Mom thinks about me one by one, and I know you miss me. Deliberately didn't go back to the Zongkao stationed prisoner, hehe, save you from going home, you have to rush me to work early in the morning, "What???Let me take Yang Hongxing back?Mom, what are you kidding?I'll take it back to such a big place, how can I live? I am willing, are people willing?" "Haha" That's it, Mom. Don't worry, I'll bring you a more beautiful one than Yang Hongxing for you to see?, how do I know about this old yellow calendar, oh, you can't bring sheep? Mom, it's not that I don't look for a daughter-in-law, you said that I'm looking for a partner now, it's not me who is in a hurry, don't you have to borrow money to buy a daughter-in-law again. What's the hurry, I'm so far away, do you care about it for so long?" "Okay, that's it, I'll go back when I'm free."

The New Year's sunshine, and warmth, blessing overflowing on a mottled face, a person who has no face to return to home, is feeling the warmth from the home hundreds of kilometers away from the parents on the phone.

It's Jian Fan, and I'm babbling and teasing my mother, I don't know what's wrong, the older the mother who has always been strict, the more grinding people are, and the more nagging they become, from the object nagging to work, from work nagging to the interpersonal relationship of the unit, looking back, and nagging to the house, basically one center, two basic points, the daughter-in-law as the center, and the house and work as the basic points. These are the three mountains that are pressing on the heads of urban people in the new era, and it is not okay not to mention them. Thinking about it before, Jian Fan missed his mother's broom pimple and feather duster's way of educating and speaking, it hurt a little, but it was definitely neat, not so muddy.

Smiled and put the phone in his pocket, as soon as he remembered the eyes of his mother looking at Yang Hongxing, Liang Wuyun and Hu Lijun in the oolong, Jian Fan wanted to laugh. But I'm afraid that none of them can be her daughter-in-law. The vision of the two mothers has never been unified since they were young.

Not only is his vision not unified, but his thoughts have never been unified, on the phone, Jian Fan has tested his mother several times. Speaking of the last sentence, how about quitting our jobs to make money? joked tone, but every time I was scolded by my mother. made Jian Fan's heart go up and down, and he didn't even dare to mention this stubble again.

There are always unsatisfactory places in life, but life is also full of warmth and happiness, depending on how you show it. For example, Jian Fan feels very comfortable and comfortable now, as soon as he is suspended, the good days come again, he comfortably pours himself and drinks and eats for a day, and when it is time to go to work on the third day, he still walks for a morning, and only arrives here in the afternoon: the Provincial Police Academy.

It's more elegant than the police force, with a small garden with a pavilion and cloister, and a white building towering behind the garden. Jian Fan secretly pondered, the floor registration asked the place and went straight up to the fifth floor, like Grandma Liu first entering the Grand View Garden, looking left and right, looking at this special police department. This place is a bit special, the white building brings together the provincial police scientific research units, there are not many individuals, the façade is not big, but the first one is more scary than the other, and some directly belong to a certain department of the provincial department, if you move to the set, the level of the public security director of a prefecture-level city is larger, not to mention anything else, you can see from the shoulders of a group of policemen who meet upstairs, there are many men and few women, and there are many police officers and few police officers. It's a shame that you're wearing civilian clothes, and if you put on that once proud police uniform, you'll be treated like an alien here.

On the fifth floor, in the room marked with the sign of "Police Mental Health Counseling Center", at the east end of the building, Jian Fan followed Zhang Jie's explanation and knocked on the door.

"Please come in,"

There was a whisper of a warbler in the house, standard Mandarin, Jian Fan pushed the door in, and was stunned for a moment.

Beauty, see beauty again. Definitely a scholar-type, behind the rimless glasses flashed with big eyes that were flashing, what was being written, stopped writing and looked up, just a short wisp floated in front of the forehead, this beauty turned her fingers into an orchid, gently pressed it, and was very polite, so that it was not how beautiful, but it was combined with a strong bookish atmosphere, which showed that Zhuang Jingya was tight.

"Who are you looking for?" the beautiful woman frowned, and in front of her was dressed like a suspect.

"Oh, the police officer is Jianfan, and he is ordered to report for duty. Jian Fan was taken aback, and he came to his senses.

"It's you?" hehe, don't be restrained, please sit The beautiful woman smiled, gave up her seat, and explained with a smile: "It's not a registration, it's a special psychological counseling project launched by the provincial department this year, congratulations, you will be the first batch of police officers to receive psychological counseling." ”

"Congratulations?, psychological counseling?" Jian Fan didn't understand it all of a sudden, as if he was not as alarmist as Zhang Jie, who failed to pass the psychological assessment, and was directly judged to be a dangerous person with suicidal tendencies.

