It was getting late, the clouds were overcast, it was overcast, and it was snowing again, and I sat on the cold ground, and I didn't feel a little cold, but I didn't feel anything.

I didn't think about anything, and I didn't know what to think.

I shouted to myself hundreds of times in my heart: Gu Xiaobei, come on! Gu Xiaobei, don't admit defeat!

But it didn't work, and no amount of encouragement turned into a deeper decadence, which plunged me into an inexplicable sadness.

Someone behind me hugged me and rubbed my arms together.

"Dad, I'm so tired, why is my life just a practice and not a trip? I'm so tired! I don't want to go any further. ”

I began to cry, and in a trance, I thought that my father had come out of the grave and embraced me, like the last hope that the little match girl saw, and carried me to heaven.

"Xiaobei, stand up, stand up quickly!

Du Yucheng's hoarse voice rang in my ears, recalling my senses.

He put his hands under my armpits and dragged me to my feet.

I stood up, my legs unconscious, about to slip, and he knelt down, his body supporting me, his hands desperately running my legs up and down.

It took me a long time to warm up, and I stood by my father's tombstone, looking down at him, embarrassed and didn't know what to say.

He exhaled, swept away the snow in front of his father's grave with his hands, and bowed silently.

"My mom told you that?" I asked him.

He nodded.

"I'm fine, thank you. I turned and walked out of the cemetery.

He caught up, sucked his nose, and sneezed: "Hungry, please let me eat barbecue?"

I looked at him dissatisfied, not intending to ignore him.

"I'll take care of Dou Qiming's matter, I'm sorry for causing you trouble. He sincerely apologized.

I don't plan to say forgive him, in fact, I don't hate him at all, a person who doesn't hate, how can I talk about forgiveness, I just don't want to have anything to do with him anymore.

"She's my mother's friend, and after my mom died, she always wanted to take my mom's place and take care of me, I'm really sorry for causing you trouble. ”

When he saw that I was silent, he probably thought I didn't understand, and explained it again.

"If you don't want to trouble me, then please stay away from me, okay?" I instigated him.

He strode out three or five meters, stopped, and looked back at me: "Is it far enough to be so far? Do you want to take a few more steps?"

I sighed and stared at his face, he really coaxed people, why didn't such a coaxing person go home and coax his father, he had to make a fuss like this?

"Gu Xiaobei, I'm really hungry and have no money to eat, let's go eat barbecue?" When he saw that I was silent, he began to be presumptuous again, completely ignoring the residual tears in the corners of my eyes.

He didn't seem to see my sadness, only his own stomach.

Also, if a person's stomach is not full, how can he have the strength to grieve?

If I die, what will happen to my younger siblings? My mother wanted to remarry twice, but she had already left with the man, and I begged her back, and I had three injuries on my wrists, both of which were because of her, and I could not afford to raise my three younger siblings on my own, so I could only drag my mother to hell together.

I never reminisce about the past, except when I had my father. I just want to go forward, look at the sunshine in front of me, and keep walking forward......

"Gu Xiaobei, what do you think is the most important thing in life?" Du Yucheng asked me.

"For you, it's just a skewer and a bottle of room temperature beer, isn't it?" I asked him.

"Oh, you've only known each other for two days, so you know me like that?" he said, excited.

"Du Yucheng, are you a dog?" I asked him.

He was stunned for a moment, and replied honestly: "No, I am a pig." ”

The corners of my mouth unconsciously raised a smile: "You are really worthy of your appearance." ”