I felt my nerves tremble with my body, and it was so hard to take a step under my feet.

An indescribable emotion that knocked me down almost instantly, to my crumble.

The surgeon put down the scalpel, patted me on the shoulder, and said in a deep voice, "Let's talk to her." ”

"Condolences change. ”

After the three medical personnel left, I fell to my knees with a "poof", almost moving my knees to Meng Xue's side.

Meng Xue was covered with a white sheet, as if the doctor didn't want me to see her miserable condition, and only showed a face.

Her face was extremely morbid from lack of blood, perhaps because of the return to light, and a little abnormal flush.

That beautiful face was covered in blood, and it was no longer as radiant as usual.

Why is life so fragile?

Meng Xue still had a respirator on her mouth and nose, and when she saw me coming, she immediately squeezed out a difficult smile, and stiffly stretched out her hand to take off the respirator.

I felt so sad that I was about to suffocate, my heart was so sour that I shook my head to put it back on her.

"It's useless, brother, you know it, right?" Meng Xue's weak words instantly made me burst into tears.

"Sister, I'm sorry. I spoke hoarsely, the torture of guilt like a thousand knives wringing in my heart.

"There's nothing to be sorry for, my sister likes you, my sister is willing. Meng Xue stretched out her hand with difficulty to touch my face, and I noticed that her arms had a strange bend.

Maybe because of the anesthetic, she didn't show much pain.

Seeing that she couldn't do it, I hurriedly leaned my face over.

I suddenly felt that I had a thousand words to say to her, but I choked on this juncture, and I didn't know where to start.

Life is so long and so short. A lot of things that can be said on weekdays are piled together, but I don't know where to start.

Maybe in just a few minutes, can you finish everything you want to say to someone in the second half of your life?

Meng Xue told me a lot intermittently.

She said that she had lived enough, and although she had already tried suicide, she was still scared when she really knew that she was going to die;

She said that she was lucky to die by my side, but it was a pity that Xue Ming, who was wearing a white shirt, had never seen her again after so many years of death;

She said that her life was very painful, and she didn't know why God was so unfair;

She said that she was smoking at the door of the KTV back then, and she was very envious of the female students who looked glamorous and holding their iphones, obviously they were all about 20 years old, why did they live completely differently······

There are so many that I feel like a knife in my heart when I hear them.

I clenched her hand tightly, because I couldn't maintain normal blood circulation, and it was already very cold.

"Brother, do you like me?" Meng Xue began to cough violently, and blood was coughed up and splashed on my face. I don't know how deeply the viscera has been damaged, just thinking about it is terrifying.

"Yes!" I said through gritted teeth.

"You'll remember me... Have you ever lived?" Although Meng Xue was laughing, cloudy tears had already flowed down the corners of her eyes.

I felt like that sentence struck me in the heart.

What a small wish, and how powerless and humble.

After death, will anyone remember that you existed, or is it like an insignificant speck of dust that disappears no matter how long you have struggled to live in this world?

"Yes. I clenched Meng Xue's hand, and my knuckles were blue and white.

"How long do you remember?"

"For the rest of my life, until I die!"

Meng Xue looked drowsy and tried her best to open her eyelids.

She looked at me with a cautious look of hope, and her voice was softer than a feather: "Do you think my sister is dirty?"

I shook my head frantically, tears were already crawling all over my cheeks, and I cried out like a child, embarrassed: "Sister is not dirty. ”

"My sister is a hundred times cleaner than Duan Feihu's dog-day beasts!"

Meng Xue tried hard to hold herself up, but obviously couldn't: "Brother, don't avenge me." ”

"Listen to my advice, don't mix this way. ”

"I'm gone, who will save you in the future, who will block the knife for you?"

"Really, my sister just has such a last wish, can you promise me?"

I nodded vigorously, knowing that my crying must be ugly: "I promise you, I promise you everything!"

Meng Xue smiled from the bottom of her heart and told me that he had a CCB card, and there were forty-eight in it, and the password was her birthday.

"Brother, listen. ”

"Don't hold the driver criminally responsible, just let him pay the compensation!" Meng Xue seemed to be racing against time, and her voice was much faster.

"Why?!" I couldn't help but growl.

"Even if he goes to jail, what's in it for you?"

"Sister, I hope that you and Xue Ming, the two big boys I care about, can live well. ”

Wang Qingping is in prison, his bank card is at home, the password is 830627, and all the money in it is yours. ”

Meng Xue was particularly insistent, shook her head in the face of my opposition, and even said something as heavy as "You are just disobedient and want your sister to die".

I panicked, shook my head and said I didn't mean that, and agreed with all my might.

Meng Xue relaxed at this time, her eyelids were about to open, and her voice was as small as a mosquito flapping its wings: "Brother, although the world is not worth it, you have to live well." ”

"It's better to find a serious job and marry a beautiful daughter-in-law than anything else. ”

"Don't die, and don't live alone. ”

I couldn't stop crying, and pressed my face to the back of her hand: "I know, I know..."

"Brother," Meng Xue's voice suddenly became frightened, "Are you there?"

"I'm here, I'm here!" I panicked, holding her hands desperately.

"I can't see you anymore, hold my hand. ”

"Sister, I'll hold it!"

A fear crept all over my body, sending chills down my spine.

"Brother, are you there, why can't I hear you?"

"Don't you go, okay?" Meng Xue didn't seem to be able to hear me at all, couldn't feel that I was holding her, and couldn't see anything.

She was like an abandoned child, powerless and vain trying to grasp something.

Meng Xue made a muffled voice, and I hugged her and kissed her on the forehead.

The hands that were clenched slid down weakly.

"Tick-tick-"

The heartbeat monitor makes a screeching sound, and the heartbeat line diagram, which symbolizes life, becomes a continuous straight line.

There was no longer a trace of warmth in the corpse in my arms, and I cried out and broke my heart.

The door to the intensive care unit was pushed open, and both paramedics and thunderstorm rushed in.

They tried to pull me away, but I stubbornly refused to let go, and even yelled at them to get out.

Because I know.

This letting go is forever.