Ding Qi rejected the mentor's kind offer, and then the two did not speak for a long time, just silent, and the atmosphere seemed a little gloomy. In the end, it was Liu Feng who took the lead in breaking the calm and said: "Ding Qi, you are very good, very good in all aspects." But you also make mistakes, after all, we are all just mortals, and there are many places in this matter, and you don't handle it right.

You can follow the procedure of a more reasonable procedure, such as telling me first, and then I will say hello to Ankang Hospital, and then go to Director Lu to arrange it. In the name of the need to investigate the case, the public security department requested the assistance of psychiatric professionals to go to Ankang Hospital to interrogate the mentally ill patient.

In this way, even if that incident happens, no matter how great the pressure of public opinion is, no matter how much the school leaders think about it, I can try to save you on the basis of reason. You're still too young, too impulsive, too self-conscious!"

Ding Qi bowed his head and said: "Even if that's the case, what's the difference? Of course, I'm not justifying, if I do something wrong, I will have to bear the consequences, so I calmly accept the punishment of the school." ”

Ding Qi didn't want to tell his mentor that he was also stimulated when Liu Feng was assassinated, and Jiajia's repeated admonitions made this stimulation deeper, and inexplicably encountered Liu Guonan blocking the road, prompting him to make a decision suddenly. What's more, if he had told Liu Feng first, Liu Feng would probably not have agreed, and would have stopped it.

In fact, even if the procedure is more reasonable, people who want to find flaws can always find faults, and someone has to take the blame when something happens. Tian Xianglong made things like this, even if the school did not give him disciplinary punishment, in the professional field and professional circle, it would still be a disastrous resume for him, at least in the existing system and competitive environment, it would be difficult for him to mix again.

Discussing these things now is already hindsight, and it is useless. And Liu Feng also wanted to remind Ding Qi that he thought he had done nothing wrong just now, but how could a person not make any mistakes? It depends on the circumstances and for what purpose. Ding Qi also made mistakes, so he didn't have to drill such a bull's horn.

After being silent for a while, Liu Feng spoke first: "How did Tian Qi die?"

Ding Qi took a deep breath, raised his head and said, "Strictly speaking, he died before he committed suicide and went to Ankang Hospital, and I didn't expect him to die, but after experiencing his spiritual world, I induced him to self-destruction." This abrupt decision is also a decision that I think should be made based on the circumstances at the time. ”

I'm afraid that only Liu Feng can understand the real cause of Tian Qi's death, because only he can understand Ding Qi's special talent. And only in front of Liu Feng will Ding Qi tell the "truth" as it is.

After listening to Ding Qi's introduction, Liu Feng sighed and said, "You have long been murderous towards him, although you didn't plan to really kill him. But in that state, you will inevitably do it, and that is the truest will of your heart. But it's a miracle that you can do it!

Ding Qi did not speak, which was regarded as acquiescing in the judgment of the mentor. Liu Feng sighed again and said, "Actually, you can let him enter the vegetative state, then it will be much less troublesome." ”

The so-called vegetative state is a psychiatric term, which is equivalent to what people usually call a vegetative person. Ding Qi lowered his head and said: "It's not that simple, maybe my skills are not enough, it's not that I can do whatever I want, I've done my best." Besides, as long as he's alive," he stopped at this point.

Ding Qi wanted to kill Tian Qi? Nonsense, of course he wanted to, many people wanted to! But they couldn't really run to kill Tian Qi. Ding Qi was awake at the time, and he was in the truest state in his heart, and after experiencing such a scene, he would let Tian Qi go to self-destruction. It seems to be accidental, but in Liu Feng's view, it is almost inevitable.

The two were silent for a long time, and the mentor finally said: "Ding Qi, you can discover the world that ordinary people can't discover, this is your wealth, and you must make good use of this wealth in the future." ”

Liu Feng said goodbye, and Ding Qi got up to see him off. Seeing that the tutor put away the dormitory key, but the set of keys in his house was still on the table, he reminded: "Tutor, you don't have to put the key to your house here, I really don't have to move in!"

Liu Feng: "You can keep it for now." At the end of this semester, I plan to take three weeks off, just in time to go to the United States to spend Christmas with my daughter-in-law, and the winter vacation is not here, and there is no one at home. Jiajia also told me yesterday that she would go to the United States to accompany her mother during the winter vacation, and she would celebrate the New Year there. ”

Ding Qi took a deep breath and said, "I wish my mentor a happy holiday in advance, and I also ask the tutor to say hello to my wife and Jiajia on my behalf!"