"That's right, let me give you a general introduction, this is the police mental health experimental project introduced by the provincial department this year, which will provide psychological counseling to police officers who shoot and injure people in various dangerous operations such as special service, field service and anti-hijacking, or directly kill suspects" This project is still in the experimental stage, and the specific director Zhang of the provincial department is in charge, and the first batch is selected from the various brigades under the city, so I want to congratulate you."

The beauty is like self-promotion, but this sales promotion can see Jian Fan blinking her eyes and small lips, her teeth are clear, and she occasionally habitually supports the frame of her glasses, and the pen is turning in circles on her thumb when she speaks.

By the way, the police uniform, Jian Fan was carrying the stars on the shoulders of the beauty, and secretly stammered, damn, the detachment leader doesn't need to mix, this little girl is at the same level as him.

"Hey, hey, did you humble me when I spoke?"

The beautiful woman stopped abruptly and asked in a loud voice. Jian Fan was admiring it leisurely, was asked suddenly, and subconsciously replied: "I heard it."

"Really? The beautiful woman rolled her eyes strangely and said irritatingly: "Repeat what I just said."

"Huh!?"

Jian Fan opened his mouth and stammered, he couldn't close his eyes, obviously couldn't repeat it, he was dumbfounded when he looked at the beauty, stared at it for a while, and immediately felt that this was quite inappropriate, and he smiled and dodged the woman's eyes.

Another strong vase, Jian Fan looked at the slender hand playing with the pen, secretly made a conclusion, and suddenly realized that this is not the same as those sisters in the grassroots team, such a strong eye is above the top, that sense of superiority is innate.

"Listen, it's for your good. ”

The beautiful woman seemed to be a little mindful of being treated as an object of obscenity by such a wounded guy, Gong Yan Gongwei and Yu Jiaoqi said!"The police officers who have been involved in the execution of their tasks, especially the police officers who have killed people, will more or less affect the normal psychological state, for example, become irritable, anxious, and irritable, reflecting that in normal life, there may be insomnia, forgetfulness or temper, which may lead to some psychological changes in you, such as doubting the correctness of your behavior, Doubting your life values affects your ability to judge normal things, and even develops suicidal tendencies: "Do you have these problems?"

Like a doctor scaring a patient, the beauty listed a lot, and when Jian Fan heard this, he smiled and didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional and said: "Hum hum hum" I have it all, I urgently need your push. ”

"What!?" the beauty glared.

"Oh, no, guide, no, induce, no, no, no, you see how anxious and forgetful I am now, what's wrong?" Jian Fan looked sideways, squinting and touching his head.

"Counselling, mental health counseling. It's not healthy to look at you like this. The beauty said. You're welcome.

"Then if I'm healthy, don't you even have any experiments?" Jian Fan said casually.

"This is the unified arrangement of your city bureau, but it is completely voluntary, I am not willing to ask to leave, for the uncooperative police officers, how can we ensure the correctness of the psychological assessment?"

"Who said I wasn't voluntary. Jian Fan opened his eyes, and suddenly felt that this kind of nonsense was fun, as if he also had a feeling that he had not been seen for a long time, and looked at the beautiful woman with a smile.

But after being proud, you may have forgotten that it is impossible for you to electrocute that beauty in an instant, and the right cheek is dotted with a little bit of a hair meridian that is out of obscurity, and it looks a little shocking, absolutely has nothing to do with handsomeness, and it is almost the same.

"Okay, follow me,"

Sure enough, the beautiful woman said something, and the laptop closed with a "pop" sound, and she got up.

The beauty in front of her is like a proud little hen with her chest upright, her posture is upright, and Jian Fan's heart is itching, Jian Fan followed behind the beauty step by step, measuring her height, speculating on her measurements, admiring her walking posture, and obsessing about something dirty, but she secretly thought in her heart, I didn't expect the detachment leader and the 6th captain to be so knowledgeable and good at their duties, and they actually beat themselves here, don't you want me to create a beautiful conversation about shooting beauty?

"Come in, right?"

The beautiful woman knocked on the door and entered an office marked with the words "Counseling Research Room". It was still a female voice inside, and as soon as she entered the door, the beautiful woman sat straight to the side, and there was another person directly opposite.

Seeing it, Jian Fan was instantly dumbfounded again. is also a policeman, a forty or fifty-year-old policewoman, with a black face, a familiar face, and at first glance, she is not a person of this era. But look at it again, this person is the main man today.

The provincial hall can't be like a profiteer, and also engage in the same way as the profiteers, and the aunt treats guests, right? Jian Fan felt a little teased, and glared at the indifferent one on the side, what about that beauty, oh, ignoring this low-level police officer at all.

