I started to mix in society before I finished junior high school, not because I was stupid, but because I was poor.

My parents gave birth to four children, I was the eldest, and when I was nine years old, my father died, and since then I have become the main character in disaster movies.

My mother dragged the four of us, and every day except for work, she was angry with the three of us sisters, and then she hugged her beloved little son and cried.

When I was in school, I got good grades, and I often took the first place in my grade, and at one point I dreamed that I could graduate from college and become a professional woman in a white shirt that I had envied for a long time.

But in the end, he became a bus driver.

The job pays a lot, at least in the small town where I live, and it is at the upper middle level.

Unfortunately, this seemingly generous salary has nothing to do with me, and when it was time to receive the salary every month, my mother came to the company's finance office early and waited, until she saw the amount on my salary card, and then left satisfied.

I resisted, I failed, I almost lost my job, and then I accepted it.

If God wants me to be like this, I don't think I can change myself for the better, I can only follow my own destiny and make me what I should become.

Occasionally smoke a cigarette, occasionally burst into a foul mouth, and occasionally tell a meat joke at a party。。。。。。

At this time, I had just turned eighteen. I was already 20 years old on my ID card, and according to my mother, in order to have a second child early, she falsely reported that I was two years old when I registered my household registration.

The youth of others, in me, has long been dried by the years, hanging on the wall like a salted fish, it is a salted fish, it can't become anything else, and there is no hope.

Until I met Chen Lan again.

Chen Lan was my junior high school classmate, I was the first in the examination department, he was second, he wrote a love letter to me, and I happily accepted it.

This is my first love, I once dreamed that one day he would step on the five-colored auspicious clouds and marry me with a phoenix crown.

He agreed with me that we would be admitted to the most awesome university together, and as soon as we graduated and entered the same company, we would be together for the rest of our lives.

Maybe we all made such a vow when we were young, but how many can be fulfilled in the end?

Later, I dropped out of school, and he never looked for me again.

I thought that this short-lived early love was like my early youth, eroded into ashes by the years, and had already passed away with the wind.

On the day Chen Lan came to me, I was changing the tires of my car.

I still remember his look of astonishment.

"Don't look at how small I am, but this body is all fine meat, full of strength, I can't study, so I can only live on my own strength, which is of course greater. ”

I told him as I changed the tires.

He nodded his head and told me that he had been admitted to the university we had always dreamed of.

"This is the notice. He handed me something like a delicate invitation, and my heart was as distressed as a knife, and I wanted to take it and take a closer look, but when I saw the oil stains on my hands, I had to give up and smile at him:

"Congratulations! ”

"Xiaobei, you know, I still have a dream. The way Chen Lan looked at me made me blush, I stopped moving my hands, my throat was dry, and my face began to have a fever.

"I used to think I was reading for my mom, but since I met you, I feel like there are more motivating reasons in my life than reading for my mom to keep going. Chen Lan said in a low voice.

My eyes had nowhere to put but to look into the distance.

This notice is a gap between us, thousands of mountains and rivers, I can't cross it, let alone build a bridge to go to him, and I am destined to live up to what he said.

"Xiaobei, I don't plan to read it, my mother's clothing store is closed, she is going to Shenzhen to work, I will go with her, and I will not be able to see each other for a long time. ”

Chen Lan rubbed the notice in his hand and said in a down-to-earth tone.