The librarian's job is very idle and boring. Ding Qi is not a regular employee of the school library, this is only a temporary part-time job, and when it is his turn to be on duty, he sits in the reading room, timely reminds some students not to make loud noises, and to clean up unfinished books at any time.

It is said that books taken from the shelves should be put back in their original places after reading, but there are always some people who are not aware of it, and some people who accidentally put them in the wrong place.

The library is closed every Wednesday afternoon to keep the stacks organized, but the reading room is still open for students to study on their own. Although the campus is also expanding after the expansion, the study hall is still a little tight. There are two busiest periods in the library, one is that everyone has to tidy up the area they are responsible for every night after closing, and the other is the big consolidation of the stacks on Wednesday.

Tincey was only a temporary worker, but he knew library work well. In addition to taking care of the reading room he is responsible for, he also helps other people every day after the library closes, and there is no shortage of large warehouses on Wednesdays, and he often helps with other work in the library. Such employees are popular everywhere and are almost loved by everyone, and temporary workers are even more rare.

But for the most part, Ding Qi is idle, and even often idle, which is why he always wants to find more things to do. Most of the time, he was reading books, and there were books in the library anyway.

In less than three months, from his expulsion in mid-October to the school holidays in early January, Ding Qi read more books than he had in the past two years. Books in a broad sense are no longer limited to paper books, but also include various audio-visual records. Although online information is very developed, there are still many materials that can only be found in large libraries.

Liu Feng reminded him what it would be like to continue to stay in the old environment, and Ding Qi was also mentally prepared, and he was experiencing all this firsthand. There were many former colleagues who met him in the library, and most of them were very polite and gentle, and many of them had sympathy in their eyes, which seemed very cultivated, but they felt inexplicably unfamiliar.

Sitting in the reading room on weekdays, Ding Qi also found that many students secretly looked at him with curious eyes, and probably talked about him in private. In fact, sometimes this is just Tinzi's own feelings, and this is not necessarily the case. Even at the beginning, there were many girls who liked to look at him secretly and point fingers at him. Who called him such a temperamental, handsome guy? Ding Qi comforted himself so much.

In the blink of an eye, the winter vacation is over, and the Spring Festival is in a blink of an eye, the campus has become deserted, and walking on the empty road, you can feel the chill of the river breeze in the north.

In the thirtieth year of the Chinese New Year's Eve, getting up early to dust is the custom of Ding Qi's hometown. Ding Qi went to the tutor Liu Feng's house in the morning, and Aunt Zhou had already gone home for the New Year, and the house was empty and clean. Dantinzi cleaned it all over again, completing a customary ritual. Then he closed the door and left, leaving the keys on the coffee table in the living room before leaving.

After dusting, I began to cook the Chinese New Year's Eve meal, and according to the customs of my hometown, many dishes in the Chinese New Year's Eve meal were prepared one after another after entering the wax moon. As long as it is past 12 o'clock at noon, it is the "night" in Chinese New Year's Eve, after the table is set, go out to set off firecrackers, and after the firecrackers are released, you can close the door for Chinese New Year's Eve dinner.

Ding Qi also prepared a string of whips, a full 10,000 rings of red, which is a big plate when rolled up, and he has never let go of such a long firecracker. Roll up the firecrackers in front of the dormitory building and run a horizontal line from a distance to the staircase. Ding Qi took out a box of cigarettes, lit one and took two puffs, and spit out vigorously in the cold air.

Tintzi has no bad habits and has never smoked before, but in recent months he has learned to smoke two cigarettes occasionally. He lit the firecracker with a cigarette butt, and with the rumbling sound of firecrackers, he turned and walked upstairs. The sound of firecrackers outside the building was so loud that it was still a bit deafening even when the door was closed in the dormitory.

This is a single dormitory building for faculty and staff, and on the afternoon of the Chinese New Year's Eve, the entire building has been empty, and only Ding Qi still lives.

What to eat for Chinese New Year's Eve? Without a refrigerator and microwave, Ding Qi has always forgotten to buy, and the school cafeteria is not open today, and he is not in the mood to go to the public kitchen to do anything. He prepared instant noodles in advance, as well as a variety of cooked foods, both canned and bagged, meat and vegetarian. First, boil water to make noodles in a kettle, and then open the cooked food and put it on the desk one by one.

The dishes are all cold, only the instant noodles are hot.

The noodles were soaked, and all the dishes were arranged, but Ding Qi didn't move. He didn't have the slightest appetite, but bent down and pulled out a can of beer from the cardboard box at his feet, opened it, and gulped it down. Maybe choking, the wine dripped from the corner of his mouth to his chest, he reached out and wiped his chin, of course his chin was wet, and subconsciously wiped his face again, and his face was also wet.