The aunt who "sits" in the center also looks kind. Jian Fan looked at a huge soft chair in the center of the room, sat down, and faced the aunt. The aunt comforted: "You can sit as you like, it's better to lie down and relax your whole body, don't be nervous" If you are nervous, our conversation will not continue. ”

"I'm not nervous. Jian Fan said.

"Don't have the professional characteristics of vigilance and vigilance, let alone personal emotions. Auntie said.

"I'm not emotional. Jian Fan said again.

"Now there is. The aunt smiled and said casually: "Is it not Xiaojing who receives you, but an old woman like me who accepts the consultation and makes you very disappointed?"

Hit the nail on the head, straight to the point, Jian Fan just lay down, and was poked in his heart all of a sudden, so shocked that he sat up again, looked at the aunt in surprise, and the Xiaojing beauty sitting next to him, and laughed.

In an instant, Jian Fan remembered who this was. When I was recruiting, I was also in the three buildings of the Provincial Police Academy, and there happened to be this one among the examiners in the interview.

"Your actions have interpreted my words, this is a small part of psychology, from your speech and behavior, from the changes in your eyes, you can capture your psychological changes, for example, when you entered the door just now, you looked at Xiaojing with a very eager look, and when you saw me, the temperature in your eyes immediately dropped, am I right?" The aunt smiled, although her black face was serious, but she spoke beautifully, and her voice revealed a bit of woman's magnetism.

"Hehehe" That's half right, the reason I'm surprised is because I remember who are you?" Jian Fan said as if in disguise.

"And who am I?"

"When I joined the Police Academy, I interviewed the examiner, I remember you, but I don't know your name. ”

"I also remember you, in September of the year of poison, the batch of more than 300 people who underwent psychological tests, the scores were scored by me, a total of three perfect scores, and you were one of them. ”

As soon as these words came out, Jian Fan's face was a little colorful, it was the only time he lived so big that he got a perfect score, and he didn't know how he got it. Xiao Jing, who was sitting on the side and didn't know whether it was an observer or an assistant, looked at this little policeman with a scar like a ruffian in a little surprise, and didn't seem to believe it. When the two of them had their own thoughts, they heard the aunt also say very smugly: "I have always been very accurate, and the three perfect scores all show his peculiarities, the first is called Feng Haoran, graduated from electronic engineering, but unfortunately the policeman resigned after only half a year, and now he has opened a registered company and is the boss; the second is called Cheng Zuodong, a graduate of medical university." Now he has been sent to the police university for further study, and the third one is you, Jian Fan, your surprise is even worse than the first two, two meritorious services, two punishments, two shooting and wounding suspects, and participating in several major cases in Ohara from last year to this year, so my research subject was the first to choose you. ”

There was praise in these words, but Jian Fan listened to one who resigned and became a boss, and the other who was sent to the police university for further study, compared to his current personality of not being a ghost or a ghost, he didn't feel any boasting, looking at the aunt's expectant eyes, Jian Fan burst into thunder: "Auntie, you said it for a long time, it means that we have a fate?"

This time, sitting on the side, Xiao Jing was so amused that he fell to the table.

You can understand it this way. The aunt smiled and said: "I have a fate with all the police, I have studied police psychology all my life, okay, let's officially get to know each other, my name is Zhang Yinglan, and this 262 is to help the temple." Is Jing Wenxiu willing to accept our lacquer inquiry?"

"Wait, wait" Jian Fan didn't agree, looking at these two politeness, he couldn't take it lightly, waved his hand and said, "I don't know yet, who is consulting whom?"

"Of course, Director Zhang will give you a consultation and give you a psychological assessment?" said the maintenance leader next to him. Jian Fan immediately found the conversation, shook his head and said, "That's not right, Aunt Zhang, have you ever shot and injured someone?"

"Oh, no, I've always been an internal staff Zhang Yinglan smiled.

"What about you, have you ever killed anyone?" Jian Fan turned his head to the side and stared directly at Jing Wenxiu.

Jing Wenxiu shook her head.

"Then you've always shot and wounded people," Jian Fan asked strangely.

Jing Wenxiu spread her hands, shook her head again, and shrugged her shoulders, as if to say, how could this be my job.

"That's right, you two, you haven't shot, you haven't killed anyone, you haven't injured anyone, I think you haven't even seen a few suspects" What do I have to ask you?

"Hey, why are you like this? You can't talk to Zhang Chu like this even if your director comes?" Jing Wenxiu plucked her eyes and said unhappily.

