Chapter 161: Love is not possible
The sea breeze is salty and the waves are surging non-stop. When night falls, the temperature on the beach becomes relatively low, and even if it is already summer season, people can't help but shiver in the sea breeze. Presumably, Beck must have walked a long way, and as far as the eye could see, there were no other tourists on this large beach except for the two of them.
The two were separated by a short distance, Zhuo Yan's complicated gaze fell on Bei Ke's obviously flustered face, a pair of deep eyes narrowed gently in the night, Bei Ke gasped for breath, as if she had been chased all the way by some jackal, tiger and leopard, and now she finally broke free from their hunting range, so she dared to stop and calm her breath, she lowered her head slightly, and the broken hair that slipped from her forehead was very well isolated from Zhuo Yan's sharp sight.
I don't know how long this confrontation lasted, Bei Ke felt the breath in her heart be slightly calmed, she moved, but still didn't look up at Zhuo Yan's gaze, Zhuo Yan thought she would at least say something, but she didn't say anything, but turned around slowly, and then wanted to escape from her sight step by step. Looking at Beko's movements, a touch of warmth and anger crept up into those deep black eyes, and in the next moment, an arrow step was taken, and one hand had already grabbed Beke's elbow and brought her back.
Maybe it was because he was anxious that his strength was a little big, and Beko was caught off guard by the fact that the whole person was staggered a few steps and fell into his arms defenselessly, he imprisoned her whole person firmly in his arms from behind Beco, and a warm angry breath sounded in Beke's ears, "You're going to leave like this! What do you mean? Don't answer the phone, won't text me and play missing!Beko! Don't you think you need to give me an explanation?!"
Every time he said a word, his iron arm tightened even more, and Beck was almost out of breath because he was imprisoned, and couldn't help frowning, "Let go!"
"Don't let it go! Beck, I'll tell you! If you don't give me a reason enough to convince me today, don't think I'll let it go!" Zhuo Yan hugged her tightly, I don't know if it was because he was emotional or... Beck felt him tremble, and for a moment she felt unspeakably uncomfortable. Beike didn't speak, just let him hug him tightly, until she felt the emotions of the person behind her calm down a little, and then she said in an inaudible voice, "Zhuo Yan, let it go." ”
"I," I don't let go.
"Let it go. ... You know, you know everything... You knew it from the beginning. Zhuo Yan didn't have time to finish a sentence, but was interrupted by the prophet of Beck, she knew what he was going to say, he also knew what she was going to say, she didn't say it because such a topic was very heavy, so heavy that she would feel very tired, and she would feel that she didn't have the courage to speak at all, since everyone knew it, wouldn't it be best to be silent like this? Why do you still hold her and insist on her saying why? This kind of persistence is just mutual torture...
He was trembling, the kind of fear and panic that only showed when facing a favorite thing but about to be lost, how could he be the president of the group she had known in the first place?
"I don't know! I don't know anything!"
Hearing his stubborn answer, self-deceptive answer, Beke slowly closed her eyes a little tiredly, feeling the trembling of the people behind her, how could her heart have ever felt good, she had seen him who was the most invincible in the sky, and now she saw him for the first time who was low into the dust and humbly kept a person, such a huge contrast, for the sake of Beke's heart, how could she be indifferent? But some of the truth is there, even if there is more reluctance in her heart, how can she do it?
Behind her was the warm embrace of her greed, but the bitter sea breeze that rushed in front of her reminded her over and over again that her intoxication was the biggest betrayal of the family, her intoxication was shameful and selfish, and the loving face of her family lingered in her mind, but the next second it became a humble appearance struggling in a pool of blood, and her heart seemed to be a sharp knife scurrying around, painful, suffocating pain. In that tormenting ideological struggle, Beke felt as if there were countless pairs of eyes staring at her on the top of her head, they looked at her as if they were looking at a disloyal, unfilial, unkind and unrighteous shameful person, disgust and shameless eyes were undisguised, several of them were familiar to Beke, but their eyes that were no longer loving but resentful were unfamiliar to Beke, they were blaming her, how could they not blame her? Her daughter has to be with her enemy, is it that the tragic death of her relatives is just a thing worth mentioning in her eyes, she can forget it in a blink of an eye, turn around and throw herself into the arms of the enemy, and talk and laugh with him?