At some point, he burst into tears.

Why didn't Ding Qi go home for the New Year? Because he had nowhere else to go! At this time, it felt like a barren forest in the cold wind, with not a single leaf on the bare branches, and there was only a lonely bird like him in heaven and earth.

Tinzi's parents are no longer alive. His mother died when he was 12 years old, and the family had little savings to treat her. When he was seventeen years old, in the second semester of his sophomore year of high school, his father was in a car accident. Fortunately, he had a car accident compensation and a pension from his father's employer to support him, and he completed high school and was admitted to Jingko University.

He also has many relatives in his hometown, several uncles, uncles, and aunts. His family lives in Jingyang County, Wanling City, which is adjacent to Jinghu City. His father was born in the countryside in the mountains of Jingyang County, and he was assigned to the county town as a civil servant that year, which was relatively promising, and then married his mother in the county seat.

His parents also left him a commercial house in Jingyang County, with an area of about 100 square meters, three bedrooms, and the location was almost the best location in the county.

After his father died, his grandmother and his uncle's family came to him, and they also made arrangements for his uncle's family to take him over and raise him, and the house was used for his cousin's marriage first. Ding Qi refused the arrangement, and he told his grandmother that he could live independently and did not need anyone to raise him. Grandma and aunt both accused him of being ignorant, but Ding Qi resolutely refused to do it, and in the end the relationship was very stiff.

Ding Qi's feelings at that time were very complicated, he didn't want others to occupy his parents' house, just like he didn't want others to occupy his parents' place, even if they were no longer there. The reason why he refused his grandmother's arrangement was somewhat related to another matter. He still remembers how his father took him to his uncle to borrow money when his mother was seriously ill, and he was excused for refusal.

After my mother became seriously ill, my father planned to sell the house, change to a smaller house in a more remote location, and send my mother to a big hospital in Jinghu City. Ding Qi was still young and not very sensible, and he inadvertently leaked his mouth in front of his mother. As a result, her mother scolded her father for being too loser, she could treat the disease in the county hospital, if her father really dared to do that, she would not even live in the county hospital, and the house would be left to Ding Qi.

His uncle's family lived in the county seat, while Ding Qi's uncle lived in the countryside. Of course, his father's relatives also heard about it, and later his uncle consulted with him and proposed that their family take care of him and live together. The uncle's family also moved to live in the county seat, and the two of them also brought their two daughters, that is, Ding Qi's cousin and cousin.

Ding Qi also declined the uncle's "kindness", only saying that he had grown up, and he would be eighteen years old after the New Year, and he didn't need others to take care of him. Seeing that Ding Qi's attitude was so firm, the uncle couldn't insist anymore, and the relationship was not bad later.

Ding Qi's father came out of the countryside, which made his grandfather's family feel very face-saving, and the relatives in the village usually went to the city to rest at Ding Qi's house, and Ding Qi's father would treat them very well, and often helped them financially. Her mother had a lot of opinions about this, and she had quarreled with her father several times in private, and Ding Qi had heard it when he was a child.

After my mother fell ill, my father never helped my relatives in my hometown, and some people in my hometown also complained, but at least no one said it to my face.

Ding Qi was later admitted to Jinghu University, and like his father, he became the pride of his family in the village, and many people praised him for his talent, showing off him or expecting him in some way. During the Spring Festival a few years ago, Ding Qi went back to his hometown to spend it with his uncle, otherwise he would be too lonely and miserable.

During college and the first year of work, Ding Qi didn't have much money, but he would find a way to save a sum on weekdays, and give it to the children of relatives in his hometown as New Year's money. In the past two years, Ding Qi's economic situation has improved a lot, and he will also prepare more expensive gifts during the Chinese New Year, and the red envelopes are also thicker, which is becoming more and more popular.

Except for his grandfather over the years, Ding Qi has not received any New Year's money from anyone else, because he is already an adult. It's all trivial, but that's the life of ordinary people.

The house in his hometown county, Ding Qi told the uncle that he rented it out, but in fact, he didn't rent it, it was so empty, and everything was left as it was. He takes time to go back twice a year to clean up.

Although the housing prices near Jinghu University are more than double that of the best areas in Jingyang County, if Ding Qi sells his hometown's house, it will be enough for him to make a down payment on a new house here. But Ding Qi didn't plan to do that at all, for him, it was a memorial left to him by his parents, and it was also some kind of sustenance in his heart.

After graduating from undergraduate, Ding Qi and Jiajia established a romantic relationship, and some colleagues discussed at that time that although Ding Qi and Jiajia were not a good match, his mother died and had no burden, and he was born clean and had no worries. Ding Qi could also guess these discussions, but he was too lazy to care about them, so he could say whatever he liked.