"Yes, then you can't just let our director come, why do you let me do it, it's so easy to suspend and not let me rest?" Jian Fan said correctly. A pair of choked Jing Wenxiu didn't say anything, and the case was about to start, but Zhang Chu stretched out his hand to stop him, smiled and comforted his assistant, turned back to Jian Fan and said: "Rebellion is the best quality of your generation I like rebellious young people very much, how about we have a conversation between us?" I'll give you a psychological assessment based on the conversation, or, let's transpose the host and guest, and I'll consult you, after all, you have experienced those things, and we want to know what impact this kind of terrible thing in the eyes of most ordinary people will have on your personal psychology, and these experiences will be very precious to us in the future, and may help many police officers who are forced to shoot in self-defense and hurt others and cause psychological shadows to themselves, how about it? Would you like to help us?"

Jian Fan looked at these two people, hesitated for a long time, couldn't think of how to say this, and thought for a long time before saying: "Actually, I also came for this, but I'm worried that theory may not be able to guide practice. ”

"Tell me what it is?" Zhang said, the aunt smiled and guided.

The dead man Jian Fan's face was solemn and he spit out two words.

looked at the two of them, especially the two of them, and said solemnly: "In June, the case of the second railway court hijacking the cash car. It was Yinwei who died, and the shot was in the brain, and the Tianling cover was lifted, and I went. The scene is still being cleaned up, my eyes are not good, I can see clearly, my brain burst to the ground, blood flowed all the way, our colleagues said, this thing is fine when you get used to seeing too much, just like spicy tofu brain, just like tomato stewed fish, red, white, you think of it as something else and it's fine" But how I look at it, how are it shocking, I was five times tossing uh, uh

Jian Fan's throat uh, uh, uh, the sound of vomiting sounded very clearly, when there was a sound in his throat, he stared at Jing Wenxiu intentionally, with a solemn face, grinning, seeing Jing Wenxiu unconsciously follow the uh sound, and hurriedly covered his mouth, he was already terrified when he heard it, and when he looked at this sound again, he couldn't help but let out a few uh "Uh, uh, it was louder than Jian Fan."

"This is the psychological shadow, she can hear the shadow, let alone see it?"

Jian Fan looked back at Director Zhang, who was listening, pointed to Jing Wenxiu and said, now Jian Fan has taken off the level of vomiting when he sees a dead person, but when he really talks about it, he still has palpitations, looking at the two of them with a strong look of displeasure, Jian Fan said thoughtfully to himself:

"And what I saw that day, not to mention hundreds of people, forensics, autopsies, on-site investigations, The person who blocked the blockade can have no psychological shadow This profession has made me do a lot of things that I don't want to do, and I have witnessed a lot of things that I don't want to see, not me, many people are the same, compared with these crimes that are often witnessed, what is the most vivid memory is that we arrested a suspect, he is guilty, I think I am very smart, I think I can dig out his hidden crimes but he committed suicide, I always thought he committed suicide in fear of crime, but when I saw his wife, After his son and that warm home, I suddenly understood why he committed suicide, this evil man also has his kind side, he is protecting his family" But, but, but after he died, I did something that I regretted for the rest of my life, I found clues in their family, but the disaster was also led to his family, a family of three, only a one-year-old child remained" I would rather go back to the past, I would rather I didn't wear this police uniform, I'd rather be a policeman who eats and waits for death, I'd rather this case become an unsolved case and never be solved, I don't want to see their family all die, now, I want to stay, but I'm afraid that I can't bear this responsibility; I want to leave, but I'm afraid that I won't be able to let go of this burden, this is my psychological shadow, can you help me solve it?"

The tragic abundance of Xue Jianting and Feng Meimei's family. Vividly, Jian Fan was suddenly sour-eyed when he was talking slowly, and his eyes were sour when he was suddenly aroused, which may be the uniqueness of Zhang Yinglan, a psychology expert, who intentionally or unintentionally aroused the deep pain in the heart of a little policeman.

After Jian Fan finished speaking, he breathed a long sigh of relief, the benefit of psychological counseling lies in this, even if he pours out a few words, he feels a little more comfortable. Looking at Director Zhang Qi Ran's face and not speaking, the police flower who was still a little arrogant and a little disdainful when he entered the door. is also pouting and speechless, every police officer at the grassroots level, who can not have a psychological shadow after witnessing so many crimes?

The two consulting people couldn't do counseling anymore, and Jian Fan, who had wanted to talk nonsense and talk about the suspension time, was inadvertently provoked, and felt bored when he said this, so he slowly stood up and said softly: "I know you can't solve it, we are like the suspect, as long as we don't take off our police uniforms, we will live in this shadow forever."

After speaking, he looked at the two speechless superiors, shook his head, walked out gently, and gently closed the door