon, I had to get up and pack up in the spring, ready to send home the New Year's goods sent by the school.

Thinking that the New Year will be coming soon, Spring can't help but sigh again.

New Year's Pass, New Year's Pass, for spring, the New Year is like passing the test. During the Chinese New Year, spring has to constantly deal with the concern and attention from parents and relatives and friends for their love marriage, and they have to make up one reason or lie after another to prevaricate them. Every year after the old calendar and the New Year, spring will feel very helpless and powerless.

Perhaps, this year's New Year will be even more difficult.