Mo Feng has been trying his best to play the role of a good girl, for example, what adults come to send during the holidays, Mo Feng hides behind his grandma, and looks at anyone except grandma with timid eyes, whether he knows or not, in short, except grandma. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

Many uncles and aunts would say to Mo Feng's mother when they saw Mo Feng, "Your child is so shy and so young." At that time, Mo Feng didn't know what "young sprout" meant, but he kept remembering these two words.

Mo Feng's academic performance is not bad, for a quiet and introverted girl who is not too stupid, if she can calm down, the speed of learning things will not be too bad. Mo Feng will also keep up with the trend and occasionally go to a training class, such as writing hard pen words or something.

In this year, the most difficult thing for Mo Feng to do is to write essays. Every time she can write a full number of words, she has to shout three times. If you write a well-written article, the teacher will read it, of course, there will never be a score for Mo Feng.

Words are really a difficult thing for Mo Feng to control, she is a girl who is less talkative and introverted, she is too afraid, she feels confused, and she doesn't understand what she expresses. Then there's the silence and the inability to write.

Followed by an essay competition, two hours, facing the short "my most memorable thing" on the blackboard, Mo Feng stupidly held the pen, in two hours, look left, look right, she wanted to find a companion around her who couldn't write like her, but she was always lonely.

In the end, I stubbornly turned in the essay of less than half a page.

Afterwards, she was still looking for a companion on this road, but unfortunately, she never had.

She's like a clown who has done something wrong, hiding and not wanting to be discovered. With a worried heart, I passed a few days peacefully. It wasn't until the head teacher communicated with his father about this matter that a lot of books were added to the family, and Mo Feng didn't like to read.

How good it is to watch animations and TV sets, and what books to read.

Many things happened this year, such as moving to a new house, the night before moving to a new house, there was still a TV in the old house, and at that time her mother asked her questions, Mo Feng's life after that, even if the memory is vague, you can use a rough explanation of what happened that day. For nearly ten years of her life, she kept asking herself if she hadn't been so ignorant, would her home not be so broken. Can she live a more real life, less hidden, and less obscure like other children?

Mo Feng's mother was sitting at the coffee table at that time, looking at the few pills she was about to eat in her hand, and said to Mo Feng: "I don't know if the side effects of being a medicine jar will be great in the end, or I won't take it if I don't reduce it slowly." ”

Mo Feng nodded, feeling that it made sense, taking too much medicine did have side effects.

This is the node where Mo Feng's life trajectory changed in the past ten years.

Adults began to move, washing the floors and applying a layer of oil to the new furniture, which was said to make the crevices cleaner. The new home is brighter, with tiles and white walls, everything is new. The family also raised a rich tree.

According to his father, the old king of the family next door is rich and noble after raising the rich tree.

This truth is credible or not, but the rich trees in the latter two families died of illness from five to three families, and the last two remaining ones also died. After that, Mo Feng's family really didn't go smoothly, it can be inferred that the good ones may not be successful, and the bad ones must be nine out of ten. Superstition is really reasonable.

The discord between Mo Feng's parents began to intensify, and in the eyes of little Mo Feng, his father became a violent king, and he was no longer the amiable person who would prick her little face with a beard.

Sometimes there will be loan sharks in the family who come to ask for money, sometimes the father is not there, and the person who asks for money is not the kind of bad guy like the gangster on TV, Sven Wen, although he seems to be full of confidence. When they were waiting, they asked Mo Feng for nail clippers, and they cut their nails at Mo Feng's house, and the nails fell to the newspaper, and finally poured the nails into the paper basket. I didn't wait for anyone, I sat down and left.

At that time, there were also women who would come to the adults in the house. It looks quite amiable, but it looks a little dirty. Mo Feng is a cold sister-in-law, and she doesn't like the kind of middle-aged woman who seems to be warm to anyone.

I only heard her say that she was looking for Mo Feng's father as soon as she came in, Mo Feng was also a tendon, and clearly looked at his father is going to the room, the middle-aged woman asked, so she pointed directly, and then saw Daddy frowning and putting his index finger to his lips.

Later, the woman knew that she still didn't go in, and after saying a few words outside, she left.

At that time, Mo Feng's heart was inferior and erratic. In the direction of life, there is no lighthouse-like figure who can hold her hand and say to Mo Feng calmly and steadily, what kind of person do you want to become, what does it mean to the world, and why do you want to study.

Therefore, Mo Feng was dazed and in a trance, like a lonely boat in the distant sea, shaking and shaking.

Her ephemeral, intermittent source of happiness comes from sometimes a good anime, a good TV series, a good movie, or her pigeon, Pippi. There are also times when she makes eye contact with her mother, and when the family goes shopping, she can feel satisfied in the period of time. Then it is easy to fall into the vortex of empty and boundless slightly melancholy thoughts.

During this period, my mother was sick once, and the family ran to the hospital for a few days, when my aunt came to take care of my mother, and the fruit sent to my mother was thrown out of the door of the ward.

Mo Feng was quietly beside his mother, and the other aunts in the ward looked at Mo Feng, and some would say that the little girl was very good-looking.

Mo Feng raised his eyes, as if he hadn't heard, Mo Feng's mother frowned, she didn't like others to stare at her children.

Later, the family also went to visit the West Lake, and during the photo, Mo Feng West Lake climbed onto the stone statue and clicked the camera shutter and pressed it. I still remember that I bought the cheap camera with my mother in a small shop near home. At that time, what Mo Feng wanted, his mother would never be stingy with the money in her pocket.

After staying in the hospital for a few days, after going home, everyone drank small porridge together, Mo Feng saw Ah Dad hugging his mother, wanting to see if she was heavy, and his mother smiled.

The rest of the scene was like a swan song. The relationship between the two adults turned out to have such a beautiful scene, and there was a better scene that Mo Feng didn't remember earlier.

It's just that Mo Feng hasn't seen him since. So Mo Feng's head kept remembering the picture of Daddy hugging Grandma and Grandma laughing. Without regret, without melancholy, I just faintly feel that it once existed. A beautiful ・・・・・・ between the two