At this moment, even Beike felt that she was ashamed, and even she looked down on herself like this. I haven't forgotten the memories of my childhood, but when did the vows I made as a child begin to waver? Didn't I say that I would let those bad people also taste the pain of the destruction of their families, and also want them to pay for their blood debts? Why is she so soft-hearted now? She shouldn't be like this, her family is everything to her, everything she loves the most, and no one can replace their position! She should seize every opportunity now, for example, grab the defenseless Zhuo Yan and bring it to Zhuo Jinan, so that he can also witness it once, what it is like when her relatives are tortured in front of her and she is powerless! What is it like to kneel on the ground and beg for someone! What is it like to ask for it! What is it like to have relatives die in front of her one by one and then be set on fire and destroyed to destroy their traces! These are all the evil deeds that their Zhuo family has done, they should pay it back, they should pay it back! Give her parents back! Give her grandpa her Ah Dou back!
Grief and shame against herself, Bei Ke couldn't calm down anymore, so she struggled desperately to ask Zhuo Yan to let go of her, but Zhuo Yan said nothing and refused to let go. Beck's strength is not as good as his, if he really refuses to let go, it is impossible to break free from him with his own strength alone, he was excited for a while, and he lowered his head and bit down on his hand! I only heard Zhuo Yan snort, but he still stubbornly refused to let go.
Hearing his muffled snort, Beike subconsciously loosened her strength, but did not leave his lips and teeth, but vaguely overflowed a few words of warning and reminder, "Let go!"
"Don't let it go, even if you bite my hand away, I won't let it go!"
Immediately, Beke closed her teeth again, for a while, the thick and disgusting fishy sweetness permeated the entire mouth, he refused to let go, she refused to let go, the two were so deadlocked, knowing that Beke could no longer suppress the churning feeling in her stomach, she let go of the uncomfortable retching, and the tears that kept slipping from the corners of her eyes didn't know if it was caused by retching too uncomfortable or the painful heart finally found a good enough reason to vent that sour taste unscrupulously.
Seeing Bei Ke retching uncomfortably, Zhuo Yan let go of her in a panic, Bei Ke instantly looked like a deflated leather ball, and the whole person collapsed softly, kneeling on the ground and retching violently. Over the years, she had not seen the smell of blood, either from her own or from others, or from her own or from someone else's, or from her biting his lip, or from his shoulder when he was bullying her, and she had tasted the taste of blood so many times, but never once as it was now, so uncomfortable that she wanted to cry, so uncomfortable that she dug out her whole stomach.
Zhuo Yan half-knelt down beside her, seeing her pale face, her expression instantly turned from warm anger to nervousness, and she picked up Beike without saying a word.
"You let go of me!" She didn't want to get close to him, she didn't want to go near him anymore "Let go of me! I don't want you to go!" Becko struggled violently in his arms with both hands and feet, not afraid that she would accidentally fall down and fall halfway or something.
Her emotions were obviously a little excited, which was a little too willful than she usually was, Zhuo Yan's expression was cold, not because she couldn't tolerate her willfulness, but because she couldn't tolerate her rejection of herself, "Don't let go, Beck, you remember, you are my woman, and I am your man, so I won't let go, no matter what, don't want to leave my side, I don't allow it, no matter what! If you run once, I'll catch you back once, and I won't let you leave me." ”
"I'm not! You let go of me! I don't want to stay with you, I don't want to see you!" Beck cried and slammed her fist down on him, "Zhuo Yan, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you... Whining... I beg you, don't follow me anymore, don't pester me anymore..."She'll be soft-hearted... But how could she be soft-hearted?
Zhuo Yan did not dodge or hide to bear Beike's venting, and one punch after another seemed to fall on his heart, and it hurt so much that his internal organs were hurting. "I don't stop you from hating me, but I... Can't let you leave me, can't. "Never.
No one first pierced the heavy truth that lay between them, but everyone knew it. I know it but I don't want to let go, so I can only entangle and pull each other, until one party can no longer bear such a suffocating love, can it end?
Beike was crying and shouting all the way, and she didn't say a reason for punching and kicking Zhuo Yan, but she kept repeating the sentence "I hate you, I hate you, Zhuo Yan, I hate you." Zhuo Yan had a cold face, the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed, he didn't speak, he didn't get angry, he didn't feel pain or itch for Beike's crying, but only he knew that his heart was dripping blood, Beike didn't say those three words once, and his heart was bleeding again...