Ding Qi's experience is like this, can you imagine what Liu Feng's appearance means to him, and what kind of emotions does he project on Liu Feng?

Ding Qi only made a phone call this time and said that he had something to do, and he was afraid that he would not be able to go back for the New Year. The eldest aunt who answered the phone was quite disappointed on the other side of the phone, and praised him for a few words as usual, and then said in a joking tone, > for red envelopes or something

In previous years, every time he went back to his hometown for the New Year, his relatives in his hometown liked to ask questions, such as what kind of work he is doing now, how much money he can earn every month, what is his relationship in Jinghu City, etc., even if it is a personal question. After Ding Qi's "accident" this time, he did not receive a call from his relatives in his hometown, and they may not have known about it, so they should have never heard of it.

Ding Qi thought he was very strong, and he was indeed quite strong and sober. He has come from that situation step by step, just a few months ago, his life path is still full of sunshine, and the future is bright and beautiful, enough to be the envy of his peers. In the blink of an eye, he fell to the trough of his life, as if it was an abyss.

The devil knows how it all happened, the devil knows how he feels! No matter how strong a person is, there are times when he is vulnerable. The tears could not stop flowing silently, and he could only drink one sip after another.

Today, the beer is as bland as water, and it doesn't taste at all when you drink it, let alone have any strength. Ding Qi simply took a ** hometown rice wine from the corner of the wall. In previous years, during the Chinese New Year, relatives in my hometown loved to drink this kind of wine the most, and they also liked to add shredded ginger, raisins, plums and other things to boil and drink.

Ding Qi didn't add anything hot wine, just drank the wine so cold, I felt that this wine was also strong, the entrance was similar to water, a ** quickly drank it, and then opened another ** I don't know how long the time has passed, whether it has been midnight, he suddenly felt that his stomach was like a river and a sea, stumbled into the bathroom, climbed on the toilet and vomited.

He didn't eat anything, he vomited all the wine, and by the end he couldn't vomit anymore, and he was retching vigorously, and his voice sounded like a cry

When Ding Qi woke up, he found that he was leaning against the corner of the bed, and he didn't take off his clothes and shoes. He felt a pain all over his body, and when he raised his hand again, he found blood. There was a cut on his right forearm near the back of his hand, which was more than an inch long, and a lot of blood was lost, and dried blood spots could be seen on the floor, and the cuffs of his shirt were also stained with blood, and the wound was now scabbed.

I have no memory of when or when his arm was cut by something. Ding Qi only remembered that he came back from the firecrackers yesterday and closed the door, sat down to prepare for a person's Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, and then forgot all about it, and he broke off. The cooked food on the table was almost unchanged, the chopsticks were still inserted in the instant noodles, and after counting, he drank a total of eight cans of beer and two ** rice wine.

Ding Qi vaguely remembered that he drank beer, but he couldn't remember when he drank the two ** rice wines, this was the first time in his life that he lost his memory, and he suddenly began to feel very afraid.

When I found my mobile phone, I saw that there was still electricity, and I received more than a dozen WeChat and text messages for New Year's greetings. It was 6:50 in the morning, and the sky was not yet fully bright, and there were sporadic firecrackers in the distance, and he woke up early enough. Ding Qi took a hot bath, dried his hair and looked in the mirror, and found that his eyes were not so red and swollen, and his head didn't feel so painful.

When he woke up so early, he didn't feel sleepy, but felt that he had nowhere to vent his energy, and he always wanted to find something to do. He changed his clothes, washed his bloodstained shirt by hand, and tidied up the house.

Then he felt hungry and his stomach rumbled, so he began to boil water and instant noodles, and after eating two buckets of instant noodles in a row, he felt full, and then packed up all the food on the table that had not been touched last night and went out to throw it away, and went downstairs to sweep up all the firecracker crumbs that were put yesterday. When I went back to the house and looked around, I saw that there was nothing left to do.

He went into the bathroom, looked in the mirror for a long time, shaved and combed his hair very carefully, and dressed up neatly.

Just then, there was a sudden knock on the door. The time was ten o'clock in the morning, which was ten o'clock in the morning on the first day of the Lunar New Year, and all the people in this building were empty, and only Ding Qi lived alone. At this time, someone suddenly knocked on the door, which felt like a horror movie, and Ding Qi was also taken aback.

PS: This chapter is close to 6,000 words, very bland, almost no plot. But I revised at least six drafts before and after, and the more I wrote, the more emotionally I felt. It can also be regarded as a ** part of the silence in the layman's writing. New book release, click and collect