I am a small clerk in an assembly line factory, and my monthly salary is only 3,000 yuan, which is not bad in a small county. The year before last, my mother suddenly fainted, was hospitalized and spent all her family savings, and sold my marriage house in my hometown, my mother finally survived, but she couldn't do heavy work from then on, and she still needed me and my dad to take care of her.

Because of the sale of the house, my wife almost divorced me, I begged hard, and finally my wife relented and followed me back to the countryside, a family of four crammed into three dilapidated old houses, but life has to go on, every day when I get home from work, I try to do all the housework, because I feel ashamed of my parents, but also ashamed of my wife.

This year, the baby was born, which would have been a happy thing, but I couldn't be happier.

My wife can't work while breastfeeding, my mother needs to be taken care of, my father is old, and the children are waiting to be fed, and all the burdens of the family fall on me alone, and I only have a salary of 3,000 yuan a month.

Frugal, 3,000 yuan a family can still survive in the countryside, at least not starvation, but never thought that my wife had no milk, when I saw the child crying hungry, I took all the money from the family to the county seat, and bought back a box of Feihe milk powder, although it is likely that there is a problem with domestic milk powder, but I can't afford imported milk powder.

The child finally stopped crying, but the four of us adults were dumbfounded, because the family could no longer open the pot, and in the end, it was the mother who had the cheekiness to borrow a thousand yuan to get by.

That night, after my parents, wife and children slept, I sat alone in the yard crying, I thought about death, because I felt that I couldn't hold on, the salary of 3,000 yuan a month was just enough to buy milk powder for the children, what did the four of us adults eat, I felt that I was a wreck, a wreck that even my parents, wife and children could not support, what was the use of living.

I found a bottle of pesticides, before drinking to the room to see the baby, she seemed to be dreaming, laughed in her sleep, saw her smile, when my tears flowed down, I can't control it at all, you may not understand this mood, I quit the room, took the pesticide and ran to the river to cry all night.

The next morning, when my mother found me, I was already full of gray hair, and my thirty-year-old self had turned gray overnight.

Watching my hair turn white overnight, my mother hugged me and cried, while I had already dried up my tears.

I can't die, if I die, who will take care of my parents and who will raise my baby?

Comforting my crying mother, I slowly helped her home, looking at my white hair, the old father wept, saying that he had no ability, sorry for me, it was better to die early, and the family cried together.

After crying, I adjusted my mood and continued to go to work, because the days still have to go on, but God may really not want to give me a way to live, when I came back from work in the evening, I found that my wife was gone, I began to call her like crazy, but I couldn't get through, until three days later, she sent me a message: "I'm sorry, I can't hold on." "I haven't heard from him since, and it's been almost three months now.

I felt like I was going crazy, I would burn down the old house with a fire, and then the whole family would die together, and I wouldn't have to suffer in this world anymore, but I didn't, I silently endured everything, and now I don't blame the woman.

My mother took care of my father and my baby when I was just a month old, and I began to go crazy looking for all kinds of ways to make money.

I used to write a novel in Heiyan, which brought me an income of a few hundred yuan at that time, so I started writing for the sake of my children, for my mother, and for this broken family. I went to work during the day, stayed up late at night to write essays, changed it over and over again, grabbed my hair and thought about the plot, and I wanted to smoke very much late at night, but because I didn't have any money, I was stunned to quit.

Working during the day, staying up late at night to write, only sleeping two or three hours a day, I lost a full twenty pounds in a month, all of which were already skinny, my mother cried when she saw my appearance, saying that she and my father didn't want to drag me down anymore, and I would be relieved if they died early, whenever this time, I would kneel down and tell my mother firmly that if she dared to have this kind of thought, he and his father walked on the front foot, and I went to jump into the river with the child in my arms, and the whole family would die.

When my neighbors heard that I was writing novels on the Internet, they called me a great writer when they met, and I knew they were satirizing me.

My parents didn't understand either, saying that you didn't even go to college, and you could write novels, but your body was worn out, don't write, and even the old father was going to smash my computer with a cane, and I knew that he must have heard gossip in the village.

But I don't want to accept my fate, even if no one in the world understands me, I don't want to accept my fate, because this time I am gambling with my life, I am staking my own life, and I am afraid of the gossip in the village?

Today, the editor/editor told me that the novel can be sold for money, and if readers buy it, you may make money, I am not excited, nor apprehensive, nor uneasy, because I gambled on my life, so let fate decide/judge.

My tears have long since dried up, and I just hope that our family of four can live.

Follow-up: Is there still a reason for heaven? That woman is back!

On May 13th, the woman who had been missing for half a year came back, and a man drove her back to the village, and she wanted to have a child in a delusional way, and I took a kitchen knife and drove them out.

On May 23rd, I received a summons from the court, she has filed a lawsuit with the court, to fight for the custody of the child, the lawsuit needs money, and the family already owes a lot of debts, the child herself will never give her, and she will not be given to her when she dies, help me!

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